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rubra-wav · 1 month
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how do you think Hazbin Hotel characters would react to a demon with butterfly wings?
The main Hazbin cast x Butterfly demon reader
Part 2 >
A/N: This wasn't really specific with what charas specifically, so I'm just doing the main cast. I'll do a part 2 with more characters, though, if it's wanted (sorry)
Reader's wings are written as colourful and proportionate to their body, so they are pretty big.
Realised there's a 10 image limit per post, which is bs. Isn't how i normally would have liked it to be aesthetically bc of that 👎
Cw: Sfw, slightly suggestive stuff in Angel's, reference to decapitation and cannibalism 💀, kinda a bit angsty in Angel's and Vaggie's, gn! Reader
Charlie
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- Charlie would be absolutely delighted by you, no doubt about it.
- She wants nothing more than to be in a place that's vividly colourful and (assuming reader is a somewhat colourful butterfly demon) you'd be that for her.
- She also probably just really really likes butterflies in general though, let's be real.
- I can imagine her just staring at your wings with absolutely starry eyes while complimenting them.
- "They're so pretty ohhh my gosh!"
- I imagine her being lightly jealous, she'd love to have wings like a butterfly.
- Would probably ask if she can touch, and look somewhat sad when told no due to how it would cause your scales to come off. (Assuming reader's wings are the same as normal butterfly wings)
- It may get somewhat uncomfortable if you don't like attention, she would definitely fixate heavily on them. Tell her to stop though and it's making you feel weird and she will tone it down though.
- If not, though, enjoy the attention you're gonna be getting from Charlie over them.
Vaggie
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- Vaggie would likely be a bit uncomfortable about seeing demons with wings in general due to her history - let alone you with beautiful, delicate ones.
- I think she'd secretly be hiding some angst and jealously about your wings ngl.
- When she sees Charlie fawning over them though oh boy.
- Yeah she's not gonna be happy about them then. She doesn't blame you or anything for how she's feeling as it's her issue and she knows that, but it still hurts quite a bit - especially in the beginning.
- It gets less and less bad though the more she gets used to it, she kind of just becomes 'meh' about it - especially if you ask Charlie to stop being so gaga about them.
- When she gets her wings back, though, I think she'd come to think they are cool. A normal level appreciation though.
- I can half see you two helping each other out with your wings down the line if you two get closer though.
- There are some things that come with upkeep so wings don't become damaged and stuff, so the people who also have wings? Allies 100%.
Angel
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- I'm gonna be fr, the first time your wings come out he's probably gonna be panicked due to his baggage.
- Especially if it happens when you're angry.
- He's probably gonna need reassurance you aren't gonna try hurt him tbh.
- As sad as it is, his trauma would definitely play a part in his initial perception of them.
- After he recovers a bit and stops immediately going into fight or flight and seeing you =/= Val though, the switch up is insane.
- He would be all over you about them.
- I can imagine him calling you a bunch of butterfly related petnames.
- If you remember the 'make those wings flap' comments he made about Husk, its gonna be that on a hundred.
- Even if it's just joking flirting about them, it's gonna be constant because he thinks they are beautiful and it's a lot of material considering you're a butterfly and he's a spider.
- I feel like he would touch them at some point without really thinking and pull his hand back to see your scales have rubbed off onto his hand and go ''oh shit.''
Husk
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- I don't think he'd have much of a reaction to it at all - at least not initially.
- Of course he acknowledges that they are very pretty, but he won't comment upon it much at all unlike the others.
- Possibly may make reference to it when crafting bitter statements directed towards you, though.
- Down the line, if you grow closer to him, I can see him as actually being concerned about your wings.
- They are extremely eye-catching and unique for a being in hell, and due to that, it could lead demons to actively target you
- Whether with overt aggressive intentions to take your wings and sell them, or with more covert problems like you being scouted for modelling (ie. By Velvette)
- I can see Vaggie and you trying to set up a wing maintenance group and trying to include him in it. Him being vehemently against it to a level that's almost comedic.
- You eventually convince him even though he's complaining the whole way through it. (He is lying and actually enjoys it).
Pentious
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- He wouldn't like them at all in the beginning.
- They're big and bulky and get in the way of everything, including him.
- The amount of times he's accidentally fallen due to 'tripping' on your giant ass wings is greatly irritating and embarrassing to him.
- Possibly thinks you keep trying to kill him by tripping him.
- Could also see his 'hair' (idk how to properly refer to it, haha), accidentally brushing up against your wings with how expressive it is and getting your scales all over him.
- Basically, he doesn't like them because he's clumsy but will take it out on you.
- I also get the vibe he'd be jealous because of how eye-catching they are.
- In his mind, if he had wings like that, then he'd surely have been acknowledged by the Vees in some way.
- If you change your habits with your wings to be conscious of him not being able to walk normally and start getting onto better terms, though, he will likely become appreciative of them and stop being so pissy about them.
- They are very cool looking to him, and once his poor attitude wears off about them, he'll come to admit that.
Alastor
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- He'd actually be somewhat weary of you in the beginning.
- It's nature's law that creatures that do not bother to hide themselves are not to be messed with - especially in a place like hell of all places.
- When he sees that you just happen to be particularly colourful, he drops that, though.
- He'd honestly probably be thinking of what it would be like to eat a demon like you after confirming you are, in fact, not poisonous or dangerous at all.
- He doesn't much care all that much for the intrinsic beauty of things as long as they aren't utterly ugly, and as long as they aren't obnoxious and in your face.
- Depending on how bright and vibrant they are and how much attention you bring to them, he may actually dislike them.
- If not, though, he acknowledges they are nice to look at, but again, doesn't really care about them outside of theorising how they would be to eat.
- Would probably make comments about how he could "just eat your wings up," or ask you about how you taste just to try to freak you out.
Niffty
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- When she sees them, her eyes grow wide in a mixture of surprise and awe. At the exact same time, an unhinged smirk spreads across her face.
- She then proceeds to leap at you, scissors or whatever sharp object is closest to her raised at your wings.
- She'd be absolutely trying to take a piece out of them for her 'collection' 💀
- You're gonna need medical attention after she's done with you because she's hellbent.
- Her obsessiveness over your wings would vary depending on your gender but either way, she'd be trying to get a piece of them for herself.
- Definitely abnormal level of appreciation of them in the absolute worst way.
- If you can get her to stop instantly trying to cut off parts of them, she's still constantly trying to touch them. You need to complain about your scales every damn time she tries to reach out to touch it without fail.
- it's like your wings are a beacon, and she's the insect gunning for it ironically.
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inficetegodwottery · 5 months
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A call for aid from Firefox Users
I have absolutely no fucking idea how to solve these problems, and there are asks with no answers all over the internet elsewhere that are years old.
There is a weirdly hostile atmosphere on Reddit's Firefox boards to asking questions about features Firefox doesn't seem to have. And obviously, official support forums are about as helpful as they ever are. Given that I've seen and reblogged countless extremely informative posts about Firefox stuff on Tumblr, I just have to hope one of you guys knows answers to some of these issues.
Because I want to move away from Chrome. I really, really do. It is a constant source of stress and fear at this point. Google is an insanely evil fucking company and I despise them, and admire Firefox's stances on privacy and commitment to user security. But I cannot use a browser that lacks so many of the organizational elements I'm used to using in order to deal with my extreme neurodivergence and inability to process information all at once combined with my tendency towards flitting from one train of thought to another constantly.
Using Firefox (I've tried to switch five times over six or seven years) in the past has been overwhelming and stressful and completely devoid of certain features I could use to control those feelings on browsers like Chrome, Opera, and even Safari.
So if anyone has any solutions or suggestions for the specific issues I describe below, it would be an enormous weight off my shoulders, and help me feel a lot safer than I do now.
I'll admit that my tab fever is insane, and I've regularly racked up 2000+ tabs on Chrome. But I can sleep/unload just about all of those tabs constantly, making it so I can keep my trains of thought completely paused without the slightest impact on my computer's performance while I work on something else, and come right back to them without having to dig through the Bookmark system. And the way I generally keep that insane number of bookmarks organized is with separate windows and TAB GROUPING. Bless tab grouping, the saviour of my sanity. With that feature, I can have a completely organized tab tree with color coding, searchable groups, easily group and ungroup tabs or move them to different windows, and I can manage all of them from the same UI I'm managing ungrouped tabs from.
This is a feature which Firefox appears to fundamentally lack, despite apparently having had it implemented fully at some point.
I will say that I tried several addons before making this post, specifically Simple Tab Groups, which was atrocious, and Panorama View actually looks fantastic, but also.... Firefox has placed a security warning on that one. Great.
So if anyone knows of a hidden browser settings option, an overlooked tab grouping addon, or some other way to implement that feature on Firefox, I would be eternally in your debt. I just do not have the ability to process or work on a browser that I can only have like forty tabs open without losing track of everything I'm doing because they're all on a single ribbon. Or completely overloading my RAM.
On that note, is there any setting to make the browser use less memory? I've had the core process run up to almost a dozen gigs of RAM with only twenty tabs open, and there's absolutely no way it needed all that processing power for four YouTube tabs and a bunch of settings pages.
Lastly, there are a number of times while I was using Firefox that I lost power or the program crashed (and it crashed a LOT) and I lost everything. Every tab, every bit of work I was doing at the time, with no way to recover them. I've had that happen with Chrome too, but WAY less often, and when it recovers all my tabs it does so while PRESERVING MY TAB GROUPS, and it also doesn't load every tab in until I actually move to that tab. Firefox loads every tab it's recovering all at once, which usually completely locks up my computer.
At this point I'm pretty much only using Firefox to watch YouTube videos past the adblock, despite desperately wanting to transfer literally everything over to a browser that I KNOW is the safer and better option. But every time I've tried, the total inability to organize like I used to, losing all my progress and being unable to regain it whatsoever, or just using up four times the amount of resources that my browsing would on another platform has drive me away. I don't want to be driven away. I want to solve this, but I've had to accept that I can't do that alone.
I greatly appreciate any help or advice anyone can give. Even if just only one of these questions gets answered or only one of these problems gets solved, that's a win in my books. And thank you for reading, even if you don't have any of the answers I'm looking for.
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clanwarrior-tumbly · 9 months
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after i saw that dave lee post last month, i got really invested...... any headcanons about dave lee being bffs with alternate y/n??
Oh I'm glad you're invested!!! This is more of how they meet and stuff but yeee
.....
You first met Dave by masquerading as a random person under the pretense of looking for "work".
In reality, you learned MandelaTECH has been holding recovered footage/tapes from incidents related to Alternates and you just wanted to check them out.
But when you arrive (after hiding many of your flawed characteristics the best you could), Dave nearly kicks you out before you could even say a word to him.
"No. Get out. You are banned from here."
"What...?"
"That's right. Banned with a capital "B"."
"...why, may I ask?" You were convinced he somehow saw through your disguise so quickly, but what he said next reveals otherwise.
The complete opposite, in fact.
"You know what you did, [random name]. You can't just show up here as if nothing ever happened." He talks you down like a stern dad, eyebrows furrowed with disappointment.
You're incredibly lost. "Remind me again what I did wrong?"
"You seriously forgot that you were snooping backstage? Looking through the tapes that were specifically labeled for my eyes only? I called you and you wouldn't tell me if you watched any of them. You just...didn't seem to care."
At this point, you realized that you've accidentally disguised as one of his ex-employees--one who had a really bad falling-out with him.
"I tried to be a cool manager, but...I trusted you not to go back there. And yet you did anyways and told me I was "the worst" when I had to let you go. I was kinda hurt." He sounded quite sad and betrayed, and it made you feel bad.
"...I'm..sorry D--Mr. Lee. But I really need a job and..I couldn't find anything else in town that was hiring." You feigned guilt. "I'll make it up to you. I won't speak of anything I might've seen in that box. From now on my eyes will be...up front."
"...and?" He raises an eyebrow.
"And....I...think you're actually really cool. Whatever I said that day was out of frustration. It...wasn't how I truly felt."
"........alright. You get one more chance."
Thus Dave "rehires" you on the spot, although he did take notice of your flawed features throughout the week--with you labelling them as things from "accidents".
Besides that, it's not a bad job. Although out of respect, you abstained from peeking into that box of tapes he mentioned.
There comes a point where you have to reveal yourself as an Alternate--and it's when your disguise was literally falling apart at the seams and not even your MandelaTECH hoodie could hide them.
So you morphed into your basic form after the store closes for the night, speaking to Dave in your actual voice.
"Forgive me for deceiving you, David...but I, [y/n], am-"
"Oh I knew for a while. But you had me fooled the first few days."
"...and yet you didn't panic?" You blink. "If you knew all along, why didn't you-?"
"I mean, you took the blame for my ex-employee and...I gotta thank you for that. I don't think they would've genuinely showed up from the way they spoke to me. You apologized on their behalf, and...that's not what I'd expect from an Alternate. So maybe you guys aren't all that bad...maybe."
"I confess my disguise was random. I did not think they were a former employee of yours. But....does this mean I can still work here?"
"Yeah. You're good. I only ask that you uh....don't tamper with that box I mentioned. It's all highly confidential stuff that the lieutenant trusts me with. I-I mean...I know I can't actually stop you but-"
"No, no. You have my word, David." You smile.
It's not long after that when he befriends you, rather than act as your employer.
If he's working alone in the shop, you'd keep watch over him from the shadows, making sure nothing harmed him (be it the rare rude customer or other Alternates).
You do learn he's been restoring the lost tapes, holding files of Murray's TA report, and keeping some outlawed TVs backstage, but you ensured no Alternate can interfere with any signals on them.
And Dave's just 100% chill about it.
Though when he hires Evelin he just tells her not to worry about the weird shadow in the corner.
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daimyosprincess · 11 months
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Announcement 🎉
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I'm excited to announce that I'll be posting my first ever fic, Ex Libris, next Friday, May 5!!
A multi-part AU set in our world, Ex Libris begins when you, a librarian in the university library, meet the new Mandalorian studies professor, Boba Fett. Sparks fly and passions soar, but just what all does Professor Fett have in store for you?
Check out a preview of Part I: Foreword below the cut, I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it! Comments and feedback are appreciated and welcome, and if you would like to be tagged in future updates, please fill out my taglist form.
Many thanks to the WONDERFUL @rexxdjarin and @choaticninjawitch for all your support and encouragement in my writing journey 💖 so many talented creators have inspired me with their amazing works and I'm honored to be able to join them. Please support creators, foster fandom and create the community we want with comments and reblogs.
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EX LIBRIS
—Professor!Boba Fett x F!Librarian!Reader
—Summary: You want to add your story to Professor Boba Fett’s personal collection.
—Rating: Explicit, 18+ only — MINORS DO NOT INTERACT
—Series Tags & Warnings: [chapter-specific tags will have additional warnings] second person narration, no use of y/n, explicit sexual content, age gap (reader is mid-twenties, Boba is late forties), dom/sub power dynamics, bdsm elements, reader described as having hair, alcohol consumption by reader and others
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The university library is dead—classes aren’t in session and things are slow. The afternoon summer sun streams through the building’s tall windows, illuminating the dust motes that dance in the golden light. The faint rustle of papers turning is the only sound filling the idle air other than you and your coworker’s chatting at the circulation desk. 
“No, I’m telling you there’s no good guys to date here. They’re all either emotionally unavailable or terrible in bed… or both,” your friend Selena gripes. She’s exasperated by the most recent of her flings ghosting her after their last hookup. 
Swirling your iced coffee, you roll your eyes. “Well maybe you need to expand your dating pool, there’s more out there than just twenty-something guys who spend all their time in the gym.” You grin knowingly at your friend—she definitely has a type.
She throws an elbow at you. “Hey! Not all of us are into girls and men old enough to be our dads! Speaking of which…” she cuts off, wiggling her perfect eyebrows at you.
“Excuse me,” a deep voice calls from behind your back, “is there a librarian I can speak to about reserving my course materials?” The voice’s vowels lilt and come together like sand being molded by an ocean wave, powerful yet graceful—it’s a voice that could warm you in sunny, shallow waters or drown you in a raging storm.
All but choking on your coffee, you spin to face the front desk. Standing on the other side of the counter is the most handsome man you think you’ve ever seen: copper skin, white teeth, and dark eyes stand atop a crisp linen shirt rolled up to reveal thick, strong forearms. Pale, silvered scars crisscross his skin, glinting in the light, making him look equally dangerous and enticing, like a trap baited with everything you’ve ever wanted.
Shit, he could get me in a lot of trouble… and I’d let him. You clear your throat, doing your best to recover with at least some of your dignity intact—a difficult task when the absolute god of a man before you just heard that you’re definitely into men his age. 
Selena, however, beats you to an answer. “Yes, sir, that would be my coworker here,” she answers in a sing-song voice, “she’s more than happy to help you with anything you need.” You shoot her a dirty look as she flounces away back to her desk in the back, her attitude completely unapologetic.
Being the flirt you are, you did fully intend to hit on this handsome professor, but that’s not the point. Rallying your thoughts, you flash him a dazzling smile. “Yes, I certainly am,” you confirm. “What can I do for you, professor…?” Your voice trails off in anticipation of his response, and you catch the dark gleam in his coffee-colored eyes. 
“Fett, Boba Fett. Professor of Mandalorian studies,” he answers smoothly, his rich timbre confident and unphased by you and Selena’s antics.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you, professor,” you respond, matching his blithe tone. You introduce yourself with your name and title as the research materials librarian.
He smirks, flicking his eyes over your frame in a casual, yet interested, way. “I assure you, the pleasure is all mine.” When his eyes meet yours again, they flicker with amber fire, bright and tempting.
You let his compliment hang in the sunlit air between you for a moment, gauging whether he too felt the electric connection buzzing between you two. Judging by the glint in his eye and quirk of his lips, he did.
Game on. “Well, usually faculty submit their materials for purchase and reservation at the end of the previous school year or at the beginning of the summer session,” you inform him with an overly patronizing tone. “But I suppose I can make an exception for you since you’re being so polite.” You end your statement with a wink, inviting him in to test the waters.  
Taking your hint, he leans his muscled arms on the high lip of the desk, bringing himself closer into your space. “You’re too kind. Things have been a little difficult since I’m new to the school and wasn’t in the country until last week… and I’d really appreciate your help, princess.” The pet name rolls off his tongue like spiced honey, hot and sweet.
Your brows arch up and you run your tongue over teeth behind your lips as you consider the handsome professor. Most men you meet are either too intimidated or too stupid to give you a fair fight, but this Boba Fett… he might just be the one. Without saying much, he’s said it all: true power doesn’t need to be defended because it speaks for itself. His innate confidence makes your stomach tighten and your blood run hot—this is going to be even more fun than you first thought. “Why don’t you come into my office and I can see what all I can do for you, Professor Fett,” you offer with a flirty smile.
“Please,” he entreats with a saccharine smile, “call me Boba.”
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light-lanterne · 4 months
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was going to write something with will and guns (as inspired by @cosmobrain00's post) but the concept is currently eluding me so i'll leave it for later and instead share the main reason i don't personally like that trope :\
w // mentions of trauma, abuse, violence and death (and guns, of couse)
of course, there is a lot to say about taking a sweet character and forcing him to do something that goes inherently against his nature in an effort to make him "cooler" or "badass", which completely disregards the fact that it's will's "softness" what makes him a strong and compelling character. he remains pure-hearted even after everything he's gone through; he remains gentle even though he has all the reasons to be bitter. taking a tender character like him and giving him a stereotypically masculine and "action hero-esque" role takes away from such qualities, and completely ignores the fact that will has many other strengths and unique abilities he can provide to the overall group dynamic (which make him a much more interesting character than certain other members of the extended party, like hopper).
there is also a lot to say about how pushing the idea of giving him a gun to make him tougher is exactly what lonnie was trying to do with both jonathan and will, and how such behaviour is part of the passive (and active) homophobia lonnie was enacting on will specifically. needless to say, the fact that his abusive, homophobic, physically violent father had a gun in the house would also undeniably be a source of trauma and terror for will, regardless of whether lonnie tried to teach him to use it (like with jonathan) or not.
(making him face this fear would do little for his character arc, though, considering the story's presented that specific point as something for jonathan to face and conquer as opposed to will, whose arc is more oriented towards him facing his upside down-related trauma (which would already have him dealing with his many other sources of trauma, anyway))
and of course, there is the point that guns have been abundantly showcased as completely ineffective against upside down critters, which again, are the main enemy will's been set up to defeat in some way in his recovering-his-life, coming of age journey.
now, those are all the main points why having will use a gun would be nothing but a disservice to his character and his arc. and it's important to note that all these facts have been mentioned abundantly by others in the past,,, but there is something else that i don't think i've seen anyone mention ever, and that is the fact that will quite literally knows what being shot at is like. and i'm not talking about the lenora debacle with unknown hero agent man (where he was thankfully not hit).
i'm taking about that moment in s2 when the demodogs were being shot. and sure, during the hawkins lab siege, will was knocked out and it's unclear if he would've felt anything,,, but during the last sequence, with the party burning the tunnels and el closing the gates, hopper was shooting at dozens of demodogs whilst will was still connected to the mind flayer and thus, he certainly saw and felt everything the demodogs were going through.
(he might've even felt them (himself) die to the gunshot wounds.)
so yeah, i really don't like the idea of giving such a character a gun (which his father would've traumatised him with) and forcing him to kill things with bullets (a feeling he would know even if he's never been directly hit) just so he can look cool and wow other members of the party with how manly and austere he's become.
but i digress >.<
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longsightmyth · 21 hours
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Honestly one of the biggest problems here is that everyone has the same bland, stilted dialogue, and it's all designed to hit every beat of every tortured romance ever without giving us the tortured romance. There did not used to be anything getting in the way of Kelsey and Ren banging outside of my own deep conviction that he was gross, but the characters don't share that view.
So when all the characters speak exactly the same way, it makes them all blend together. When they all speak like wikipedia pages or like a ten year old wrote a conversation they think adults would have, it just adds to the bland and emotionless effect.
Observe.
“Hmm, maybe you have PTSD.”
“What’s that?”
“Post-traumatic stress disorder. It’s a condition you get when you’ve been exposed to terrible trauma and high stress levels. Soldiers in combat usually have it. Remember when you told Kishan that when you heard my name, all you could picture was Lokesh torturing you, questioning you?”
“Right. There’s still some of that, I guess. But now that I know you better I don’t associate you with him as much anymore. I can distance that from you now. It wasn’t because of you that it happened.”
“Part of your symptoms with me might still be related to that. Maybe you need a therapist.”
Ren chuckled, “Kelsey, first of all, a therapist would put me in an asylum for claiming I was a tiger. Second, I’m no stranger to bloody battles or pain. It wasn’t the first time Lokesh has tortured me. It was definitely an experience I wouldn’t want to go through again, but I know that you are not to blame.”
This is by no means the Wikipediaest of sections, but bear with me.
(Also the Tiger question could be resolved by simply turning into a tiger, and even if the therapist did think you were hallucinating or having delusions and good therapist would still try to help you with your ptsd)
(How does Ren know about asylums but not shellshock/ptsd)
(Undergoing similar traumas does not mean you can't have ptsd from one or both)
ANYWAY BEAR WITH ME.
"Maybe you have PTSD," I said, almost to myself.
"PTSD?" Ren asked, sounding out the letters clearly and individually rather than running them all together.
I winced. "Post-traumatic stress disorder. It's a thing a lot of soldiers get, from combat and all the other trauma."
Since I didn't have a whole lot of expert knowledge on the specifics of PTSD, I added quickly, "You told Kishan that when you heard my name, all you could think about was Lokesh torturing you. That's a thing, I think? A flashback."
"Oh, shellshock." Off my look he pointed out, "I was alive during the Great War, Kelsey."
"Right."
"Anyway, that doesn't happen anymore," Ren assured me a little too quickly, and when I frowned at him clarified, "Not often. I know it wasn't your fault. I can tell myself that and it works sometimes."
"I think it's pretty clear you're going to deal with that for a long time," I said, trying not to sound as hurt as I was. "You probably need a therapist."
Ren cracked a laugh. "I'm sure a therapist would believe me about the curse. I'll recover. This isn't the first time I've fought for my life, or even the first time I've been tortured."
I didn't think how many times somebody was tortured mattered much in the grand scheme, but I also didn't think I was going to convince an ancient Indian prince who's been living as a tiger for more than a hundred years to go to therapy in one night.
Even in a linear conversation there's going to be give and take outside of specific circumstances. In a first person narration, you get to add an internal monologue to circle in and around for more fun hijinks. Since this specific conversation is a slow one happening without particular urgency, breaking up the dialogue can convey a thoughtful or slow discussion. Giving the characters specific knowledge or different knowledge or the same kind of knowledge under different terms because the characters have different backgrounds informs the characters and makes them distinguishable from the others.
Anyway. This isn't the only way to rework this bit, but it's A way.
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wetcatspellcaster · 4 months
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Not only do I love your writing, with many a snippets living rent free in my head, and now you are spoiling us with these DVD commentary posts! Oh, and here's on:
As her arcane vision opened, and she was greeted by a hexagonal chamber, wrought from white marble. The proportions of the chamber were briefly dizzying, and off-putting enough to require adjustment to - its walls were high, suggesting a tower, with long, thin, arched windows and a mural in the domed ceiling. Everything was deathly still, and quiet.
And at the chamber's centre, a pristine white coffin.
Its lid was carved into an ornate frieze of flowers, foliage, and winged birds. All its fastenings were pale white gold, the clasps inlaid with rubies. Rose felt her consciousness tugged like a boat anchored, as the hairpin focus called her forward.
When Rose approached the coffin, she heard stifled, harried breathing within. This was truly Astarion’s resting place, then - and close enough for him to cross planes in the time it had taken them to make it to their own sanctuary. He was already inside, recovering from the death she’d willed upon him. If she’d been real, in this moment, Rose would’ve laid her hand upon the surface of the casket.
Echoing from within the coffin, came a long, gravelly groan, that ended in a series of stuttered breaths.
Ah, Rose thought, skin burning in the material plane. Not in too much pain, then.
And... definitely Astarion.
She hastily backed herself away from the coffin, rising up through the centre of the strange, pristine room to the nearest window. It seemed the quickest way to find out more information on their current location, and to leave him to whatever… that was. She felt the connection finesse itself and stretch taut, finding the limits of her own concentration as she drifted up-
Rosalie felt the temperature drop drastically as she came up to the arched window. Its glass was rimed with frost, small glittering starbursts of ice lining the edges and patching the view in places with fronds of glimmering crystal. Beyond, a pale, snow-covered landscape with no signs of life, only mountains that were impossible to scale, and a sky that was brutally dark. A night blue as ink with not a single star to light it, only pulses of colour in an aurora of paler blue and deep, bruise purple, fluttering in and out of existence and rippling through the endless, dark sky like a wave.
Rosalie did the disembodied, arcane equivalent of pressing her ear against the glass. The metal of the window frame felt so cold, it burned across her mind like flame. Though the air inside the chamber was still, she thought she heard the high, roaring howl of a merciless wind.
...why did I not realise that when I offered up DVD Commentary the 'is he wanking in his coffin' segment was bound to come back to haunt me :-)
Curse you, anon (affectionate).
I spoke a lot about where I wanted to put the coffin in the endnotes, but there are many spoiler-y reasons why I decided on Cania as the ideal place, to the point where it caused me to ignore the fact that it technically broke Scry. I'm going to try and give teasers here for the fun of it, but unfortunately a lot of my commentary on this section is going to be [REDACTED] bc it's setting up some (I think) very fun and sexy plot-twists later. Maybe I'll just use this space to be really indulgent and point out some instances of foreshadowing just to annoy readers into guessing what they might mean.
I really love the Hells in general in D&D - I'm not just brain poisoned by the House of Hope, I've always been obsessed with the very D&D specific distinction between Lawful Evil and Chaotic Evil and what Hell, as the Lawful Evil plane, looks like as a result.
Cania is Mephistopheles' domain, I based the choice that they would be in contact not just on the fact that the Black Mass is Mephistopheles' plan, but also on that one line in Ascendent!Astarions dialogue with spawn!Tav when he mentions 'Mephistopheles' gifts', as if they're on first name terms and pals now.
The description of Cania was based on what lore I could glean from online searches and also Descent Into Avernus. Cania isn't actually spoken about in great detail to be honest, it's basically lifeless, cold, and barren. Which...was already prime Gothic vampire imagery, tbh, but then I found this line on the wiki: 'Preserved corpses were frequently uncovered after collisions between glaciers.' I see Ascended!Astarion essentially, at this point, as a 'preserved corpse', particularly when contrasted to Rose's aging, so I figured it was fate.
Also idk if people have googled Mephistopheles but based on his wiki description... it seems like him and Ascendent!Astarion would get along :)))))
The flashes/aurora in the sky are meant to be a sign of arcane activity, Cania is characterised by Mephistopheles 'overseeing endless experiments with arcane magic [...] conducted throughout the wastes of the layer.'
The inside of Astarion's infernal palace registers to Rosalie as warm, but the world outside is very, very cold. There. That is my only piece of foreshadowing that I can highlight here. Make of it what you will.
Also.... yes, he was wanking in the coffin :') at least, in my vision as an author. But tbh the responses in comments were so valid, and I now also have a very funny image of it being a combination of a wank and a panic attack, which... you know... if you're an invulnerable, all-powerful vampire who's become alienated from your own humanity and your own emotions, maybe being scared *does* get you off?
Also shout out to the commenters who imagined what she overheard was actually just a Blood of Lathander style temper tantrum. Imagining an alternative version of this scene where Rosalie goes over to the coffin, here's a tea kettle high voice going "Power Word Kill! Power Word Kill!!" and goes "...ah, that's Astarion alright. Just like the old days." and then moves on with her life.
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olderthannetfic · 1 year
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Firstly, thanks for giving me advice about the adhedonia not long ago, knowing how it's called the thing I tend to suffer (apart of the TDA, LOL) most of time helped me a lot —an also thanks to the other people to gave me tips in that post too. I'm feeling better because, well, Christmas vacations are coming! So that means I'll be able to recover more mental health and finally write again, even if it's just a month.
Now I want to ask for more tips that are... How can I organize longfics? I'm a messy person, like... I don't even write the ideas my brain vomit to me at random times, and even when I tell my friends about it that messages end up being buried alive. I kinda used to organize things when I was like, 14yo. It was still messy as hell but least so, now I'm straight up refusing to even do lists. But I feel that if I not know to organize some things I won't able to finish a longfic never ever never again.
I know that there are like, templates? For organizing plot-points and characters and all of that, but I can't recall how they're called. But more importantly than that, I want to know how other people like to organize their things and see if something clicks with me! (Specially because I recall seeing posts like this here on Tumblr but I can't find them)
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Oh man, this is such a great question.
I'm all about structure. My plotbunnies tend to come with a lot of plot attached, and I like genres with defined structures (cozy mystery, crime procedural).
I use spreadsheets for everything, including this, but now that I use Scrivener, often, I just use a text document there.
I start by laying out all the parts of the plot that I already have, then I try to make them an academic outline like:
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This helps me see where I have a lopsided structure with tons of detail one place and none another. I also look at the timeline as the characters experience it and adjust. If I. takes 24 hours and II. three months, that tells me something about how much detail should be in each, what the final page count should be, etc.
Generally, longer stories that are satisfying have a structure with multiple peaks and dips in action, and the later peaks are higher than the earlier ones.
I find this kind of chart or fitting one's story into a five act structure or whatever to be helpful when you have a good plotbunny that just isn't quite working for some reason, but you know at least parts of it are sound. It helps point out a spot you might be overlooking from familiarity.
I don't find most of these external structures at all helpful for generating plotbunnies. If you have an instinct for structure from years of consuming media, you'll come up with something that works better than following a formula you can't really feel.
Most structures exist to try to explain why some blockbuster movie works retroactively anyway. Unless it's literally theater and there are literally intermissions between chunks, little is set in stone. Even plays often have the "wrong" thing in Act I.
I'll see breakdowns of some novel and they talk about the "inciting incident" or whatever beat in the plot formula, and I'm like "You picked that part as that beat? Really?" Like... I agree the plot formula is basically sound and I agree the book being analyzed is great, but I don't think the formula applies to the book in a super straightforward way that everyone would agree on.
The hero's journey is so fucking general that you can retrofit it to almost any story that has any sort of physical or spiritual journey. But I don't find it inspiring on its own because it is so general. It doesn't actually explain why a particular subgenre's plots work without one adding a lot more detail and specificity.
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I tend to put down all my notes on what should be in a story, then rearrange them in story order as I figure that out. I might have a section at the end for things I haven't placed yet or revision notes. I'm a very logical person and work in order a lot. Hell, I write in order, which is generally a terrible idea and even trips me up when I get to a hard bit and waste time instead of moving on. But it's how my brain mostly operates.
Out of the various canned methods, the one I adopted the most from was the Snowflake Method. I like the idea of outlining and then making it more detailed and then EVEN MORE DETAILED till the "first draft" is basically paint by numbers. Some people find that extremely limiting though.
Another thing I try to keep track of is some very basic "What's the point?" or "What's the big change?" notes. I don't do extensive character sheets or big writeups external to the main prose of the story. I don't do exercises where I interview my characters. None of that feels useful to me. It's too much, and I get lost in the weeds. God... I feel like I should be saving this for my patreon.
Uh... anyway, I try to have a big note to write towards that's like "Character X thinks they want A but it's really a symptom of needing B" or "The point of this fic is the big twist in chapter 11" (so I either need to set up emotions that really lay the groundwork for the twist to be a big deal or I need to lay the red herrings to make the twist a shock or whatever).
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indecisive-dizzy · 3 months
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Ramble about Eddie to your heart’s content, bestie :D
I’m honestly very interested in your ideas :3
Again, don’t be scared to just ramble in my ask box, I love hearing peoples ideas
AJDKKAGAJAKAK- THANK YOU <3 <3
I'm wailing rn /pos
My AU! Disabled Eddie!! Ok so he wasn't born with his disability, it came about later.
My Current story is that he had stroke in late middle/early high school! I have done research and Yes it is possible for teens and younger to have strokes. From what I recall it can be significantly worse for them compared to adult strokes
Eddie was left with permanent complications and is disabled bc of it. He has coordination, balance, and general mobility complications among a list of other post stroke effects. I just found the word I was looking for a few days ago to describe his mobility issues, it's Ataxia!
Eddie has to deal with bouts of muscle weakness on his right side which can effect his vision. He also gets vertigo a Lot and at this point dizziness is expected every time he stands.
He uses forearm crutches when he needs extra help walking bc he does have good days where he may not need them! But for longer distances he brings them bc he's better safe than sorry. He also has cane but he doesn't use it As much.
He also has a wheelchair that he Hates. He hates having to use it. But his Really horrible days leave him unable to stand, much less walk. He wishes he could just hide it somewhere and never think about it but alas. it's important.
He dislikes the wheelchair so much bc it makes him feel useless. He is Not! I want to clarify that wheelchair users are perfectly Capable and Independent! Eddie just has an issue with overachieving and working himself too hard. He wants to be helpful and do So Much but there are some things he can't do while in his wheelchair. He was stuck in a chair for months after his stroke and it was devastating back then. He has No good memories with a wheelchair so he continues to dislike using it.
Ok putting a read more bc I am not shutting up for a While
Relationships with the neighbors! Generally the same. Barnaby doesn't chase him bc that would be mean (? I can't think of a better way to describe it)
Sally is still Sally but she's specific on her mailman hate (lmao) to make sure Eddie and everyone else knows she's not faulting him for his disability.
Hmm yeah everything else is pretty much the same. I guess everyone is also more open about offering Eddie help from time to time if he looks like he needs an extra hand. They're not persistent or anything, but if they see him struggling to carry a package or two they're more inclined to help.
I still don't know how Howdy gets his shit. Honestly If Eddie is having a crutch or chair day,, Howdy just won't get his stock unless he gets it himself. I can't think of a way for Eddie to deliver all those heavy ass boxes.
He does ask people to pick up their packages occasionally too. He tries to deliver them all himself but it's not always possible. He offers a trolley they can use.
I want to talk about angst. So this is very specific, I'll try to keep it short. growing up, Eddie lived in a four bedroom house. two downstairs master bedrooms and two upstairs normal bedrooms. Before his stroke he was upstairs, his older brother in the other room, and his older sister in the bedroom downstairs.
Afterwards he had to move downstairs. His sister Hated this. She loved her room and her private bathroom and she was very prissy about it.
This snowballed into her just,, taking all her frustrations out on Eddie. He took Her Bedroom. He's getting all the attention. Her little brother was ruining everything.
Eddie was devastated by this. He went as far as to attempt to convince his parents to let them switch rooms again. He couldn't physically walk up the stairs most days but he just wanted his big sister to not hate him anymore.
Their relationship never fully recovered. As an adult Eddie will still find ways to blame himself and feel guilty. But he just can't bring himself to talk to her.
They used to be so close. She let Eddie experiment with her makeup, they talked about fashion and boys and she helped him so so much when he was questioning his sexuality.
and then it just, fell apart. But not quietly like a loose thread but rather a house that wasn't built quite right and the screws came loose one by one.
Eddie's memory gets really fuzzy when thinking that far back. but some of those memories are burned into his mind and he wishes he could forget them like he does everything else.
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can i just say. despite fandom being unable to read nuance for shit, i LOVE how brennan is playing asmodeus. like, the slimy bastard played zerxus like a FIDDLE. 'are you tricking me' 'people often think im tricking them, and i never have anything to say to that because what can you say to someone who assumes you are going to trick them' I SEE YOU DODGING THE QUESTION MISTER LORD THE HELLS, SPINNER OF SWEET UNTRUTHS. anyway screaming. how am i meant to wait another week for the next episode.
Ok first off agreed on all counts although I do feel like I need a week just to recover so I'll wait; second off props for being a rare example of a correct use of "nuance" because that word gets thrown around a lot in incorrect ways; third off I'm going to ramble in a tangential manner because of who I am as a person.
I feel like people get very weird about D&D Deities (D&Deities) in a way that's very transparent to me, a person from a minority religion and with a background that has always encouraged a critical analysis of one's beliefs and practices. It feels like in a lot of cases people have decided on a specific narrative they want to see or a point they want the show to be making about religion and will pretend it's showing them that even when it's absolutely not.
Like, I've seen people claim that Brennan is anti-religion (in a way intended to be complimentary) even though how he's covered religion in Dimension 20 at least is actually best described in this post. He's not - he's got, unsurprisingly, a philosophy major's take on religion - but they are and they want to see that and so they tell themselves they're seeing that.
I think a lot of people really want D&D lore, which is, to an extent, inspired heavily by Christianity, to be wrong in a "fuck you, mom and dad" sort of way. It's like a 14-year-old buying a pentagram necklace for shock value kind of deal - wouldn't it be so cool if Asmodeus were actually the good guy and it's like no actually we quite literally know the story and he is not. The lore of Exandria is that the Primordials began to slaughter the people of the world - whom, I should point out, all the gods created - and that devils (beings created by Asmodeus) came to "feast on the carnage", and the Betrayers upon seeing this abandoned their creations. It doesn't matter if there was sympathy for the Primordials - and I would hesitate to trust, you know, the god of lies - but even if there was it comes with a massive abdication of responsibility. The absentee parent metaphor cuts both ways. just flipped which beliefs were good and bad.
Anyway so in some cases it's people not picking up on all the nuances - and to be fair, I know how this ends and I do not like Asmodeus and I still felt for him at times due to the incredible acting, and I cannot fault Zerxus for acting like that, given the context of his time and his life - but in some cases it's people who made up their minds on how the story should go long before it started airing and refuse to admit they were wrong.
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I just had a thought bc I looked at the graduation post (doing the master post rn) and: do they go back to Hope's Peak after they recover on Jabberwock or do they transfer to another? Does Togami build a private school for them? Naegi can become headmaster there after he quits FF for good, like he was the headmaster of HPA in their flashback of it (you got to that point, right? you have already seen Kiibo in his school shooter era so I think this was happening at the same time). Cause I don't think any of them would want to go back. If you have specific ages in mind for things like when Shuichi and Kaito were attacked, when he worked at mcdonalds, when they start school and how long they're at NHPA before the Horrors happen then it's the high time to cough them up, if you don't have them I'll provide bc I'm clarifying the timeline as I go. Also, do you want a sneak peek or do you want to wait to see the master post when it's done?
I pull open a little file I grabbed from my bag. It’s filled to the brim with worms. After finishing out milkshakes I got our server get us some more fries (on the house, I’m friends with the owner) the music from the jukebox and the hurried movement of kids fresh out of class gives the establishment a feeling of energy, that every part of it is alive.
To be completely honest with you I’m not 100% sure if they’d go back to NHPA. Not because I think they’d consider going back to the school as is but because I don’t fully know what will happen to the school. Hell NHPA could end up closing lmao. Honestly at this point I think I’m gonna wait til I get to the end of ch6 (planning on watching it this weekend!) to make that decision.
Lightning round! The Incident with Kaito and Shuichi happened when they were in their last year of middle school, that’s also the same year Shuichi started working at McDonalds, and The Horrors happened a few months into the first semester of their first year at NHPA
Also I’d absolutely LOVE to see a sneak peek bestie!!
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i am so fucking sad tonight and i used to put that stuff on here like a decade ago so here we are again ig. just.
really horrid combination of things happening right now and it makes me extra upset bc i'm into my second month on low-dose t and the first month was going so fucking well for like. being conducive to the last of my trauma recovery? and then, of course, recovery isn't linear and also my parents seem intent to retraumatise me whenever they can. but like.
english terf hits our shores
completely inescapable discourse, and also targeted abuse, on twitter and elsewhere. also i wrote an op-ed bc our media are useless and we need at least a few trans voices out there (hopefully it does get picked up, but it was gruelling to write)
my mother switches from spreading conspiracy theories about climate change to a sudden and vicious focus on trans people. not that she ever stopped being a bigot but usually it's one post every few months about how conversion therapy works and not several posts a day from people who want trans people murdered
scheduled to be interviewed for a study on conversion therapy survivors on tuesday
scheduled to go on holiday with my family on thursday. i booked a separate room so i won't have to attempt to take my (oral, twice daily with food, specifically bc the endo didn't want me on injections until we knew for sure i wouldn't need to suddenly stop t to avoid extended ptsd episodes) testosterone around family who would be very willing to attempt conversion therapy round fucking four on me
i have no idea if my job will still be there for me when i get back from this scheduled leave bc [gestures at tech companies and ai]
conference all day monday (tomorrow, technically) that i know will eat all my spoons, and that doesn't cater for my dietary needs so i'll have to pack food
and it's like. i am so sad. i am so so sad. i have been making a concerted effort w my family because my paatti (dad's mother) is in town, the one i've talked about before who doesn't know i'm gay and married bc my parents have prevented that happening. and i feel so lonely and so cut off bc as a diaspora/migrant family, and a mixed one at that, my only connection to my cultures is via my parents who fucking hate who i am. so i've been trying to hang out with her when they're not around. i said yes to this vacation, we'll get more time together and some pictures and stuff.
but i'm still fielding her questions about why i don't have a boyfriend. and my parents have decided to, right when i'm most stressed about being trans, and about connection to family, be the worst people they can be about it again i guess? and it's true that my conversion therapy/parental/religion trauma is the stuff i've never come back around to working on in therapy bc my parents are actively reopening the wound every few months and it's. hard to work with that.
fucking like. shocking that i recovered from ptsd once, after [black box of getting csaed more times than i can count], immediately got groomed in a way that's rly fucking complicated to talk about bc my ex is a trans woman who decided to come out as a child-grooming rapist and as trans in the same month, and terfs salivate over the idea of using people like her as a cudgel, and completely forgot that approximately 300 other things, sa and otherwise, happened to me along the way to the point where my psych said she was surprised/proud i haven't killed anyone yet.
so i'm sad about all of them at once rn except the brain injury means i can only hold about two in my active memory at a time and i keep alternating which ones i'm sad about like shuffling several decks of cards really fast i guess.
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Daily Replays #1, 3/22/2023, GGST
Since this is the first one of these I'm posting, a short explanation is in order. I'm planning to post a replay every day (or at least most days) to this blog, along with match analysis. This is both because I think it will help people understand the games and how to analyze them better and because I think it'll improve my gameplay.
This match was against a friend of mine from Giocord, Hex. They're a damn good Gio/Testament player, and while I win this game, I feel obligated to mention that the final score just versus their testament was something like 5 to 17. Analysis under the cut!
ROUND 1: Doesn't start off great - I try to force a few interactions against Testament which doesn't work well in this matchup, as Chipp can almost never beat Testament's buttons outright. I burst early which wasn't a conscious tactical decision on my part but was probably good since it means I'll have burst later in the game. My movement's also a bit too pre-emptive early on, so I get caught by crow. After that first bit I escape the corner with some solid movement after a fuzzy, and then get my big chance when I backdash the throw from Hex (on read, by which I mean I was just trying to make space rather than calling out throw specifically. If they had gone for a button, I'd probably have lost.) Rest of the round is pretty standard - I just keep the momentum I got there, mostly winning interactions by being first. Most noteworthy points are me getting hit by a burst I tried to bait because Hex smartly delayed it, me instant-blocking the first hit of Testament H Fireball, which nets me a juicy punish, and the super wallbreak which gave Hex a lot of burst, but was necessary to win the round.
ROUND 2: This one starts with some smart use of 6P on both sides. I'm generally reluctant to use Chipp's 6P, as it's extremely slow to recover, but it's a good choice for contesting air options and covers a solid amount of space done out of a dash. I also need to be more careful of Testament's 6P when they're on defense. My movement this round is a lot cleaner - I wait for the crow rather than jumping fireball, allowing me to get in without getting cursed and get a nice wallbreak. I mess up my safejump and don't improvise well, which ultimately leads to my loss as I'm counterhit, burst, then get put on defense and ultimately deleted with anti-air c.S.
ROUND 3: Next round I start out playing a bit too passively. It's not bad to be cautious in this matchup, but just blocking crow rather than jumping it puts me in a bad situation. I think incomprehensibly go in as soon as I have curse on me and eat a CH 2D for my trouble (a good callout from Hex.) The round turns in my favor when Hex drops the combo and I challenge with a button that probably shouldn't have reached, but does. I get CH 2H, Hex bursts correctly but gets baited because I was not prepared to convert from the CH 2H. The rest of the round I drop several setups and combos, almost losing the round for it. I also fail to contest f.S effectively like 3 times in a row, but win because I had established a lead already and finally manage to 6P a f.S and convert to Rekka Rekka Super for the win.
And that's that! The sets today were super fun, and a good confidence booster even though I didn't actually do that well numberswise. Don't expect my analysis to be this in-depth every time, by the by - I'll write as much as I feel like, which may not always be this much. Last but not least, if you want to know more about any particular thing here, let me know, and if any of the terminology is confusing, check my pinned post resources or ask me!
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For the fanfic writing asks: 7, 18, 26, 29, 78
7. Post a snippet from a wip.
so here's a short one that i haven't shown you before; after the readmore i'll add a longer one that you've already seen but i still wanna post lol
"Nice outfit." [Raihan turns and sees Piers coming around the corner.] "I didn't fool you for a second, did I?" [they say, grinning.] "You kiddin'? I'd clock those mako eyes of yours anywhere." [The reference gets a good chortle out of them.] "Hahaha! I'm a first-class SOLDIER, don't you know? Macro Cosmos enhanced me with Eternatus cells." "Oh my god, can you imagine?" [They share a good laugh together.]
(the brackets are supposed to indicate like, placeholder text or stage directions that i wanna edit later but in practice i end up bracketing most non-dialogue text on the first pass LOL,,,, it's fine,)
18. Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?
most of the time i do! it's fun to learn new things, of course. but sometimes, man, i feel like i'm trying to roll a boulder up a mountain (labeled "executive dysfunction" like in a freaking political cartoon) and just not getting anywhere with it. as for which fics need the most research, uh, probably any of the ones where i have to write in a language i don't speak ^-^;;; which so far is just Merlin's Bairns and The Day To End All Days. and really the former was entirely in scots whereas the latter just has scots dialogue, so you might think the former unequivocally needed more research. but here's the thing... end all days has a single line of scottish gaelic... and having to come up with that seriously tipped the scales the other way i think. lmao
26. What’s your least favorite part of the writing process?
proooobably coming up with the first draft of anything... the process of putting ideas down on paper for the first time is always so strenuous for me. for some people, being able to just stream-of-conscious that shit into the text editor is a legitimate skill that needs to be developed, and i'm one of them 😔 not that doing the editing afterwards is always a breeze either... ahhhh
29. What’s something about your writing that you’re proud of?
i've gotten this question a couple times in the past, and let's see, i've already talked about my dialogue writing... and i think i've mentioned my fluff fics too... so how about something else? i like what i can come up with when i put a word limit on myself! i feel like i can convey a fair bit even when i don't have a lot of words to work with.
78. What motivates you during the writing process?
........... divine providence mostly LMAO. uhhh in general i have trouble staying motivated throughout a personal project, or any protracted endeavor. when it comes to creative works, though, i can usually get some fuel out of wanting to see something fairly-to-extremely specific come to life. if i wait for someone else to make things that cater to my niche interests i'll be waiting basically forever, so it's up to me to write about leon trapped in a time loop, or hop trying charcuterie with his new brother raihan, or an autistic grad student falling in love with an autistic himbo jock in a surreal post-post-apocalyptic world... well, you get the point! not to mention it's fun to see people's reactions to my fairly-to-extremely specific ideas :)
the longer wip excerpt that i said i'd post:
[context: gloria and victor just got their gym challenge uniforms, before the motostoke opening ceremony]
"Glo! Get a load'a this. Did you know that numbers with leading zeroes count as different to numbers without?" [he informs her, holding up the top to show off what's printed on the back: Victor 001.] "What!" is her first, honest reaction. But she recovers quick enough to jab at him, "That just makes you a discount Leon, y'know." "Shut up," Victor retorts cheerfully, taking the locker next to hers. "You're just mad you didn't think of it first." [It's a funny move, so she is a little jealous. But she's also pretty happy with her own number, 102, even if no one but Victor and Hop is allowed to know why she picked it.] "Positively fuming, aye. So is it pronounced 'zero-zero-one' or 'oh-oh-one'?" "Uhhh, it's just, 'one'. The zeroes are, uh, silent." He can't even finish his sentence without laughing. "Okay, sure. Whatever. You gonna catch a foongus and start saying 'let's have a champignon time' too?" [cackling] "No, you git! Hop's gonna think I'm a freak!!"
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ammanee · 1 year
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…. ItaSasu fic recs??? 🙏
Thanks for the ask! I've actually got a page with a few already posted. It's very much a work in progress. [Edit: I just updated the page with some of the fics from this post, so if you see them on there, that's why.]
Here are a few more.
Serendipity by ChasingXepher
"Sasuke is finally adjusting to life after the war while mending his bond with Itachi after 10 years of absence. During a rainy night, Sasuke lets down his walls and opens up to the older Uchiha seeking comfort."
Not ItaSasu, just gen, but it's a very tender moment between the Uchiha brothers. Had me crying. :')
Autumn of Appetite by Lilyfei
A cute one-shot, it's het ItaSasu and written in Mandarin. Google Translate can be a little weird with the idioms, but the "feeling" behind the text is still there, and context clues usually clear things up in the end.
soothe and settle by vaguelyfriendlyreptile
"Sasuke lingered in the hall outside the bathroom door in a way that suggested he wasn’t entirely there— doing nothing but standing, absently listening to the running faucet."
Another gen, hurt/comfort. I think it's a non-massacre AU. Sasuke was captured by the enemy and tortured during a failed mission. Itachi takes care of him in the aftermath.
You Know We'll Have Children... by Noctis_Karell
"Sasuke learns that only marriages within the clan allow you to keep the Sharingan. Of the relatives, by a lucky chance, there is one Itachi ..."
Pure crack. This one's written in Russian. Sasuke's priorities have reversed; restoring the clan is more important to him than revenge. He pressures Itachi into sex and Itachi thinks he's insane. There's a bit about Itachi not being able to resist because he hasn't had sex in a long time, and his hands are so calloused they feel like sandpaper. "To shreds you say?" Still makes me laugh.
[Third and final edit, I removed one of these recs because it just doesn't seem to fit, in retrospect. It's well written and funny, but the humor isn't worth recommending a fic with sexual content where Sasuke's only 14. My apologies. I'll be making a new list soon but it takes a while.]
Good Liar by MAKandCHEESE
"But who am I to try to salvage anything when you're free of me? Who am I to look at you and love you when I tell you to take me down. Force me down to my knees? It's just the same as before. I'm good at lying to myself."
Another pre-reveal fic (I think?) written in 2009. Itachi watches Sasuke sleep, while imagining a future where things have gone differently. In the fantasy, he and Sasuke are out on a mission in the woods. Sasuke has just turned 18 and he loses his virginity to Itachi. In reality, Itachi's massacred their clan and Sasuke hates him.
Fake by chennianjiushi
A dark fic. Also written in Mandarin, but this one translates a lot better. Sasuke is not mentally well in the aftermath of Itachi's death. I can't remember the specifics because it's been a while since I read it, but somehow there is a clone (?) made of Itachi, and Sasuke brings him back to Konoha as his "son". Sasuke parentifies Itachi's clone, who quickly figures out he is being used as a replacement for Sasuke's dead brother. As he ages, he starts to get more and more glimpses of Itachi's memories. When he's in his late teens they begin a sexual relationship. There is some coercion and force at first (from the clone), so a dub-con/non-con warning is mandatory here. It reminds me a bit of "What He Wanted" and "In Power We Entrust The Love Advocated", by A_Hawk. (These fics are recommended as well, they're two of my favorites.)
That's it for now. If you like any of them, feel free to send in some more asks telling me which ones (and why)!
[Edit: I mislabeled the last fic when I called it "dark". Spoilers ahead.]
I'm rereading it right now because it's such a favorite, and there is a turning point that occurs when Itachi's "clone" recovers his lost memories (about half-way through). He's not a clone. He truly is Itachi, since his soul has been called into a body made from Sasuke's cells. Sasuke seals his memories because he wants Itachi to live an unburdened life, but unfortunately, he repeats very similar mistakes with Itachi that Itachi had with him. Once Itachi recovers his old memories, he has experienced two lifetimes from scratch. He maintains the new life's memories and they merge with the old ones, which affects his "old self" deeply.
One of the reasons I love this fic so much (and can't stop talking about it, apparently) is that it manages to humanize Itachi in a way I've never seen another fic do before. Before he gets his old memories back, you watch him struggle with feeling unwanted, betrayed, and abandoned, and having the sense that he is an imposter. He feels that he is a stand-in for someone Sasuke truly loves. No matter what he does, he can never get Sasuke's love for himself. Sasuke keeps insisting that he is not Itachi, he just shares his name, because Sasuke doesn't want him to live with such a burden. But Itachi doesn't know this; he feels that every time Sasuke insists on making a distinction, it's because he doesn't love him since he's just a replacement (hence the title). He feels that he only gets Sasuke's misdirected love when Sasuke thinks he's someone else. Each time he finds out something new about his "uncle's" life, or Sasuke mistakenly calls him "brother", lies to him, or breaks promises, Itachi's jealousy and bitterness grow and grow.
I've only seen a handful of fics that attempt a role reversal between the Uchiha brothers. It's typically that Itachi gets revived when Sasuke is older, and more powerful than him due to the Rinnegan, or there is some time travel element that sends adult!Sasuke back in time to when Itachi is a child. There are even some that deal with amnesia (like A_Hawk's fic, mentioned above). In all of these cases, Itachi either has memories of Sasuke being his younger brother, or he is already an adult. To me, these scenarios don't quite reverse the roles. They almost do, but there's something missing. If Itachi has memories of Sasuke being younger, needing and relying on him, he still has the mentality of being an authority figure (which fits with Sasuke's mentality of needing him). If Itachi's an adult, he can already take care of himself and other people, so he can provide what Sasuke needs.
In this fic, it's not possible for Itachi (in his new life) to be what Sasuke needs. He's not equipped with what it takes to do that. Itachi's no longer the powerful, mysterious, unconditionally loving, self sacrificial figure that he was in canon. He can't be; he's just a child who needs Sasuke to take care of him, at least at the beginning. You get to see Itachi grow up from scratch -- vulnerable, confused, aggrieved at Sasuke, even vindictive toward him. He becomes so jealous that he tells Sasuke the old Itachi never loved him, but "I love you, so love me instead". This all changes when Itachi gets his memories back, and realizes he is the very person he was jealous of his whole life -- and then Sasuke sacrifices himself for him, and Itachi even gets to experience the pain of that form of survivor's guilt.
Luckily, there is a happy ending. Some good old fashioned ninja magic brings Sasuke back, too. I love seeing the synthesis that gets created when Itachi's new and old memories merge; he becomes so much more well-rounded. He gains a whole new understanding of Sasuke that would never have been possible without his new life under his belt. In the end it's a really heartwarming story. I can't recommend this fic enough.
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Hey Kiyaar, I know we haven't talked too much, so I hope I'm not bothering you during a low spoon period, but I'd been getting a little bit into astrology when you posted your 'calculating natal charts for blorbos with maximum traumatic impact' post and it was really clear and straightforward and I really enjoyed reading it! So I figured maybe I could take a chance and message you to see if you could point me in the direction of astrology resources you've found useful (book or web)?
Because it turns out my latest bout of health issues that have completely kicked my ass, (and have still not recovered from in 6 years,) started on my Saturn return and uhhhh I just learned Jupiter returns are also a thing and my Jupiter is in Taurus so mine is about to start in May, (followed by my north node return in Pisces in 2025,) and I keep trying to look for ways to make it hopefully kick my ass less because honestly I am beyond exhausted right now. But all the sites I keep looking at are very froo-froo three-sentence-paragraph-summaries useless when it comes to advice for dealing with a Jupiter/north node return and the lack of useful information is starting to make me into a ball of anxiety, (or more of one than normal). If you have the spoons to spare to in order to pass along any resources you'd recommend I'd be incredibly grateful. If not, I hope you have a better day soon. I'll send you some good vibes either way.
@loving-that-officey-feel I am SO SORRY i took a year and a day to answer this HI, please do not worry, I very much love this question, I have several resources for you and my favorite one and the most comprehensive is my go-to Just Forks resource, and it is The Astrology Podcast w Chris Brennan. You can listen on any platforms or directly on the website, or I guess you can watch the eps on Youtube because sometimes they will show you visually the chart they are talking about and that's helpful if you need ref visuals. I listen to a lot of these while I have migraines. The eps range from very accessible to incredibly advanced topics, and it's been running for years so there is a wealth of knowledge there. Check out the ep on the nodes (290 + also 127). Like sometimes I am like. I don't really understand [concept] that keeps getting mentioned. I wonder if there is an ep on that. There is. I like this podcast because his approach is incredibly scholarly (he is very Saturnian and I like that) and he brings tons of people on and he generally has v good taste in guests. They're all super weird and interesting. If you want to learn the landscape, he has a series on each planet and on each sign and even just listening to those one by one gives you a framework. You're asking me about a specific transit and I really like Robert Hand's books, I have one of them (Planets in Transit) but there are several; I am always on the lookout for a copy of Planets in Aspect at my used bookstore. He is like. An old man who I believe has a background in Hellenistic Astrology, so his books don't include the Nodes and are speculative about some Uranus transits because most people only experience Uranus transiting into a new house once per lifetime and he wrote it in the 70s. But it's great ref for looking up transits as they happen/what they are specifically doing in my chart. ETA I have, since writing this, listened to an ep of the astrology podcast that indicated that Robert Hand wrote this book and it then ended up becoming like a cornerstone text and held up remarkably well esp considering the stuff about Pluto (newer discovery). The nodes are a thing from Evolutionary Astrology, which is some new age stuff and people most commonly ascribe the NN/SN to current life path/past life baggage/gifts, which isn't like. My favorite. I I think maybe it can be useful to think of the South Node as a representation of stuff you're naturally good at/fluent in, and the North Node as stuff that you need to work consciously to lean into more because it will help you if you do. Mostly the nodes just tell you where the eclipse cycles for the next few years are gonna be and help you situate that in your chart. On Jupiter return - this is general because I can't see your chart or know what's aspecting your jupiter/other taurus placements, etc, but generally Jupiter returns are nicer (unless you have a really debilitated Jupiter for some reason), I would worry more about that Saturn return! How Jupiter in Taurus is gonna be really depends on what house it's in (it's not a bad Jupiter placement), and how it's aspecting your chart ruler/malefics in your chart. I hope this helps! Other books I've been wanting to look at but haven't include Chani's You Were Born For This (I like her app too) Anti-recs: Co-Star (app), Jessica Lanyadoo (i'm tired of hearing her tell everyone to try mindfulness), most tiktok astrologers (they all pass around the hot transit content every 3-4 days) If i missed anything or didn't answer to your satisfaction my box is open!
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