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sarinotsari · 2 months

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My Issues With Gender and SRS

So lately I've been feeling less and less comfortable with she/her pronouns. That's not me saying I'm UNcomfotable using them, though. It's just that it doesn't feel... right. But none of the other pronouns I've used (he, they, fae, ve) feel like the right fit either. And I've done some research into other possible pronouns to use, but nothing seems like the right fit. And my issue with pronouns is that I use the labels "trans woman" (which in society immediately connects to she/her) and "nonbinary" (which connects to they/them), but the "norms" don't feel like the right fit for me. It also doesn't help that I go through phases of femininity, masculinity, and androgyny, making it even more difficult to find a pronoun I feel can encapsulate all of them while also feeling like a correct fit for me.

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Disclaimer: various abbreviations will be used which may not be medically accurate, but for the sake of this post I'll be sticking with them

These things also very loosely tie in to the type of SRS (sexual reassignment surgery) I want to have. There are varying different procedures, both surgical and non-surgical, that I want to have in order to feel comfortable in my own body (not all of which have to do with gender). But for the sake of time, I'll stick to simply SRS. I know, without a doubt, that I want both top and bottom surgery. For top surgery, I want a typical breast augmentation (BA), regardless of gender identity. I could suddenly start identifying as a cis man, but I still want I BA. For me, personally, it's not so much about gender, it's just about wanting breasts, but I'm including it because it is often seen as a gender related surgery. As for bottom surgery, there are three very different types of surgery I'm considering: vaginoplasty (VP), phallus-preserving vaginoplasty (PPV), and penile enlargement (PE). There are at least two types of VP I know of, and I'm not entirely sure which I'd want if I were to go through with this particular surgery. The most commonly discussed is penile-inversion, so it does definitely seem like a popular choice. I do think this would be a good surgery for me, but there are also cons. As for PPV, I believe there's only one type, which preserves the penis but removes the testicles in order to construct a vagina. I have seen mentions of testicles being preserved as well, but I'm not sure if this is an actual surgery or just something people want done, I'd have to do more in-depth research. While this seems like the most ideal surgery for me in theory, there are a lot of different reasons I can think of why I wouldn't want this surgery (which isn't to say I won't get it someday). And, finally, with PE, again I'm not certain on the amount of different types, but I personally am looking into a Penuma, which increases both girth and length. Despite being a trans woman, I've never hated having a penis. However, I've also never really cared about having one (hence being comfortable with a full VP). But if I am going to keep my penis, I'd want to have a PE just for personal preference. I haven't done any research, and I'm sure there'd be very little to see, but I'm not entirely sure if a PPV can be done following a PE, which is why they're listed as different procedures here. But, if possible, I'd consider having both done. My issues with VP and PPV, though, are that they are permanent (a PPV can later be turned into a full VP, but cannot be reversed). However, a PE (at least, a Penuma) is reversible. While I know I want some kind of bottom surgery, I wish that none were permanent so that I could have what I want when I want them through different phases of my life.

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sarinotsari · 2 months

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I'm Overcoming Shame

Let's just come out and say it: I am aromantic. I've always felt that, when it comes to romance, I've been very different from most people. I've never really understood "love". We're taught from a young age how it should look, but never told how it should FEEL. But in my personal experiences being in a relationship, I feel incredibly trapped. Like I'm suffocating and I just want to tear my skin off so I can escape. Yes, there is a genuine love, but at the end of the day it just makes me so uncomfortable. I'm open to trying out relationships down the line, but I really don't think it's meant for me. Suffocating feelings aside, I also just flat out don't want to share my life with someone. I have a plan for my life and I don't want anyone getting in the way of that. For a couple years now, I've identified as aroflux because I do sometimes experience romantic attraction, but I'm certain that I'm aromantic now. I don't feel comfortable in relationships, and the thought of sharing my life with someone is almost repulsive to me.

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This is also partly why I identify as aceflux. I just can't really see myself ever having sex with someone I have romantic feelings for. Even in my fantasies, there's never any romantic feelings between anybody in the fantasy (which should have been a bigger alarm for me). And, if we're completely honest, sex in general just seems... optional for me. I'm not entirely sure I ever need to experience it. Yes, of course, I'm OPEN to it, but I don't know. If I'm fully transparent, masturbation feels more rewarding than the thought of sex ever has. With masturbation, I can focus on myself and what I need whereas, with sex, I'd need to focus on another person, or people, as well. It also doesn't have to be a sexual thing (check out 'The Joys of Masturbation' by Kaelan + Ecstatic Self on YouTube). Sex, of course, can also be more than JUST sex and can be a very great, healthy bonding experience, but masturbation to me is different because you really just need to focus on your own being. Whether it be purely sexual with fantasies or sexual stimulants, purely meditative (fantasizing about your dream body and putting that into the universe, for example), a combination of the two, or something entirely different.

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sarinotsari · 1 year

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POTD Review

Okay so I have several thoughts about POTD and I want to discuss everything I can remember. I’m afraid I’ve forgotten a lot of the episode already due to goldfish brain though. Also my thoughts will be out of order because I also can’t remember the order of events.

So, as someone who has never seen Classic Who, I would say Sarah Jane, Jo, Susan, and Ace are the classic companions I know the most about. So seeing Ace throughout the episode was really fun and had me wanting to see more of her. Jo’s cameo at the end was really exciting too. As for Tegan, all I knew about her was that she was Australian, a former air hostess, and is canonically married to Nyssa. This was basically a Tegan introduction for me, and all I have to say is BBC PLEASE give Ace and Tegan a spin off, they were both amazing and I loved their scenes together so much. It was a bit disappointing never hearing Nyssa being mentioned (unless I missed it, in which case... sorry Nyssa). The companion support group at the end annoyed me a little because it was just “here are 13′s companions and the classic companions” and completely ignoring 9-12′s companions. It does make sense, though, because most of them can be explained away such as Rose being in the parallel world, Donna not being able to remember her time, Clara returning to her death point or still travelling with Ashildr, and Bill and Nardole being dead. As for Martha, Amy, and Rory, Freema and Karen film a lot more in America now and probably couldn’t take time to travel, and I assume they wouldn’t have wanted Arthur back without Karen.

I had mixed feelings about the edge of existence thing because I love the idea of former Doctors helping the current one through the regeneration process, but there was a line that said something like “once you go past here, there is no turning back” and it didn’t make sense to me because, if a Doctor can’t come back, then how are all of you here to share that message? And how is David Tennant back as the Doctor? Overall though, I loved that part of the story and it was nice to see so many versions of the Doctor returning.

Before I start this paragraph, I want to preface saying I LOVE SACHA DHAWAN! I love the Dhawan Master! HOWEVER, I felt like there was too much of the Master in an episode titled Power of the Doctor. Yes, it made my heart happy to see Sacha in the episode. Yes, I want him to play the Master for 5-20 more years because I love his acting so much. But still, the story just felt too Master-heavy for me. It also felt like the Daleks were basically sidekicks in this episode, maybe they should’ve taken some of the Masters scenes and given them to the Daleks to make them more scary. Still, it did make me happy because Sacha is an amazing actor and I loved seeing him featured. (Side note: The Rasputin dancing scene was 10/10. I love that insane man.)

The lack of the Fugitive Doctor is probably what bothered me the most about this episode. From what I can remember, she only got one scene. One, or even two, scene(s) is not nearly enough for a.) the talent of Jo Martin, who should have her own spin off or b.) the actual character of the Fugitive Doctor, who is a very important aspect of the Doctor’s history. WHY did they not have David Bradley and Jo Martin in a scene together?! That would’ve been such a great scene to watch! Anyway, I have to end my Fugitive Doctor rant because I could literally spend hours talking about her if I don’t stop myself.

Also, a few thoughts about the Doctor’s species: I honestly thought the people on the ship at the beginning of the episode were of that species because of the “that energy... they’re regenerating” line, which made me think they knew about regeneration because they could regenerate. Plus, they were carrying the Qurunx, which had taken the form of a child who I presumed to be the Timeless Child. And, really, it’s not entirely impossible that the Qurunx is the Doctor’s species. If the Timeless Child had taken the form of a child in order to be rescued by Tecteun, it could be that former incarnations of the Doctor were then forced to remain in a humanoid figure. I also like the theory that Bel (who should have been in the episode and was very missed by me, in part due to me being slightly very in love with her) and Vinder are the Doctor’s parents, which I wish would have been confirmed at some point in the episode.

I’ve loved the entirety of Jodie’s era, but even I have to admit it did kind of feel like the show was going downhill despite my love for it remaining strong. Which, honestly, it’s not that surprising that I (and many others) felt that way. Even if we ignore the Classic years, the show is still nearing 20 years on air with 13 series and countless specials and it’s to be expected that a show would hit a lull after so long on air. But this episode, to me, felt like the early years of the revival when everything was fresh and exciting.

Overall, this was a great episode (honestly maybe one of my favorites of the entire show) and the minor issues I had with it don’t make it any less exciting. I’m going to miss Jodie and Mandip so much, but I look forward to David and Catherine’s return as well as Ncuti and Yasmin’s entries. I’d love to see Sacha and Jo return to their roles in RTD2, but I’m not very hopeful of either of them returning, so I’ll say now that I thought they both added such amazing performances to this era and their presence will be greatly missed.

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sarinotsari · 2 years

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The Second Disappearing of Sarina Grace

A dramatic title for a dramatic return!

Okay, yes, I’m back on tumblr! Which can only mean one thing: things are not great. Actually as I’m writing this I’m feeling pretty good, but just in general it’s been... a lot. So I left twitter again around October 5th (aside from my secret personal side account which only 2 people have access to) and it’s been great to not be surrounded by that negativity anymore. Unlike last time, I did give a warning (which I kind of regret, but whatever). So basically this year has been a lot. I mean like... a LOT. I got in a relationship, ended the relationship, made new friends, ended friendships, got a crush, got over that crush (mostly... kind of), had two different twitter accounts (not including my game account, priv, and The Quarry account that all lasted like a month), had two different instagram accounts, ended up in the ER (and then got put on meds that made me so confused I still have no idea what happened during that period nor do I remember when I even went to the ER), and blacked out for around a week (I think?) where I was telling everyone I was God. So, yeah... it’s been a wild year. And I finally feel like I’m healing from it all and during the healing process I just realized twitter isn’t really fun anymore, so I left. Now, I’m not saying I feel great by any means but I do feel like I’m at a point where I can get to feeling great, if that makes sense.

And now for the questions segment (which is just reusing the same questions I used last time)!

Will you return to twitter?

No. Not in the way people might want me to. It’s not a fun app to me anymore and it serves no purpose to me, so I don’t need it. I might keep my secret side account active for awhile and allow one more person access, but I’ll never return to stan twitter. I’ll eventually create a personal account when I start posting youtube videos too so I can hopefully reach a wider audience.

Are your other social media accounts being affected by The Great Twitter Strike of 2022?

Not really. I’m still as active as usual on instagram, I just post more stories. Tumblr I do want to try to become more active on, but it’s not likely. Wattpad I completely abandoned last year. AO3 I don’t really use much but I’ll read the occasional fic, I just don’t post anymore (sorry to my abandoned monwinn series, RIP). And discord is even more boring than twitter but I keep it just to keep in contact with people. Any other social media platform is so irrelevant to me that I’ve forgotten about it.

Where are you in life?

Currently, I’m on the hunt for a job. I almost applied for one but the application was too long and I got bored (oops). I’ve also set up plans for my future to help me better get to my dream jobs. Also I’ll be 20 in a little over 5 months which is terrifying to think about but I also look forward to it.

How are you doing mentally?

Eddie Diaz, Jacob Custos, and Prue Halliwell are the only people I ever think of which speaks volumes about my mental state. I do feel like I’m at the best I’ve been since... honestly, since COVID began. There’s still room for improvement though!

What have you been up to?

Planning! I’m ready for my life to begin and I have a lot of plans in place so that I’m fully prepared. Once I do a little more planning, I’ll be able to actually start following the plans. Also I’ve started to binge True Jackson, VP because I’ve never seen it (in fact, I hadn’t even heard of it until last year) and it’s amazing. I think once I finish it I might start Days of Our Lives just for Zach Tinker (but really, is it worth it? I refuse to watch The Vampire Diaries because Chris Wood is barely in it, am I really gonna start watching a soap opera for a few scenes of Zach?)

Did you write this entire post because you were bored?

Like last time, that is exactly the reason I made this post and it will likely happen again.

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sarinotsari · 3 years

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The Disappearing of Sarina Grace

Was that a dramatic title? Yes. Was it worth it? Absolutely.

Hey guys, welcome back to yet another tumblr life update nobody asked for! Okay, so at this point we all know I’ve been M.I.A from twitter for about a month now. I left on March 23rd and deactivated on April 3rd, returning on April 11th (or maybe 10th) only to deactivate again on April 12th (or maybe 11th). Basically I had been in a really bad headspace for awhile and I just couldn’t deal with it anymore, so I left with no warning. Granted, I did make a new account for the sole purpose of dming a friend since that was the only way we could communicate, and I did have the occasional tweet of just my random thoughts (sort of like a public diary only the account was private and only one person could see it). However, I deactivated that account as well on April 16th since the aforementioned friend now has discord, which I have been using to talk to her. Now, let me back up a bit (by a bit I mean a lot). Back in early January I fell into what was, at the time, my darkest moments of depression I had ever had. This continued until about mid-February, at which point I felt myself recovering from the dark depression and was thrilled to move on and have a great year. Then came early-March, when the depression came quick - and it was even worse than before. Now, this extra-dark depression only lasted until mid-March. Which is where we get to my deactivation, which was caused by the extra-dark depression becoming super-extra-dark depression. This was an incredibly difficult time for me, and unfortunately this carried on until, strangely, April 16th - the day I deactivated the secret-public diary account. By no means am I saying that I’m fine now, because I’m definitely not, but I am back to pre-dark depression days. Light depression, if you will. Granted, it has only been two days since deactivating, but honestly I feel better now than I did in the mid-February to early-March break.

Now onto some questions that nobody has been asking and nobody wants the answers for.

Will you return to twitter?

Someday, yes. Someday soon? ... Probably not. At best you’ll see me return mid- to late-May. At worst, I’ll pop in to say Merry Christmas.

Are your other social media accounts being affected by The Great Twitter Strike of 2021?

Yes. All of my other social media are being affected, just not in such dramatic ways. Pre-strike I wasn’t that active on discord, at best I was active for a couple days and then abandoned it for weeks. Post-strike, you can find me on discord every day (granted, I’m not active 24/7 but I do frequently get on to check my messages). Pre-strike instagram I checked twice a day, once after waking up and once when going to bed (with the occasional mid-day look). Post-strike, you could probably find me once every hour, maybe every other hour... it’s become a bit of a problem. Pre-strike wattpad was starting to go a bit downhill, but I did try to write every once in awhile just to keep the ideas flowing. Post-strike, I will only open wattpad to see if I have any notifications. If I do, I view them. If I don’t, I’ll immediately close the tab. Pre-strike archive of our own (aka ao3), I read a fanfic maybe once or twice a week. Post-strike, I’m reading every day... again, a bit of a problem at this point. Pre-strike tumblr I only checked once or twice a day and never posted. Post-strike, I’m frequently on here and have been posting quite a few edits recently.

Where are you in life?

Okay, so as we all know by now, I’m newly 18 (by newly I mean that it’s been almost a month since my birthday). Since turning 18, I’ve been doing apartment window-shopping. I’m not actively seeking an apartment as of now, but I do want to see what’s available. As for jobs and moving out, I think I’m just taking some time for myself before doing anything major. For those who don’t know, I dropped out of high school in February (beauty school dropout, anyone? ... No? Just me? Okay.) and I’d like to get my GED before getting a job. But, in case you haven’t noticed, I’m not really in a let-me-add-more-stress-to-my-life type of mindset at the moment, so I’m waiting until I feel comfortable with that. And, obviously, I can’t get an apartment without a job (nor do I want an apartment until I get a car, yet another thing I need a job for). So, basically, 1. get in a better mindset, 2. get a GED, 3. get a job (F: Stop attacking me, I’m sick of it. Q: Get a job.), 4. buy a car, 5. move out, 6. uh... dye my hair pink, start smoking, and hang out with a group known as “The Skanks”? Just an option.

How are you doing mentally?

Well. I frequently rewatch two gay men in wigs on a youtube show known as UNHhhh, so that kind of gives you an idea of how I’m doing mentally. Honestly though, I’m feeling the best I have all year. I’ve been better and I’ve been worse *glares at mid-March to mid-April Sari*.

What have you been up to?

What have I been up to, you ask? Being gay and doing crime. Seriously though I have been doing nothing productive whatsoever and I love it. The aforementioned friend I talk to on discord and I have been doing a lot of watching shows together. We started with Charmed (2018) and I highly recommend it. Then we moved on to 911: Lone Star (which I’ve fully seen but she stopped early in season one), but hulu hates both of us so we dropped that pretty quickly. Up next was AHS: Coven but, shocker, a show with ‘horror’ in the title is quite graphic and I became incredibly uncomfortable so we stopped that. And now we’re on Glee, which both of us have seen several times but we’ve never watched it together. I’ve also been playing a lottttt of The Sims 4 (which, by the way, I don’t even really enjoy that much. Like... it’s just something I do when I’m bored). And, as previously mentioned, two gay men in wigs. Highly recommend watching UNHhhh if you haven’t.

Did you write this entire post because you were bored?

I am shocked and taken aback by that harmful accusation... but to answer your question, yes I did and no I do not regret it.

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sarinotsari · 3 years

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My Life in Glee (Part 2)

Hey everyone! One major question I’ve had for myself since posting “My Life in Glee” is ‘How did I get here?’. Which is why today I’ll be doing a part 2, showing my life from post-Glee 2015 to present day. Let’s dive in!

I really want to go back to 2015, the year Glee ended. As I mentioned before, Mike and I have what we believe to be a one night stand. I imagine this to be in 6x02, Homecoming. I think we would rekindle our romance in 6x07, Transitioning, which would be a big episode for Unique, Sheldon, and I due to us three being trans. As I mentioned in part 1, Mina ([Mi]ke/Sar[ina]) is an endgame couple with Fabrevans, Brittana, Klaine, Puckleberry, and Tinacedes.

Moving on to 2016, where basically everything changes. As I mentioned before, season 5 was the beginning of my acting career, where I guest starred in shows like “Law & Order: SVU”, “Supernatural”, “Degrassi: Next Class”, and more. This year, however, I’m offered a main role in “Doctor Who”, which is primarily filmed in the UK. Because of this, Mike and I have a long talk where we get into an argument because we don’t want to separate, but he doesn’t want to leave Lima - where he’s trying to start a dance studio - and I don’t want to miss out on this opportunity. We both sing gnash and Olivia O’Brien’s “i hate u, i love u”. Eventually, we enlist in the help of Brittany and Santana, who keep trying to start the dance studio while Mike and I move away temporarily. While in the UK, Mike proposes and I happily say yes.

In 2017, Mike and I have moved back to Lima at a perfect time - Brittany and Santana have managed to create the dance studio! Mike, Brittany, Santana, and Jake are all instructors at the studio as I try to continue my acting career. Soon, I land a main role in “Modern Family” as Phil Dunphy’s daughter from a previous relationship. Before starting to film, Mike and I get married in Hawaii and soon start to talk about starting a family. We ask Quinn, my sister, to be our surrogate, and she agrees. Later that year, Mike and I welcome our twin sons - Michael Robert Chang III and Christopher Hudson Chang. Unfortunately, my depression starts to come back and Quinn experiences post-partum depression. Quinn, Mike, and I all sing Logic, Alessia Cara, and Khalid’s “1-800-273-8255″.

Moving on to 2018, the “Modern Family” producers and I have come to a mutual agreement to make my role recurring, rather than main like my first season. Early on in the year, Mike creates a second dance studio in LA, where our family moves in order for me to be closer to work. I am extremely grateful to Mike for moving his entire life for me, and we sing Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga’s “Shallow” together. ABC Studios enters a crisis when one of the “Grey’s Anatomy” stars decides to leave the show, and since I am already under an ABC contract on “Modern Family”, they contact me. After talking with ABC executives, “Grey’s Anatomy” producers, “Modern Family” producers, as well as Mike, I decide to take the job. ABC agrees to allow me to film for both shows as a recurring character until I can finish the season of “Modern Family”, at which point I will be promoted to main cast on “Grey’s Anatomy”.

In 2019, Mike and I have decided we want another child, and Quinn again agrees to be our surrogate. However, she suffers a miscarriage at 10 weeks. She begins to blame herself, but I don’t blame her at all and sing Davina Michelle’s “Skyward” to her in an attempt to build up her confidence again. At this point, I have become a main cast member on “Grey’s Anatomy” and play the love interest of Camilla Luddington’s character, Jo Wilson. Mike and I begin the adoption process, not wanting to put anyone in a position of having a miscarriage.

Now onto 2020, where Glee left off. For the purpose of this story, as well as matching Glee canon, COVID-19 is nonexistent. Early on in 2020, I’ve become obsessed with my career and have been isolating friends and family (aside from Michael and Christopher). This leads to an argument between Mike and I, where we end up singing Taylor Swift’s “exile”. However, I soon realize how terrible I’ve been treating people and we reconcile. Later on in the year, Mike and I finalize the adoption and we adopt twins, a girl named Dia Pierce Chang (to honor Santana [Dia]bla Lopez and her wife, Brittany S. [Pierce]) and a boy named Quinton Anderson Chang (to thank Quinn for carrying Michael and Christopher, as well as to include one of my best friend, Blaine Anderson’s, name).

And that’s it! I’m choosing not to include 2021 because I think it’s time Mike and I settle down a bit to focus on our children rather than our careers, maybe I’ll continue this soon with 2022 and the future!

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sarinotsari · 3 years

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My Life in Glee

Hi everyone! Basically I got the idea awhile ago to do a thread of what my life would be like if I were a character on Glee. This inspired my good friend to do a thread of her life, later expanding on that life in a tumblr post, which has inspired me to do the same!

Starting off with season 1, I would be a sophomore who has newly moved to Lima from Kansas. The reason behind me being a sophomore is that I would much rather graduate with the originals than the newbies (plus if I were a cast member of Glee, I would only stay on for three seasons in order to keep my schedule open for other acting opportunities). I would most likely be bullied for being openly trans and bi (thankfully, bullying isn’t something I’ve had to deal with in my personal life but I know WMHS isn’t a very accepting place). I also think Puck would be my biggest tormentor.

Hearing about the glee club starting up again would be a bit of a touchy subject for me. I’ve always kept my love of music hidden from people except for close friends, plus I would be afraid of putting yet another target on my back for joining “the weird club”, so I would be against anyone joining the club.

So when my boyfriend, Finn - one of the only people to accept me for being trans and bi -, joins the club, I would most likely break up with him (not something I would ever do in real life, but like I said I would be against people joining). About four or five episodes in, I would end up auditioning for the club and risking being even more of an outcast. As I mentioned in my thread, my audition song would be “No Good Deed” from Wicked. I’m a huge fan of both Idina Menzel and Kristin Chenoweth, who were the original leading ladies of the Wicked on Broadway, and “No Good Deed” is one of my favorite songs from the musical. Either in the same episode of my audition or in the episode following, I would sing Kelly Clarkson’s “Since U Been Gone” due to still struggling with by breakup with Finn.

After joining the club, I can see Finn and I reconnecting, but I can see his obvious attraction Rachel and I decide to just remain friends. This is great because I then take an interest in Mike, and we soon start to date. I also form a quick friendship with Santana, and we become a close duo.

Between the break of season 1 and season 2, I temporarily move back to Kansas due to one of my parents getting a job offer. Unfortunately, Mike and I decide long-distance wouldn’t work for us, and we end things. However, Santana and Finn both keep in contact with me.

After two or three episodes, I move back to Lima to live with an aunt after having missed the glee club too much. While digging through some boxes in my aunt’s house looking for something, I discover that my parents had left some papers in her house. I decide to read them to find out if they are important, and I find out that Quinn is my sister and had been put up for adoption due to my parents not being able to afford a child when she was born (she would be 11 months older than me and our parents got a better income by the time I came around). I tell her about this and we start to bond, eventually forming a close friendship.

One night, the glee girls are hanging out and having fun - which leads to Mercedes and I singing Lady Gaga’s “Telephone” together. Also in this scene, Santana confides about her struggles with her sexuality with her close friends. This leads Tina to also question her sexuality, and Tina and I eventually end up dating. Shortly after we begin dating, I sing Taylor Swift’s “Back to December”. After Blaine transfers to McKinley, he and I form a close friendship. Santana, Blaine, and I form a trio known to fans of the show as Sartaine ([Sar]ina/San[ta]na/Bl[aine]). Obviously, my prom date would be Tina this season.

Now to season 3, a pretty difficult season for me. Throughout this season, I struggle a lot with depression brought on by my fear of failing after graduating high school. However, with the help of my best friends (Santana, Finn, Blaine, and Quinn) as well as my girlfriend, Tina, I am able to make it through everything. At the point where the girls start leaving for the Troubletones, I sing P!nk’s “Funhouse”, being frustrated with how the New Directions used to be so fun but has now turned into this battlefield for solos. I later join the Troubletones after Santana convinces me to do so. At the end of the season, I graduate with the class of 2012. After graduation, Tina and I have a discussion where we mutually agree that we should move on as friends due to her being a senior the next year while I’ve already graduated from high school.

Now onto season four, where I would be a recurring character. It’s announced on episode one that Santana and I have started dating after years of being close friends, and our chemistry is shown several times throughout the season. Due to my demotion from main to recurring status, I don’t have a lot of storylines. My only performance from season 4 is Little Mix’s “Madhouse”, performed with Brittany as we both feel sort of lost in our personal lives.

During season 5, I’m seen even less but I do have more performances and a more stable storyline. In this season, it’s revealed that I’ve started my acting career and got a guest role on “Law & Order: SVU” (something a lot of people have guest starred in). My two biggest performances this season both revolve around Santana, with both of us singing Shakira and Rihanna’s “Can’t Remember to Forget You” within the first five or six episodes and me singing Demi Lovato’s “Give Your Heart A Break” after I break up with Santana due to her obvious attraction to Brittany.

Now onto season 6, the final season. Early on the season, both Mike and I get drunk and end up having what we think is a one night stand. However, we later realize there was more to it and we sing Snow Patrol’s “Chasing Cars”. We soon rekindle our high school romance, and we end up being one of the endgame couples along with Fabrevans, Brittana, Klaine, Puckleberry, and also Tinacedes.

In the 2020 time jump, Mike and I are seen happily married with three year old twin sons - Michael Robert Chang III and Christopher Hudson Chang, named after Mike and Finn. Quinn would have been the surrogate due to her DNA being similar to mine since we’re sisters. Also in the time jump, I have become a well-known actress with a main role in “Grey’s Anatomy” and Mike owns a dance studio where he teaches people of all ages how to dance.

I hope you all enjoyed reading this, it was so fun to write!! I’m interested in writing some for my other favorite shows now :)

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