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these ppl r so sly and hypocritical

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channel ur emotions into writing they said, it’ll be good they said.

i just wrote a passive aggressive poem on my biggest trauma

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typical. i smoke one tab cause i’m stressed and i get fucking caught by my english teacher. KMS

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gender make rowan go AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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me vs liking the name ethan a little too much 😟

#no because #LIKE IM COMPLETELY FEM PRESENTING #BUT MASC NAMES / COMMENTS N SHIT MAKE ME FEEL SO GOOD??? #LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN MY HEAD???? #hello? #gender? #i don’t want u?

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actually sick of this person in my class . SO BASICALLY . i had this run in q this one guy when i was in y8 , he used to follow me around + make me uncomfy all the time with how much he liked me . and i said to * today basically that like i hope it didn’t go back to that , because he’s started talking to me more again and waiting for my outside of classrooms + stuff , and after i told them about what happened in y8 (i had a full on breakdown inside a dt classroom because he wouldn’t leave me alone) they just went “ well i don’t remember that “

#like what? #excuse me? #i don’t give a fuck if you can’t remember it? #i fucking do? #AND ITS THE WAY THEY SAID IT TOO #THEY ACTED AS IF I’D FUCKING MADE IT UP OR SMTHN?????

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thought about gender for like .2 seconds and now i’m having an identity crisis

#i’m so done #like FUCK? #i want to use masc terms n b perceived as masc but #i’m too insecure about my masculinity + too secure in my femininity #it’s such bullshit #like i’m too insecure to try and change my appearance to be masc

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i needed a reason to punch them . HONESTLY! like i’ve been so sick of them today !!!!!!!!

why are the people who post the "this is your summer reminder to not comment on people's body and scars <3" shit on Instagram always the same people who as soon as you go back to school make shitty comments about your self harm scars

#so basically #so like we were talking about revision in pshe because of like memory n shit right ? n #i was telling our teacher like ‘i cant revise’ and then *** literally just fucking goes ( w like the snarkiest bitch tone ever ) #‘well you never do it or try’ or smthn along the lines ? #LIKE IM SORRY MY ATTENTION SPAN IS THAT SHORT AND MY BRAIN GETS OVERWHELMED???? #like #i’m just so sick of them lmao.

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n what’s worse is that i feel so dramatic n i literally keep invalidating my own feelings

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having a full breakdown over my lack of control. i was actuallt sochsppy n confident during summer and then schools like haha fuck you and your self expression!

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hey at least my tumblr layout is pretty

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ohhhhhhhh how i don’t have the mental capacity to go back to schooooooooool

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sitting on my bathroom floor because it’s the only thing that makes me feel safe atm

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#screams

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i’ve liked how i look for too many days in a row i’m waiting for my self hatred to return

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i hate when people touch the stuff in my room and my sisters just came in, started playing my guitar and ukulele n i feel so gross and my whole body tenses up and i rlly do not like it

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the s3xual tension between me and running away