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#DHDHDJSJAKKAKSKDJFJFJF

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i support evan buckley rights, but most importantly i support evan buckley wrongs

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Something we should talk about more is how inherently good Buck is. He was not born that way, he raised himself that way. Yeah he matured a lot with the 118 and his found family. But his niceness comes from himself. His crazy selfless bravery to save everyone. His genuineness in helping someone. His kindness in always thinking about the people around him. He just gives out help without someone having to ask for it. It's not easy to be someone like Buck when all life's done is screw you over. Even Connor talks about what a good person Buck was in college and that was before the 118. Buck has flaws but at the core of it, he's simply good. He's the kind of good that makes you want to confront a bomber to save him. He's the kind of good who makes you want to put him down as the legal guardian for your son if you dies. He's the kind of good where you sit by his bedside and pray he makes it. The kind of good that makes you pump his heart back to life with your own hands. The kind where you make unethical decisions like holding him back from work for. The kind where even though he lost your son in a tsunami you know he never gave up once and you'll never ever hold it against him ever. Like Bobby said, even out of the uniform, Buck will always save people because that's who he is. Good.

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thinking abt evan buck buckley and him growing up in a house where he wasn’t exactly unloved, but unseen and alone anyway. how he first felt abandoned by his parents and then his sister and how the very first girl we see him with in the show tells him ‘this was nice and all but i don’t want anything more’. how i never quite believed his whole sex addiction thing bc the first thing we see him ask for is a deeper connection. how hard he held on to his first meaningful romantic relationship. (how she left him anyway.) how hard he holds on to the 118, and how desperately he wants to believe that they’re going to be friends and family forever. how he’s so quick to jump to conclusions about how someone must hate him or want to leave him bc he’s convinced the other person thinks the same of him, but he still tries so hard anyway because what if this is the person? this is the one who doesn’t leave him?

thinking abt how buck throws himself into his work as a firefighter bc he’s doing something meaningful, for once. how much that means to him. how he attaches his self worth to his ability to save people. how it’s a reflection of his childhood and his attempts to get attention bc that’s the only way his parents would give him affection. (how it eventually morphed back into disappointment anyway.) how he’s never really bragged about ‘saving lives’ to any of his dates and how awful he clearly felt about being called a hero. how he feels like he needs to save everyone, because otherwise it’s a failure. he’s a failure. because what else does he have?

thinking abt buck and how he paints his whole world in black and white, all or nothing, us vs them, life vs death, loving vs leaving.

#prev buck begins DESTROYED me

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to you he’s just a man, to me he’s my babygirl

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Me finally realizing that Eddie didn’t want Buck to call him Diaz because that’s what he was called in the army.

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"You wanna know why I'm really in therapy? It is because I have spent my entire life feeling like a constant disappointment. And you want to talk about our jobs? You think my job is dangerous? I have walked through fire every single day of my life because of you. That is why I'm in therapy. Because nothing I ever did was good enough."

"We tried!"

"You never made it easy on us, either one of you."

"We were supposed to? We were kids."

"Evan, I don't know what you expected us to do."

"Love me anyway."

#GODDDDDD.

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buddie

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just watched 3x08... we're going through it and ik a traumatic buddie episode is coming up

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911 + Text Posts pt229/?

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i used to think you were gods but i've ran out of faith.

i'll plot the coordinates to somewhere you haven't stained and i'll be a better man that you ever were.

—better man by kalea jordan

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911 + Text Posts pt163/?

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I lost him, Eddie. No, you saved him. That's how he remembers it.

#GODDDDD.

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"We tried." "Not hard enough."

9-1-1 (2018-)

#OP I LOVE THIS IMMENSELY….THANK YOU FOR THIS

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incorrect 911 quotes part idk

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eddie diaz i love you

#aryan talks

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sometimes the moral of the story really is just "you cannot go back and what happened to you is going to be with you for the rest of your life. but it's still going to be okay" huh