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Am I unlovable? Why can't anybody love me? Is something wrong with me? I just want to be reciprocated.

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I did this, and a lot more! ❤️🎨💅🏻💕🥰🖍🖌✏️

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It's been a while, been rediscovering my passion and love for art. Been drawing non- stop. The secret to enjoying life was within me all along, just buried deep inside, glad it resurfaced.

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Last time I posted wasn't even Halloween yet, now it's almost December, can't wait for it to come, this November almost killed me. HOW MANY THINGS CAN HAPPEN IN A FUCKING MONTH?!?!?!???

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“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale

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This year is a long ass rollercoaster, let's see how it ends, on a more positive note it's almost Halloween 🎃!

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So much happened. Wtf.

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February is already something, it's already better than January, also much much shorter.

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January lasted so long, I can't believe it's finally over, how can 31 days feel like a whole year, so much happened, I'm so sad, how do I keep surviving, this heartbreak hasn't killed me yet, but gosh it feels so close. I wonder if dead people get sad.

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I do feel better, actually my friends have been the most amazing support sistem, if I had to go through that rejection all by myself I'd be forever miserable. Time to slowly get back on my feet.

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Started 2023 by

-getting rejected by my crush (though it was mutual but I guess it fucking wasn't)

-cried in front of 30 people(none of them had the tact to leave me alone)

-proceeding to drink more than I can handle

-crying some more

-throw up and then go to hold hands with a stranger for the rest of the night

- get back home and sleep next to the person who rejected me(cause we were both guest at my friend's house)

-my crush who rejected me had to help me to get to bed

- the morning after was super awkward

The first of January and I'm already done with this year, someone kill me please.

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Stop scrolling for a moment and breath in and out 10 times, along with this GIF.

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Sometimes I frown so hard my forehead hurts, but I do not know until I actually go to sleep and the person on my phone that is doing ASMR tells me to relax the frown and enclemch the jaw.

Maybe I do look inapprochable.

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If you ever feel like an idiot, just know that I, an adult with a job (at an ice cream and coffee shop) think excitedly whenever someone orders coffee gelato "ah yes, the big boy flavour" while I make it.

#coffee #gelato #adulthood #sorry lol

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I do not think I like man, but the way they look fascinates me, I like looking at them and fantasizing about them but not them in general. I never felt romantic feelings toward a man, but at the same time I romanticize them.

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If you ever feel like a weirdo, just know that when I'm on my period and I wipe myself clean, I look at the discarded eggs and say out loud "this could've been a potential abortion".

EVERY TIME.

#abortion #weird story #reproductive rights #sorry lol