#‘okay I’m taking you to dinner for your birthday’ or ‘we’re doing xyz for your birthday’

[earthsbestdefnder]

in the weirdest headspace rn

#like overall I know I’m gonna have a really solid birthday #but it’s not last years birthday and it’s not the birthday I would choose for myself #so !! I’m bummed #also I Hate planning my own birthday cause it feels selfish #so I’m basically disappointed every year #because I know what I want #but I’m too scared/anxious/afraid of being labeled high maintenance and selfish that I never ask for it #and also it would be really nice if instead of “what do you want to do #people planned things For me like #‘okay I’m taking you to dinner for your birthday’ or ‘we’re doing xyz for your birthday’ #like idk!!!! it sucks that only one (1) friend asked what I was doing for my birthday #(hi Nagita) #like ... idk I feel like Most years I’m disappointed by my birthday and that’s just! super sucky #also this is in no way shading Sam he is wonderful and taking me out to lunch and spending the day with me and I love him #ugh that was a lot #taryn rambles