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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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I’VE GOT PROBLEMS WITH MYSELF
AND HOW I ALWAYS WALK THE LINE
HOW I’M BARELY HOLDING ON
BUT THAT I SAY I’M DOING FINE
// Ophydia
77.66.23
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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GOD IS A GIRL
AND THE DEVIL IS ME
SHE HAS ME BEGGING FOR FORGIVENESS
AT HEAVENS GATE AND FEET
// Ophydia
66.66.66
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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ignorance is bliss - kindness that i miss
Ignorance is Bliss
Ignorance is bliss,
till it eats you alive.
Like a butterfly
dangling from a noose,
my wings are broken
my neck is bruised.
These demons pull on the rope
and I'm unable to speak,
instead, I choke each time I breathe.
The truth keeps me silent,
and I just keep waiting
for the past to let me go;
but it never does.
It clings tighter than the day before
and I'm losing more and more oxygen.
The air is cold
and these butterfly tears
drip as they freeze,
creating frozen eyelash wings,
and I hope I'll be able to fly
from these eyes that have realized the lies.
Leaving a place I'd never miss,
from frightened to real bliss.
Maybe that's when I'd recognize
what it means to be free and alive
in a world like this,
where we feed upon lies.
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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I see stars in shades of blue
they flicker red
and change their hue
I look in eyes that fall in love
and when they look back
mine flicker too
// Ophydia
02.22.27
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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STARDUST AND DEAD LOVE
i saw constellations in your eyes
and with you
i didn’t see a whole new life
i saw another galaxy
i saw a future like the sky
every opportunity
with you i saw a family
and maybe i just fantasized
the way your eyes
had this way
of defying gravity
and i’d forget
that shooting stars were once alive
but like us they’re just a tragedy
// Ophydia
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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BRAINWASH
love is a lullaby
echos of disorienting
brainwaves and malfunction
i’m sinking from the top
to the bottom
since i love you so much it
makes me sick
and rotten
gotta be brainwashed by your lips
some heart-laced toxins
// Ophydia
02.22.21
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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SKRØBELIG
into the mirror, and eye to eye
it’s just me and my reflection
but I find it hard conversate
when my eyes hold no connection
I would reach to me in love,
but I fear the glass is rather cold
and I want to help I truly do..
we could use someone to hold
but truthfully..
we’re far too cracked and broken
and I just can’t risk the touch
one more crack, and we both will shatter
and i’ve fixed us far too much
// Ophydia
77.66.23
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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Last year was a single bullet,
but I counted seven guns.
They fired exactly together,
and that bullet shot me
through
every
single
one.
// Ophydia
29.20.21
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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(one time i locked myself in a box and threw away the key)
SEALED OFF FOR THE WORLD TO SEE
I CAN’T SEE ANYONE OUTSIDE,
BUT CAN ANYONE LOOK INSIDE
AND SEE ME?
// Ophydia
77.66.23
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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God gave me the gift of what lies ahead, and poisoned it with chaos and dysfunction. He said he cursed me with an eye for the future, and to remain helpless in the eye of destruction.
~an echoing voice told me that God and the Devil act as one, and that their beauty lies in the eye of the beholder.. and i echo back every time, that sometimes beauty is the same as anger.~
// Ophydia
66.66.66
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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MARK ME UP
crayola crayons
and rubber
bands
it doesn’t matter
whats black or white
because i still drew
outside
the lines
do you find it hard to speak?
hard to think?
i never thought you’d understand
?
you can grab me by the hair
by the
strand
restrain me with your wit
and rubber bands
it wouldn’t matter that i’m your favorite color
so long as i step outside
live outside
of your coloring book
// Ophydia
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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I’VE GOT PROBLEMS WITH GOD
HOW HE IGNORES MY EVERY CALL
HEAD UP IN THE CLOUDS LIKE
HE CANT HEAR MY RING AT ALL
// Ophydia
66.66.66
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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B eautifully deceived, now that’s a truth i don’t like to acknowledge in the mirror. but
E ventually it’ll soak through the cracks of this broken reflection that always points the finger
T owards me. deceived by myself, atleast that’s what i’ve always believed. my every connection
R etrogrades, and bleeds. therefore the only explanation is that it must be me.
A ctually that’s fucking bullshit. life is a masquerade, but the joke is that i know that.
Y et when masks fall, everyone looks at me because i must have left mine somewhere- i don’t know! (oops) exhilaratingly
A lone, now that’s a feeling that makes me feel more at home. because deception can’t
L ull in the shadows without “friendly” figures to cast from. stepping back, i like truth as harsh as a loaded gun.
// Ophydia
17.13.27
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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Stop.
I hate how the word stop
Reminds me that you didn’t
I hate how flashbacks
take me back
To the beginning
I hate how the word stop
Didn’t mean a thing
Now I’m left here wishing
I felt absolutely nothing
Instead,
I find memories block
Where all I can say is stop
With no meaning
Just pieces of me lost
Please.
Just stop.
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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the distance between 18 and 23-
— — — — — — — — — — — — —
I have more cleaning supplies then things I need to clean
-maybe somewhere deep down the smell of chemicals will dissolve all the dirty things that happened to me-
me and my tattoos bleed~
the distant and vague memories, of a child’s hopes and dreams.
night terrors and play things
// Ophydia
05.90.00
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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sometimes the clouds glow bright
and some nights
the stars
don’t
shine
// Ophydia
17.13.27
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savedinmydrafts · 2 years
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i saw hell inside my eyes
like fumes and fire when i cry
i am sugar, spice, and everything deranged
tears run down my face and taste like flames -
salt and pain
// Ophydia
66.66.66
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