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The Gothic Pool of Landa, Burgos, Spain 

photos by 1-anahimes 2-noecamr 3-antiwedding on ig

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I Am Back..

It has been too long. Writing was my first form of therapy, and for a while the only outlet I would practice. As of late I’ve been investigating new forms of therapy and expression but my heart longs to cultivate using words and language. Touch and massage therapy are a close fav but there is nothing like a first love.

         This self proclaimed journey to become love can be unforgiving at times but as long as I have breath I have options. My passion and charm carry me but I am partial to the facetious humor I often hide behind. The desire to remain incomparable is an endless script to madness. I don't want to be her, thirsty for  the glare and admiration of the world. Too often I find myself in an endless war rooted in who I am and who I want to be. fueled by my own  passion and responsibility inevitably ends in reconstruction of the mind. At last I'm always reminded because I always forget that I hold the power of free will. The divine right to choose, to fight another battle or surrender to the source of my being.

#welcome to my blog #poetry #self love #self care #female writers #feelings #garden #im back

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I’ve been in a rut...I haven’t been writing. I want to be uplifted and motivated but I’m fighting to follow thru. I’m tired of disappointing myself.

First, I will forgive myself for losing to sloth. Allowing my flesh to become comfortable at being comfy in my own mess. The only thing that can stop me is me.

ACCOUNTABILITY and COMMITMENT I owe it to myself.

For too long I’ve complained about not feeling loved/ not being noticed...but was I noticing myself?? Was I loving myself?? How can I give to others when I don’t give to myself first? How can I expect this from others when I can’t do it for myself. I’m in serious need for an attitude and perspective adjustment.

The desire to create burns deep within me but my fear has kept it locked inside. Devouring me ever so slowly destroying me from the inside out. I am in control, or so I thought. For far too long I’ve danced with this illusion. Today the music stops.

#i'm lazy #poetry community #deep thinking #deep thoughts #slothlife #sloth #motivatingwords #depressing post #depressing shit #imatter #you matter #accountability #commitment

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Dream Home/Garden Vibes

Kitutukimusume on Instagram

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My heart belongs in SF

Telegraph Hill, San Francisco

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Orchids at the Phipps Conservatory in Pittsburgh - Photos by Charles Reeza

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the secret life of trees 

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one item on my xmas list this year. 

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The only Ls I’m taking are LESSONS

2020 Review

It’s easy to focus on the things we lost. One thing after another while taking things day by day, it’s onerous to be present in any moment. One’s ability to alter perspectives makes them set apart but partnered with unconditional love they are the maverick of the collective.

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Twin Flame Search

By fire in the night, I ride. 

Guided by my spirit my vast soul longs to be home.

A familiar place where our souls once danced protected by the facade of fire sheathing  frail hearts

To unite with a flame, is to know favor for eternity. 

Yearn for me & Trumpet your adulation from a place within but be true & kind without dread. 

#astrology #astropoems #twinflames #soul ties #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetic thoughts #lovegardening

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2020 Review

It’s easy to focus on the things we lost. One thing after another while taking things day by day, it’s onerous to be present in any moment. One's ability to alter perspectives makes them set apart but partnered with unconditional love they are the maverick of the collective.

#poetry community #poemsdaily #2020 energy #2020 #short poem #healing #growth #soundhealing #soundbath #gardening #gardentherapy #soundtherapy #relationship #interpersonal #losing friends #acension #loner life #deep thinking #deep thoughts #character introspection #random introspection

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Aquarius Moon Man

A fortress of water, layers to a life that was destined for guidance. Walls to guard or imprison the very spark that gives life meaning. The mystery that you are is what you fear most.Within you lies a slumber only a muse can invoke.

#astrology #aquarius #aquarius moon #air signs #air placements #moon sign #masculine energy #poetry #astropoems #poetry community #writers block

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a natural beauty.a calming beauty.the one and only.

#love #natural beauty #zoe kravitz #loml energy

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It’s getting chilly ☕️🌧🌬

Time to get cozy and watch all the holiday movie marathons lol.

“With this autumn wind’s sound, I find myself waiting for you.”

— Ono No Komachi, tr. by Jane Hirshfield and Mariko Oratani, from The Ink Dark Moon Love Poems by Ono No Komachi and Izumi Shikibu

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Dreaming up plans of my alter. Our place of worship and thanksgiving. PLANTS are a must! Being outside & gardening was a hug part of my childhood. While spending time with my grandparents I would pull weeds and plant bulbs with my grandfather. They both have passed on & I would like to honor them. I want to celebrate their lives & the legacy they gave to me, while passing this on to my children. 

Gotta get my list together...what about..an outside alter?...with pillows *heads to pinterest*

© Laurie A. Black / Ortho

#plantlady #alters #ancestors #ascension #afterlife #plantlife #meditate #mediatation #prayer closet

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Leo Moon Leo Venus (earth sun)

  Why do you run from me? Is my face off putting or do I make you green? My desire to see through your eyes would satisfy my need to understand you, the passion & praise you crave. Bending the earth by day. Under moonlight you are the child of fire. Desires of the heart, born of avaricious flames. A price for her benevolent love, that is all she knows. Why do you run from me?  My face, her mirror, a reflection of herself stares at her in the form of love.

#astrology #leo #leomoon #leovenus #leo placements #moonsign #venus signs #poetry #astropoems #poetrycommunity #writers block