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FUCK

I FORGOT ABOUT MY ORGANIZATIONAL SIDEBLOG

AT LEAST I DIDNT DEACTIVATE I WOULD BE SO PISSED IF I LOST THAT

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bro ok i sent it. lads i feel so free oh my god

#wish i was being dramatic but i feel like. pounds lighter

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fuck it. im moving! 

#mutuals i will b contacting u and then disappearing from the other accounts godbless

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Hm maybe I’ll start over on here too many people on the main

#pt2! #also i just want ot vanish #being on here is exhausting sometimes #but like i procrastinate too much and also i get bored so i come on here for something to do #so like i want to leave but then. #what else will i do #its a nice occupation #but then i feel so stressed because i miss out on shit/ i have to catch up #literally!! #im so so so so so fucking tired oh my god #i want to abandon everything!!! #but where will i put all my thoughts then!!!! #where!!! #i want to deactivate SO SO SO fucking bad but i know i will miss my original posts #and my mutuals #i just :/ #im tired #i want to disappear bro #i did create a completely new account with a new email and everything a while back #because i was fucking CENTIMETERS from deactivating #i havent done anything with it but it's there #;lakjs;dlfkjasdflakj i just checked and #IN MARCH!!! #IN MARCH i made that account #ive been thinking about it for THAT long #and i know i was thinking about it for at least a month and a half before that #jesus christ #you know what fuck it #if i ever do decide to deactive im messaging mutuals with my new url and swearing them to secrecy

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why the fuck does my collar bone hurt

#and its only one side

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Hm maybe I’ll start over on here too many people on the main

#I do like people following me but I also feel watched #like I say stupid shit! all the time! #and then I worry what people think lmao #legit I started a tumblr so I would have a place to put all the thoughts that just appear in my head #and now people FOLLOW ME #like people I’m in awe of?? #I’m so sorry #and it’s not even that many #like I don’t have that many followers #but still!! #but I have two followers on here so you know what? #new shouting into the void blog #also Lina ily ur good #also sorry ranting in the tags lmao #but i kind of? feel pressure? to be funny? #which is so fucking stupid because i am the furthest from funny #im just dumb bro im glad u had a laugh #but i cant post my dumb thoughts anymore because eyes!!!!! #literally dont perceive me but a #lso do <3 #like were thing of i dont want people looking at my shit but also please lmk im not just an irritant on ur dashboard #applies especially to mutuals because im so scare they will get tired of me #mutuals are so hyped up on this site im scared of losing them because like oh buddy im sorry for annoying you #which. is like. #chill the fuck out man its literally all ones and zeros calm the FUCK down #and i just have this ITCH #and ITCH #to deactivate and literally vanish #but i want to keep my mutuals because they are cool and i do like them #but also what if i irritate them!

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When u only have two things on ur sideblog <3

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who am I to doubt her rly 

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yes this is smushedmuffins who is now @bubblecarr im too attached to the url so i made this side blog to keep it