suth-sardian

[suth-sardian]

life is too short to argue, just say

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #imago jaspar #this is actually not a joke i say this to myself 10 times a day #i’ve called random people ‘cousin’ because of this 😭😭😭😭

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V-Day!

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #in order of appearance: #miroko eosphorite #irika heliodor #suth helian #The Grand Alliance 🫂 #i’ve developed a bad habit of calling relationships couples 😭 even though there’s three of them in my mind i say TGA couple #but i love TGA couple 🫂 #i think… well… the trajectory of them getting together is really interesting to consider #i do think casual relationships would be pretty common in Osrakum but greater configs would be rare #for the simple fact that most Chosen… don’t have that much love to give #TGA as we know would be childhood friends—though they’d all be so different #i don’t think Chosen society would have extremely rigid lines between friendship and romantic/sexual rels #that’s not to say that there wouldn’t be ‘pure’ friendships or relationships—but experimenting and going from one to the other #wouldn’t be a big deal—casual relationships and amicable breakups would be norm #so when it comes to TGA i think they’d be pretty tangled up in each other from young ages #Eosphorite esp iirc would be someone who loved the chase and would have a long long string of lovers #but i think the only people he never really tired of would be his closest ones—HH #because they would be the only ones who really brought him peace of mind #i think there would probably be a scary phase where they wondered what would become of them—who would choose whom #it would be Heliodor—their peacemaker—who would suggest that they didn’t have to choose #they could just be themselves #and they’d—just fit

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V-Day! D-1

yeah, you could make him better, but why would you want to?

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #nirxa mimetus #naranith sei #they have a very fun and great relationship in my heart 🫂 very balanced and passionate and mature #i think what’s funny is that their House names both start from N 😭 maybe in some AU they become bfs bc their rollnos in class are together ✍ #i actually had a design for Sei already—i still like that one a lot #but i feel like it was a bit of a youthful style? by the time he got w Mimetus i think he’d quite a bit more mature #idk i feel like the version of him that got with Mimetus would already be a father. idk #i actually first developed Mimetus for my GATSD concept 😭 he was one of Sardian’s bfs. my notes only said: #‘does drugs and gambles’ #which is a bit amazing i guess #but i think he would be extremely clever and cunning—something that would attract Sei a lot #also Mimetus is iirc a couple of years older than Sei and even became RL earlier? 🫂 #i like to imagine that he started to pursue Sei when he became RL—his fave thing would be forcing Sei to unmask #i do also think their natures would match a lot—they would be fierce allies #though i can’t decide if they’d let everyone know—they wouldn’t *hide* it #but i think there’s something to be said about a hidden power couple that fucks everyone else over #anyway->one day #Sei: i’ve told you not to smoke so much if you’re going to meet me—your entire mouth tastes of ash #Mimetus: ok don’t kiss me #Sei: i didn’t say /that/—by the twins i’m so sick of you #[this art]

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V-Day! D-2

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #surya karneya #surya inti #intineya #wow! the second day is also an incest couple! #(i mean Corundian are barely incest.) #i can’t help it 😭 #their relationship is so special and conflicting i think #but i think what’s really… they’re just inevitable #there could never be anyone for them except the other #i can never decide if i want them to have a conflicted relationship or have it be (emotionally) smooth sailing #there would always be the social disapproval but would it matter to them? #i also wonder who would fall first… it’s fun to imagine that one of them did #and ofc with brothers you have all the traditional tropes of possessiveness and jealousy and guilt #inti realising he’s grown to be attracted to his younger brother and hating himself #karneya hating all of his brother’s lovers and being absolutely vicious to all of them—to the point of having catty fights—to the #point of making them cry #and there would always be rumours about them—how they’re too close‚ how it’s strange‚ though no one would dare to really make accusations #[sobbing] can you tell i love brothers who love each other 😭

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V-Day! D-3

i think there’s something to be said about loving someone you’ve known for so very long—it’s the appeal of all the childhood friends romances, the old flames, the past lives

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth sardian #imago corundum #corundian #i spent like an hour refining the lineart before realising i liked the rough sketch version better 😭 #my 4yrs younger self would be soo mad i got into shipping an age difference couple 😭 #but i think Corundian really is SUCH a fascinating ship—so many amazing factors going for them #just the idea of Sardian growing up idealising Corundum—then‚ his feelings changing with age‚ into admiration and friendship and desire #and there’s so much potential for both angst and fluff #i have this hc of Sardian confessing to Corundum so many times and always getting rejected‚ we can’t be together‚ i don’t see you that way #and he DOES try his best to move on but it doesn’t work‚ it’s impossible #because Corundum will always be the yardstick against which he’ll measure every other man in his life

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identity and favouritism…

#stone dance of the chameleon #nuhuron #seasons come and go ✍️ my love for awful men is eternal 💅 #i’ll never stop thinking about how being Qusata’s son might’ve affected him #since Qusata would have severe identity issues due to his own circumstances… i love the ideas we have #of Qusata being unable to truly connect with Nuhuron and that leading to a sense of untetheredness in Nuhuron #i think Qusata would also feel some resentment for Nuhuron which he would pick up on subconsciously #and him playing favourites with his son with the worst prospects would just be a manifestation of that #i read this one nonfiction book where the author talked about how the features of one system become flaws for the future #that’s parenting… i think #anyway happy birthday to my nuhuron can you believe he’s 24 already? amazing #…….. actually i was going to write ‘my husband Nuhuron’ but i wasn’t feeling that #then i was going to write ‘my father Nuhuron’ and that didn’t feel right either 😭😭😭😭 but ig i accidentally left ‘my’ in……. so he’s my Nuhuro #some things are just fate #art update: 12022024

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thinking of Kumatuya and loneliness and struggling against fate and being doomed by the plot

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #kumatuya #it’s been a whole year huh #i have a version with a red bg but i can’t share that for thematic reasons 😮‍💨✋ #in the year since i’ve been gone i developed restraint for narratives and grew unhinged irl 🫶

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25 lives, pt 1

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#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #kumatuya #kumardian #suth sardian #tuya’s birthday 2022 #💓💖💕💕❤️💗💓💖❤️💕❤️💖💓💞💗💘❤️❤️💕💗💖 #i’m so excited for this project!!!!!!!! #i’ve been OBSESSED with this poem & comic #it’s literally perfect for Kumardian #i cry

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happy birthday Kumatuya! 5/8

I always thought I might be bad Now I'm sure that it's true 'Cause I think you're so good And I'm nothing like you

Look at you go I just adore you I wish that I knew What makes you think I'm so special

If I could begin to do Something that does right by you I would do about anything I would even learn how to love

love like you

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #kumatuya #suth sardian #kumardian #tuya’s birthday 2022

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no cause Carnelian is such a good little papa’s boy, if Sardian told me to close my eyes because he was going to unmask the God-Emperor, i would CARVE every detail of his face into my retinas

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth carnelian #suth sardian #the clownery never ends #also i’m pretty sure Carnelian is 😭😭😭 the most religious person we see in Osrakum #i’m pretty sure most of the Chosen only care about religion as far as it talks about their divinity #they actually don’t give any other fuck about it #if Jaspar saw Tuya unmasked he would NOT close his eyes for even 1 second #maybe the Suths are insane

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why did i just realise that there is a significant parallel between Fey and Kumatuya and their relationships with Sardian? both were left behind because of the exile, both broke Sardian’s trust, both always loved him, both looked for a sort of forgiveness in Carnelian

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #sdc fey #kumatuya #kumardian #story time! #i was 😭😭😭 watching a movie and it was really sad. there was this scene 😭😭😭😭 she marries her lover off to someone else 😭😭😭😭😭 #and there was this song 😭😭😭😭 to show both of their mental states 😭😭 there was this line 😭 #no matter what; i’ve never been disloyal/unfaithful to you #first of all 😭😭 all love songs are Kumardian songs to me #i’ll kill all the poets & take their places & every time love is written in the universe it’ll be to you etc etc #so ofc i heard Tuya saying that to Sardian 😩 but then i realised: oh. why does it sound familiar? is there a quote about loyalty??? #that’s when it struck me: Fey and Tuya have strong parallels??????? #also no disrespect to Fey #but i imagined Tuya saying that to Sardian #yes i’ve been sobbing for a half hour over this

[suth-sardian]

i want someone with good art skills to draw court robes to prove once and for all that they’re ugly af

#sdc #stone dance of the chameleon #you either die a hero #or live long enough to see yourself become the villain

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the author posted AI generated pictures of the Chosen currency, the iron eyes, but sadly they weren’t to my tastes at all, so i thought it’d be nice to use craiyon to make versions that align with my opinion better 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #iron eyes #how cute #i want to eat them #TBH the originals 😭😭😭😭 look so edgy #as a known unappreciator of 😭😭 gritty adjacent aesthetics #no. fat no #apparently their grotesqueness shows the grotesqueness of the matches #which is fair. but why would the Chosen 😭😭😭 willingly make ugly coins. they’re literally obsessed with the consumption of beauty #they can be tacky and gaudy and gauche #but never ugly 😩😩😩😩😩 #reminds me; we don’t know anything about the minting of the coins #in my heart each House does their own coins #it’d be so adorable #imagine Suth coins with chameleon eyes #Imago coins with oversized dragonfly eyes #Vennel—well. they don’t have iron 😩😩😩 #what else is left. the Aurums are poor too #Cumulus coins with eyes in clouds :D how sweet #so much potential #no ugly

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today is the anniversary of the day i finished reading The Chosen for the first time! in honour of that, i thought it would be fun to draw them how they would look like in canon, God-Emperor and He-who-goes-before 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 don’t they look just so magnificent?

Sardian’s colour scheme makes me so happy since it’s just so harmonious, but from a realistic perspective it makes me conflicted…… all that red with his pale complexion…. he’d probably look like a tomato………….

also, i showed my friend the official Apotheosis God-Emperor regalia with the plate and the switching masks concept (section Candidate) and this is what that friend had to say

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth sardian #kumatuya #kumardian #sdjc 22 #day 25: canon costume #this took me 20 HOURS. i have my first exam SATURDAY. i’m literally an incarnation of Clownelian on this earth tbh #in hindsight; idek why i thought this would be quick and easy to do #the poses 😭😭😭 were so difficult to decide on. i wanted smth that’d show off both of their robes since who knows when the next time will be 😩 #i did 4 pose concepts 😩😩😩😩 #i did want to draw them in ranga; which made it even more difficult #tbh the skeletal concept of this was bad 😩😩😩😩 i didn’t think it would turn out well #but i went with it because i was tired 😩 and it turned out to be the right one to draw!!!!! #i first gave them more kimono-esque robes that were form fitting #then i checked on the website and 😭😭😭 they were called RECTANGULAR ROBES #i didn’t do any colour key #but in my mind they’d both be so pretty and golden #EXCEPT when i reread the Apotheosis chapter a couple days ago 😭😭😭😭 it said Osidian’s robe was of IRON #heartbreak and reattempt #but i have to say. it looks good 😭😭😭 so good #i finished Little Mushroom while doing the sun rays of Sardian’s crown 17 times #so yes this art is mingled with my tears 😭😭😭 but that book was just so sad #originally i went with the rainbow 🏳️‍🌈 from this emoji because pride. but it’s too oversaturated and really unbalanced it 😭😭😭😭 #i’m satisfied with the colours i picked tho 🫂🫂🫂🫂 i think the dull yellow really brought it all together #it was also so difficult to decide lily v pomegranate or green god staff v black god #i didn’t go with pomegranate because 😩😩 there’s already two of them on their heads. do we really need a third one. it’d be too pomegranatey #i wondered about how a white lily would go with the entire colour scheme before rereading and realising. Centurion of the RED LILY. it’s red #as for BG/GG. of course it’s green god. Tuya is our green bae 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 #also. Osidian’s robe nor the website says that the God-Emperor has a cloak. but he looked lonely 😩😩 husbands should be matchy!!!!

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have i said this before? Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind (the manga, not the movie, they are extremely different) is the story that SDC wishes it was, and that���s faxx. they are the EXACT SAME story at heart and this is the hill i’ll die on

also, i was going through the Nausicaa artbook and apparently she’s supposed to be an unapproachable, fierce person??? i got polluted by the movie, because in my heart Nausicaa is very gentle and loving 😭😭😭😭😭 but doesn’t that make Sardian the perfect Nausicaa too?

Kushana’s neckplate and gauntlet and headpiece originally have snake (dragon?) patterns, but ofc Kumashana has to have boyfie’s chameleons

when i saw the movie, i really shipped her and Asbel (my brain operates in ships only, then and now 😩), but i now know that Nausicaa and Kushana is where it’s at. wiveswiveswiveswiveswiveswi

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth sardian #kumatuya #kumardian #sdjc 22 #day 24: ghibli women #i love them #I LOVE THEM #so good

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“to see with eyes unclouded by hate.”

aren't they so adorable! i want to eat them omnomnomnomnomnom. i love how sad and horrified Hakutuya is with big bro (like the masks) Ashidian’s curse but how Ashidian is still trying to reassure him with his prettypretty smile 💖

as long as we're agreed that Ashidian is the most attractive Ghibli man and Howl doesn't have even 1% of his appeal. ALSO while looking up references for Hakutuya i learned that he's the HEAD OF ACCOUNTING????? that really was the thing that settled which character to draw as which for me, along with the fact that 😩 Tuya can't be said to be hateless EVER, he's like the most emotional character, it's almost embarrassing

i think it's also such a cute age shift, since Tuya is canonically older than Sardian 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 makes me think, i should write an AU where Sardian is like 10 years older, it would be so amazing

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth sardian #kumatuya #kumardian #sdjc 22 #day 23: ghibli men #yes that means tomorrow is ghibli women #still unsure who to go with for that 😩😩😩😩 #i thought of Lady Eboshi because she makes me question my sexuality #but it might be a bit much to draw two characters from the same movie #Kiki is easy to draw but. that's like right up there with Arietty in terms of movies i enjoyed 😩😩 which is really not that much tbh #i love Whisper of the Heart 😩😩 but Shizuku as no cool outfits #sigh. i'll probably just draw both from my #number 1 fave Ghibli movie #BUT THOSE CHARACTERS ARE SO DIFFICULT AND COMPLEX #also i love the way i’ve been colouring Sardian’s eyes lately #this comes with the fat disclaimer that i’ve never seen grey eyes irl: #there’s this character in SW called Obi-Wan 😩😩 in EVERY FIC there’s different colours given for Obi-Wan’s eyes #sometimes it’s green grey 😩😩😩 sometimes it’s just grey 😩😩 sometimes it’s blue #so i started looking for grey eyes refs 😩😩 #and it made me realise. this is one of those colour changing eye colours 😭😭😭😭😭 #not only is Sardian chameleon by name. EVEN HIS EYES CHANGE COLOURS #so with that. i’ve been colouring Sardian’s eyes with many different colours! grey yellow blue green #Tuya is still trusty green #although we actually don’t know that Tuya has green eyes iirc

[suth-sardian]

this cruel thesis, a spiteful angel’s mockery / will bring with it the sorrow of futility / hold on tightly and do not lose vitality / you must wake up for now that dream is history / come now, reach out, you must embrace humanity / rise up, young boy, and make yourself a legend

this was very conflicting to draw because i couldn’t decide between Kawoshin plugsuits (because obviously! Kawoshin are classics) or one of them in Asuka’s, because her striking red is just so iconic… so i ended up going with Reisuka as a compromise

(who’s Shinji in this strange universe? it’s still Carnelian, duh)

i feel like i’ve really been pushing the small and delicate Tuya agenda way too much lately, but in my defence Rei is like 142cm, so Reituya would have to reflect that! and like, honestly, i’m sure Tuya loves it too # say no to Kumatuya’s seme hands # Sardian pick me up pls # husband’s little pspspspspspspspspsp

i also feel like i’ve been pushing Sardian’s g cup agenda a lot too, but that’s even more essential. Sardian’s g cups are single-handedly holding my depression at bay. pls he’s all i have

#stone dance of the chameleon #sdc #suth sardian #kumatuya #kumardian #day 16: evangelion #NO but #they look like that photo of the main character’s pilot/revolutionary parents #in his phone/on his bedside and stares at longingly for extended periods of time #they died in battle/cruelly at the hands of the empire and left him an orphan at the age of 8 #later when he’s deciding if he should leave the selfish mercenary path he stares at the photo to make up his mind #etc etc #ALSO #idk how to explain it #but 😩😩😩😩 #i’ve drawn them with heels so much 😩😩 they look naked with flats like that