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So a friend of mine and I were talking about how being raised in a cult impacts one's perception and socialization of different aspects of identity, and we were thinking hm, it would possibly be very useful if there was a term to refer to that

Does anyone have any particular ideas for what to call this effect, or symbols that could be used to represent it? It would be an adjective to describe how one navigates/perceives/experiences different parts of one's identity. My friend pointed to gender and orientation with her experiences, but it could also even extend to things like humanity, like in my case ("sin nature" was seen as the same as humanity, so I didn't really think of myself as human and have a complicated relationship with being a human now)

This is kind of a specific concept, since it's unique to the experience of being raised in a microculture that perceives aspects of identity in such a different way that there's almost a kind of culture shock when you interact with the rest of society, but I do think it would be useful to have a word to refer to that with

(just as a last note, this is probably not as well phrased as I would like, I had a rough night and didn't sleep well </3 try to take this in good faith ok?)

#esrah talks

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I’m literally always saying this

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FUCK I FORGOT

New response for being handed a chick tract/proselytizing paper of any kind: eat it

#esrah talks

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New response for being handed a chick tract/proselytizing paper of any kind: eat it

#ex evangelical #ex christian #Esrah talks #chick tracts

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Me: *watches 1984, a story specifically about high control group abuse*

Me: *gets triggered by it* woah what could’ve prompted this

#esrah talks #It’s really funny to me actually

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Reminder that Christian Ritual Abuse or Christian Religious Abuse is a well-documented occurrence. Calling all religious-based organized abuse and cult trafficking ‘Satanic’ by default even when it is happening inside a Christian or Catholic church/school/commune/etc., uses Christian ideology to excuse abuse, and uses traditional Christian rituals and holidays - is a way to divert responsibility from Christianity and the many problematic, hierarchal aspects of that ideology that can be and often are used for abuse;

Examples include “To Train Up A Child”, The Duggars, Catholic Residential Schools, Conversion “Therapy” Camps, the many Troubled Teen Industry places that are Christian, ATI, FLDS, Jehovah’s Witnesses, and literally countless more Christian cults most of which are explicitly pro-beating children into submission and staying with abusers.

Abuse is not about any spiritual being or spiritual belief no matter how common or obscure; abuse is about systems of hierarchy and oppression. The colonized, white supremacist version of the Christian religion is one of many such systems of power that needs to be dismantled in society if we want to actually address abuse instead of chasing boogeymen and scapegoating the mentally ill.

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I desperately need someone to convince my nervous system that the tiger does not exist.

#poetry and other words

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#THERE'S LITERALLY A VERSE SPECIFICALLY FROM GOD ABOUT HOW IT'S GONNA BE PAINFUL AS FUCK <- raised very christian #GIRL WHERE ARE YOU GETTING THAT FROM #YOUVE PROBABLY DONE BIBLE STUDIES OF GENESIS #WHERE ARE YOU GETTING THAT FROM #IT'S SPECIFICALLY A CURSE IN CHRISTIAN MYTHOLOGY WHAT..... GIRL..

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I was going to write an analysis of a sermon recording from the church I grew up in from when I was like seven, and the entire post got deleted because I didn’t save it as a draft.. are you fucking kidding me

#I’m not writing it all out again but I wish I could #it was an interesting combination of valid points about trauma and it’s effects and how to process it #and (imo) manipulative ideas that I know I had some intense and complicated feelings about since I was in the middle of abuse #Esrah talks

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What’s absurd to me is how against the Renaissance my cult managed to be, like, instead of “is it valid to ship X and Y even though they’re very different heights” it was “is it sinful to appreciate Da Vinci’s art since he was funded by the Catholic church during the height of the Renaissance”

#esrah talks #how it was growing up #ex fundamentalist

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For my usamerican ex christians, PIMOs, deconverts, and apostates:

#ex fundamentalist #ex christian #esrah talks #ex cult #ex evangelical #ex baptist

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I love how he finds the words to describe the concepts that float around my head daily ❤️❤️❤️❤️ love him!

#ex fundamentalist #ex christian #I love Abraham piper #deconversion

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#my parents' church changed pastors and the new one in the first sermon said (verbatim!) that she hopes the holy spirit blows each one of us#and I nearly lost it right there

^ tags from the og post

Her: *says this*

Me: I sure hope they do

And we're back!

#nsfw humor

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I still can't get over the fact that growing up the cult's answer to "why is physically abusing kids bad" is "it's not socially acceptable" and not like. anything else

Also the fact that historical child physical abuse was lauded as something desirable and closer to what god wanted, and I don't mean historical as in 1950's-good-old-days, I mean like the 1700s stories they were having us read that included child physical abuse and was only vaguely disapproved of if someone asked about it

#how it was growing up #ex cult #ex christian #ex fundamentalist #physical abuse tw #child abuse tw

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You know I think the main reason why I didn't have quite as extremist views on "modern issues" that a lot of extremist christians have is just because I was young at the time so they didn’t talk about them. That said that's a low bar considering I was taught "anything is okay if it's god telling you to do it" FHFJNHBM

#how it was growing up #ex christian #ex fundamentalist #ex baptist

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And we're back!

#my parents' church changed pastors and the new one in the first sermon said (verbatim!) that she hopes the holy spirit blows each one of us #and I nearly lost it right there

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sorry catholics but the best version of ave maria is the one from cowboy bebop

#for my excath mutuals #laugh tag #nsfw humor