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I remember
you found me
on the couch
with her in my arms,
listening to
Billie purr prophetic;
"I never told anyone
anything bad"
you were so uneasy
did you know then?
I'd say
I don't talk shit
on the internet
but what's the harm
if you never bothered
to read
the love-poems
when I did love you?
-
here I am
alone and lonely
(less than with you)
53 weeks after
your amygdala refused
to chose between
your black-and-white lovers
the Magpie
and the Moo-cat
a moment of mortality
a double fatality
an evanescent goodbye
for Dolly Gray
-
there she is
all pixelled up
(as I never was)
sandwiched smiles
and signals of shyness
I know I made you insecure
in all the space
I wanted to swallow
and speak my words into;
does she make you feel
6'3 is tall enough?
-
I only shrunk
when I was afraid
when the words
stopped working
and my hands
would vibrate in fear
everyone wants
a strong woman
to cosign their
satisfaction of the "snap"
under their feet
-
my sandwiches:
in between
my desire for you
and my degree
on Johnson St
as you screamed at me
to do better (noted)
my chauffeur of codepency
I took
and took from you
with my greedy
self-medication
attempted
meditations
"if you really wanted it
you would do it without me"
-
in between two foul-mouthed men
you once again, obsessed
in taking the mantle of protection
you did not notice
The fear you stoked in me
-
this time last year
once-removed
("Adele,
please get out of the car")
so he could threaten you
out of hurting me
(God IS Gracious!
I should be so lucky
to be loved,
so deeply)
-
and lastly:
a hypothetical
of me,
as a woman
in a public space
being violated
in ways I have before
without your presence
you were filled with rage
at the prospect
of my equation
safety > ego
-
all of those times
when my words stopped
did you feel relief?
were you stupid enough to think
that my unease
vanished with my words?
or were you just taking your place
as the son of stones
maximised into
Dane Dehaan
(the loner-stoner)
to avoid the place
beyond the pines
where
the brook of your feelings
would overflow
-
I remember
how I
lost my effervescence
knowing myself
(as I was taught)
in the mirror of your eyes
my palms pooling
with my own blood
victimised
by your own barbs
buried beneath my knuckles
you told me so many times
you were not good enough
and I believed you
and yet
martyr-maxxed
my choices
into Mother Mary,
Maria
as your bitter beloved
-
every morning I call you in
stoke you like a fire
a Calcifurnace of resentment
wander the line of
the Uppekha Uppercut
of bringing love
into my field of vision
holding my anger
alongside
(Advaita Vedanta)
-
my tears fall,
my father says:
"you know,
it's been a year;
people move on."
and I remember him in February
callous by the coin I cost
a cruel resentment
of a spoilt child
uzumaki'd on her unlovability,
he speaks and I hear your voice;
"I thought
you would have
learnt this lesson by now"
i'd never seen andrew garfield as spidey until i watched nwh and obviously i fell in love with his whole portrayal so i went back to watch tasm and i just. did not like it at all. andrew was fine in it but i didnt think he had the same charm that he did in nwh for some reason. anyway i really hope we can see more of him as spidey in the future because clearly he has a lot to offer but, in my opinion, didnt get a chance to in tasm, whether because of the director or because he hadn't had as much time to figure out the character
Hi my beloved Fanmoose! I hope you are feeling great today ❤❤
I was wondering something, so here I am asking you because Im really curious!
I hope Im not the only one who does this.. When I read some fanfic, I imagine how the characters would look like in real life while Im reading (I dont imagine them as an anime style) and I sometimes imagine them as some famous actors/actresses who look alike (for example, I imagine Erwin Smith as Chris Evans)
So here my question!! If you do this... How do you imagine Hange in real life? From an actress/actor? a realistic drawing you saw? and if so, can you tell me their name/drawing and why?
When I read some Hanji Zoe fics, I imagine Hange as Kayla mallari (You probably know her! she's the Hanji cosplayer who danced talk dirty to me, AND SHE'S AMAZING! and when I saw her tutorial, the way she acted, her personality, and how much she looked alike as Hange I was like- 'ok this is Hange in person change my mind.'
What about you? And Levi? Which actor do you think he looks like him?
oh!!! what an interesting question!!!
whenever i think of levihan and try to imagine them i think of arts like that one? yk a good mix between realistic and anime style with all lh characterics present!
and omg yes, kayla mallari is a perfect hange!! as for levi..... in my head, he resembles dane dehaan a lot? he doesn't look exactly like i picture levi, but he has that tired, sad vibe that reminds me of levi😅
thanks for the question, it was a very interesting one!!! i hope you have a good day as well!!
Well, it is not a fanart, but I'm so invested in the idea of Dane DeeHan being Levi, look:
Isn't he perfect? What do you think?
(Later I can send some fanarts of our dear and beloved Levihan, if you want, of course 😊)
hiii YES omg I love Dane Dehaan as Levi.
When the Amazing Spider Man came out and Dane/Harry slowly deteriorated in Green Goblin, my sister and I kept pointing out that he looked like Levi lol
Dane Dehann was my go to levi for years........ until i watched Shadow and Bone and discovered Freddy Carter. It's not that his features match Levi's, he just fits the pretty vibe i imagine. (and wears some nice clothes that i hc levi would wear)