#( &&. lagaudiiere )
i’m fucking crying i’ve been going through my old blogs and i found an audio post of me rapping ayo technology during a time seven years ago when the dash was traumatised and i tried to cheer everyone up as an idiot teenager and hooooooooly shit
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casual reminder ily and everything you write and say tbh like it's just a pleasure being able to not just write with you but talk to you ooc. you're amazing xx
nOT SO CASUAL REMINDER THAT I LOVE YOU TOO. this is like the sweetest thing, i just… i have so much love for you, our hcs, our writing, our everything. plus your anya is so good!! thank you for this, & as cliche as it is, thank you for just being a good friend. ily.
p.s. one could say, i’m burnin’ up for you ;) ( forever indebted to you laughing at my feverish jokes when no one else would )
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“It’s not over… it’s never over…” // from Katniss
prompt: dialogue prompts with a raw powerful energy
status: accepting
❛ 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐒 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐄. ❜ its a joke, a bad one, about how you’re literally dead. meant as a light hearted thing to say, an easy way to break tensions, but you’ve noticed whats going on. not only the way katniss struggles, but the way everyone seems to be putting a revolution on her shoulders. but she never struck you as the revolution type, always simply seemed desperate to stay alive. ❛ i mean.. i know a lot of things suck for you right now but.. i mean you won. you’re a victor. you don’t have to live in a heap of trash anymore. ❜ harsh, but compared to district one that’s the only way you can think to describe twelve. ❛ you’re not in the games anymore, just live in your fancy house & kiss your so called boyfriend & play nice for the cameras & you’re set for life. you’re living the dream. ❜
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um your portrayal is terrifyingly good. like I hear his voice (and his voice-over / narration in the show is the most important part so to capture that is basically to capture EVERYTHING). Like I am both terrified and also soo invested in reading more every time you post if that makes sense. Which, again, was how I was with the show. On the one hand, I was like oh no I can't but on the other hand I was like I NEED TO KNOW WHAT's NEXT. and that's how I feel about your writing & portrayal
how’s my portrayal.
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DECLARE empty.container [ new thread ];; IMPORT requested starter // [ plotted ] USER ( NAME = “JEMMA SIMMONS“ ) // @lagaudiiere
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𝑰𝑭 𝑯𝑬 𝑪𝑶𝑼𝑳𝑫 𝑹𝑬𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑩𝑬𝑹 what PRIDE felt like, he might have felt something akin to SHAME or embarrassment at how quickly they found him after the fall of project insight. time like freedom was a new concept for the asset to acclimate to and he experienced its passing in vicious extremes. rapidly, a sudden blur of movement && stimuli ;; weighted, painstakingly drawn out, every second thick and heavy and felt ;; or - not at all - gaping holes punched in time separating one moment from the next. after weeks spent caught in this grueling cycle - running from every shadow ( both real && imagined ), floundering to understand sovereignty / CHOICE / autonomy ( && all their BURDENS ) - the only thing this half - man could feel when their slimy tentacles wrapped like shackles once more around wayward limbs was exhaustion ... and a muted shade of familiar DREAD. physically, he is a MASTERPIECE, a product of sheer scientific brilliance. an elite super - soldier, built like a TANK - in both fortification and capability. his potential for DEVASTATION is rivaled only by his ability to endure.
&& oh, the things he has can endure ...
HE HAS SURVIVED WORSE THAN THIS GLIMPSE OF FREEDOM. much worse. && yet, the asset finds himself deteriorating, his condition worsening. the steady unraveling of his conditioning made sense when he was allowed to wander, left unchecked && mind running rampant, but it continues - even now, after hydra has reclaimed him. HE CONTINUES TO DECLINE. && even his MAKERS seem incapable of FIXING him. they can hold him down, restrain him, sedate him, FREEZE him ;; they can CONTROL his body, but his mind ... the weapon’s mind has been fractured and is hemorrhaging. — without a chair, without the means of a WIPE and deprived of a stasis pod, there is only so much they can do. the old methods only last for so long. his brain heals too quickly.
THEIR GREATEST ASSET, COMPROMISED. careful programming disintegrating before their eyes as JAMES BARNES continues to remember, remember, remember ... captain america continues to prove to be a catalyst for DISASTER && hydra’s deepest thorn. his encounter with steve rogers had seemingly summoned a ghost to the surface. before, they had the means to easily exercise this troublesome phantom, but with their existence exposed and so many eyes suddenly thrust upon them, their options are limited ;; their choices, few. moving freely and unnoticed has become exponentially more difficult. it means getting a new chair built or acquiring a new stasis pod a near impossibility. they cannot transport him out ;; cannot move what they need in.
NOW IS THE TIME, the breath between rebirth or complete EXTINCTION. they need to be careful, quiet. they need to be smart, rely on what they know and what they have readily available. containing him was LOUD enough ;; that cannot risk making any more noise. they had hoped the asset would be COMPLIANT upon repossession. much to their dismay though, he was proving to be equally as troublesome. && yet - still too valuable to terminate. in order to once again rise from the ashes of DEFEAT, hydra will need to call forth all the assets they have left.
if the old methods are currently unavailable though ...
they will need to find alternatives.
— they need new ideas.
— fresh perspectives.
— adept talents to replace outdated techniques.
they need the bright young minds of the FUTURE.
THIS IS HOW JAMES BARNES AND JEMMA SIMMONS MEET ...
more precisely, their paths cross in a dingy sub - basement turned makeshift laboratory. it is one of the few remaining safe houses they have left that hasn’t been raided, hidden beneath the guise of an old quarry warehouse. they are pumping him with enough drugs to incapacitate an elephant and yet, his mind still SCREAMS. constant, unending screaming ... when the noise reaches a certain threshold, the asset proves unmanageable, VIOLENT - attacking anything or anyone that comes close. because of this, they have him strapped down to a gurney with the strongest restraints available to them. so far, he has not managed to break through them. a combination of restraints && sedation used to quiet him ... and one other old technique.
“ SYSTEMATIC. the procedure must be performed every sixteen hours otherwise the asset starts to display signs of misbehavior. “ bucky barnes blinks up towards a sky he cannot see, lost to the NOISE splitting his skull apart, and blames the searing light from the overhanging lamp for the tears that are burning his eyes. he sees ... many things, a cascade of disconnected, disjointed images - each one sharp, each one SCREAMING ;; each one with a past he cannot fully remember but which still TORMENT him so. it overwhelms him, drowns him, presses down - harder, harder, harder ;; heavier, heavier, heavier. GOD, HE CANNOT BREATHE. please, make it stop.
vaguely, somewhere far off, he hears heels tapping across a floor and a voice. “ the process is relatively simple, but still requires care. he heals quickly, but that does not excuse SLOPPINESS. “
𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓. 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐊 𝐇𝐀𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐀 𝐆𝐈𝐅𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃. ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵃᶰ ᵒᶰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇʳᶤᵈᵍᵉˑ 𝐵𝑈𝐶𝐾𝑌, 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑣𝑒 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤𝘩𝑜𝑙𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒. ʷʰᵒ ʷᵃˢ ʰᵉ ˀ THE PROCEDURE HAS ALREADY STARTED. 🇼🇭🇴 🇦🇷🇪 🇾🇴🇺﹖ 𝐶𝑂𝑀𝑃𝐿𝐼𝐴𝑁𝐶𝐸 𝑊𝐼𝐿𝐿 𝐵𝐸 𝑅𝐸𝑊𝐴𝑅𝐷𝐸𝐷. 𝒾'𝓂 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝓎𝑜𝓊 - 𝐈 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐓𝐎 𝐃𝐎 𝐈𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 - 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑒𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑒, 𝓅𝒶𝓁. “ insert the pin. “ 𝑃𝐿𝐸𝐴𝑆𝐸 ! 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝑗𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑐𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑠 ... 𝑃𝐿𝐸𝐴𝑆𝐸 𝐷𝑂𝑁’𝑇 𝐷𝑂 𝑇𝐻𝐼𝑆 ! 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑚𝑜𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑡𝘩 ? 𝐻𝐸’𝑆 𝐽𝑈𝑆𝑇 𝐴 𝐶𝐻𝐼𝐿𝐷 ! 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝒸𝒶, pressure. sharp, blooming pain. through his eye. HAIL HYÐЯA. 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝑒 𝒽𝑜𝓁𝒹 𝑜𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇'𝓈 𝒽𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝓁𝑒 𝓌𝑒 𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓈𝓈. 🇫🇦🇸🇮🇳🇦🇹🇮🇳🇬﹐ 🇹🇭🇮🇸 🇲🇦🇳 🇩🇴🇪🇸 🇳🇴🇹 🇩🇮🇪. 𝑏𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑦 ! HAIL HYÐЯA. кто ты ? 𝑷𝑼𝑵𝑲. 𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐏𝐈𝐆. 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝙾𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙼𝙰𝙽. кто ты ? 𝑏𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑦, 𝑑𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑚𝑒 ! 𝙅𝙀𝙍𝙆. 𝙾𝚁 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝙾𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙲𝙷𝙸𝙻𝙳. 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. HAIL HYÐЯA. 𝙲𝙷𝙾𝙾𝚂𝙴. 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓. IT'S STᗩᖇTIᑎG TO ᖇOT. 𝑖 𝑡𝘩𝑜𝑢𝑔𝘩𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑑. ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵈᵒᵉˢ ᶤᵗ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡᶤᵏᵉ˒ ˢᵉʳᵍᵉᵃᶰᵗ ˀ кто ты ? 𝑏𝑢𝑐𝑘. “ ... against the prefrontal cortex here. “ ᵈᵉˢᶜʳᶤᵇᵉ ᶤᵗˑ 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝘾𝙐𝙏 𝙄𝙏 𝙊𝙁𝙁. 𝙲𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙵𝙵 𝙾𝙽𝙴 𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳 - 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑐𝑘. 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡. 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. HAIL HYÐЯA. 𝐓𝐖𝐎 𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐒. кто ты ? 𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝘩𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛... 𝚃𝚆𝙾 𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴 𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙻𝙻 𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝙸𝚃𝚂 𝙿𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙴. 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐋 𝐒𝐈𝐗. “ three good strikes will be enough to break through. ” YOU WILL BE THE FIST OF HYDRA. HAIL HYÐЯA. 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝐖𝐈𝐏𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐌. 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑑𝑜 𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑠. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡. ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵃᶰ ᵒᶰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇʳᶤᵈᵍᵉˑ 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝐖𝐈𝐏𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐌. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡. ʷʰᵒ ʷᵃˢ ʰᵉ ˀ 🇼🇭🇴 🇦🇷🇪 🇾🇴🇺﹖ 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡. 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡.
𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐌———— ! 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠. PAIN OVERSHADOWS EVERYTHING ELSE. 𝐖𝐈𝐏𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐌.
𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐌———— ! the noise ... the SCREAMING NOISE ... lessens. 𝗔𝗚𝗔𝗜𝗡.
oh god. DARKNESS. 𝑖𝑡 𝘩𝑢𝑟𝑡𝑠.
𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐌———— !
... the mind is quiet once more.
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love starters (accepting) // @lagaudiiere
‘ talk to me. ’ from tessa
rainy days are always a pain --- quite literally, in his case. rain makes his joints ache, makes his arm feel all the heavier, makes the junction of metal and flesh sting at every single little motion. a lot of people seem to love rainy weather, however, and he supposes he can kind of see the beauty in it... the feeling of being cleansed, the smell of fresh wet soil, the little droplets racing down the window to see who gets first to the bottom. and yet... himself, he can’t help but feel nothing if not MELANCHOLY; as though his soul is empathizing with the clouds above, and weeping within. silly thoughts with no real consequence, soon to be washed down with another sip of his coffee... or it would have been, though he’s just realized he’s not alone at his table anymore; that, whilst he was spacing out and staring through the small cafe’s window at the streets outside, this young woman took the seat in front of his own. which maybe his paranoia would have minded, in any other situation... yet, right here and now, with how uncanny / unexpected it is, Buck can’t help but offer back a small smile --- slowly grounding himself on reality once more.
‘ sorry--- what...? ‘
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❛ you don’t kill people you don’t know , that’s the rule ❜
@lagaudiiere sent ☀ for a starter !
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CLOSED FOR @lagaudiiere
IT WASN’T A PARTICULARLY LONG WALK FROM KNIGHTON. The others had gone on ahead to Nettlestone but, equal parts intrigued and amused by the day’s revelation, the leader of the so called MERRY MEN had made sure the NIGHTWATCHMAN returned rightfully to their manor before anyone spotted him.... or rather her. “ You could have TOLD ME that you were the Nightwatchman. ” He’d have kept it from his men too if that was what she wanted from him. He’s almost hurt ... almost, but he couldn’t hide the flare of pride that shines deep in green eyes as they walk through the woods. They are not so different and Marian, this Marian, is not so different from the Marian he left behind five years ago, just a bit more publicly careful . Given what he’s seen so far he cannot blame her. “ Because I admit ! I was worried about what sort of person you’d turned into while I was away. My The Marian I knew wouldn’t just put up with suffering and done nothing...... and I wouldn’t have attacked you then ” Robin would be lying to say that he didn’t feel guilty about that. Even before he was outlawed, before Acre, when she had DEMANDED him to treat her equally, he had been unable to use his full strength on her as he had done on others. ( sticks instead of swords, games of tag that got out of hand ) “ ----- You are not hurt? ”
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casual reminder you're really wonderful !
ahh ! ty ty ! you are a shinning beacon of light in this dark land and i appreciate you taking the time out of your day to send this to me.
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training tessa had surprisingly become one of the high points in gabriel's life. not that he'd ever admit that to anyone at the institute ( especially her ), but it was a nice escape from his father's rambling and ranting. so when he entered the training room to see her actually on time for once? he culdn't hide his amused expression, ❝ you're not going to make me hunt you down today? ❞ / @lagaudiiere ( tessa )
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✦ — quick starter call : dmitry sudayev for @lagaudiiere
‘ you --- i --- wow. ’ for a moment, he is stuck completely dumb, gaping at her in the new white suit ;; but with the wit of a street rat, dmitry recovers quickly. ‘ guess you actually can clean up. who knew? ’
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@lagaudiiere / plotted.
DESPERATION is a concept that Dmitry understands painfully well, the cruel ache of starving nights in the gutters and the adrenaline burst after a weekend heist are imprinted within who he is, despite the ten million rubles safely tucked away away in his home. He has yet to outgrow his old lifestyle, and for that, he can almost sympathise with the two beggars slinking past him along the alleyway after their target. Were he in Petersburg, perhaps he would have turned his back and gone another way, pretended to have not seen the ambition in their eyes and the precise stealth of their movements that indicates a burglary ( God knows he couldn’t afford a fight or a run in with the police ), but something in him has undoubtedly CHANGED and he lets his eyes wander to their victim. She’s vulnerable, alone and unsuspecting of the thieves hot on her trail, and a sudden burst of compassion resonates within him. Dmitry is no HERO, but he’s learned since Paris, since ANYA, and perhaps a small piece of it is to compensate for his mistakes. Call it a rash act of kindness, completely out of character. Or at least for the man he was back in Russia.
“Oh, there you are!” His voice echoes against the walls, and he emerges loudly into the alley to approach the petite figure, the caricature of a suitor. Whether it’s enough to scare off the burglars or simply warn her, he isn’t sure, but he continues nevertheless. “I’ve been looking for--” It’s only when he circles around the woman to see her face, that he freezes, heart dropping to his stomach, confident expression morphing to aghast. дерьмо. It’s HER. And she hasn’t changed a bit, eyes still so piercing that his breath catches in his throat, the string of profanity on his tongue dying. His shock is momentary, but God, does it feel like ages, staring into the face of someone he never thought he’d see again, someone he had deliberately WALKED AWAY FROM-- the flutter in his heart almost hurts.
The gazes of the men behind her bearing into his skin remind him how to breathe, and his stutter is glaringly obvious, but he takes her hand, squeezing it in warning ( or at least to brace the slap he surely deserves ). “-- I-I’ve been looking for you, Nastya. Let’s go.” Dmitry doesn’t dare call her Anya, but how easily her nickname slips from his lips surprises even him. And without a second to spare, he’s tugging on her arm, head cocked to the side. Follow me. Please.
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@lagaudiiere: ❛ But you needn’t trouble yourself on my account. ❜ // from mary to bash
❝ FOR YOU, it’s no trouble, mary. ❞ he assures her with one of his charming smiles. she could ask him to swim the length of the ocean and he would. for her, if she asked, if she needed, there’s not much he would not do. ❝ that’s what friends are for, is it not? ❞ bash laughs slightly.
all souls trilogy » accepting
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“ allison, “ It’s almost a name that comes with some relief. Recognition paving its way through madness. Peace finding its way through chaos. And there’s less static, less of a storm in his once cloudy gaze as it hones in on her. Him knelt in front of her and blade pressed to the tip of her throat. A definite thread all without the utterance of more than one word.
He hadn’t meant to look for her. Madness, to him as if often was, came fleeting. It would come with a fever and disappear at the break of dawn. But it’s night and there’s only the flicker of a fire in the hearth to signal noise beyond its crackle and the loud thumping of her heart beat. She can probably hear it. Loud in her ear. The world’s largest threat knocking at her window and forcing his way in.
But no, he didn’t want to kill her. He had wandered aimlessly, jumping from town to town until he caught her in his peripherals. This, was beckoning for something. A demand. What for?
( He wished he knew. )
Nonetheless, he maintained his position without moving. Only changing to stand at the foot of her bed as he forced her onto it.
“ Tell me if you remember. “
@lagaudiiere .
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❛ if i lose control i feed the beast within ❜
@lagaudiiere sent for a thing !
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