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mom life

It’s 8:10am and I have been up since 4am, being my son’s mom is not for the weak. I cannot believe I am still awake. the schedule I have is so off. 

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imagine that

Imagine living in a world were all kids felt loved and trusted their parents, imagine what rules, and creativity that would bring to the world. Imagine the peace b/c everyone knew no hate, had no trauma, no pstd, and nothing in their past that they can truly say hurt them. Everyone was kind! 

#imaginethatworld

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Because this is a true story, I cannot tell you how many times, I stopped and had to catch my breathe. The fact these children are still living makes me want to hug them tightly however they are adults. I love Nicki and I've never met her. I ultimately love how she broke the cycle later on in her life w/ her children. I cannot believe how long it took them to speak. I have to tell ya it shows you why chlildren do not say anything. I am thankful though the signs are more obvious. I pray to God daily for the power to save all the children. I came from an awful childhood, a past I put behind me for the better. I cannot say my childhood was any were near close to this, not by a long shot. CHildren are so important, I cannot believe for so long they actually thought it was their fault. I cannot believe next year mrs shelly will be apart of our society AGAIN #mustread #dailyreader 

#loveyourchildren mustread dailyreader booksonbooks bookideas checkmeout

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OH OH OH ELSA, I just want to hug you and possibly visit a grave if it were all true, however this point of time and the story she told definitely is true, and sadly people are still like this. I am ashamed she was treated the way she was, in this day we would call it mentally abused, and her family never treated like the rest of the children. I was also extremely confused why they told her she would never marry or be loved, she did not seem to have a thing wrong w/ her, when she described herself in the book, and she even tried to describe herself in the worse way. I still did not think she was ugly. 

She was so brave so strong, in every part of what she was doing, and how she handled things. I truly felt she was so brave, and in the end I have always said the silent mothers are the strongest. Thank you Kristen Hannah for an awesome book/read. 

#youmustreadit

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Well I ended this so sadly, I can't imagine how this country would be today, and what those children would be going through in this present time. I also just want to hung Hassan's son for him, I cried many times, Hassan was so brave, and at the beginning I put together why BABA cared so much, but I was always wondering if Hassan's father knew, Ali was like a brother to him, but then raised the boy as his own, but the boy never lived the life Amir had lived. At first I definitely could agree that Amir was a coward but in the end, he changed all this he turned it around for himself, and for his dear friend. alll along Hassan never thought any different of him even after his knowing of what happened. How brave of a boy turning into a man. I am so sorry for the life they lived, but so thankful Hassan got to live for sometime with this mother, I know how it feels to have a short amount of time with someone you have so many questions for but wanting to put the past behind as well and never asking just living. those moments are true blessings. 

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The Kite Runner By Khaled Hosseini

#Well I ended this so sadly I can't imagine how this country would be today and what those children would be going through in this present ti #arecommendfromme

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lost

 I have been feeling a little lost lately. I just want to be lone, I just want about five days to regroup myself with no one around me. I know this is only a though and nothing a woman like me could pursue. I just wonder, though when it would get easy, or was I just meant to be broke from the past/future/present. 

#onedayIwillbeok

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taken out of work

I was taken out of work for mental/physical issues for at least four weeks. I have not been able to pay my bills, and being a single mother of three the debt and debt is stacking higher against me. 

its like hey let’s take her out of work so she can make time for herself, and focus on mental healing, and not to mention my back pain in an understatement, but to only cost her more in the long run. and between the children and my life the time was needed , I just didn't think it was going to cost me my place to live.  I was advise this was good for me and they would support me, but all I am left with is empty pockets, and hoping my medical documents meet their standards. 

hoping for a better outcome, please pray for little old me. 

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WOW!!! What a book! this one pulled at my heart strings, my in-laws came from the Bosnia war and I know it wasn’t quite like this but it touched me in many ways. I have a non-verbal sensory disorder son who is now 3 and it has been a struggle, and to read someone else who has literally my life, was some advice I need in this book, and.I truly enjoyed the read. This book is about more than just the war but its also about LOVE, AND LOVING UNCONDITIONALLY, IF YOU WANT A REALLY GOOD TEAR JERKER THIS IS THE ONE. I highly recommend this book. I am so thankful to be born an American. I am so thankful that Alina is safe, but I am so so so sad for her husband. I am so sad for the outcome, but the ending brings it all back into the sweet joy of love. Wade reminded me so much of my husband it is unreal. I am so thankful I was able to get another understanding of this disorder my three year old is facing. 

#mustreads

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I've been in a mental struggle

I am so tired, so sad, and so done, is that a way I usually am NO. I have got to figure out what has me down all the time. I don’t talk about it, I don’t let anyone know, I just keep these things to myself, besides my doctors of course. I am not one to discourage someone else. I preference to be the light fro someone. I want to be their support, how can I support or help anyone if I am a wreck myself. 

#justalittlebrokentoday

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This was a good read ( I finished this one in two days) IN total 9 books in 3 weeks. I am impressed with this writer. I was not expecting this ending. I mean the way he told the story kept you wanting to turn the page, and not to mention the artist, the woman, how she did that, how strong she was to be silent, I mean she was condemned for murdering her husband and did nothing about it. 

On the other note, the childhood part really did take a toll on me. I understood completely why the ending was the way it was, not for so much of the therapist but for the woman. The therapist definitely should have just spoken up to his WIFE, and GREW SOME BALLS. None to less the therapist he seen RUTH, told him this would  happen. Mental illness, and childhood trauma I mean sometimes they are one in the same because most of the time both of them are happening. Sadly, this is so common in America and I wish it was something we could end or provide more help for DEFINITELY FOR THE YOUTH. 

I would highly recommend reading this book as you can tell. 

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BOOK COMPLETED 

My thoughts on this one, all over the place but definitely a page turner. I kind of had a feeling she has something to do with her brothers accident, BUT I did not think that it would end the way that it did. I was extremely shocked.   Malin  definitely will throw you for a loop, while reading I had a hard time understanding why she did the things she did, but in the end it all tied together. If you are into thriller and mystery I recommend reading this book. I hate hate hate the vineyard rich boy, I will leave his name out and give you the opportunity to read the book. 

In some ways it shows how some people enable mental illness and the baffling part about the evil trait she explains in the book comes from genetics, a part of me wanting to research this, but in all I think as adults we chose the route we want to go down, and though some of us are weaker. than others, if you have the feeling this book demonstrates seek help. There is so much out there to benefit people who suffer from mental illnesses. I am so thankful America is a country that helps bring an understanding to mental illness. Some people go their whole life until death not being treated. sadly this is the world we live in. 

Gemma is awful btw she is a horrible friend, and its sad that this is actually in some way how it is for young adults. WELL BESIDES THE MURDERS LOL! 

#amustread

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long time

It has been so long since I have been able to write anything on here. I haven't really been able to do anything here up until this very point. I am thankful for many things. I have had horrible things as well since being on here, but in all I am thankful for each and every day. In the time I am working though when it is slow I have managed to read over 7 booked since about Feb, but I am have been having some health troubles and some really trouble mental shit that has been hard to get passed that has just gotten in the way of everything for me. 

honestly between this crazy school year the crazy 10 hour shifts I pull, and the random things that happen in the day, the constant going and all has really put me In a place these last few months and now its like I am just sitting down and realizing maybe all the pressure in my life is not good, and it is okay to think about me for once. My health is what let me know I needed to sit down the most. I had some issues w my back and something crazy happen on vacation but luckily it was only a 2 week recovery however only 70 percent will heal, so I will always have to be careful. GOOD THING I AM NOT THE THE RISK TAKER PHYSICALLY, how ever mentally I test the fucking water too much. 

Well this is all I have time for, for now. I probably whipped this up in about five to seven minutes, but who is counting. 

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Thursday

I had my nephew today, and we decided to go to the SURGE. The people let us stay for so long due to there being like NO ONE THERE. that was awesome. my son Leo was not the happiest at first, he DOES NOT LIKE SOCKS, the whole having to wear jump socks took sometime, but we finally got it together. 

we also spent about 2-3 hours outside enjoying the wonderful weather. My littles have been outside every day this week enjoying the weather. I am so thankful for the time I have been able to spend with them. 

Today, besides the Leo episodes and Teja’s 50 crying spells because “she has the hardest time controlling her tears” she says lool... it was a pretty good day overall.  I have taken a few steps forward on working things out with their dad. I am thankful for his hard work, but Jr’s funeral was a wake up call for me. Not only for blessings but new chances and appreciation. understanding that we are human and we all have really bad points in our life. 

#mylife life kiddos committiment

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Children

Friday madness, but no children sadness. I want to prosper and teach my children something valuable. 

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RIP RANDY JR. I am so sorry you had to leave this world alone, you were so awesome, and definitely expressed nothing but loyalty. You are resting with the good ones now. GOD BLESS AND PRAYERS TO YOUR FAMILY AS THEY MOURN SUCH A LOSS. We will be missing you down here. 

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working night shift

I felt like I was going to barely make it there at the end.... When I say those 7am alarm clocks come fast for the kiddos is not a joke, and then to stay up parenting until 1pm and work until 12. I know run-on sentence there. I am exhausted. I have not been able to put much time into my book, or my blogs this week. 

on some good news..... my pup is doing well. no accidents, and has learned several commands. I am impressed. Learning about your dog before purchase is so important, finding the breed that is best for you is important as well. 

good night.