#((Hope this is good! ;v;b))

[manitapaleta]

listen,….. we don’t know y hermie didn’t grow up with his dads but i already know its going to DEVASTATE ME when anthony tells us bc i know they would have loved the little joker, our sweet little thespian (also big brother nick hellooooooo)

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #dndaddies #jodie foster #scam likely #hermie the unworthy #scam actually #nick close #nick foster #nicholas foster #nicholas close #scodie #idk wtf is their ship name someone help #my art #wasn’t originally gonna make a lil comic but then i was like what if they didn’t tell nick and he comes home one day to hell and hermie is j #just there and everyone’s like o FUCK WE DIDNT TELL U LOL #also the idea that hermie is just now learning of his true family and he has a uncle and brother and two dads he’s never met but (i hope i b #believe i want it to be true) they love him v v much and the thought of nick meeting hermie and immediately taking on a big brother role mal #makes me wanna CRY bc he’s already taylor’s friend and yeah he said trust no one but he’s good to his son and he’s his baby brother who he’s #never met but what if he just feels v protective over him bc he’s been thru so much already and is now having an identity crisis bc WHO IS H #HERMIE??? like idk it’s a bit melancholic to think abt what if they were in each other’s lives??? how would have nick been as a big bro??? #sigh it’s 2am and i have work in 5 ish hours but i just had to get this outttt

[sideblogdotjpeg]

hey guys does anybody know whats the date today

#.... SORRY. #posts by me dot com #ok. i rembered it was hs day today and did this in about. 1 hour. at 5am rip #i. TTRULY did not spend enough time + i dont rmb enough to give them accurate and true classpects. but #okay. heres my rationale for all of them #callie rogue. obvs. her family are smugglers. she took one of those smuggled goods (serpent egg) and tried to give it to someone better. #stealing and redistributing hope etc. hope i chose for idea of potential & infinite possibilities (destiny peregrines). #also if i rmb right.. hope is one of the classes for like losers. which. i mean that is all of duck teams. losers who realise they suck #AND kick ass #sol blood. connections & bonds we fight for. also his whole arc abt family. etc etc #page because. ok uh #pages have a whole thing of starting out as nobodies and becoming someone. v dteam. i did also consider giving him knight but. ultimately #wanted to draw sol in the page shorts shorts. so. well. #calder i was. least sure abt #gave him void i think relates to his feeling of smallness/insignificance/uselessness + the helm... #and a knight. bcus hes a selfsacrificing guy. also his entire character is like... protecting ppl. very knightly #i dont remember that much abt the knight class tbh tho. RIP #also not featured but oliana/aryox seers of mind. OBVS #......... we are NOT main tagging this one gang B)

[from-red-string]

Enough time

"Fine," I state avoiding looking at Moreau, I know she's right but I don't want to give in, let her know that too. Also, because what would happen when I got my eyes on her was pretty stupid. My heart would be the first to react making my hands feel cold, my feet light due to the blood rushing aimlessly through my body in a way I'm sure Moreau can hear or feel.

I'm not sure how it goes, still something that makes me curious, something I want to learn from her. How does her powers work? How is she doing after reliving that scene with her sister? Where did she grow up without a phone? Did she get an insta yet?

There's too much to talk about, not enough time.

Since the beginning of the semester, everything has gone too fast, non-stop, it's hard to think forward and process feelings. It's just fighting and fighting, ranks, interviews, woods. I wish I could pause, steal Marie for a few hours to sort it out, only for us. There's a secret lab in school and fucking Brink was in on it, Luke died for it, and in the middle of it all, I still wonder if she likes me as him or as them?

"Fine." Moreau's voice caught my attention, forgetting I shouldn't turn to her, I did, just in time to see her eyes rolling. The smile that came to my lips was unstoppable. This is simple. I watch as she looks back at me and shoots a bright smile. This can be simple. One step, two steps, three steps, and my hands are on her face, caressing her cheeks, I can feel her eyes traveling through my face. Closing the gap, I kiss her, taking whatever small moments like this allow.

There'll be enough time for us.

#gen v #limoreau #mariejordan #i just wanted to drop it here before the finale #hope it's good #💛b #marie moreau #Jordan li

[brookheimer]

while i agree that love for logan is the main reason, i do think that fear was a big part of why roman didn’t want to engage w the pierce deal. but i totally disagree with people considering that to be cowardice. i think it makes a lot of sense for roman to feel fear towards logan bc his dad has deliberately cultivated an atmosphere of terror and he has clear abusive tendencies. idk i find that calling roman a coward devalues what seems to be a pretty rational response/emotion towards an abusive man. i liked that quote you shared from the tvline interview w kieran but was wondering do u have any further thoughts?

short answer: check out this other kieran quote ab rome in the premiere! it builds on the other quote and is once again very validating for my roman take which is always fun.

long answer: not only do i have further thoughts, i actually have so many further thoughts that i'm gonna put a read more here so as not to clog up the dash lol !!!!

if anyone wants to read a veritable fuckton of thoughts on roman and his relationships to love, fear, and family - it's under the cut!

totally agree re: fear nor necessitating cowardice especially in the case of roman whose relationship w his father is absolutely defined by fear ! i think rome’s fear of logan played a role for sure, but people have been misconstruing his fear of his father (which is the core of their entire relationship and by extension roman’s relationships with literally everyone, honestly) for fear of, like, “losing.” and while the fear of losing to dad is definitely there — who wants to get their ass kicked?! (and rome knows they def would get their asses kicked) — i think his main motivations are more like emotional, instinctive, and visceral than the fear of just losing in a business battle. it’s all about family and love for him, always is, always has been.

the reason i emphasized love rather than fear as his motivation for not fighting dad is because i think his fear of his dad is so deeply interwoven into his love for him — i’d argue it’s a defining feature of rome’s understanding of love as a concept. there’s no love if there isn’t the constant fear of loss, of being thrown aside, of abandonment. love for roman is always a matter of punching up, of proving to someone that doesn’t care about you that they should care. if the power dynamic were ever to even out, if the fear of abandonment and the feeling of inferiority were ever to dissipate, i don’t think roman would be able to comprehend it. love for him has been defined by logan and his relationship with him, which has always, always been rooted in fear. any love that isn’t is not a love he understands. fear is simply part and parcel for love. one is almost unimaginable without the other — if you don’t care about someone, you wouldn’t be afraid of losing them; if you aren’t constantly afraid of losing someone, then you don’t actually love them.

so while roman’s fear of logan plays a huge role in any and all decisions he makes (esp regarding family and business), if i had to choose one motivating factor, i’d say love. he’s afraid of the harm logan could cause him, but more than that, he’s afraid of losing him. that’s the difference between roman and shiv/ken — despite everything, roman still wants to have a relationship with logan. he holds the ideal of Family close to his heart and almost delusionally clings to it. he still thinks they can rebuild their relationship and be one big happy family. if they start fighting logan, then they can’t, and they won’t.

i’ve seen some people say stuff about how roman is trying to make the emotionally healthy/mature choice for himself, in that he knows what going back to logan would do to him, he knows how easily he’d fall back into the same patterns that are so detrimental, and he wants to keep pursuing this new version of himself he’s been discovering these past few months in LA. but i don’t think he’s making the decision out of self-preservation — he’s trying to preserve something, but not himself. he’s trying to preserve his family, or at least his hope for it. he could never admit that to shiv and ken because that’s not something the roys are ever supposed to think or do, but that’s his core motivation, i think: family and preserving it. that’s all business was ever about for him, after all; originally he only cared about the business as a means of maintaining relationships with his family because that’s the only love language they speak. even now, although he knows a lot more about the business and has stronger opinions on how it should be run, i don’t think he cares about it in the same way the others do.

i really think that nearly everything roman does is about family and his desire to maintain relationships within it. i think this holds true even (and almost especially) for the times he betrays or hurts his siblings — if he’s forced to make the impossible choice between his siblings and his father, he’ll almost always choose his father, because that’s the relationship he’s at most risk of losing. there’s something unconditional about the siblings’ relationship — i don’t think any of them would ever call it unconditional love, but there’s always this sense of ‘no matter what happens, i’ll make fun of your dumb hairstyle at thanksgiving and you’ll kick me in the shin.’ it’s logan he’s at risk of losing. if you have to bring scissors down on one of two strings, you’d probably choose to bring it down on the thicker one — that way, there’s most chance of both being left intact, even if one is damaged. that way, there’s no total loss. fear is still a key part of the way they love each other, but i think it manifests differently because they are the only people on earth who understand the fear inherent in being a child of logan roy. i think roman is still afraid of losing them, but bc his relationships are so defined by him being the one without power in them, he can’t imagine anyone (sibling or otherwise) would be so hurt by him that he would lose them.

tbh i don’t think he gives himself the credit of being a full person in his relationships — he is just there to be affected by others, but he doesn’t have enough weight to affect anyone himself. i think he kind of believes the only way any relationship would end for him is the other person deciding he’s boring/useless/not worth their time/annoying/etc. if they hurt him, he won’t leave, he never would — his role in a relationship is to get kicked and stay put, and he’s had practice doing exactly that his whole life. he doesn’t think his own actions would have consequences for other people even those he loves, not real consequences, because a lifetime of not being taken seriously has convinced him that yeah, he is not to be taken seriously. no one cares enough about roman to be hurt by him or to be afraid to lose him. this is (one of) his fundamental blind spot(s) in relationships, and why he keeps hurting loved ones while seemingly not understanding the hurt he caused. we see this with his siblings in Too Much Birthday and with gerri in their… incident. he doesn’t think he’s enough of a person to people to actually cause harm, he doesn’t think any of his actions could actually have any long-term consequences on anything. but he is, and they do. (actually i wrote a whole post about this after Too Much Birthday came out if you for want to hear me ramble about roman even more for some inexplicable reason)

at this point i'm probably barely responding to the original ask but you opened the roman meta floodgates so here we are. but as i said, i always have further thoughts and... well, if i’m asked to share them, who am i to deny the wishes of the masses?

#this got sooooo long sorry! but yeah i am always here to ramble at length about characters and shows and meta so if u for some rzn want to #be subjected to that then all you have to do is send an ask #here’s hoping we get more good roman content going forward too! and by good i just mean like… apt. not happy. he will not b happy im v awar #roman roy #succession #meta #succession meta #i should prob have a tag for this but idk what lol #asks #succession s4 #succession spoilers #LONG POST #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #anon

[yael-things]

so uh . i made a chara stand

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#if any1 can tell me whatthey think abt it it would b v cool thank u :-) #i am not very good at developing thinfs so #i hope its nice #also jojo stats are very confusing mostly did it for the Looks #anyway #yael.doodls #chara #chara dreemurr #chara undertale #undertale chara #chara fanart #chara dreemurr fanart

[luciana-silentstar]

I decided because I love suffering that everyone gets their own halter.

#-pops on once in a blue moon to update and dip- #like what it's been. ten years since I've basically said 'hey life is crazy but I really wanna try to be active again!!' lmfao #somehow life keeps getting crazier in good and absolutely abysmal ways #have been sleeping on my floor for the past week due to Fun Health Issues which will probably be a thing for the next month+ #and I would b*tch about that but today is the first day in the past week that I have not been miserable so #I'm on a 'I do not feel like sh*t! :DDDD' high lmao #I'm good!! life is just funny and I really need to do standup tbh #when I suffer apparently I am hilarious so silver linings 💕 #chaotically toggles between emoticons and emojis bc f*ck the police no one can stop me #this is me a week *not* taking my prescribed amphetamines ahahaha #on them I am actually relaxed and chill which is funny #off them I'm either a sloth or nighttime kitty zooms basically #my body may b falling apart but you cannot stop my chaotic little mind apparently #ANYWAY broken record babey but I do... want to be more active.... if it happens I'll eat my hat but. #can I just say how elated I am that MORE SNOW #Winter Riders was my first SS game so. snow in game is v special to me and I literally dreamed about this and they MAGICALLY DELIVERED #I have a million critiques but clearly I still love the game and I am very happy with how they handled this lmao #anyway I hope everyone is healthier and a little more mentally stable than I <3 #I love this stupid game a lot it is still my comfort... n0n-object. sldkfj. #also everyone must know I am f*cking OBSESSED with the unicorn oh my god #still a ponygirl at heart ig 😒 owell #also ye Dragonheart got an update!! heeeee #Dragonheart #Illusion #Brilliant Vision #Myth #Chocolate Dream #mostly sticking to two part names but ngl. for certain special horses I'm enjoying the single name options #also the halter thing is to sorta discourage me from impulse buying horses lmfao #I am 99% positive it will have 0 effect lmaooooo but everyone looks fancy now

[sirnavergi]

things r a bit more chill for me now so hopefully soon i can relax 100% 💥💥💥 my presentation is in 5 days sob sob hic .. i offer u a batch of recent doodles ….

#original character #oc #oc artwork #my art #oc art #ocs #v teatime #who couldve guessed moving across the world at ur last year of high school as an autistic person would be hard ^_^ #im fine but also ufhghhggh i m just hoping when i can finally GRADUATE college can b a good fresh new start #i am actually making rlly good progress with the chapter layout of tea time’s main plot so tyats good😭 #love these guys

[boyghcst]

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#it’s so weird how u can just feel two extremes and both r just so real #like often ill feel so suicidal and angry and upset etc but then other times I just feel so hopeful for the future and happy w my group #of friends #n both can b true but I just kinda get scared of when I feel rlly depressed n stuff bc it just feels so unbearable #n I just feel so out of control #idk last week was a p good week while socially exhausted #it was acc good to socialise and have fun etc #but idk I get my ups and downs so frequent idk if it’s normal to feel this way #but while im ill I’ve got an interview for college on Friday #trying again idk if ill even get in tbh #and im probably gonna drop out lollllll lit dropped out 4 times already #n every year I try but I’ve been out of work/education since late last year n I just feel I need to do something #even tho I struggle w my mental health a lot n just functioning like going outside and socialising and loads of ppl and noises it’s just #v overwhelming so idk if im just making another mistake but I picked a different course this time and it’s lower than my last so I’m hoping #they’ll give me a shot ig im worried they’re gonna judge me for dropping out so much but tht was care #and I just don’t wanna work w children / care anymore #and ive done social sciences before just the foundation level so I wanna progress #journal

[spaciebabie]

god i want ta sell my art

#i wanna make em inta stickers n prints n GIVE them ta ppl cuz i love drawing so much #i wanna doodle smthn cute n have it b a sticker so someone can put it on their laptop er smthn #n like...idk man....dream reality ig #spacie spoinks #i dont have any materials ta do that tho so LMAO #i can dream #dream of....doing art full time. whateverrrrr that means for me #ultimate dream is getting a fandom for my silly little two story can u imagine #smthn i put years of work into n just having ppl WITNESS n APPRECIATE it????? my heart would b full #i also wanna do commissions but liek i have never done that b4 #i dont wanna overhwhelm myself and also what if nobody wants em n im just standin there dick betwixt me legs #'ooo thats kinda awkward yinko blinko' #anyways #hope yall are havin a good one this morrow #i have been thinking!!! a lot recently!!!! #it feels v selfish ta want these things LMAO IGNORE ME

[sharkneto]

It's Fantasy Baseball draft day, and I'm doing my last minute "oh fuck do I need a strategy" look at players, and would it be too much to ask I just get my same team I had last year? I got fond of my boys. I'm metaphorically waving at them as I see their names on these draft lists.

#that i also won our league last year is not part of this #it's just a nice bonus that my boys were also v good at baseball #rn i'm just hoping i get bobby witt jr again #my feelings for him last season were Would Platonically Kiss On The Mouth #but my other boys! mookie! freddie! my b. millers! #baseball #did i have a fantasy baseball tag last year? i do not remember #fantasy baseball

[blackberryjambaby]

highlights from my day: went to the fresh market, got a berry ice cream, held a newborn, & had two fun beverages (citrus lemonade v & red wine)

#rj speaks #baby b is so so sweet she's got that newborn smell & those precious wrinkles #i missed cuddling babies they're so perfect #the lemon v is soo good i hope they make it a permanent flavour #journal

[catilinas]

every day i cry and weep over lucan never getting to write the death of cato the younger into the pharsalia :(

#it’s not even a lost text i can hope will be discovered one day :((( #genuinely i think if it Had been written it would have absolutely massive influence on a) latin lit Esp Tacitus #and b) the uhhhhhhhhhhhh american revolution #like cato already has such a weird and also Huge literary afterlife. but imagine if he had a sexy death scene too. like plutarch is good #but if lucan had got to do it plutarch’s version might not even exist! or would be completely overshadowed! #rip to neoplatonism but i don’t care #i want to read abt my favourite historical figure ripping his own guts out (with a conquerning swordhand) in lucan’s sexy dactylic hexameter #(this post v much thinking abt prev reblog like cato can’t grow as a character or even keep Living bcs he is the republic and the republic #Fucking Died. oufghfhjg i want to see lucan’s version soooooo bad) #(like i DO believe in the Twelve Book Pharsalia Ending In Cato’s Suicide. but ALSO how the fuck would/could lucan keep the poem going after #that…………………… cato funeral scene WHEN. give it necromantic vibes. immediately #wait actually yeah. Show Me What Happens To His Corpse. unite the Caesar Leaving His Enemies Unburied #and Caesar As Double Of Erichtho and let caesar reanimate cato/the republic. consider: it would be sexy #like i don’t think lucan would have done that at ALL but I Would. these tags are now pharsalia book 13 fanfic. thomas may wants what i have) #(although thomas may DID also add unnecessary necromancy via time travelling lucan drinking julius caesar’s blood.……….. #pharsalia enjoyers united by this theme) #suicide mention — #pharsalia #beeps

[garoujo]

emmieeee! how are you feeling today, dear? are you feeling bouts of sickness? (*^O^*)

also don't be nervous, post that sae fluff (no pressure ofc) huehue

omigosh hiiii bbie!!! i am feeling the best i’ve felt over the last few days ueueue i can finally breathe thru my nose ૮꒰˶ฅ́˘ฅ̀˶꒱ა i hope ur doing good also + having the best weekend!!! sae fluff incoming don’t u worry <333

#ʚ ₊˚ 💬 — new emmail. #ʚ ₊˚ ⌕ — dragons and skulls. #MWAH! ur so cute!!! >b< #i hope ur taking care of urself tho my looove + ur having some v good blorbos thoughts <3

[stsalt]

pssssst do a lil stretch

I just did a couple 😇💗💗💗

#I’m listening to forever by the little dippers it’s v nice 💗💗 #I’m sooo tired but today is gonna b good I hope ur well!!!! 💗💗

[dowagergreen]

i know everyone is having big s&b feelings today but i'm getting safe & sound with updated vocals at midnight so my life is actually going to completely revolve around that forever now

#( ♛ — ooc. ) #gonna put my lil ptsd spiral on hold #when no one else has my back tswift always does #i do actually.... write katniss.... which is why this song kills me so bad #but i think i shared that blog here one time and then never again #also will get around to s&b s2 but i want to finish ruin & rising #but its slow going bc the book is.... v boring #anyways this was a lot of thoughts hope you're having a good day if you read all of this!!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#if u happen to b invested in my emailing profs. the lady from yesterday emailed me back almost immediately #to day that my interests and background sound ideal! which is v true! its such a good match! and i should email back in autumn to see abt #a project in 2023! which is v exciting and i hope things come together. apparently its harder to get funding for international students #so i was like cool cool. u will def hear back from me and also can u send me this paper that i cant get online #and she sent it so now i have a wicked cool paper to read. hhhhh i hope this works out #in other news i talked to my parents todsy and they wanna pay for me to fly home for a bit and i was like YES! which is exciting #not sure when itll happen. hopefully before fall. but yeah thats cool. i felt like such a loser bc my life is so boring rn i was like: wait #keep talking to me! i have nothing better to be doing! except thats not true im just avoiding doing things #SPEAKING OF WHICH we have this supid mini conference thing going on rn and i was super looking forward to not attending this yr #bc im not funded by them anymore. but i have to give a presentation thrus so i am invited and i guess my boss expected me to b there? #like if i went it would just be a massive waste of time that i would hate and im not like the most stable rn #like im srry i really don't give a fuck abt shrub encroachment. so i might as well do something useful with my time? #like im sure the main reason they hold it is for networking but i really really dont want to talk to anyone so im just gonna awkwardly sit #around and hate everything. but like maybe i should go as rep for my lab? #but like 3 other lab members r there so like u dont need me there. i really just wanna show up for my talk and fuck off #i really dont want to go tomorrow. i dont have anything that i could bring for lunch and again. dont wanna b there #and i havent done a rapid test which they wanted everyone to do before showing up #so idk what im gonna do. im gonna have tk txt my boss like: do u really want me to b there tomorrow? #but i dont kno how to say that without it sounding like i have a bad attitude bc i absolutely do lol #i just dont wannnna goooooo #unrelated