randomprimadonna

[randomprimadonna]

I am a stalker of memories I just made.

[randomprimadonna]

I asked for a sign.

Now I am confused

[randomprimadonna]

You know it's temporary,

When you watch it slowly fades away in front of you.

[randomprimadonna]

Damn this feeling!

Superficial ecstasy.

To my nonchalant person,

My words twisted right now but my heart isn't!

I am in love and I can't! Damn this self being in delusional situation.

#midnights #secret crush on you #love #nonchalant #crush

[randomprimadonna]

I do not know if this is just an admiration from afar.

But right now, I am using this uncertainty as an advantage to admire my unbeatable yellow.

[randomprimadonna]

So now, earth is pulling you towards me again.

Letting universe talk, like how the solar planets conspire.

There's this gravitational science we can never resist, that if I to equate, may it be love that we insist?

[randomprimadonna]

It's you..

Happy New Year to May constant perplexed person.

You that I can't say.

[randomprimadonna]

The first fight

After jealousy, here comes the cold-hearted version of me.

But why?! I keep on feeling jealous. To you, to him... I can't stand the thought of you two... !

You haven't done things but it's just everything and everyone else surrounding you!

Can't you see I am jealous? Shit!

Now, we fight! Exaggerating all things I can possibly say to put all the blame on you. Zooming in all little details. I hate this toxic side of me. I am out of control!

Then I am sorry!

Not together and still I am not entitled.

[randomprimadonna]

You know I still care because I am jealous.

[randomprimadonna]

Once again I felt this sting!

I guess I can't forget the fact that I need you.

[randomprimadonna]

And there you go...

Walking away and turning your back

Only when you need me.

[randomprimadonna]

You're not just as interested as I am.

#hugot #secret crush on you

[randomprimadonna]

I missed you!

Not a single day had passed that I did not think of you.

Hope you did not go through the same pain as I was when you were not around.

#i miss you #hugot

[randomprimadonna]

Staying rent free running inside my mind.

Constantly thinking of you, you've got the whole me.

[randomprimadonna]

I felt that hard slow beat again.

The rhythm of that dark blank sadness.

I felt badly needy, for I, the strong independent person, now accepted my defeat, longing for sincere long caress even just for this one lonely tiring night.

#personal #sad thoughts

[randomprimadonna]

All of those were nothing.

Maybe I was just hallucinating. That same innocence made me dismay at the moment.

All of those magnifying moment, those trembles and butterflies I felt - was just me.

Nothing maybe. Those sparks I saw from your eyes, those feelings I can't even explain when you're r around, were all nothing and normal to you.

I'll cut this chase and maybe when you and I can think out loud maybe that time our stars will collide.

#secret crush on you

[randomprimadonna]

The calm during my storm

I was watching from the side. All ears with that familiar sweet voice of yours.

Listened to every word that red lips uttered.

As the words became shaky, I was there silently cheering and did not even bothered to doubt. Trusted every bit of your courage.

Then as expected, you've nailed it!

So proud I've welcomed you with my own silly cowardly laugh and teased you with everything. And there you were still shaking and unease.

Positioned at my back as I was on the plastic chair enjoying the moment holding every giggles, a sudden soft hit thrown from you to my arms was felt. Stayed from laughing as a way to escape the inability to speak my thoughts, you then hit me again.

And there... From that moment, an unexpected touch was felt. It's about 3 to 5 seconds long but felt like a million. I can't even identify if it's a simple hug from the back or a simple play of arms to my shoulders. Either way, I liked it, no it's beyond like, I loved it!

It's so magical I forgot I was laughing, I was loving it. So comforting, so light and just beautifully different.

Then it stopped .

I was about to frown, but before I knew it, there was it again. This time the feeling was just so pleasurely satisfying.

Then it was gone...

#hugs #secret crush on you #crush #love