#'you don't need exterior validation only yours matters' but consider. i have none.

[lolacouldnotcareless]

brain has been an asshole for the past few days

#and keeps behaving like one #personal #'you don't need exterior validation only yours matters' but consider. i have none. #external not exterior sdjfs wtf #at least i haven't had some for this week lmao #and the good old 'i don't want to force my friends to say nice things but also i'll shut up about my need for reassurance' #'and i won't communicate' #'i don't want to be a burden they must have other things to do' #'they are busy they may not be in the mood' #'what if they're having a bad time too' #oh my goodness how stupid am i #flashnews brain: they cannot guess!!! they cannot read my mind!!! #worst thing we're all having a bad time together #which automatically makes it less bad #double negative = positive or something like that english is great in that domain #worser thing we're all miserable in our corners and you know what. fck it. #if i could spit properly i would. (but i can't) #(plus it's disgusting but also that's the damn goal) #(so instead y'all have to deal with my glares instead)