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Ideal Family

I had a hard time on choosing which video touches me the most, but I end up picking them all since it all of them shows the unconditional love of our parents, and their capabilities to do everything just to provide the needs of their children. Just like my parents.

I was an only child for 14 years until my little sister came in to our lives, but my parents still had difficulties to provide. I wasn't the typical only child who is being spoiled by my parents. My father's income is almost not enough that time but we thank God because we were able to eat 3 times a day and still able to buy other essentials. My father is not a showy person, he doesn't usually express his emotions, but I know he loves us and he proves it through his actions. He may look tough and strict, I still appreciated his hard work. He endured walking through the busy streets to do all the task that has been given to him. I felt sad knowing that it was his job. My mother was a very expressive one, she may be loud sometimes but she's also caring and loving, a typical mother indeed.

I sometimes misunderstand their actions, I had bad conversations with them before, but I am still grateful to have them and I realized I am still blessed. It's been a long time since I told them "I love you", and hopefully I can tell it again to them without any hint of being shy.

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LOVE LANGUAGE

I took a love language test and the answer says my love language is QUALITY TIME. I agree with the result since I love hanging out with the people that I am close with, especially friends and family. I give but that doesn't mean that I need to receive something in exchange, but mostly I rather spend my day talking, sharing stuffs, eat, laugh, and take pictures with the people I love. I don't know if they feel my love through with it, but I hope they appreciate those moments with me. I believe it is something that I will treasure, I just love throwing back some memories. I am pretty sure that I will keep it forever.

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Experience of Love

I grew up having the family who loves me with all their heart, providing my needs, giving all that they have even if nothing will be left for them. I was blessed enough to have a complete family, my father being a typical strict but loving dad, my mother being a loud, protective, and also loving one. I am filled with so much love from them, and taught me how God loves us. I am complete and contented, but not until I met this guy who caught my attention. Giving me this feeling that he should be mine. Family's love is so great but I am also thankful to be loved by someone else other than them.

I met him when I was 16, he was talkative and loud that I find him a bit annoying. When we became friends that's how I realized that he's actually funny, had a sense of humor, intelligent, responsible, kind, and cute. He got those friendly vibe, cute smile, and a cool personality. Things that I find attractive and amazing. Inshort, my ideal type. I experienced having a crush before but he hits different from them all, I never imagined my past crushes to be a potential guy for me involving romantic affections. He makes my day, he always make me laugh, he's helpful, I keep on finding him everyday that I can't tell that my day is complete without seeing him. Those things made me realize that I like him, but I kept it for months, I shut my mouth to avoid telling him, I focused on studying hard and to get good scores to impress him, to make him proud of me, and did something that made difficult for him to forget about me. I didn't used the common methods on "how to get your crush's attention". Be a good student, do not just be an ordinary one breaking rules, putting make ups and dark lip tints to be pretty, cutting in classes, and not studying your lessons to look cool, because it doesn't make you pretty at all. A friendly reminder for my fellow girls out there.

After all of those, my efforts got payed off. I was the happiest when told me he felt the same way. Well, he courted me for months before we became official. Now that he's finally mine (though he's not really mine because his parents own him) I am fully satisfied with my life now.. We are now dating for almost a year, but we are still focusing with our studies and for our goals. We are not perfect, but I admit there are many realizations that I got when we fight, and I am thankful that he is being patient with me. I just love how he respects me, and I will be forever proud of him. I know we're still young for this, there are still many things and challenges that we will encounter, but I know God is with us and with the guidance of our parents. I am happy with my life, and with him. He's now also my home, my comfort. I pray that this is gonna be forever.

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What makes you happy? When are you happy?

I am an appreciative person. I appreciate every little thing if someone remembers any details of me. I am not a materialistic one, you don't need to bother yourself buying things for me, just remembering the few details that I have shared with someone makes me happy, because it means they listen to my stories even if there eyes isn't really fixed on me. Happiness can be felt when I eat, because food is life, satisfying myself with delicious meals that I think I deserve after the exhausting days of my life working on with school works or exam. Happiness is also achieving something in school, for example getting passing scores because aiming for high scores is really hard but I am grateful enough because I did not failed and my hard works are payed off. It can also be hanging out with friends, talking about them with the things that we missed, listening to my favorite songs. But I think I will really be happy if my parents would finally appreciate the things that I have done, that they will praise me because they have seen how dedicated I am doing school stuffs, and they would stop expecting too much from me because I don't want to hear any disappointed comments from them.

When I am happy, I tend to be talkative, I sing so loud I won't mind if I don't have the angelic voice, jumping like a kangaroo, dancing crazily with my favorite songs, smiling like an idiot that my friends sometimes would get scared the way I smile, giving energy vibes to people around me, being clingy sometimes with someone I am comfortable with, I would laugh out loud I don't care if they think I am weird.

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Check which side of your brain is dominant

The video helped me to discover that I am dominant left brain. I thought I am dominant in the right side, but I was wrong. It was also fun watching it, and it encourage me to watch more videos that has the same content in it. I found it interesting as well and very catchy.

4 Exercises to test How Fast Your Brain Is

While watching the video, I had so much! The 4 exercises results a confusion in me. It was somewhat tricky because I can't follow most of the times. But I assure that I'm going to spend some of my free time to watch the video, I know it will help my brain to improve. I would like to recommend this to people who suffers from short term memory loss, and I would love to watch it again with my sister since she loves this kind of contents.

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What situation do you consider as a positive stress? As a negative stress? Are you aware of your tipping point when it comes to stress?

Whenever I have to work on with school homeworks or any thing that may be tiring, but worth it in the end. School works maybe stressful, but whenever I have done something I feel like my tiredness faded away, and at the same time I have learned to manage my time even having lots of responsibilities in our house chores. Being motivated to finish all things up, though I may not be good but atleast I worked hard for it. It's okay if it made me exhausted but the feeling of "finally, I'm done." makes my heart happy, and that's my kind of positive stress.

Negative stress is experiencing lack of motivation. Doing things that I don't like, or got a feeling of being tired because it doesn't help me to become fine at all. Experiencing family problems, or being looked down by my parents. They don't trust me when it comes to my decisions in life. They don't believe what I'm saying even if I keep on telling the truth. Hearing hurtful words from them. I feel like I am a hopeless case because even my parents won't believe me anymore. It makes me sad and unmotivated.

When I feel like there's no chance at all, overthinking before going to sleep, stressing myself too much makes me feel THE stress. I don't know how to start all over again, being tired of thinking of another motivation to keep going. That's how my mind works when it comes to these matters.

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Dealing with the Challenges of Adolescence Stage

Do you believe that adolescence is a period of stress and storm? Why?

Yes, I do believe that it is the period of stress and storm. When we finally started growing up, we manage to be curious about things. We are starting to explore outside of our comfort zones, trying to be independent and all. Sometimes, there are tendencies that we regret knowing things deeper. But I think it is a blessing in disguise to be mindful and to be aware. It's up to the person if he/she will open his/her mind, to take the informations that have encountered.

In my case, I was just a typical kid doing things that must a primary student be done. Going to school, attend classes, talking with other kids, after school do all my homeworks so I can finally watch my favorite television show. It was the wonderful days of my life not until I entered junior high school, it was fun being a high school student but at the same time I realized that my problems are on my way now. Dealing with them made so difficult for me to cope up, especially now that I'm in senior high school, the pressure is on the air. My parents expecting me to pass the admission test for the dream school that they want me to be enrolled, planning for my chosen course, where will I get the money for my tuition fees, my relatives challenging my capabilities if I'm going to be successful since they thought of me as a hopeless case. So there, my answers why being in adolescence is a period of stress and storm.

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Pause for a Thought

How would you describe your current situation as an adolescent?

For the blessed 18 years of life and still counting, I would describe my current situation as an adolescent is somewhat challenging. I mean my life as an adult is about to start since I think I have encountered problems like involving myself into our family problems and the feeling of being pressured. When I was in junior high school, my life was just chilling and not minding my problems, I just deal with it through having fun until I forgot about it. I was a happy-go-lucky person, I tend not to think about being stressed about school works and family problems since I think I am still a kid who only knows is hanging out with my friends and breaking some rules. Not until I stepped my foot in senior high school, there I started to feel the emotions I haven't felt before. I started to feel pressure, I started to do the things I don't do usually, I studied hard, I worked hard, I fell in love, these things are not my style back then. I once cried or I think twice because I think I am so dumb not to understand some lessons, I became grade conscious because I think having bad grades wouldn't help me to get through college. There I started to think about my future. So I thought of having this question, "is this how adolescence feels like?", "Am I in adolescent stage now?". Being matured in serious situations made me think about that question.

Is it a period of stress or are you slowly strengthening your identity?

I think both of them, I feel stressed and at the same time I am slowly strengthening my identity. Through my experiences that challenged my capabilities made me the woman I am now. I still feel pressured and all but now I think I can handle it now. Thankful for having support system that made me strong enough to manage things, including my emotions. I still cry but it's just a short span of time. I believe I can cry now, but will fight again later.

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Each one of us has a complicated life or experienced being placed in a complicated situation. Some are lucky enough to handle it, some are still stuck. If ever I have met a pers on who has a complex mind, I would volunteer myself being an example. I have met others but the first one I had to encounter with such complexity is me. The song Forgiveness by Matthew West, it hit me. My own emotions swallowing me up, I am defeated by my own emotions that's I am still a loser. Honestly, I really don't forgive someone who humiliated me, who betrayed me. I hold grudges against them that I just want to use violence to ease the pain that they have caused me. I guess I was really wrong for trusting people that much.

The song hits me hard, because all along I thought my enemy was another person, but it was just me. I am a complex person because I really don't know my decisions in life. I have a messy mind, I am unsure of all the things that I am thinking, I am a coward for being afraid of risking because I don't want to lose something. I just don't get myself that much because I thought I am smart and brave, but mostly I feel so stupid and dumb.

But I am still thankful enough to someone who believes in me, that made me feel that I am enough, that I am an established woman. I mean I don't forget to pray to Him. The heavens above is still with me, even if I feel like I lost my way.

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1. Do you know yourself?

Up until now, in my 18 years of existence, I still don’t know who I am. I don’t know what exact words to use to describe myself. But I know for sure that I am still on the process of learning. Every day I get to learn, I have established a new skill that I have discovered just recently. I tend to be surprised due to the fact that I just learned something new again. I grew up believing that I know myself, that I know what kind of person I am, not until I heard this question, “Do you know yourself?”. I thought I can handle things, but little did I know I was also dependent. I forgot to focus on myself, depending from friends made me lost my confidence that I can do more, I keep on comparing myself to my fellow girls who were established with confidence and positive outlooks in life. I was a bit ashamed because I do not believe in my own capacity. I don’t know which one to believe, some says I am a hardworking student, that I am smart, that they admire me because I am good with some things that they lack off (but I do not really brag things like that, we have differences and each of us are unique). So I must say that I am not a girl that can ever be define, I think that sounds better while I am still finding myself. Even my parents whom they thought they know me that much because I am their child, do not have any idea anymore what kind of person I am today. Even them cannot define me.

2.) How did you learn these things about yourself?

I have mentioned that someone told me I make their day. So I was thinking that I learned it through my past experiences, making someone feel okay and helping them even in a small way. About my established new skills, I got these through the guidance of my parents, sometimes from my friends so that’s why I am also thankful of them.

3.) Where did the information come from?

I learned these things from my classmate’s point of views. They describe me as cheerful, happy-go-lucky, hardworking, goal driven, and a friend who makes their day. My parent says, I am lazy, a person who does not have any dreams, a person who doesn’t look forward for the future, irresponsible, and etc. So that’s how I came up on the idea of me, a girl that can ever be define, since they cannot really tell sometimes the emotions and thoughts that have been running and bothering my mind.

4.) Do you like what you know?

I like hearing some thoughts or compliments from others, but I just don’t usually react that much. I just love it, and I really appreciate people who recognizes the good things that I have done which is I am not aware that sometimes I finally did something good in my life. I love hearing those, and I really don’t mind others negative comments about me, I just focus my attention to people who loves me because I am me.