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Shadow Dio is coming for you Jostars 

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I gave Dio green nipple—

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// Hello to all my followers. On this blog and on my other blogs as I will be reposting this to my other blogs to keep followers updated on things.

Firstly this will be long so let me cut it here and add a quick sum behind it before going full on vent mode.

Keep reading

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Kains Personal hell.

“ Given the Choice whether to rule a corrupt and failing empire, or to challenge the fates for another through? A Better through against ones destiny. What was a king to do? “ - Kain from Legacy of Kain Defiance 

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Since its pride month I decided to inform my friends and family that I am asexual. More so Demisexual but I lean towards asexual more. 

So I told my parents and my Dad is straight up like:

Dad: THATS NOT ASEXUAL, We have plants that are asexual like Staghorn and WORMS!

Me:...Dad no its a real-

Dad: NO asexual means you can procreate with yourself.

It was literally and still is the funniest thing out. 

#pride month #ooc:st!tches #I finally came out

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Joseph Seed [RANT by Bo Burnham]

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A lil bit of a vent but more so about personal life then anything.

also I picked up a bit of a sore throat. I think its just from an allergy but yes a tad bit under the weather.

Firstly I want to apologies for being absent for a few days. Its kinda my thing I guess because I get so overloaded with work and the hours I do I literally dont get time to work things out properly and sit down and have a moments peace to myself. 

Not only that but Work has been extremely stressful but I sadly cant talk about it. All I will say is I have been getting triggered a lot latley and I’m really struggling to deal with it at work.

So I’m looking at now trying to move away and get another better job. Hoping my coding and interest in computers and programs pays off because I’ve always been the IT person where ever I have worked at so I’m trying to get into a few different traineeships to just better myself I guess. Find something less stressful.

Thats it, thats my lil rant.

I’m also struggling to get that Faith picture done because of no time to put into it but trust me...its in the works and I’m hyped for a Disney styled Faith look

#ooc:st!tches

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Sungazing...

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What about Wheaty takin' a shower? I saw all you're shower series arts and i love them. 💕

#you know I have weak knees for my native people #just god damn such good art

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A little vent from mun:

It appears to me that I am being stalked by my ex whom I already made a post about. He was not aware I use Tumblr so this is a safe space for me.

I have found him once more in the same area but acting extremely weird. He would walk towards the road as if to cross it then walk back towards the cafe and stop and walk back towards the road only to stop and kind-of...well it's like taking a step forward and then back. Kinda like rocking on the spot in a way. He did for a while before finally walking and moving along to god knows where.

This is extremely terrifying for me. He may not have hurt me physically but the fear of being stalked and the fact he smoothered me in the relationship is very triggering for me.

I have already made up my mind that if I see him again I'll contact the police immediately. But this behaviour is not good and is damaging to me as a person. I don't want to be afraid to go out because of him.

Anyway that's my vent for now. I seriously hope I don't see him again.

#mun vent #ooc #on mobile

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A lil mun ooc vent here;

Hey guys so today I was feeling good. When I get days off I feel like I need more time off and well thats constant with work atm.

However today I realized something, I realized why I don’t feel comfortable in a relationship, or why I don’t want to get into one.

You see I dated this guy several months back, last year we started dating and it was all good but there was redflags. Like who the fuck says “ I kissed a girl today” to their girlfriend and expect it to be all ok. It was a statement made to make me get triggered and also the fact that it never really happened says something even more.

But this ex...well hes been known to stalk and harasses people he obsesses over. in the relationship a lot of things contributed to me breaking up with him. Five months into the relationship and I knew I had to call it off.

When most people see their ex’s they are usually hit with a want to get back, but this...this scared the shit out of me.

I wanted to go for coffee, which I eventually did, but where I was at was in a place thats a bit far off for him. He’s not a local and he walked into a mall that has one big grocery store, alcohol shop, bakery and the cofee shop I went to. So to walk in there and then walk out with nothing? thats suspicious as fuck.

I broke up with him to get free, because the relationship was smothering me.

So seeing him and knowing that theres no reason for him to be here because for him to go shopping at...well he has a shopping center with everything at it less then five minutes away from where he lives. So to travel almost 30 minues to go to a small little mall just doesn’t add up. unless he came to meet someone there, which would have been at the coffee shop, then yeah ok. But he didn’t go there. Idk where he went but when I saw him again I kept my head down and had a plan already set to get to safety. I know the coffee shop owner and he doesn’t tolerate this shit very well.

But this event made me understand that my fear of getting into a relationship isn’t just because of this one ex possibly stalking me forever, but the fact that I might end up with another person the same or worse. I feel like if I  get into a relationship again I will fall into this vicious cycle and I can’t go through that over and over again.

I also felt like I needed to get this off my chest because yes it scared the shit out of me. Me who knows material arts and knows how to not only defend myself but also put someone in several different jujitsu locks, ways to knock someone out or injure them to get away. Me who knows several different escape routes and has family close by. Yes I was shit scared. I have been with other guys and yes even one ex I see from time to time out and about and we are civil. I can deal with that. but this guy...sometimes people put out the wrong vibes, and sometimes that energetic vibe is dark and evil and thats all I felt from this guy. He scares me like as if hes ted bundy. 

But he is also the reason I now understand my fear of relationships.

I’m demisexual, but now it looks like I have a slight phobia of relationships too..i dont think I can get any more fucked up then this.

#ooc:st!tches #//rant #mun has been triggered a bit today

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@gamingladies’s second event - antagonists: Faith Seed (Far Cry 5)

“Once you fall under Faith’s spell, you’re a goner. As Joseph’s voice, Faith acts as a divine instrument of chaos to keep congregation in a state of bliss.” - Ubisoft’s description of Faith Seed

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“What is it that you fear more, Deputy. Is it God or is it Death?”

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There's not many moments in my life that I can say I have been extremely proud of but this one is worthy of sharing. A painful 48hrs of Labor.

This lil chick was breached and struggling to get out of its egg. We have had to incubate bub for a few weeks because it's parents have neglected to care for previous eggs and chick. We have always handraised our baby parrots with tender care but to incubate and hatch an egg is scary and exciting but it's very nerve wrecking when the bub is breached and youve never done this before.

I was very thankful to be given advice from two good parrot breeders who gave me the best advice.

Most cases babies like these don't survive but this lil dude did and I'm so over whelmed with emotions. I might not have given birth to it but I'll nurture it with great care.

Also I will not sell this baby. I don't believe in breeding and selling. This baby is a fighter and I'm proud to be it's feather less mum.

#ooc #tw:blood #? #mun #featherless mum