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mai: when have i ever threatened to kill u

also mai on december 17, 2020 @ 9:00am:

#💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #xoxo gossip belle

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exile and the 1

send me a taylor swift song and i'll respond with my favorite lyric !

exile

i can see you starin' honey / like he's just your understudy / like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me / second, third, and hundredth chances / balancin' on breaking branches / those eyes add insult to injury

the 1

we were something, don't you think so? / rosé flowing with your chosen family / and it would've been sweet / if it could've been me / in my defense, i have none / for digging up the grave another time

#folklore supremacy #mai i luv u <3 did u know <3 #answered #oflysithea #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗

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5, 26, 40, 44 for writers ask game!

thank u 🥺

5. How much writing do you get done on an average day?

Now that I'm living at home again instead of at my job, I actually get writing done which is so nice to say after two years. I don't know word count or anything, but because I'm catching up on plots and writing an app, I do get some writing done.

26. Favourite writing program

I'm really just on Google Drive.

40. Share some backstory for one of your characters

Katya Vasilova, my invisible blade. In a world sort of inspired by/adjacent to the Grishaverse, she was born to a family of con artists and had a twin brother named Alexei. After their parents died when they were thirteen, he took it upon himself to take care of her and refused to let her out of his sight. They joined a traveling acting troupe and robbed people who came to see their performances until they were sixteen and left the troupe. Soon after, they decided to join a gang led by Jaqueline Masika who Katya eventually fell in love with, much to the displeasure of her twin brother who had taken it upon himself to try and control everything about Katya's life. He was eventually killed in a fatal job they all went on and she left the gang immediately after, holding onto repressed guilt and blaming herself for his death ever since.

44. How much research do you do?

Answered!

a writer's ask game!

#answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #oflysithea

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🎼

SEND ME A  🎼  AND I’LL LINK A SONG THAT REPRESENTS MY MUSE’S FEELINGS ABOUT YOURS.

Crystal — Stevie Nicks (how the faces of love change, turning the pages / and i have changed, oh but you, you remain ageless / i turned around and the water was closing all around / like a glove, like the love that had finally, finally found me)

#(meme. mine) #(meme. aylin) #(aylin akdemir. the madwoman in her tower) #(aylin and christos. you say i killed you; haunt me then) #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #oflysithea

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aylin & chistos macbeth au

SEND ME AN AU AND I’LL TELL YOU 5 OF MY HEADCANONS FOR IT. written for @oflysithea ♡♡

One. Aylin thrives off of chaos in this world. She delights in being able to dole out punishment to those she feels are deserving of it, and she revels in being the person to choose how it’s done. As someone who never had much agency in her early life, she takes vengeance on whoever she pleases.

Two. One of the people they kill is her brother. Perhaps the person who stole the most of Aylin’s free will, she decides that he’s as much of a threat as anyone, and she convinces Christos to kill him in order to rule completely. She doesn’t miss him, and she doesn’t shed a tear after he’s gone. It’s her idea to get rid of him, and it’s at once the most maddening and freeing experience of Aylin’s life.

Three. Their marriage doesn’t follow a cursed timeline—it’s strictly their own world, one life together. Maybe an arranged marriage in order to broker peace, maybe it was actually love, but a bond forms between them that isn’t easily broken, and in the years of their marriage, they find that they’re much more similar than they originally thought. Through their ambition, they discover that they have many of the same goals.

Four. Both of them have more agency than the original play, and they are not simply consequences of the other’s actions—they do what they do to further the ambitions they both share. Macbeth begins the original story as someone who is manipulated by his wife into compromising his loyalty. Lady Macbeth ends the story as someone who is driven to near-madness by her guilt. For Aylin and Christos, it’s something that they both embrace, not something that either of them has to push the other to do. Whatever they do, they’re both aware of each other’s plans and they’re complete accomplices.

Five. Aylin has a larger role in the murders they commit together than the original play. Obviously, the murder that sets Macbeth in motion is the one Lady Macbeth herself orchestrates, but afterwards, her character diminishes little by little. Aylin, on the other hand, flourishes. She doesn’t crumble under the weight of her actions, nor is she brought to the brink of sanity that causes her to snap. Rather, it’s an act that allows her to truly let herself go.

#can you believe i'm actually answering prompts wow #i do love a good murder #answered #oflysithea #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #(meme. aylin) #(meme. mine) #(aylin and christos. you say i killed you; haunt me then) #(aylin akdemir. the madwoman in her tower)

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tgt & not a series but shakespeare! for the ask meme

GIVE ME A SERIES AND I’LL TELL YOU:

THE GRISHA TRILOGY:

— Favourite Male: Nikolai my luv my life — Favourite Female: Genya — Favourite Pairing: The Darkling/Aline but I did get pretty into Nikolai/Alina during the third book because the Darkling was just so disappointing in that one like the rest of the book seiursgiesrng — Least Favourite Character: Mal — Who’s most like me: I don’t think any of them, really? — Most attractive: Genya — & Three more characters that I like: Alina, Tamar, and Baghra

SHAKESPEARE:

— Favourite Male: Antony — Favourite Female: Desdemona — Favourite Pairing: Antony and Cleopatra or Beatrice and Benedick or Rosaline and Berowne — Least Favourite Character: Roderigo maybe? Maybe Aaron — Who’s most like me: Rosaline from Love’s Labour’s Lost — Most attractive: I’m gonna be a basic bitch and say Romeo and Juliet — & Three more characters that I like: Lady Macbeth, Emilia, and Cleopatra

#the shakespeare one was so......difficult......... #how am i supposed to chOOSE FROM ALL OF HIS PLAYS WTF MAI #answered #oflysithea #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗

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loveofyourlife is my name thank u

L — Like Woah, Aly & AJ

O — Oops!...I Did It Again, Britney Spears

V — Vogue, Madonna

E — Everybody Talks, Neon Trees

O — Our Last Summer, ABBA

F — First Love, Adele

Y — You should be sad, Halsey

O — On I Go, Fiona Apple

U — Under Pressure, Queen

R — Run Away With Me, Carly Rae Jepsen

L — Lungs, CHVRCHES

I — Is It Really So Strange, The Smiths

F — Fuck Me Pumps, Amy Winehouse

E — Enchanted, Taylor Swift

SEND ME YOUR NAME AND I’LL MAKE A MINI PLAYLIST WITH THE LETTERS IN YOUR NAME!

#did you think i......wasn't going to do it?? #i am soft and i love affection #also do you know how hard it was to find any songs staring with E #let alone TWO #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #oflysithea

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:) dying :) kiss :)

KISSING MEME PROMPTS. written for @oflysithea <3

27. DYING KISS.

“I can’t think of you living without me.” The knife in his hand was shaking, and so was his voice. Aylin took it all in, listening to each word that fell from Christos’ mouth and watching as the knife inched closer and closer towards her.

“Can you think of living without me, though?” she asked, knowing there was a difference and needing to hear him say it. “I will not be weak, and you will not put yourself above me.” His eyes snapped up towards hers, and Aylin desperately wanted him to say anything. Tell her that he could never put himself above her, that he wouldn’t last a day without her, that it made no difference whether she lived or died if she walked away because either way it would be hell to continue living without her.

“Don’t be ridiculous,” he said instead, and Aylin knew it was foolish to hope.

“So then kill me,” Aylin said, and she hated how the words came out in a plea. She did not beg, she did not grovel, and yet here she was, asking Christos to end her life so that she could start it anew. Free of pain, true, but only for a bit. How many years would she spend unaware of him? How long would it be before they met once more? How long would it take them to remember who they once were? “Kill me, and tell me that you’ll find me again.”

“You would do this again?” he asked.

Aylin looked up at him, her lips parted slightly as she took in the face of the man she loved so viciously, the man she hated so tenderly, and she knew that, really, there was only one choice. It was not live freely or die once more—to live free of him was not to live freely. It would be a weight on her chest every day, a shackle clamped around her ankle. Wondering if he was still out there, wondering if he thought of her the same way she thought of him. Wondering if he had found someone else to love and hold the way he used to love and hold her, fighting back the jealousy that reared its head every time the thought of him with another person invaded her mind. It would not be freedom. It would be a cruel fate, worse than the one that had already been set upon them.

“I would do it until you turn me away,” she whispered. And it was that ounce of vulnerability, telling him that she would continue to come back to him until he told her he no longer wanted her to, praying that he never would, that shattered her. She knew that she was ruined for him, knew that she would never be able to look at him the same way ever again. In any life that followed, in any world they found themselves in, she would never see him as just an enemy. She would only look at him and see a monstrous joke, a dream that lay just out of reach. A glimpse of happiness for however long they got before everything snapped into place.

Aylin reached out and took hold of his wrist, the same wrist attached to the hand that was pointing a knife directly at her heart. “Do it,” she told him. It wasn’t a dare, nor a taunt in order to twist his mind around. She wanted to be done with this life, live the next few years in ignorant bliss until everything fell apart around her again. She felt the way Christos tensed underneath her grip and tightened her hand, pushing forward until she could feel the knife through the fabric of her dress. “Do it, and we can be together again.” For how long, it didn’t matter. All that mattered was that one day, she would feel his touch and, for a time, it wouldn’t be painful.

Aylin put one hand on the back of his neck and pulled him closer to her so their lips were almost touching. “Tell me you’ll find me again,” she repeated. “Tell me you love me enough to try and find me again.”

He caught her lips in his, the kiss a brutal mark on her mouth, a branding instead of an answer. His own way of telling her that he did love her enough, that he would find her again. For a moment, it hid the pain of the knife sinking into her flesh, and she held on tighter, wishing that she could somehow become part of Christos if it meant never having to leave his side again. For a moment, it was enough to keep him there with her, not daring to part her lips from hers. She kissed him back, already feeling the way her fingers were numbing, the way her mind was fading. All she’d been asking was for him to just get it over with already, end it for both of them so they wouldn’t have to live in this life a second longer, but now that she had his mouth on hers once more, she would have done anything for just one more minute. If she could have spoken, if anyone would have been listening, she would have begged for it to stop, for one more chance to get it right with him. It was pointless, almost as pointless as the way Christos stroked his hand through her hair as a way to soothe the pain. For a moment, it was simply enough.

#i love chaos #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #(meme. aylin) #(aylin and christos. you say i killed you; haunt me then) #(aylin akdemir. the madwoman in her tower) #my writing #(meme. mine) #oflysithea

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"your opinion on ______" : tumble user oflysithea

the fact that this has been sitting in my inbox since january 3rd should tell you enough YIKES

#this is belle language for i love u and there are simply no words to describe your crackhead energy #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #oflysithea

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me sending u ask memes like it's my part time job :unwell: but pearls, perfume, bubble bath, and faux fur for the luxury meme 💋

literally the only reason I reblog ask memes anymore is because I know I’ll get at least one from you instead of just waiting for someone to give me attention waeifneirng

bubble bath: do you have any routines before bedtime? like skin care, etc. what are they?

Yes, I believe in ✨self care ✨ and for me, that means taking like two hours before I go to bed to really take care of myself. There’s skincare, which is facewash, toner, moisturizer, body cream, pore strips, etc, it’s a whole skincare process. Then I’ll tidy up my room because I need things to be neat or else I can’t function properly lol and I’ll make something warm to drink, maybe hot chocolate or hot water with lemon and ginger because it helps me get tired. Other than that, it’s just me chilling in bed on my phone or computer, maybe watch a movie or episodes from a show I’m watching, read some of whatever book I’m in the middle of, or sometimes I’ll even go through the quotes tag on my own blog because I like to feel things every once in a while.

faux fur: describe your wardrobe.

Fashion is actually a huge thing to me lmao. I really love the classy, timeless sort of style that you see through the decades from the 40s to now, things that have never really gone out of style? My closet is a lot of pale pinks, whites, creams, nudes, grays, blacks—basically all of the neutrals, I don’t really do color all that much. I like a few designer brands but obviously, money is a thing, so my philosophy when it comes to that is to go for the more affordable options for actual clothing and then invest in the accessories that, in my opinion, make the outfit (bags, sunglasses, shoes sometimes, scarves, jewelry, etc), and I’ll never really get like, trend items from more expensive brands because trends come and go and I’m never really attracted to trends in the first place? So any of my nicer things are things that have actually stood the test of time when it comes to fashion.

pearls: what’s something about your personality that surprises others?

I’m a very quiet person, so I don’t think people really expect the...extremes of my personality? Like, whether it’s good or bad, I don’t think people expect me to actually be as funny as I’m told as I can be, and on the opposite side of the spectrum, I don’t think people expect me to actually be as mean as I can be.

perfume: if you could make your own signature fragrance, what would it smell like?

I already have my signature fragrances, they’re Coco Mademoiselle, Miss Dior, Flowerbomb, and the Tiffany eau de parfum, and I don’t think that mixing them all together would be that great, so I’ll keep them separate lol.

luxury asks!

#💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #answered #oflysithea

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quill, feather, fire, shadow, library!

dark academia asks!

quill: how would you describe your writing style?

Not........great? I don’t know, I try to look past whatever flaws my writing has and I think it can have a lyrical sort of quality to it? I take a lot of inspiration from poetry because I love it so much, and I think I can walk the line between poetic and purple prose pretty well, considering that I’m not really a huge fan of the latter.

library: preferred study environment?

When I was a teenager, I used to go to the New York Public Library and go to the Reading Room after it reopened, and that was like, my ideal space. Now, I’ll enjoy sitting at a desk in a room with a closed door, everything neat and organized around me, my laptop open, with a cup of coffee on the side.

feather: favorite poet? favorite piece of poetry?

I have so many favorite poets for all sorts of different moods. Anne Carson and Margaret Atwood are particular masters of the ‘study in girlhood’ type of writing that dominates my ‘women are born dead’ tag. Sylvia Plath and Richard Siken are also really basic ones but I’m a basic bitch, so. Carol Ann Duffy, Maya Angelou, Oscar Wilde, William Shakespeare, Mary Oliver, Lord Byron, Sappho—it’s very hard for me to try and figure out who is my favorite poet.

But I think my favorite poem of all time is either Little Red Cap by Carol Ann Duffy (But got there, wolf’s lair, better beware. Lesson one that night / Breath of the wolf in my ear, was the love poem / I clung till dawn to his thrashing fur, for / What little girl doesn’t dearly love a wolf?) or Lady Lazarus by Sylvia Plath (Dying is an art, like everything else).

shadow: what makes you feel nostalgic?

Any time that I look at something that I own that holds a specific memory of someone that I lost, someone that I’m no longer in contact with, someone I had a falling out with, etc, that’s when my nostalgia comes full force. I’m rarely sentimental about the happier memories, like I’ve never been the type of person to look at a photo of my best friend and feel nostalgic because she’s still my best friend, and hopefully I’ll have so many more memories with her. But it’s the moments when I’ll look at memories of people that are no longer in my life, by any means, that I start to feel nostalgic.

fire: which of the seven deadly sins do you find yourself leaning towards?

Either envy or pride, but mostly envy. I have a tendency to be irrationally jealous and envious.

#💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #answered #oflysithea

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one day i’m just gonna not answer one of your asks and then what, huh? what’ll you do then?

#mai: has a ship with me plus another one that's taking 20 years to plot and is in a group with me rn #also mai: chooses chaos #answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #oflysithea

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💕 forehead kiss from me to u :'''))

MAI

#answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #ily

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aylin or evangeline

mai really woke up today and said "I'm gonna make belle choose between her two beloved reincarnated unhinged ladies" and you know what.......it has to be aylin. I haven't had either of them for very long, but I'm so new to evangeline and there's something about the way aylin kills her soulmate time and time and time again until the earth burns out that just gets to me :/

make me choose between two of anything!

#answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #this one hurt :/

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8, 9 , 35, 36!

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

The hypocrisy. I've spoken about this so many times already but like......shut up. Everybody......just shut up.

The obsession with faceclaims, specifically the obsession people have with the faceclaims of the muses they're playing against. Like, if you really want to kiss Adam Driver that badly, idk go buy a poster of him and try that, stop forcing me to use FCs I don't care about just because you've fallen in love with someone's public persona.

Stop trying to use your own personal issues to guilt people to write with you. Saying things like "I'm reblogging this even though I know no one is gonna want to do this with me anyway" makes other people feel like shit and you're not going to make the friends you want with that kind of attitude.

9. What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

Ummmm, I don't really consider myself, like, exclusive? But I don't write with everyone. I find it really hard to write with anyone because I find it hard to talk to people in general, and I can't really write with those I'm not talking to outside of our threads. So I guess you could say I'm generally exclusive to those I actually am friends with and genuinely click with.

35. Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

If I'm in a group, I for sure read everyone's threads. I stalk the dash constantly because I'm a nosy bitch who likes to creep up on everyone and stay up to date on all the tea xoxo gossip belle

36. What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?

I actually can't think of anything?? Probably because I'm usually annoyed about something swkeivirke I MEAN!!! Like we all know my feelings about the certain corner of the rpc that thinks if you actually prefer to write threads longer than a paragraph you're some fake flowery no-nonsense cant-take-a-joke robot sooooo

#answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗

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your brand is unhinged shakespearean heroine in the form of audrey hepburn carrying a leather bound wutherings in her chanel purse while hyped up on gushers and her sixth cup of coffee for the day

me, drinking an iced coffee as i read this:

what's my brand™!

#answered #💗 crackhead hoe energy 💗 #i'm at Peace™ 😌