ive had the worst panic attack ive had in a very long time because of this if you are ok ill still be very happy youre ok. im going crazy and doing crazy things out of suspscion and maybe delusion (very probable!!) but whho knows I DONT i just want my life to end
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do you really think i didn’t cry,
do you really think i didn’t try.
to kill myself about a dozen times,
but the earth still turns and the sun still falls
ill live until i hear my call
cut my wrists, hope to die
bleed until im out of time
run the tap, burning hot
rid my mind of useless thoughts
im way to damaged to survive
my hearts to broken to stay alive
my head keeps screaming i want to die
but my souls tinge of hope keeps me immune to suicide
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a century memory
help me i can't stop dreaming
i can't stop wanting and praying and wishing
hoping for a moment that lasts us a century
waiting to be alone with you
holding you close as you push yourself deeper inside me
my heart beating out of control
each touch hot enough to set us ablaze
your lips connect to mine
and in that moment everything is ok
everything is warm and how it should be
it's peaceful here, in this moment
however short it may be, the memory will last me a century
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still ; always (love you)
i still see your face, in my eyes when theyre shut killing me inside, making me want to cut i still see it all through tear streaming eyes, every sin and every lie all the pain i felt still fills my heart, everything you did still tears me apart when i sleep your in my dreams, haunting every nightmare like it's yours no matter how much i try to move on, no matter how many people i fuck ill still try to kill myself over you, itll work with any luck, ill always feel shit for you, even though i really dont want to
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