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Ready to get off my damn feet already 🙃

#night shift

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I’m getting really good with my videos. I have a nice list of short film ideas.. but I’ve been pondering on which to start. I think I’m going to do stories that check morality. Get people thinking and to question their moral scales. I genuinely want people happy so I must teach ✊🏽

On another note, my job had a talent show. The videos had to be certain frame rate, shot with 1080p quality, and no more than 2 minutes. Most people posted talents that showcased singing, dancing, and some sort of comedy. I decided to make a short 1960s style commercial 😅 I had fun and everyone seemed to love it. Here it is:

#ishootfilm #35mm #video editing #videography #cinemetography #commercial #shorts #short film #vintage #85mm #amazon #talent #talent show #filmmaking #filmmaker #videographer

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So this month I feel so accomplished. I’ve set my goals on my vision board and I’ve been knocking them out. Whether that goal is getting specific clients or purchasing an investment. I’ve calculated my time being used on what and my goal is to have atleast 1000 hours a year. That means 2 hours a week minimum on practicing or learning about film. I’ve been doing at least 10 hours a week (yay me). Someone came up to me during one of my shoots and told me “I’ve been following your work and you’re videos are so amazing, you are very talented. You are the reason I made a Christmas trip to Branson.” That comment did so much to my spirit and there’s no way I could’ve explained that to her in that moment. So I just said I appreciate her for telling me and that’s why I love what I do.

After that a mother to be was excited about hiring me because my edits are “A1”, as she explained to her mom. She wanted to do photoshoot and I convinced her to do a video instead. I sent her the results within 6 hours and she told me she was in tears. I’ll post a link to that video now.

I just want to be one of the best to ever do it, especially in my state. Also, I submitted a video for a talent show for my job. There’s a money prize so wish me luck 🤞🏽

Thanks to anyone that reads these. I’m very unsure about that haha but it does feel good to type it all down 🤷🏽‍♂️

#ishootfilm #35mm #startup #relationships #portrait #maternal #parenthood #maternity #pregnancy #video editing #my edit #videography #Youtube #beautiful photos #beautiful #beauty

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Since my last post, I’ve acquired a few new clients and made a lil pocket change. I’m super impressed with the milestones I’ve achieve this far. I knew I could do it, but didn’t expect it so soon. More and more people are interested in my photography (I just want to be proficient with) which is my secondary skill. Why do people want pictures more over video? Popularity? Is it more appealing to the mass majority? Cheaper? Idk. Videos are so much more fun to me but I’m here to please the customer. Here is some pics of my recent and proudest shoot to date.

I see the progress I’ve made and I see how much further I need to go to be who I envision myself to be. It exciting af. I’m proud of my progress and how much time I invest in myself. Self care is a real thing. I take care of myself in every sense of the phrase so I can better care for others. My gf finally sees the money people will offer for my services. Now I feel like she’s all in and on board with my dreams. I’m truly grateful for her. All those hours I spend learning and editing and practicing, meanwhile she’s chasing the little ones around making sure we are all fed and happy. All without ever complaining how I spend my free time. Now she sees it was all for something.

Now I gotta figure out what I’m going to do with this money. Invest in my future finances or back into my craft. Hmm 🤔 decisions decisions.

I do love my camera 🎥🖤

#ishootfilm #35mm #love #photography #portrait #quinceañera #photoshoot #photooftheday #beautiful photos

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I felt like testing out my girls new iPad with the pen 🖊

#graffiti #grafitti #love #art #artistic #procreate #ipadpainting #ipadpencil #timelapse #drawsomething #drawing

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Not sure what to write. I’m exhausted and feel the need to accomplish something before I go to sleep. I learned a few things, I watched a few things, and I’m just waiting for my new stuff to arrive. Yes, I got a few goal purchases out of the way and I’m excited af. Now I’m feeling the pressure. The pressure to get better and reach my goals. I feel like if I take too long than my drive will deteriorate slowly and that’s a legit fear. If I don’t have this film making then what will I have? What would I even want?

But nah, challenge accepted. I got shit to prove and create. My gf has no idea I’m writing these things. I want to write everything down with the hopes she will find it one day and realize the struggles within myself. I voice my thoughts and opinions freely, but when I write them down.. it feels.. refreshing. I think that’s the right word. My gf believes in me and I know she does. Not because she says it. I feel her vibe when she’s watching my raw vision come to life. Her eyes light up when she sees the things I create sometimes and I fucking love seeing that light. It makes me want to go harder. I feel proud of myself a lot because of her. I owe her a lot. She’s the reason I ever picked up a camera. Want to hear about that story? Not how we met because that’s a lame story, but how we became best of friends. How she helped me reinforce my perspectives and morality. Or just simply how we agreed to go on a ridiculously long road trip that turned out to be life changing! For me anyways.

I’ve never driven more than 2 hours at a time. All of a sudden a few months after we reconnect, I make a 27 hour drive (one way!) with no sleep. Not to mention we made that trip again within the year Mark!

#ishootfilm #35mm #relationships #girlfriend #roadtrip #oregon #portland #travel #couple #couples

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Last work shift tonight, for the week anyways.

Thursday they had me unloading the trucks for 12 hours straight (nothing new) at a pace only I can seem to handle. I turn nights like that into some sort of stamina or endurance challenge. I make sure to keep my posture as perfect as possible, but I’m starting to feel some pains that were never there smh. I’ll know when to stop before anything gets serious. I should definitely go get this pinched nerve checked out now tho 🤷🏽‍♂️ I hate it there now but it pays the bills and allows me to master my craft for atleast the following 4 days. Last night I keep telling myself after over a year of slaving there.

My work ethic has gained respect from mostly everyone in my department, especially the elders. I now have a lot of influence on my fellow co workers and even my managers. Overall a great group of people surrounds me but they have no clue of who I am really. They don’t understand my capabilities as nor do I of them. Some of them vent and go on rants to me while I have an open ear. I give excellent advice due to my many parenting and relationship classes, even some therapy. Some of them see me as some quiet life guru guy. Some of them follow my work on YouTube or IG and see some of my skills ,on top of my work ethic. They have no idea who I am.. I wonder who they really are 🤔

🗣 Ugh, I hate thinking about work when I’m not even there. They already take so much of my time. I need not to give them more

Well I’m excited to get these videos done for some clients these upcoming days! Plus that stimmy coming in. Don’t worry I obviously plan on investing every dollar of that into the business or make my next move to financial freedom. Stocks and forex is what I have in mind. Wish me luck and good fortune!

I miss this Oregon trip so much.

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😪 Today is my Monday. I work 3 twelve hour shifts at the Amazon warehouse. So my once I clock out Sunday morning at 6:30am, I am free to shoot videos and master my craft. I am the only income until my gf decides to go back to school and finish her nursing degree. I’m okay with that most days. I try not to think about it the days I wish I had money to invest in a new lens or something. On top of that my ex wife court ordered all type of money from me which I don’t have so I try not to even think about it. Why stress over something you can’t control right? I’m sure that’ll bite me in the ass later in though 🤷🏽‍♂️ til then, I gotta invest in passive income and multiple strings of income.

12 hour shifts lol sometimes I don’t say a word and just keep conversations to a minimum. Most people take vto which is voluntary time off without pay. I need my pay so I never really take it. I’m often left alone to do the heavy lifting for the few people that are there. I don’t think about it. I work hard to create good habits when I’m at home. I want to make sure my kids at home have food and shelter so I can focus on my craft after those 3 days are done.

Sometimes work allows me to brainstorm and come up with great ideas since I have to be there with my thoughts and my thoughts alone. Which isn’t all that bad. I protect my mind and well being first and foremost.

Sometimes I wonder if I should’ve just kept boxing and made money that way. At the cost of my happiness and well being though? Nahhh

#fatherhood #startup #parenting #parenthood #kids #ishootfilm #daddy #dadlife #father #35mm #my life #lifelessons #life #lifestyle #lifeisgood #lifeprotips

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I knew what I was getting into when I decided to take this career path. After all the likening curves, it seems much easier now. Now I’m seeing the money it really takes to bring my visions to life. For now, the images I put out are very satisfying, it’s not like I’m trying to make any Hollywood films right now lol but it’s be nice to document my kids lives in that format.

I have everything I need to get this ball rolling. I made a list of things for future upgrades and man 😪 it’s gonna be a long road, but challenge accepted!

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I absolutely love what I do now.. It will all work itself out in due time

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Here’s a clip of me doing graffiti on my graphics tablet

#fatherhood #startup #parenting #parenthood #ishootfilm #graffiti

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Here’s a clip of me boxing

#fatherhood #parenthood #ishootfilm #parenting #35mm #boxing

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I’m wondering why i am here. I guess the answer is simple. I have shit on my mind all the time and I want to write it down as if someone like you were reading it. (Who are you even?)

What kind of things are in my mind? Well I’m a father of 5 and I only have 2 of them in my care (not by choice because people are stupid) and thats a whole ass rant. 3 different baby mommas, I married and divorced the first 2. I have no plans on marriage but my current girlfriend must be dying inside knowing that. However, I want all my kids futures to be taken care of so I’ve become a videographer/content creator/film maker/whatever else they want to call it in hope to realize that dream. I love my kids, I really do.

Videography is fun and I have major plans and dreams but will it work? Can I achieve these goals I’ve set? I’ve tried so many different things trying to become wealthy but videography is the only thing I still absolutely enjoy after a few years. I’ve done boxing for 8 years (got really good at it) and could’ve been great but there was no passion. I’ve tried drawing and 3D animations, I got bored after awhile. Dancing is fun but no passion there either. Everything I touch I get really good at but there is always this void driving me crazy. Wtf is up with that anyways?

Am I even doing this blog thing right? I don’t do this. This isn’t a side of me I’ve explored before. I just jumped right in and started typing away. So far, it feels good. I still have so much to say.

#fatherhood #parenting #startup #35mm #ishootfilm #kids #parenthood #my video #video editing #writing help #someone help #newbeginnings #tumblr noob #a total noob #failed relationship #i have failed #relationships