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#🙃 am I bitter
betty-bourgeoisie · 1 year
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It occurs to me that, sense there does seem to be an uptick in new people joining the Hetalia fandom and things are a little less 'the same five people reblogging from each other' then they were even a month ago, it would probably be good to start doing image description on fandom posts for accessibility
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guardian-angle22 · 11 months
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So just throwing this other point for why it doesn't make sense from a story telling point to kill off Gabriel. He's also law enforcement and they can bring him out for plot points they want to explore that don't make sense for Carlos and then not have to spend time finding another actor to cast as a Texas ranger. And if I remember right Tim justified killing off Gwyn and Charles because he didn't know what to do with them. I have no idea what this tragedy is but hopefully it isn't something that makes zero narrative sense like killing off Gabriel or cruel like giving Tk huntingtons disease
[follow up to this post]
Hmmm that is a very good point!
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Mark this under The Dreaded Thing is Not Happening column, thank you for your contribution!
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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#how am i feeling? i am not feeling good#ok i feel better than i did 5min ago. itll b fine but Jesus#so basically what happened is its supposrd to snow tomorrow night so i have to get some sampling done tomorrow morning#and i do not like big short notice changes. there's like a 30% i will flip out#and the sampling i have to do is at 3 sites that i would love to never step into ever again. i have so much bitterness and hate toward that#study. it was the start of the end. and by the end i mean the epic downward spiral that was my 2022 experience#so ngl i wish they would catch on fire. but not really bc theyre long term study sites that have been going since like the 80s#anyway. i have to do that tomorrow. also also in sampling these sites im adding 80 samples to my list#which means ill be taking measurements for an extra 5 days 🤪 thats gonna be at least 39 days of measurements 🤪🤪🤪#and last time i did this i starting losing my god damn mind. and i cant do that now bc i have to pretend ive got everything together#so yeah im just at the stage of anticipating pain for the start of all that and ive gotta get up early tomorrow and its already late#and i spend like an hour crying into an excel spreadsheet so my eyes r tired#so ya kno its good. its all good. good good good. great. im soooo happy#and i do not at all feel the urge to throw myself to the ground screaming like a toddler#im just standing here in this grave ive dug myself over the past year and now its time for the universe to start burying me#hhhh... i should sleep. so my brain works at least a little tomorrow 🙃#itll b fine. ill get to talk to a lab mate i dont usually see and itll be fine#unrelated
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lichfucker · 1 year
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madpenfan · 1 year
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I hate the fact that my boss started to see a guy the same day I broke up with my ex
And they are also in a long distance relationship like me and my ex
And I have to sit there and listen to the two of them text each other because of apple car play when my boss and I drive to a job site
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cave-cryptid · 9 months
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You know what bothers me so much
How people are always spouting out "honesty" "speak your truth" "be real," when in actuality they don't genuinely want the truth. They want the sugar-coated truth. They listen to what they want to hear and close their ears to the rest, they listen to what benefits them or makes their life easier, not the reverse.
The truth is we all have lows, we all have truths that aren't so pretty, but we're not meant to share them. We're meant to act like yeah things are an itty bitty not good but you can't have rainbows without storms hehe there's sunshine just over the horizon I saw a post that said such and such and now I have a new outlook on life
Sometimes there is only rain. Sometimes there isn't a cure. Sometimes pain is meant to be felt and not in a poetic way. Sometimes certain things are dark and they'll always be, even if they lessen to the corner of our vision. I think there is such a thing as toxic positivity, not allowing people to feel certain things and sure as hell not share them.
We live in a mixed bag of a world, there are good things, there are things breathtakingly beautiful about life and existence, but there are also wretched things, things we as a society try our best to ignore, that is until it hits us personally. Then what?
We read inspirational quotes until we can't stomach them anymore. We pray to our god, acting like there's some sense, some purpose to pain, acting like it'll all go away. We all feel pain, we all fall into these pits we can't figure out how to escape, so what's so wrong about talking about them?
Every sad thing needs a happy disclaimer. For who? Not the person in pain.
The truth is we need each other. None of us truly have an answer to explain why life can be painful, in big or in small ways, why we're here, where we're going, and we need each other to survive it.
We don't need each other to explain our pain or our grief, to try and find a resolution, we simply need someone to share in it. To carry some of the pain for us, so that we can do the same for them when they need it.
We worry about burdening each other with our problems, but wouldn't we want our friends to "burden us" when they needed help?
I wish we could need each other without reservations.
I wish we could speak honestly about pain even when there's no sunshine gleaming through it.
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topaz-and-turquoise · 11 months
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ever-sempiternal · 1 year
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If I could let go I would! I would! Just say it's not that deep and just live but I'm a stupid cunt who can't lmao
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galaxygolfergirl · 2 months
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Hey there! Long time no see! Here’s some rough hypothetical Frozen III concept art of Helsa!
Now, I can’t predict what they’ll do for the next two movies, nor am I the best digital artist, but I wanted to try my hand at conceptualizing Hans and Elsa’s visual identities for this next chapter in the franchise.
With Elsa, I decided to evolve her travel outfit from the last movie and color her in some darker blues that don’t wash her out like her white dress. I incorporated some of the rosemaling from her coronation outfit and some Northuldra stylings as well into this coat and dress combo not only to honor her roots, but also to reflect her newfound wildness and freedom as protector of Arendelle and the Enchanted Forest. That even though she has these god-like powers bestowed upon her, she's still grounded and she's still human, with newfound determination in her skills.
Hans, on the other hand, has dropped all of his facades. No longer concerned with keeping up appearances, I decided to make him look more disheveled and intimidating than his younger, cleaned up self. I've always been a proponent of the bearded Hans concept, but here I think it fits as he has no incentive to perform anymore. His only motivation is vengeance, whether at Frohana or a different antagonist, an "enemy of my enemy is my friend" situation is anyone's guess. He's colored grey and his intentions are grey, no ornamentation, nothing, only the light blue of his shirt hints at any kind of sympathy or redemption.
I also wanted to show that these two share a lot in common, and I've stated this before: Hans and Elsa are two sides of the same coin. Both were isolated during their childhoods, resulting in years of loneliness, misery, and bitterness; both try to appear poised and reserved, hiding their inner self-loathing; both are intelligent and cunning, both have a definite aggressive streak, and both seem to be be on equal footing with interesting chemistry in their very few scenes together.
Here, they are now wild and unrestrained, the main difference being that one of them succumbed to their worst intentions and desires, while the other freed themselves and learned to embrace love and peace in their life.
I'm working on doing concepts for Anna and Kristoff as well, and I'll do Honeymaren and Ryder as well to round out the party, so stay tuned! Digital art takes a long time! Especially when you're still learning how to do it! 🙃😅
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kinkandkreep · 10 months
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Hey hey y'all! 👋🏾
Soooo...𝑫𝒚𝒏𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒚 is complete! What did y'all think? Did you enjoy the ride? Were you surprised by any of the developments of the story? Were you on Team Forgive Miguel and Try Again or Team Kick that Bastard to the Curb? Let me know down below! 😁
I thought I'd do a little FAQ regarding the story, and also answer a few extraneous questions I received.
So, here we go!
First Question: Why did Miguel cheat?
Simple. Miguel cheated because he was weak.
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Nah, I'm just playin'. Sorta.
Miguel cheated because, as was mentioned in the story, he was a coward and thought it was easier to run and seek comfort in the arms of someone who fed his ego and fed into the illusion he'd created about what true heroism is, than to try and actually talk it out with the one who truly held his heart.
Of course, I am by no means attempting to justify Miguel's behavior in saying this, but I will say that he was under a great deal of pressure trying to maintain the situation with the multiverse and had resolved himself to sacrificing whatever in order to keep it intact. (He also felt he was under pressure by the reader to have children, and though he wasn't opposed to the idea in the sense that he didn't want any, he didn't think it was safe enough to have them.)
When the reader naturally A.) couldn't comprehend why he was so willing to do something so comparatively extreme and B.) subsequently was against it, Miguel saw this as selfishness, and his tired mind sought out someone who he could relate more easily to.
The more time he spent with Layla, he naturally spent less time with the reader, and subsequently wasn't getting his carnal needs met because when he did spend time with the reader, the atmosphere was tense and they would argue. This eventually lead to him sleeping with Layla, to sate his sexual desires and take out his frustration in a way he couldn't with the reader.
Did that all make sense? 🙃
Second Question: Why did Miguel kill Layla?
Though this was explained briefly in the story, I realize that it might have been a little unclear, and that quite a few details were omitted. In short, Layla was a threat. She threatened to expose Miguel's affair to the other members of the Spider Society, none of whom had any knowledge of Layla's existence. If she'd exposed not only his affair, but the fact that he was harboring an anomaly from a different timeline without making the other society members aware, they very likely would have turned on him and he'd have lost his credibility and support. He couldn't have that, and so he dealt with Layla as his instincts dictated.
Third Question: What was the reader's plan?
The reader's plan is simultaneously simple and a bit convoluted. The reader, having been negatively influenced by her bitterness about her situation and Miguel's actions, decided that she also wanted to have her cake and eat it to. She decided to play the long game, willingly getting pregnant because A.) she still wanted a baby and B.) she could use her pregnancy to manipulate Miguel.
She essentially gaslit, gatekept, girlbossed her way out of her situation with Miguel. 😂 Over the months leading up to her conversation with Peter B, she used subtle manipulation to get Miguel to do beneficial things for her, such as changing her lodgings so that she could mor easily explore the complex and look for ways to escape while simultaneously making sure he was none the wiser.
Fourth Question: Was Layla a Spiderwoman?
Short answer, yes. Layla was a Spiderwoman from a separate universe who had lost her family during the collapse of her timeline.
Fifth Question: Why did Miguel already have a room ready for the reader prior to her discovering his affair?
So, this might be a bit of a longer explanation. Essentially, Miguel was a yandere for the reader before she tried to leave him. I didn't go into too much detail about that (and I may do a little sequel-prequel talking about that in more depth 👀) but he only created the room once the affair began. He always feared that the reader would find out, and created the room as a precautionary measure.
(Oh wait, actually, this explanation was pretty short and straightforward...yay!)
Sixth Question: Did Miguel ever love Layla?
Short answer, no.
He was admittedly fond of her, but only because they shared a similar responsibility. He also felt pity for her, given that she had lost everything and was forced to abandon everything she knew.
Seventh Question: What was in the vial Miguel had in the lab in chapter 5?
Contrary to popular speculation, the drug in the vial was neither meant to make the reader addicted to Miguel nor was it meant to solely act as an aphrodisiac. The drug in the vial was actually meant to increase fertility exponentially, as Miguel's intention was to get the reader pregnant and make it so that she couldn't, and wouldn't want to, leave him.
That's all the questions I could think of for now. If y'all have any more, leave them in the comments below or drop me an ask and I'll get them answered! Also remember to let me know if y'all would want a companion drabble detailing how the cheating started and the buildup to that with Miguel and the reader.
Aight, that's all from me. Thank y'all for readin'! Ari out! ✌🏾
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balvana · 2 years
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Draw this again ~ Yuri On Ice
Sooooo 😆 This is ~6 years of art development 😱✍✨ See the old version from 2016 and some of my thoughts down below 👇
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Yaaaay!! I'm back from some very much needed holidays and a convention I attended last weekend 🥰✨💪 . It was such a lovely experience to finally meet people face to face again and have some chats about anime, art, music and have some fun together 🥰🥰 And it also inspired this artwork 💖👌 . I hardly ever look back on my really old drawings. Mostly it happens by chance. But for cons I usually bring my big folder with me that contains everything I ever had as a print, so while people are browsing this at my booth I also get to see a lot of stuff again, that might be 6+ years old already 😳😆 . And this kind of experience is always a bit "special" 🤣🤣🤣🙈 I won't say that those drawings are bad, but I can clearly tell that, back then, the vision in my mind and the outcome that my skills allowed did not align most of the time 🤣🤣 (still happens nowadays as well sometimes but yeah 🤪) But seeing some older stuff motivated me to try out and see what has changed in all those years in direct comparison. How much closer I am now to really bring my vision to the canvas. . So.. for the very first time actually 🙃 I am doing a ~ draw this again ~ post. And I have to say this was a very interesting experiment for me 🧐 I really tried to keep the pose the same because I wanted to see the changes 🤔 And yeah, there is a lot of development that happens in 6 years 😱✍✨ . I remember being so proud of this back then 😆🙈🙈 And it brings back some bitter memories as well, because this was the first artwork that was stolen from me and sold online 😭😤🔥 But it was also the reason why I decided to try and go to conventions and sell stuff myself 💪💖 This art work will forever hold a very special mix of nostalgic and also melancholic emotions for me. . I think the biggest takeaway for me is, that I feel a lot more confident nowadays concerning the gap between my vision and my drawing skills 💪💖✨ And also that there is always something I can and will learn if I continue practicing.  It might not be huge changes from month to month or from year to year, but they will keep on adding to the big picture ✨✨👌 . Anyway, I hope you enjoy what you see! 😖 What are your thoughts on artists posting their development and revisiting old drawings? 🤔🙂 . . My PATREON
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juneymont · 2 months
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Ominis 🥰
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Feeling pretty squealy happy dance about the new chapter up in ‘Return of Sebastian Sallow.’
(Takes place 10 Years After Hogwarts) read it on AO3 or Wattpad if you’re into it.
Excerpt from latest Ominis POV chapter below! (Spoilers, but only a little, and worth it🙃)
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Thiago Braga, OC. Magizoologist. Castleobruxo alum.
“Thiago Braga, you listen to me,” I start, not entirely sure of what I might say next, but trying my best to speak from the heart. I swallow against a throat that is tacky with dregs of courage that taste stale and bitter and demand that my chest take in air in only very short gasps.
“I don’t know why — and I do not care to learn — but the hard reality of my meager life is that I have had no one, no one, in my life like you. Yes, I have Anne, April and, rather unbelievably, Sebastian, again. Even Sharp. Friends, allies, advocates. Brother, sisters. And now that I think of it, once after Sebastian left, Garreth Weasley punched Hobhouse in the jaw on my behalf for calling me a ‘snake charmer.’ That was nice. But the point is – no one has ever…”
Dear god, why is this so difficult!
“...no one has ever loved me the way you have. The way you do. The way you are.”
I stop myself, thank heavens, before my voice cracks with emotion, and I squeeze his shoulders. Thiago begins a dismissive sigh but I cut him off, powering though. “No! You will not dismiss me. I am speaking!”
Oh dear, I can feel tears streaming down my face. Press on, Ominis.
“I’m speaking from my heart, Thiago, and what I say matters. You make me feel like what I say matters. You make me feel like I matter, so you of all people do not get to dismiss my reality because of your own discomfort with how I revere you. Are we clear?”
My heart is racing with the fear that I am coming across too harshly but Thiago’s tongue crackles in his mouth while he presumably swallows, and he squeezes my hand. He whispers, simply, “yes. I am listening, my prince. Always, to you.”
Links to AO3 or Wattpad
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chdarling · 1 year
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Do you have any thoughts on HBO making a Harry Potter TV series?
I’m completely uninterested and I don’t plan to watch.
This probably comes off as a weird thing for me to say, as someone writing a stupidly-involved fanfic for the series, but I don’t have a lot of interest in Harry Potter™ anymore. I am deeply invested in the specific characters I’ve chosen to write about, and I am invested in the story I’m telling, insomuch as it feels like a separate thing to me (I know it’s not), and it haunts me, and I want to finish it, but I don’t crave new ‘official’ HP content anymore. If anything, I dread it.
There was a time when a HBO show with each series based on an individual book was the stuff of dreams for me, but at this point, I don’t feel like they can or will add anything new or valuable. I also never liked the movies (I know, I know), so I don’t really have high hopes anyway, especially if JKR is involved again (which…I haven’t been following this news closely on account of the aforementioned disinterest, but I suspect she is?).
I am genuinely not interested in anything JKR has to say about this story anymore. Or about anything else for that matter. I’m also not interested in the constant, endless reboots and cheap rehashings of IP to which our culture seems to be addicted. I like the fandom space because you actually get fresh ideas from people passionate about the story, not just overdone moneygrabs for the sake of monetizing nostalgia.
It’s possible I’m jaded and bitter tho 🙃
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lemonlyman-dotcom · 7 months
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Get to know me
I wasn’t tagged but I wanna play 🙃
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Animal: Dogs but especially Bosties
Movie: Where’s my wandering parakeet?
Season: Summer but also fall
Character: Here's my advice. Have a little faith, and if that doesn't work, have a lot of mimosas.
Color: 💛
Hobby: Wandering in the woods
Book: Isabelle Allende, my beloved
Song: He was getting bitter while she was getting better…
Drink: Much like our beloved TK, I am a sucker for a bougie mineral water
Tagging @chicgeekgirl89 @carlos-in-glasses @ladytessa74 @welcometololaland @thebumblecee @birdclowns @bonheur-cafe @ambiguouspenny @guardian-angle22 @reasonandfaithinharmony @lonestardust @louis-ii-reyes-strand @freneticfloetry @thisbuildinghasfeelings @rosedavid @reyesstrand @chaotictarlos @lightningboltreader @liminalmemories21 @lutavero @just-inside-her @alrightbuckaroo @never-blooms @fckingyrs and OPEN TAG 🏷️ for anybody else who wants to play
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queen-dahlia · 1 year
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𝐍𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐝~𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥, 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐭𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐛𝐞𝐝~
Silvio Ricci
Sorry, it took a while for me to post this. Unless it's Gilbert's story, never believe this clown's words when it comes to translating the stories of other suitors. 🤡🙃🙃🙃
Note: Translation is not 100% accurate. Expect grammatical errors.
// : alternate translation
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Emma: "Do you have a fever?"
While traveling on official business, Emma discovers what I was supposed to have hidden from her.
Silvio: "Ah? It's nothing ——hey!"
Shrugging off my attempts to restrain her, Emma touched my forehead.
The embarrassment of being touched and the embarrassment of not being able to fool around make my face hotter.
(I don't want to worry you unnecessarily, but how do you know?)
Emma: "See, isn't it? You should take the rest of the day off."
Silvio: "I'm fine. This ain't nothing but a little fever."
For some reason, my heart aches when I see Emma's face as her eyebrows furrow.
(It feels weird.)
(I've got to get the job done for this one…)
But not too long after that thought…
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Emma: "Now that you've finished today's work, there's no reason not to take the rest of the day off, is there?"
The mountain of work I had planned to finish by the evening quickly disappeared from my sight, 
Thanks to Emma's scheduling and the help she provided.
Silvio: "... You're so determined, you idiot."
(I never thought you'd go this far for me…)
(... I don't want to do anything that would force you to do something you don't want to do.)
Whether or not she knew of such concerns, Emma continued to take care of me.
Emma: "You can't rest in those clothes. You have to change."
Emma: "Or should I get you changed?"
(... It's on purpose. She's trying to give me a break, no matter how stubborn I am.)
Silvio: "Fine, I'll just change my clothes. Damn, you worry too much."
With my back to Emma, I changed into the shirt she handed me.
Emma: "Then there's the medicine. And drink lots of water."
Silvio: "You've been so busy moving around, you even prepared the medicine."
Emma: "Yes. The best way to cure a cold is to take your medicine and get a good rest."
Emma: "It may be a little bitter, but make sure you drink it right."
Silvio: "Don't treat me like a child."
(... I ain't used to this kind of thing.)
As I swallow the medicine she handed me with water, Emma lifts the blanket a little and urges me to bed.   //   Emma lifts the blanket a little higher and urges me to bed as I swallow the medicine she handed me with water.
(Why are you so...?)
I sighed at the way she was taking care of me, but I laid down on the bed and let her take care of me——
Silvio: "I said I'm fine, so why do you care so much?"
(I honestly don't feel bad about being taken care of. But...)
I am not afraid to just accept it.
(... I'm putting a burden on you, aren't I?)
Emma: "... It's the same as Silvio."
Emma: "You took care of me."
Silvio: ". . . . ."
(You mean that time I nursed you back to health.)
It quickly occurred to me that this had happened before, when Emma had collapsed from exhaustion.
Emma: "You noticed the slightest change in me and left work every half hour to come and see me."
Emma: "Each time, more and more get-well gifts were added to the room. It's just that you've already taken such good care of me——" **
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Silvio: "That's enough. Shut your mouth."
Silvio: "... You were burning up at that time, but you remember that kind of thing. You."
(I really thought you looked like you were in a lot of pain at the time…)
The image of Emma acting bravely while her cheeks blushed, along with her worries at that time, comes back to my mind.
Emma: "I was so happy. So please allow me to look after you as well."
Emma: "I too am worried about Silvio. Just as Silvio was worried about me at that time."
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Silvio: ". . . . ."
(When you put it that way, I can't say anything.)
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(You're worried about me too? You're too cute.)
When my heart is overflowing with feelings, Dahlia suddenly furrows her eyebrows.
Emma: "But if it really bothers you, please let me know, and one of us can take the day off…"
Silvio: "Of course I'm happy, you idiot."
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(How can I not be happy to be nursed by you? You know that much.)
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Silvio: "So… Stay there."
Emma: "Yes. I will be here, so please go to sleep."
Emma: "Please get well soon."
Emma wrings the towel and gently wipes my sweaty forehead. **
We eventually came face to face.
Silvio: "Hey! You!"
Emma kisses me on the cheek, seeming a little embarrassed.
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(... Ah, shit…)
Now that I can't touch freely, I can't help but be conscious of trivial touches and touched parts. **
I wanted to kiss her back right now, but I couldn't, and I felt like I just had to take out my frustration on her. **
I reach for Emma's cheek and look straight into her eyes.
Emma: "Silvio…?"
Silvio: "When I get better... I'm going to get back at you for what you did to me earlier. You better brace yourself."
Emma: "... Yes."
When I look at Emma, who seems to have a redder face than I do now, I feel like I've done it.
(How is it possible that I'm feeling so good even though I'm not feeling well?)
I have never had someone take care of me like this before.
Although I was confused about my feelings, I felt a certain joy in my heart.
Softly squinting, Emma gently reaches for the blanket and drapes it around my neck.
Emma: "... Good night."
(How can I sleep if you do such a cute thing to me? Idiot…)
I closed my eyes, thinking that Emma would be the only one who would take care of me later.
I decided to be meek and let her stroke my hair.
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sadaveniren · 3 months
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omg ur our here fighting demons in your inbox 👀 the rest of us appreciate your hard work!!
also just wanted to say I miss your writing. loving the advent fic though if you ever finish! just curious why you stopped writing as much?
You should see my inbox 🤣 though I’m happy I seem to have blocked a lot of antis/don’t give them any validation cause I just ignore them.
Thank youuuuu about my writing 🥰 that puts a smile on my face!! I stopped writing as much because I am a (luckily) middle class American with an almost 4 year old which means I don’t have a lot of free time! And tbh I’ve had a couple of really shitty - off tumblr - interactions in the last couple years within fandom as a whole that just left a bitter and really hurt taste in my mouth. I know I touched on at least one of them a year or so ago when I dropped out of big bang but there was a very recent interaction that occurred (again off tumblr but still in fandom) that just left me overall feeling really shitty about writing in fandom. That incident is actually why I stopped writing my advent fic even though I was so excited to finish it literally the day before 🙃
Oh well. Maybe I’ll turn it into a real story and shop it around as an original supernatural Christmas horror story and everyone who wants to will be able to read it as that 🥰
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