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...2 mugs of coffee, a couple of cookies and roughly 3 bites of rice..

Shit..its starting again😖

#just random shit #sad thoughts #It's starting once more

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Hmm 🤔 disappointments come in many forms, got ghosted by the guy I liked since he didn't like the way I looked.

Cried for a bit, but then focused on my friend's homecoming next week.

So to cheer myself up, I had my nails done after 3 months from it breaking 😊

I have man hands when my nails aren't long lol

#just random shit #My nails 💅 #Violet nails 💜 #my thoughts

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I slept in for about an hour today, and every time I do, it's cause i've been dreaming about people that I love and care for dying due to getting sick or getting into accidents or what not.

In my dream earlier, I asked myself, if this was the truth or not..fantasy and reality is beginning to mix in my mind.

Now I'm not sure if they are dead or not

#Just random shit #Tw death #Dreams mixing with reality #Just some painful thoughts

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My anxiety has been acting up for quite some time now and my nails took most of the visible damage since any length I have would immediately be bitten off (I have had nail biting as on of many coping me hs for my stressors, which I finally realized)

My nephew saw me doing it while spacing out and he went and tapped them up since they've been bitten to knubs and are very very close to breaking skin..

#just random shit #my anxiety is so bad #My finggies be tapped up #He had fun wrapping them

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Me having an impromptu concert with myself as the audience 🙂

I feel happy? I get bored staring at the screen for a long time watch the names go by lol

#just random shit #I miss singing lol #*sighs* idk my voice sounds better with sad love songs #Breakup playlist on replay lol

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It's 4:30 and sleep is just not coming to me :( I didn't even drink a drop of coffee today what the heck?!

#just random shit #I've been tossing and turning for hours now #I just wanna sleep

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When your cold turns to a fever and your tooth just randomly starts hurting again..in time with your fever..

Like hell >,< I wanna be in bed resting rather then up and about running errands

#just random shit #I feel like dying rn #And it suddenly rained and I have no umbrella 😭

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this hit home soooo effin close especially these days where the urge pops in my head a couple of times a day and the number of plans I've been making in my head is unreal

#just random shit #just some painful thoughts #sad thoughts #painful #I'm feeling suicidal again for the nth time this month #Been in my dark hole for a good while now #I can't seem to get myself out of it and it's scary and comforting at the same time #To those that I talk to on here #from the bottom of my heart #You guys make me smile #I'm v awkward and would usually be very overtly motherly or just be very concerned about you #It's my way of saying I wanna be close and be friends #But I pull back cause I've been told it's annoying so get radio silence from me #Every now and then #But I genuinely care about you

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Fucking stupid 😭😭😭

I just wanted to eat dumplings with chili sauce 😭😭

But my tummy didn't want it and now I'm sick 😢💯

#just random shit #My throat and tummy hurts #I just wanted something spicy #😢💔

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Me going back to genshin like I didn't leave for months lol

#just random shit #Genshin comeback #Another way to procrastinate lol

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Pfft 🤭

My sister says I have a slight addiction..idk what she means tbh 🙄.

It's perfectly normal imo.

They're all very pretty

My "addiction" under the cut. Excuse my thumb...im still growing my nails out 💔

#just random shit #my collection #My rings 😍 #💍 💍 💍 #gemsandminerals #crystals and gemstones

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......i dunno what's with me today but I've been watching nothing but top 10 vids..but the catch is its all creepy stuff 💀

#just random shit #Creepy kinda day #Might have weird dreams cause of this

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Ehehe 😅

Life has been worrisome this pass few weeks, with a lot of things happening, people coming and going, anxieties coming to reality...I've been doing my best to not let them bog me down, I've been compensating with whatever and whoever but when plush calls...plush calls 😅 💸 💸 ohh!! And Crystals and about hmmm 6 or 7 rings 😂😂

The waiting game begins yet again 😍😂

#just random shit #Plushies are ❤️ #Sukuna is kinda sad being by himself #Gojo and Yuuji are coming don't worry ❤️ #More plushies!!! 😍 #crystals #gemsandminerals #Rings

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I got forced into actively using my untouched discord account since my best friend hates how her messager updated 😐

#just random shit #The things I do for her #At least it gets some use. #I think

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The fact that I have to draft up a break up text to my ex's mom is both laughable and weird.

*sigh* I had so much respect for this woman but the way she guilttrips me into getting back with her son is too much.

#just random shit #Relationship shit #Sorry if he's sad and seems to have no proper direction #But I can't be the one who makes him whole again #I gave too much and got so little in return #literally and figuratively

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Thank you for the tag Mama Rae! 😍

There's only two teams that I absolutely love lol here it is hehe (my hair is only that wavy if I don't bother brushing through it...its a whole ass chore)

I'd happily be the manager for either Karasuno or Shiratorizawa just for Asahi and Tendou lol❤️

Tagging (if you want to ofc): @snflwrkenma @llamakenma @syds-room and @undersero

i just found the cutest picrew so i’m starting a tag game! this is me being the supportive MSBY wife i was always meant to be.😌

tagging: @forcefully-awoken @titan-fodder @mindninjax @whats-her-quirk @kyovtani @daichidaichidaichi @some-kindofgnome @spacelabrathor

#Tag games 🎮 #mama rae ❤️ #answers from the heart <3