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death is a boat

#OBSESSED #hamlet

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if y'all don't shut up about that woman and put on gasolina by daddy yankee.......

#genuinely i’m gonna lose it

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To bend softly as the word of God sweeps…

MIDNIGHT MASS (2021) dir. Mike Flanagan

#THIS IS WHAT IM FUCKING TALKING ABOUT #GOD! #midnight mass #father paul

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young artist posting your work online, heed my warning. im holding your face so gently in my hands, you have to stop caring about numbers right now and start caring about making the weirdest and most self-indulgent art you possibly can

#nodding vigorously

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ok im about to think about the Character!! im so Excited 😊😊

#me with the fHDJKCIFIENFKLFICLDLFKELRKE #poor thing got electrocuted while writing the tags. what a shame

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if you saw that post no you didn’t. i am normal and have. a normal relationship to the american revolution RPF community.

#the brainworms oh god #jo.adds

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if you saw that post no you didn’t. i am normal and have. a normal relationship to the american revolution RPF community.

#im lying i’m lying i’m lying #jo.posts

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proud demon dad

based on:

#this means so much to 12 year old me #kuroshitsuji

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huge news you guys. i started my ninth google doc of matchablossom fanfiction

#im waiting for applause. #jo.posts

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they are Cancelling me for dealing with my grief as best i can . also for the vicious war Crimes

#raikou shimizu

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equally fucked up alternate version of the orpheus and eurydice myth where i successfully bring the great love of my life back from the dead without looking back but the unresolved trauma of their death leaves me so scared of losing them a second time that i can't bear to look at them ever again

#hadestown but worse

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i love this character so much......i hope they get seriously injured and almost die

#i got so lucky w e9 <3

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anyone else think about their guy and briefly understand what it feels like to be an anime girl

#uwaaaaa! [runs in with a piece of toast in my mouth] kyaaaaaa!!! #🌸🌸🌸

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the tragedy of a brother and sister.

#this also fucked HARD #like. omg #i remember drawing this on my birthday and being like. this is the Best Use of My Time

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#the Utmost Classic. #i quote this to myself every week or so and i have for YEARS

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shimizu family problems are solved within the shimizu family.

#ANOTHER CLASSIC‼️‼️‼️

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raikou, raimei, and appearance as familial allegiance

something i’ve noticed: the shimizu siblings’ respective character designs are indicative of their relationship with their family and their pasts.

raimei looks like korin. she looks a LOT like korin, and with her loyalty to her family, that makes sense. her design is similar to her mother’s because she still has pride in where she comes from.

applying that concept to raikou makes sense, as well. he never had raimei’s level of faith and allegiance to their family, so his character design isn’t very similar to either of his parents. he doesn’t have korin’s light hair or somei’s dark hair, and while this could be analyzed as raikou having a MIX of his parents’ hair colors, i think the emphasis should be on the fact that he has NEITHER of his parents’ hair colors. he is not a combination of korin and somei, he is a separate being from korin and somei.

when raimei has that first flashback and we’re introduced to korin for the first time while raikou and raimei stand in front of her with kurogamon and shirogamon, it’s very clear that raimei is korin’s daughter.

even though we only get a shot of the lower half of korin’s face, her skin and hair color are identical to raimei’s. but when we see raimei and raikou next to each other, raikou looks significantly different from his mother and sister. his hair is darker and he’s wearing his black school uniform while korin and raimei are wearing pale, pastel colors. we never see him wear anything but black in the flashbacks of the night his parents were killed, even while everyone around him (even iroku) is wearing light colors.

raikou’s lack of allegiance to the shimizu family was demonstrated through his character design before we even knew what he had done, and this forced separation from his family continues into present canon era.

raimei still wears her hair the way she did when she was younger: the same two pigtails with visible dark hairties. she carries her past with her because she loved her family and still does to this day. she has no reason to change the way she looks because she wants to keep the remnants of the shimizu family, the inherited features from her parents, on her person and in her life. she has no reason to run away.

raikou, however, does the opposite. he changes his style of dress and dyes his hair in an attempt to remove himself as much as possible from the shimizu name.

i know that there’s a “reason” he dyed his hair in the manga, but i don’t think that’s entirely the case. raikou was tired of seeing not only his family features, but also his childhood self when he looked in the mirror. to assure and convince himself that he was no longer that fifteen year old boy that killed those closest to him, he changed the way he looked. raikou wants to become unrecognizable to himself and the past he wants to escape. unlike raimei, he has a reason to run away.

in episode 10, gau tells yukimi “it seems the worse [raikou’s] mood gets, the more ridiculous his taste in off-duty clothing becomes.” while to kazuho and yukimi this doesn’t seem to correlate, upon further examination, it’s not too hard to connect. raikou had just gravely injured his own sister, his last remaining blood relative. to manage his crushing guilt, he turned to changing his appearance, something that is evidently a coping mechanism for him. he wanted to become unrecognizable again, to raimei and to himself. to raikou, his appearance is the last thing connecting him to the shimizus, he believes that disconnecting himself from his family will ease the guilt that he feels.

raimei and raikou have very different relationships with the shimizu family, and the extent and depth of their allegiance (or lack thereof) has and always will be reflected in their appearances, regardless of whether they’re aware of it or not. while raimei holds on to the features from departed shimizus that she adored so much, raikou is constantly trying to change them so that he is not only unrecognizable to the ghosts of his victims but also to himself.

#fuck it you’re getting nabari meta on your dash #im proud of this still #it’s gorgeous #im a genius