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#lets bring this back why not #i miss you #missing you #missing #letting go #let go of #love #pain #heartbreak #heartache #etc

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Never forget that I held you. Briefly, tentatively, I held you.

For a time, you were mine, though you would deny this profusely

#words #quote #past love #love #previous relationship #past relationship #lovers #whatever the fuck we were #i held you #for a time #you were mine #briefly #tentatively #imperfectly #i loved you

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#oh did sunny cho make this? #tag urself #i'm the broken key

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If I were to go away Would you follow me to the ends of the earth To show me what your love is worth Or would you go and buy a car Shrug your shoulders, say, "There you are She didn't love me anyway If she had, she would have stayed" If I were to go away Would I always look for your beautiful face In every crowd, every place Or would I go and buy a hat Turn my shoulders, say, "That is that He didn't love me, now it's clear If he had, he would be here"

If I Were, Vashti Bunyan

#words #quote #lyrics #if i were #vashti bunyan #if i were vashti bunyan #love #missed each other

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He feels like you in disguise But he is something else entirely Something moves me within his eyes And its almost enough to hotwire me Gentle, inquisitive,  Tender and hurt  And oh my god, this doesn’t work  He doesn’t quite fit into my mold of you And it’s not fair, it’s not his fault That you were there  Wish you were not  So he could be  What he is to me And nothing more than that

#words #poetry #attraction #confusion #love #past love #past relationship #patterns #superimposing your image #sunny cho #are you not flattered? #i will leave him alone #for now

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I wanna talk to you, but there's no more to say I try to hide it, but it follows every day No matter what I do, I'm on your résumé

Résumé, Jenevieve 

#words #quote #lyrics #résumé #jenevieve #résumé jenevieve

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little things i’ve learned:

one: pay attention to the music you’re relating to. sometimes it’s a clear indicator that something is wrong. other times, it’s an indicator that something is very, very right. when the latter happens, pay extra close attention.

two: true control is subtle, not obsessive. you may not even know that you have it when you do. people who are in control do not question it. they just are.

three: never pass up the opportunity to stick the tips of your fingers out the window of a moving car. feel the wind carry you to the sound of your favorite songs. this is a reminder that you’re alive.

four: thoughts don’t have to mean anything. you can just let them be there.

five: notice when you’re struggling and allow yourself some leeway when you do. however, learn the difference between giving yourself leeway and enabling your struggle. 

six: you cannot build self-love from a foundation of self-hatred. first, work toward self-acceptance. love will follow.

seven: do not love others simply because they love you back. do not expend your love on people who won’t love you back. 

eight: don’t forget to stop and look around. take a moment a day to stop doing and just be. the mindfulness hype isn’t overrated. there’s a reason for it.

nine: setting limits and saying no will not end any relationship worth keeping. 

ten: friendships built on moments of competitive misery are not healthy. if you find that you’re having the urge to constantly showcase your misery around someone, take that as a red flag. sadness is not a competition you want to win.

eleven: recovery is not about being happy. some days you will feel bored and flat. but these days are still better than those you built around destroying yourself. these days are still victories. recovery is about being alive.

twelve: when you’ve built an identity around being sad, the concept of happiness may scare you. giving that sadness up will strip you of most everything and leave you feeling empty. embrace this emptiness and fill it up with exploration. you’ll find that it’s worth it.

thirteen: you will not come out of your coldest days the same as you were going into them. this is not a bad thing. someday, you’ll be warm enough to feel the sun on your face again.

#i really needed to read this right now #i have a lot of complicated feelings about you that have nothing to do with you #this blog is mine and it's about me first and foremost

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Know this.

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For I have made her prison be Her every step away from me And this child I would destroy If you tried to set her free

My Medea, Vienna Teng

#words #quote #lyrics #my medea #my medea vienna teng #vienna teng

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Up at 6:30 And I’m hurting Over how you did me dirty It’s a feeling I don’t agree with But I give it to me freely No concealing How it’s got me reeling And I guess it makes me needy But now the worst is over And I know I’ll never go for  Someone who tried And failed to defeat me You are so good At ignoring  Feelings that your  Heart is storing  But one day That dam will break And all you’ll have Are your mistakes Hope you wallow In that heartache  Guess you never knew What was at stake

I hope it hits you when you wake A few hours before daybreak And with every jagged breath You take  Cause you deserve Some of the hurting  I hope it burns  You fucking snake

#words #poetry #vindictive #heartache #heartbreak #waking #mistakes #hurting #snake

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I won’t give you my time Not when you left the best  That we had behind It’s over and done I hope you had your fun Cause I’m going home I won’t hand you a smile Not like you’ll need it when You put me on trial  It’s over and done I hope you had your fun Cause now I’m on the run I won’t waste another day  Thinking about you and Wondering if you’re okay  It’s over and done I hope you had your fun Cause I’m going home  Wherever that is

#words #poetry #over and done #i hope you had your fun #i'm going home #past love #heartache #heartbreak

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Romanticize us when I’m feeling blue But I’m not sure if I really remember you We made some mistakes That made my heart break But now I know just how much I can take I had to move on to set myself free Cause you were consuming, captivating me I was jealous of her Sorry I got hurt But we both knew that this wouldn’t work So when you’re in my dreams As real as it seems Need to pull away to avoid my extremes Knew from the start We’d someday drift apart Now I won’t let you within 10 feet of my heart

#words #poetry #love #past love #heartache #heartbreak #romanticization #sadness #feeling blue #consuming #captivating #set myself free #jealousy #hurt #extremes #dreams #avoidance

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Corby’s Irish Pub, South Bend, Indiana

The bass has taken over As my primary heartbeat I am grateful for this Because it supercedes The ache of my true heart I am not drunk enough to Justify texting you But I really want to I feel that I need to (And so I did) No place really feels like home And it is so hard to remember The whisper of that feeling But I associate it with you Nights in your shoebox room On your matchbox bed Feeling that just the two of us We were excess enough Now, with beer on my lips I taste your kiss And I wish I didn’t know what this felt like You told me you were Queer for beer Are you still? Does the desire still consume you As you do me?

#words #poetry #love #past love #memory #home #feeling #longing #kiss #beer #queer for beer #lips #excess #desire #consume #consumption #drunk #drunk texting #heartbeat #heart #heartache #this was the saddest bar #and sadness always redirects me to you #sunny cho

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I wish sunblock actually worked. I still think of you. And it burns.

Imagine getting warnings from your weather app about a past lover

#words #quote #love #past lover #past love #sunblock #burns #sunburns #thinking of you #weather app #sunny #sunny cho