saitri10

[saitri10]

I've been thinking a lot about death, and the perception of life, memory, existence and self awareness... and by the day; at just the age of 30, am I becoming terrified.

And then I thought about something..

How do we know we are alive, just because we exist in consciousness?...since once we die, we wont know it...

As if, maybe though, were living our last memories in a slow tandem, yet our awareness and fear of death is the realisation that soon these memories end.. and maybe hopefully it's just one long loop...

Death Is not what I fear... it's the absense of consciousness that keeps me up at night..

But then, we 'die' every night, as we sleep . Where does our consciousness go?... the brain is active then...

Either way.... I can't be worrying like this.

[saitri10]

I’ve not found the ‘the one’ after you... Some have appeared to come close, yet they were so far. And to me, thats fine, because it was mean’t to be you, and i know that... 

#love #lost love #missing you #sadness #Soul Mate #missing somebody #I love you #i miss you #im sorry

[saitri10]

'Everyday it feels like I'm living for you,

Not because It matters, but because I cannot accept the end,

And i know you wouldn't want that,

But if I stop,

Then what's left?..._

[saitri10]

We were together at my lowest Now; It may not be much better but I’ve learned a lot... 

#Ïlynn #Sad Quotes #sadness #lost love #missing somebody #missing you #love #i miss you #wrong time #depressed mood

[saitri10]

I've not been able to get over you after these years, and all I've become is because of it... And so, I'm afraid if I let that go, then that means accepting you're never coming back... I'm not sure I can do that...

#love hurts #missing somebody #relationships #tumblr sad #sadness #depressed mood #sad #i miss you #i miss us #i cant let go

[saitri10]

#Love hurts #love quotes #Tumblr Love #quotes #tumblr #relationships #Ïlynn #heartbreak #poetry #tumblr thoughts

[saitri10]

#Keane #everybody's changing #Life #love #quotes #sadness #tumblr thoughts #tumblr quotes #lyrics #keane lyrics #You were mean't to make her happy

[saitri10]

#9 - It’s not my fault

#Friendship #losing friends #heartbreak #trust #insecurties #it's not my fault #I am trying #mental health #depression #being alone #tumblr poem #poem #tumblr #life quotes #Ïlynn

[saitri10]

#6 - Nothing to say

#Love #too late #Thats life #relationships #dear tumblr #dear life #quote #love quotes #sad quotes #depression #sadness #tumblr quotes #Feels different #If only

[saitri10]

#5 - Nothing to say

#love #missing #poem #Dear Tumblr #ïlynn #relaitionships #lonely #only you #I miss you #love hurts #heartbreak #Feeling Lonely #lonliness #me myself and i #quotes #sad quotes #love quotes

[saitri10]

#4 - Doubt I’ll Ever Know...

#Love poem #Dear Tumblr #tumblr thoughts #ïlynn #Break up #missing you #relationships #blog #love #i miss u #tumblr love #heartbreak #lost love

[saitri10]

#3 - Some days feels...

#ïlynn #dear tumblr #tumblr thoughts #blog #life #feeling alone

[saitri10]

#2 - Mine Do...

#love poem #love #ïlynn #dear tumblr #tumblr thoughts #life #blog #relationships #heartbreak #poetry #tumblr love #i miss u #lost love #break up #missing you

[saitri10]

#1 - What would you call your book?

#life quotes #dear tumblr #ïlynn #life #tumblr thoughts #blog #inspirational quotes #relatable quotes #life quote #true words #words

[saitri10]

The day I watched you leave the airport, the day it became too painful to love. Even though you were still with me... from then I pushed you away, and got what I wanted. To be alone.

But it's not what I wanted; and it's been years...

And I miss you still.

🦉🦔

_Ïlynn'

#love #life #tumblr thoughts #relationships #dear tumblr #heartbreak #love hurts #i miss you #permanent mistakes #i love you #long distance #ïlynn

[saitri10]

See yourself, hearing screams; wasting days, tear streams- Mirrored sights, with no reflections, Not a trace but there’s a broken face; and still he’s away from you; He’s only footsteps away in space_ Little store, hiding fears; passing time, sharing tears- Separate lives, with no connections, Strangers in time but it was fine; It was the way you spoke; and I was getting used to you in time_ And as you say you cry; And fall asleep at night I stay awake hoping you’ll be just fine.

_Xiku*

#relationships #relationship #relationship abuse #Relatable #5am thoughts #Love #Love hurts #Love Sucks #Love poems #Poems #Poetry #Late night poetry #Tumblr Relationships #dear tumblr #tumblr poem #tumblr thoughts #Ïlynn #Alone #Being alone #Sadness #Tears #crying #It gets better #Life gets better #meaning of life

[saitri10]

I fear not what melancholic kisses; but instead the past that’s brushing over- and the lights that shine above the second house- I’m reminded of getting older Spring never comes, or if it does; yellow rays- it’s just what my ears hear as i grow colder- but still i fear not what my melancholy misses I’ll just breath a little slower

_Xiku* 

#Life #growing old #working #job #meloncholic #tumblr poems #time runs out #live and die #sad #poem #poetry #Ïlynn #finding your way #Life is hard #live life #be yourself #Spring never Comes #Yellow #Coldplay #LIl Xtra #Dear Tumblr #sad poem #life poetry #depressing poem #Special poem #poet #Writing #4am #4am writing