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siennanotes · 2 months

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March 1, 2024

I have always wondered whether people do read my captions here on Tumblr. This blog has become a back up account of my studygram and for the longest time, I only visit my website to upload new photos then never visit again for weeks straight.

But today is different. Today, I have made the decision to start reviewing for my board exam. I am not sure how. I am not certain where to start. But what I know for sure is that I am ready to start my review.

Unfortunately, I have chosen a terrible time. Earlier today, I scored low on our quiz in a subject I know I am weak at. My four patients in the clinic cancelled on me and I have two meetings tonight. Yet here I am. Trying to squeeze in the time to write this because I know I want some form of documentation of what will happen in the remaining 20 months before our boards.

I really do hope no one I know in person is reading this because I am not comfortable letting people openly know about this yet. So here I am hiding in Tumblr like it's 2014.

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siennanotes · 2 months

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If you know me from primary school, you would know that I am not a spectacle wearer. Oddly enough, I started wearing glasses when I entered Optometry school. My first ever prescription glasses is during our training before entering clinic year.

Truth be told: I hated wearing my glasses. It wasn’t how I imagined it to be in elementary where those who wear frames look smart. I didn’t like how I look with glasses. Mostly, I hated how I now have to wear my specs to see things better and avoid having eyestrains.

Overtime, wearing glasses before my 5th year started was a blessing in disguise. Through this experience, I developed a deeper appreciation for lenses. I have gained empathy in personally getting to see a fraction of what my patient’s have to deal with to carry on with their everyday tasks. Through this experience, I saw firsthand how even a small amount of grade can change a person’s life. That spectacles, when dispensed properly, can create a lasting impact. I gained interest in binocular vision. I always re-check, refine, and balance my refraction. I search for frames that will complement the face shape of my patients. I try to do my best during patient education—noting and customizing what I say depending on who my patient is.

Ever since this semester has started, I have felt disappointed at myself for not reaching certain things: may it be on patient handling or scores on a quiz. But just like my first pair of prescription glasses, these too have been blessings in disguise. Lately, I have learned to embrace my life when it’s worth celebrating, and even when it feels like it’s falling apart.

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siennanotes · 2 months

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It took a while before I posted this picture because I have always been known for my white wall filled with notes—or atleast that’s how I heard one to two people describe my feed to others.

I never really liked the dull moments. I kept my studygram bright and full of light, hiding the bad days of my academic life. Studying has not always been easy; and it certainly isn’t this time around in Optometry school.

January used to be a month I look forward to. In January, there’s a new milestone to celebrate. In January, I get to be with my loved ones. In January, there’s a new beginning. In January, I get to open my new planner. And like what I wrote a few weeks ago on my blog (you can see it here), January marks the start of our Clinic 2.

This semester took me by surprise. It was no longer light notes and colorful pens. It was no longer early patients and bearable expenses. Bad days came after the next. Words were said and regrets were spilled as I try to get my life together. Every aspect of my life feels like what it is: gray.

But just like gray, I mirror the dynamic nature of life, the balance of lights and shadows, the neutral, the harmony in between extremes. Gray reminds me I am a work in progress, that I am in the middle ground, that I should be kinder to myself especially for things that are beyond my control. Since the beginning of Clinic 2, I’ve been resisting myself to become gray but I guess this is what I need to transition back to light.

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siennanotes · 5 months

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Okay, hear me out. One of the things I enjoy most during clinic year is the thrill of having my labsheets approved. Before our forms are signed, we have to answer particular questions or perform procedures. Without the labsheet approval, you will not be able to dispense your patient's lenses.

You never really know what question or task will hit you and the uncertainty of it all challenges me to be on top of my active recall game. It allows me to revisit past lessons and gauge which areas I have yet to read more of.

It's also during this time that my past notes come in very handy. There are days I regret wasting my time from the past for not studying as productive as I hope to be. It was tiresome scanning all of my notes, backing up files, and never really opening them as much as I want to.

Earlier this month, I attended a youth summit geared towards research innovation. One of the instruments available in the fair was a weighing scale that also measured muscle and visceral fat. I haven't worked out in a long time. Hence, I was both surprised and happy to see that most of my weight still comes from muscle and that my visceral fat is at 1%.

The present version of myself is grateful for the hardwork I have put in the past. It may not be perfect or as seamless, but it is enough to give me a headstart for this tiring semester. These are things that are not directly specified on the checklist for clinic preparations. But these are things I could suggest to the next batch of clinicians. Stay physically healthy so you will have energy during and after clinic + store your notes (!!)

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siennanotes · 9 months

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One of the reasons why I don’t usually post about test performances is because of my fear of what other people would say but you know what, it is my account and it’ll be fun to look back on these words years from now. This is a reminder of how students have the capacity to put in the effort and triumph over obstacles for our dreams and ambitions.

Weeks before our battery exam, my heart went from being happy to being broken then mended again. Tears were shed, and I felt the pressure brought upon by the expectations on me. I started browsing through my notes, but the time supposedly spent for the review was mostly allocated to studying for the final tests, as those came first. Hours supposedly spent at study areas were spent running errands for our organization’s last major event. Balancing my responsibilities and having emotional fluctuations affected my focus and concentration, and left me with limited hours to review.

The day before the exam, I spent the morning teaching kids. In the afternoon, I read as much as I could. After dinner, I felt sleepy before 11PM and told myself I’d wake up early instead. Next thing I know it was 6 o’clock in the morning and I was not able to rise on time.

The battery exam is a comprehensive examination taken by the 4th year students of our school before they could proceed to their clinic year. It was nerve-wracking going through the pages of the tests and finding difficulty on the provided questions. In the wide spectrum of things, this may seem like a small win but a wave of gratitude, joy, and relief washed over me when the results were announced.

I am writing this to immortalize this memory here. The battery exam journey reminds me of fries, rice porridge, and different flavors of artificial milktea. But it also reminds me of holding on tight, having faith, and having perseverance. Here’s to believing that we are capable of achieving greatness even in the most challenging circumstances.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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Ever since I was in my first year, I have feared the thought of finally entering our clinic year. Now, I am a few months away from it and I have never felt so clueless about everything that's happening. We're taking things one day at a time and trying to learn as much as we could.

We took high-yield subjects this semester starting with the second part of our Contact Lens course. Contact Lens 2 focused on fitting toric and hard contact lenses. It was interesting to discover different ways to insert and remove the lenses. I particularly enjoyed the removal of the rigid gas permeable CL.

During our Contact Lens 2 class, we were also lucky enough to attend lectures on Myopia Management. There, I have learned the various lenses we can prescribe someday to help control myopia progression. I loved learning the mechanisms of how myopia can be prevented and sights can be saved.

This month, one of the subjects we are taking is Clinical Pediatric Optometry. I look forward to it as it is one of the specializations I consider on taking in the future. We are also looking into Vision Rehabilitation which has been fun as we have finished our Clinical Low Vision class from the previous months.

The case report from my story the other day is from our Clinical Neuroanatomy. It took some time before we had a grasp on what was happening with the case but I missed immersing myself in academic reading and ended up enjoying looking into the articles available.

Do stay safe in this heat and don’t forget to wear your sunscreen!

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siennanotes · 1 year

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Fear is not something I am totally unfamiliar with. I have felt it as a kid when I visit the dentist. I was scared of dogs, of syringes, and many other things. I have, however, always enjoyed school. I play my academics like a game I want to win. I enjoy unlearning, learning, and relearning things. I love studying and showing up to class every day.

But I have never felt this scared for my academics before--not when I got drowned by extra curricular activities in 9th grade, not when I was running for batch valedictorian in senior year, not even when I took the presidential post for student council and shoved my academics aside. As clinic year draws near, the stakes rise higher and higher. One failed quiz could cause a delay. I often operate with the base assumption that I don't know nearly enough. This time, I don't have to operate on that base assumption because I genuinely do not know nearly enough. I am currently on an academic crisis and I am not sure how I will deal with it. All I know is that I have to keep getting up early and just mask my impostor syndrome.

I am terrified of losing my scholarship, of making mistakes, of not knowing what to do. Nevertheless, I know feeling this fear is good because it means I value Optometry enough to actually feel afraid of being incompetent.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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For the past few posts, I noticed how I usually write about my musings in life and what I've been to lately. With this, I noticed how these lengthy captions can actually become separate blog posts themselves. Hence, the creation of siyenna.

I am grateful for the year 2022. It is the year when we finished our student council term. The year we have achieved many things. The year when the people we have only worked with online, we have finally met in person. The year I have relearned how to cook, to take care of my health seriously, and to look deeper into my ikigai. Exciting as 2022 has been, it has also been a tiring, tiring year.

Moving away from home and juggling my academics with everything else going on in my life has been exhausting. The fatigue has dawned upon me during the last few days of the year. I am learning that if there is one thing I should know how to manage, it is not my time, but my energy.

How I would love to focus on things that matter to me. But the world is simply a combination of things we can and can't control. This year, may I realize how it is to live comfortably between effort and surrender.

Here's to the new challenges we will conquer this 2023! ❤️‍🔥 For now, I might try to write more academic captions on my next posts seeing that captions like this will now be published on my blog.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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Apologies that it took this long for me to write another post. Life lately has been better than what I have described it to be in my previous uploads. I have recently reconnected with an acquaintance from the past who has brought clarity as to how I should be approaching my plans for the future.

Suffering, as I have experienced it to be, is because of my resistance to the things I could not change. I have officially passed the key of responsibility from my last term and we are now working on our first event for our new tasks. I don't feel as competent as I do before in leading people. Mostly because I feel tired and no longer have the time and energy to wake up early every day, put on my shoes, and lift those weights.

Right now, we are taking things one day at a time. Life has to be lived and experienced, not intellectualized. Inhale deeply and dive back into the stream of consciousness. Here's this week's reminder that everything you need and everything you want will find you at the right time that it is meant to. Put on the shelves those worries about the future and anchor yourself in the present. All good things take time.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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Lost is a word I can probably use to describe what I feel lately. I am lost on what to do with the new responsibilities placed on my shoulders. I am lost on how I feel on certain things. Nonetheless, I try to get up every day, keep moving forward, and just see where my shoes bring me.

Our first learning block just ended, but this semester already feels like it is lasting for ages. I am starting to cultivate a routine and find balance on things, but I am also beginning to miss home. Despite everything, I surrender to what is. I do not resist the flow of the river and just do what it is that I have to do.

It's in these moments of progress when I am reminded of the importance of pauses; of how freeing it felt when I decided to take one day off even though I had to face tons of workload when I got back. I will never understand why the culture of hustling and never taking a break is glamorized so much by the studygram community. Know that I am not a supporter of it and will never be. -

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siennanotes · 1 year

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The past few days have been tougher than what I expected them to be. Minutes, that felt like hours, were filled with tough conversations. Studying felt like a distant task I could not seem to do. My actions felt empty; like I am here in the present moment but my mind escapes reality.

Juggling Optometry school with my student leader duties, volunteer work, household errands, and keeping my self sane reminds me how important it is to make sure I am at my optimal state. With this, I apologize if it takes extra time for me to respond to messages.

I am currently looking for the balance between everything I have to accomplish. But just like the book featured in this post, The Myth of Sisyphus, may we continue to find joy and meaning of what we do no matter how tiring things may seem.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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I apologize it took this long for me to write but I am safe and well in my new residential place for university. Life lately has been filled with hugs and smiles as I get to personally meet those I've only interacted with online. It feels odd to no longer be part of the student council and it's sad to think that we never had the chance to host an onsite event; but I guess, it was all for the best.

The transition to online classes called for resilient and adaptive leadership--the leadership we were able to bring to the table, and the leadership that kept the community running virtually. We had a good term and although I would have loved to take my time and rest for now, I realized that certain situations sentence you to rise up to the challenge.

In the upcoming months, and even years, I don't think I would ever go back to the time where I was never in the frontlines. Tiring as it may be to always be putting myself out there, it is heartwarming to think that I get to touch and be a part of other people's lives.

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siennanotes · 1 year

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We're counting down to the start of a brand new school year. I am here in the 'in between'--of flipping a page, but not quite there yet; of pauses, silent moments, and listening to the tick of the clock. This is how I feel when I wait for new year's day. This is how it feels when classes get suspended and you find things to fill your day with.

Each day, I become more nervous of what lies ahead of me. But also each day, I feel excitement in seeing familiar faces again. When I am asked for advice on living far from where you grew up in, I would always say build a home. Not, of course, in a literal sense where you have to hammer nails on wood but surround yourself with good people, find your way through things, and eventually, leaving for university will be less dreading because there is a life out there that you actually look forward to and enjoy living.

Right now in the 'in between', I have in my room unloaded luggage, unsealed boxes, and rekindled childhood friendships. I am finding comfort in this process of waiting but for now, we must pack.

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siennanotes · 2 years

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How do you have multiple pages that are tumblr pages? I have multiple pages but I can only write on them continuously, i can't make a post for each day or anything

Hi, striving-for-md! Would love to see screenshots of what you're referring to so I can help you out <3

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siennanotes · 2 years

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I remember during high school I would always strive to write my notes in perfect English. I was a huge grammar nazi and even got into trouble once because of it. I used to scrap a whole page of notes if I make one correction. I was scared of gaining weight, increasing my calories, having unclear skin, and everything along the lines of what I know is imperfect.

I'm currently writing this at my home province, few weeks before university begins. I have always hated staying at this place because it reminds me of past mistakes. Oddly enough, being here now gives me a sense of comfort. All those years of loathing made me forget the familial relationships that exist here; of cousins who find joy in the little things, of nieces you can talk to for hours, of aunts who would go extra miles for you, of churchmates who remind you of your dad's legacies.

It took time for me to learn that not all I do has to be so fabricated--that if I stay true to who I am, people will come and go, but those who are good and meant to be in my life will stay through it all. There continues to be discomfort in knowing I am not always as driven and great like what I aspire to be. But perhaps it's in these pauses that allow me to practice gratitude of all that I have, and of all that I have become. 🌻

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siennanotes · 2 years

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Today marks my last full day in our province before leaving for university. It's weird to think that no matter how many times I have moved places my entire life, the process of packing my bags and leaving never gets easy. I have always envied those who can stay at their own homes with their family despite studying in college, but I guess growth never happens inside your comfort zone. All the community work my family has done and exposed me to gives me the drive to take the leap of faith, and work hard to earn the experiences I need to effectively help people.

One of the many things I hold on to during departure is the thought of someday--that someday, I will go back as a better version of myself; that someday, I will return with the added knowledge I can apply to the community. That someday, I'll be back with a new skillset I can use to practice and talk more about eye health.

I would have loved to study and make content this week but on my last few days here, I found myself doing the opposite. I barely read my books and I decided to just enjoy the last moments of bliss before I once again enter the training grounds of Optometry school.

Here's a reminder that sometimes, sacrifices like these are necessary. If we become the best we can be---a hands on employee, a selfless doctor, a competent lawyer, a righteous accountant, a responsible engineer, an insightful educator--then I believe that we can make this world a better place one heartbeat at a time. ❣️

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Technicalities: Notes taken above were written using a drawing tablet (XP-PEN Star G640) but captured on the iPad Pro 2021 12.9”

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siennanotes · 2 years

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I was in elementary school when I first started loving writing my notes by hand. I would often say that it helps me study better, read the material with more intention, and is just generally therapeutic to do. However, when classes shifted online because of the pandemic, writing my own notes was no longer as efficient as I want it to be. Our university’s blocking system demanded a faster pace of learning things and although I would have loved to keep writing my notes by hand, I knew I had to adapt to the present times to make ends meet.

Who knew this day would come?—that I now use digital note-taking methods and modernized media to do my revisions. This is the reason why I haven’t uploaded a new photo in so long. I try to cling to familiarity. I attempt to produce the content I am known for; forgetting that growth is one of the most beautiful things I could actually share on this platform. Perhaps it’s because during birthday celebrations, people would wish you to “never change” when in fact, change is what keeps us alive day by day.

Being able to adapt is an important trait everyone should have and this year, my priority is enjoying the process while pursuing things that are meaningful to me. This priority requires being efficient and being mindful of my time. Here’s to longer captions and a slightly new theme that I can hopefully maintain. 🤞🏻

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Technicalities: Notes taken above were written using a drawing tablet (XP-PEN Star G640) but captured on the iPad Pro 2021 12.9”

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