skinnysienna

[skinnysienna]

hi guys i know i haven’t been on here in awhile but i got admitted to a hospital today. i’m really unhealthy and they want me to gain weight before i go to treatment. i cant choose my food either and i’m forced to eat it. i’m gonna cry i can’t.

[skinnysienna]

[skinnysienna]

hi guys i know i haven’t been on here in a few days because i’ve been feeling guilty. i wish i could go back to the way it was before. where u could miss lunch and sometimes even skip breakfast. now i have to have 3 meals and 2 snacks a day. i always manage to stay under like 850 even though i’m supposed to be eating 1000. i know my parents are looking to putting me in inpatient at walden, but they said if i lose anymore weight i may have to be hospitalized, and that’s even worse than what i do now.

i’m just so stressed and i can’t workout as much as a i usually do. i can’t go to normal school anymore, see my friends, or do sports. i literally have to sneak workouts in while my moms not glancing at me.

if your thinking about getting into an ed please don’t. it ruins you. you lose yourself.

love you all

[skinnysienna]

so ik how i recently deleted all my what i eat in a day posts and i don’t do them anymore, it just felt like a chore to write down the calories on so many different things so yeah. i’ll still be posting though so don’t worry!

love you all!

[skinnysienna]

i think i’m going to have to change my cal count to 800, i never usually minus cals with workout because it just feels wrong. i’ll still work out and stuff but my health is really really bad right now.

love you all

[skinnysienna]

okay so i wasn’t supposed to see my wait on the scale cause i’m at the doctors rn, but i’m 83 lbs!

apparently there needs to be a lot of additions to my calories so i’m mad abt that. i’ll find a way to get around it if that means doing sit ups all night.

love you all!

[skinnysienna]

hi guys if your wondering why i deleted most of my posts, im just a perfectionist and i found out that my calorie counts were wrong so i literally deleted my og app and got a new one.

love you all!

[skinnysienna]

here’s a little sketch for this morning.

im feeling really guilty, 500 calories seems like too much a day.

[skinnysienna]

some thinspo drawings that i made (i used photos as reference)

[skinnysienna]

so big update guys.

at the doctors today everything is now changing. i can’t go to normal school anymore, i have to be monitored at almost every second, and i have lots more doctors in the future so i don’t know how active i will be.

my mental health is definitely taking a toll on everything going on so yeah.

love you guys.

[skinnysienna]

hi lovelies so i had lacrosse and i did a mini workout so i burned about 222 both combined not counting steps.

i also watched to the bone last night and it was so good pls watch it.

love you all!

[skinnysienna]

okay so i’m getting really tired of putting the !! at the end of my posts so just beware of what’s on my acc and stay safe!

love you all!

[skinnysienna]

hi guys so i finished volleyball but i’m literally so weak i almost collapsed mid way through. i also didn’t have water so i was really really tired.

i may have some fruit at home because i’ve currently burned way more than i’ve eaten.

anyways love you guys!

!i do not promote ed related things, this is just to help me!

[skinnysienna]

hey guys, i think im too weak to do lacrosse today, but i still have volleyball, and ill do workouts.

i didnt eat lunch so im happy about that.

anyways love you all!

!i do not promote ed related things, this is just to help me!

[skinnysienna]

okay guys i think i’m all set with fixing the calories. i know i will never be able to get the exact calories burned but it wouldn’t change much anyways. i’ll make a better effort to do exact measurements if i need to.

anyways love you all, remember tomorrow’s a new day.

!i do not promote anything ed related, this is just to help me!

[skinnysienna]

omfg i need to vent. so as you all know i count my calorie intake and calories burned. but i know i won’t know every calorie burned because just living burns calories and it annoys me so much. i also don’t feel like i put in the exact exact calories for food, cause i can’t measure exactly. i just can’t i can’t i can’t. it’s annoying me so much i want to rip my hair out.

anyways love you all!

!i do not promote ed related things, this is just to help me!

[skinnysienna]

hey guys my mental health is getting bad again so if i’m not too active that’s why.

love you all!