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over christmas when i came out fully to my mom she did tell me i was beautiful and gave me some of her old jewelry and told me she was excited to have another daughter and that was all wonderful, but the part that meant the most to me was when i told her "i want to get my facial hair taken care of sooner than later, the whole "girl" thing is a lot easier to swallow when im shaved" and she examined my use of the phrase "it's a lot easier to swallow" and said "Scout, I didn't have a good relationship with my mother. you know that." (i did know that, my grandma was NOT good to my mother) "but your grandma kim [friend of my grandma's, unrelated by blood in any way, but was adopted as a grandma through familial osmosis] was the greatest woman who's ever been in my life. and up until the day she died, she had a beard and a moustache [which is true, my grandma kim, a cis woman, had VERY thick facial hair]. if you kept your facial hair for the rest of your life i wouldnt think of you as less of a woman" and ya know what? THAT'S the part of her support that made me cry.

my grandma kim was an amazing woman and she had peach fuzz that she didnt give a FUCK about. and everyone loved her.

you can have your own fuzz too, and that doesn't make you not a woman.

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Thank god she didn’t overreact

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my dad is so funny because if you actually asked him point blank if he's an ally i dont think he'd know how to respond but like a year ago he was talking about when he used to sell houses in the 90s and he was like "yeah we had a gay couple come in and i had to tell one of my coworkers to stop being rude to them. then they invited me to their housewarming party, i dont know why. after that i had a bunch of gay couples come in and specifically ask for me, isnt that weird?" and he legitimately had never connected the dots

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tiktok is such an awful app, it's almost designed to feed you misinformation and expose you to insane discourse. unlike beloved tumblr, the app that feeds me misinformation and exposes me to insane discourse

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if you told vin diesel fast and the furious you were gay he'd be like "Some people like driving stick…some people like driving automatic…what matters is you cross the finish line.." and then he'd rev up a dodge challenger and drive through a building and kill 16 people

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Something something angelic steel headcanon

yesterday in my dream i've got a sudden headcanon, that if a sinner wears clothes wis elements made of angelic steel, their magic attacks work as angelic weapon, and in my dream Alastor had such clothes fighting adam AND I'M SO MAD AGGHHGGH

I don't know if i'm actually gonna use this hc, but i decided to draw Alastor with angelic steel elements. Unfortunately my computer said fuck you and i lost the drawing, all i have is this screenshot of it so yeah here

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#forever #forever abc #forever 2014 #henry morgan #dr henry morgan #jo martinez #adam forever #fanfiction #fan server #discord #ao3 #archive of our own #alternate universe #character study #found family #immortal #immortality

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me after reanimating the corpse of tolkien: so later on in the show, galadriel’s new bestie, halbrand, is revealed to be sauron, which kind of erases celebrimbor as a character and his contribution to the main conflict

tolkien: that’s what you’re worried about when two of the beatles are still living? go finish the job

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I’m just thinking about how many times I’ve heard my dad on a long call with an obvious scammer and I’ll start begging him to get off the phone because I always think he’s a very easy mark and he’ll just keep going and then after a while he’ll say something like “I died 20 years ago” and hang up.

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The one of the things about being a latter half millenial is how the Lord of the Rings movie trilogy boom happened right on those developing years that you can remember, when you were old enough to understand things but didn't really know much of the world before that. And now you're an adult and every time you hear a fragment of a familiar melody, you're hit with childhood nostalgia of this tale.

A story of a world in decline, where those who came before you lament of how much better things were in those old glorious days of a more prosperous age that will never come again. Knowing that you'll never quite grasp the tragedy of the ruins you walk past, because they've always been only ruins to you. You only know that the world is growing darker, and the best you can do is find your own hope, and make the best of the time you were given.

You hear a song in Quenya and it hits you all at once how your childhood nostalgia is woven into songs sung in a tongue you don't understand, from a world you've never been to, lamenting the loss of a better age that you never knew.

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henry was like "im not a killer ❤️" to adam even tho adam cant die and the literal worst state he could be in is permanent paralysis and then he just. paralysed him like girl WHAT makes u think u have the moral high ground in this situation.

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My dearest Doctor Morgan,

I hope this letter finds you in good health!

I am wondering, for literature research purposes only ofc, if you've ever suffered from hypothermia after emerging from the Hudson river and thus died twice in say a winter's night?

Best wishes,

A curious time traveller

Thank you for your inquiry. Firstly, when I'm in New York City, I tend to wind up in the East River on most occasions rather than the Hudson. There have certainly been times when I've died two or more times in a given night (or day) in the winter. However, it's not always as a result of hypothermia, and hypothermia does not always result in a death. It does greatly depend on how quickly I'm able to get dry and warmed up. I'd say drowning is a much more common cause for multiple deaths in winter if the conditions of the river are rough. There are times when the cold exposure will put enough of a strain on my immune system that I will fall ill after a death. This could be as mild as a cold or it could be as severe as influenza, bronchitis, or pneumonia. There have been times when these illnesses have resulted in secondary deaths, but generally that does not happen on the same day/night. I hope this has been helpful for your research.

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I can't decide if I want Adam and Henry to finally get over themselves and stop fighting so they can become good close friends who care about each other and each other's lives and relationships

Or if I want them to keep antagonizing each other for all eternity, developing into a rivalry where they don't hate each other, but find themselves on opposite sides of everything out of spite, having overly familiar conversations much to the confusion of everyone else. Imagine, them having tea together and glaring the whole time, making snappy comments.

"Do you like the tea? It's a special blend. A poison that I cultivated myself actually. It causes incredible pain and a slow, agonizing death."

"Oh? It does actually have quite a lovely flavor. How does it compare to the cocktail of drugs I shot you with in 2023?"

"Well, it's got a sweeter flavor, I know you have such a horrible sweet tooth, but the pain will be more like fire and nails coursing through your blood, in waves. Long acting, too. I can't send you to hell, so I hoped I might attempt to bring it to you."

"Very thoughtful of you, I'm flattered." *takes another sip of poisoned tea*

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would you mayhaps share some headcanons for adam from forever esp some romantic stuff cause i’m in my feels

Oh man i sure can, but keep in mind that they are most likely very influenced by the fact that i am in love with burn gorman, and also trigger warning these are SAD. Anyway, I hope you still enjoy them!

- adam keeps a notebook where he draws faces of people and places he loved

- he loves dogs because he had one in his first life, his real life, that was one of his best friends in the world. He misses him a lot.

- adam caught a british accent in the 70s in london, where he lived for a while. During this period, he met a very pretty young man working in a cafe. He came almost everyday to the cafe, reading a book while drinking tea, noticing the soft and warm feeling in his chest when the man came up to take his order or check if he needed anything. He never dared actually engage in conversation with him,because how could he, after all this time and all the other people he lost, and so he still wonders to this day what could have been

- after all he's been through, adam observes the rise of psychology and therapy dureing the 20th century and has mixed feelings about it. On the bad days, he resents not having access to anything like this for 90 percent of his life, having to bear his pain alone, and even now not being able to truly benefit from it because who would believe him really? On the good days, he sees beauty in the fact that some people dedicate their whole life to sharing the burden of others and gently helping them get through it. Sometimes, very rarely, he even allows himself to dream of a different life, a new start where he could have a job and friends and a family, maybe become himself one of those people who help others. And that is why his 'performance' as dr farber seems so genuine and sweet, because deep down somewhere, under all the suffering and hatred, the good in him actually wishes for this life