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I could disappear. Just wander off and become nothing.

I wish I could become nothing.

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I want to cut off my husbands family. I don’t want to see them anymore and I don’t want to talk to them. I don’t want to put my husband in that situation and I feel like I’m trapped. The anxiety and stress they cause me is crippling

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Family dynamics are a really sucky thing to have to manoeuvre. When those family dynamics don’t line up with the ones you’ve been taught and you have to relearn how to be around people, it sucks even more. I cannot cope. The anxiety is endless.

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I’m not invited to my brothers wedding and I’m so upset about it. He’s not being like mean to me or anything, he’s only have four people there so it not like it’s just me being excluded but I’m devastated. I’ve been waiting for the invite in the post and after getting a text about the hen party I thought maybe the invite had gotten lost so I messaged him and I’m just not invited. I feel like I sound really entitled but we’ve always had a special bond that neither of us has with our other siblings. I was so excited to find out he was engaged because I love his fiancé too and I’ve been waiting forever for them to get married. IM JUST SO SAD ABOUT IT

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Just got hit with a £100 parking fine because I didn’t know the car park had a five hours maximum stay and I went over that by 12 minutes. Fucking fuming. Can’t afford to pay it, can’t afford to be taken to court over it. I’m at my wits end.

I’m exhausted worrying about money all the time.

I know everyone is struggling at the minute, I just wish I didn’t have to be.

I know the fine is my own fault, I’m just really fucking mad about it.

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Crying in my bedroom cause I don’t think I’ll ever get to be a mother and a line in a song hit me certain way. How’s your Monday going?

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Hello! I’m not dead, now buckle in people I’m about to get real about the future of this blog.

Ya’ll came here for the memes and I love that I could provide them for you at a time when I needed them the most. You’ll have all noticed that I don’t really make or post them anymore.

I don’t have the creative juices left in me to come up with them. This blog will now be what it has already become, somewhere to shit post my feelings (good, bad and just plain boring).

If that’s not for you and you want to unfollow me? Go ahead, I won’t be offended. I know this is not what you signed up for.

If you stick around that’s lovely. Thank you.

I’m trying to grow as a person, I’m doing the things I enjoy because I enjoy them and I’m simply saying no to the things I don’t want to do. It’s hard because at my core I’m a people pleaser. I’m on a journey and you’re welcome to stick around for it but only if you want to.

But I’ll say it again just in case because I get asked where the memes are all the time

THERE WILL BE NO MORE MEMES HERE.

The old ones will still be around, so you can always scroll back if you need a laugh.

Love to you all x

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hey ive followed for a long time, one day you kinda stopped posting the meme content and I figured it had finally happened, time goes by and then you post again, and im glad to see that youre still kicking around, but im saddened to find out its because youre in a low again. That's happened a few times but point is, I want you to know that even though I dont know you, every time I see you posting again im relieved youre still here

Yeah the memes used to help me feel better but I kinda ran out of steam trying to come up with them 😢 I kinda just come here to get feelings off my chest now. If that’s not for you I won’t be offended if you want to unfollow 💕 thanks for caring that I’m still around though x

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bro i tboight you were dead.

Still alive - I’ll let you know if anything changes ✨

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How old are you?

I want to message but don't want you to feel even worse if I'm too young or too old.

Keep your head up ❤️

I’m in my late 20s but I feel about 100 most of the time 🥲

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Ive been feeling very lonely lately. I don’t know how to connect with people. All the people I know are younger than me, we’re just not in the same places in life so it’s hard to feel like I can make a real connection with any of them.

I don’t have any real friends anymore, there’s no one that just gets me, I’m always the therapist or the mum or the shoulder to cry on. I just need someone who I can hang out with. I love my husband dearly but i need a wider circle, even if it’s just one more person. I just need someone to talk to about books and trash tv, all the things my husband doesn’t care for. Someone to drink cocktails with and who doesn’t think I’m weird even though I am weird.

I miss being fourteen and my two best friends were fine but now I’ve grown and they’ve grown and I don’t really like how they treated me back then and the way they made me feel about myself and how they treat me now isn’t always much better so I don’t see them. But I never learnt how to make friends and now I don’t have anyone.

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I don’t know what this means

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I haven’t felt this low in a while. I thought about hurting myself. I haven’t and I’m sure I won’t but even just thinking it is quite scary.

My partner and I keep fighting because I’m so stressed out all the time and he’s so stressed out and neither of us seems to be on the same page anymore. We’ll be fine, we’re always fine but it hurts right now.

The cars just broke down, my partner is sat waiting for the tow truck right now and all I can think about is how we can’t afford to fix it, so I’m stress cleaning because I can scrub the floor till it shines, that’s something I can fix.

It’s my birthday tomorrow and we’re supposed to be going out for dinner with his family, I don’t want to go anymore. I just want to stay in my bed and pretend I don’t exist.

Mum says I should talk to my doctor but I’ve never even met them and the idea of opening this can of worms to a complete stranger makes me feel sick.

I just want everything to end. I’m tired of trying so hard, making all the right choices, the smart choices and still never coming out the other end with anything to show for it.

I want it to be over now.

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I have no purpose and my life has no meaning.

Most of the time I feel nothing and when I do feel something it’s usually sad.

No one understands when I tell them and they always make it about their position in my life.

I need help and guidance but I don’t know where to find it.

I don’t know who I am or what I want anymore.

I’m so sick of me.

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Will I ever post on time? No

Will I ever be doing anything exciting? No

Should you validate me by sending me lil emoji’s? Yes

Add me on BeReal: legerythil

#bereal #add me #validate me #validate my existence

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How is my life going?

I just threw my phone out of the car window because I was trying to get rid of a spider.