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the impulse to hide what I'm doing at my computer still sits so deep even tho I'm literally never looking at anything objectionable , the door will open and I'll hurry to close the page like oh fuck no one can know I'm looking at the Wikipedia page for the Balkans

#tech trauma #oh boy #i feel this

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Only day you can rb this

#i miss phineas and ferb

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#yoooo #i found this picrew #finally i can make myself in a picrew #thanks artist #culpeo #it's me #picrew #not my art #nonhuman alter #animal alter #alters #faceclaim #system stuff #alter dysphoria

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to people checking my following --

no, i will not state my opinions on politics or any kind of discourse publicly.

however, you should know i often follow people i disagree with just for exposure to different opinions, to keep myself informed on the latest tense topics, or sometimes just to laugh to myself at things i find stupid.

i don't like starting fights or drama but let me have that. think before you block me for following someone. i might not like 'em either.

#culpeo speaks #vague post #discourse #acecourse #transcourse #syscourse #dxcourse #et cetera

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me, coming out: hey i have DID and we switch all the time whilst people around us are entirely unaware - we all act as one person to blend as much as possible - so you wouldn’t know we’re any different unless we introduced ourselves individually to you ^^; *hoping they’ll be okay with us introducing ourselves individually eventually*

someone, trying to be supportive and accepting and ‘looking past the disorder’ but missing the point: i don’t see you as any different! you’re all the same to me! :)

#culpeo reblogs #system stuff #did #did osdd #dissociative system #did system #osdd system #alters #traumagenic system

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i have a job, and did pre-fusion as well. i was covert and still (while i am currently a one-person system i guess) am pretty covert in that it's not at all apparent i'm an animal alter. the fact that i have adhd is common knowledge among my coworkers and it's easily acceptable, so no one ever questioned my memory issues. the differences between the alters existing pre-fusion were very apparent if you knew me well but you wouldn't really see anything if you weren't looking for it. just "calmer" days and "wilder" days. i coped with the memory blackouts by using pluralkit and the journal channel on my private system discord server.

questions for systems who have jobs:

do your coworkers know you’re a system? if so, how did you tell them–and how did they react? if not, how do you cope with having to present as a singlet (especially if you’re an overt system)? and regardless, how does being multiple affect how you work? 

#culpeo speaks #culpeo answers #system stuff #actually dissociative #actually traumagenic #actually plural #did system #dissociative system #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #did #actually did #traumagenic system

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32. Favorite show?

favorite show is definitely Psych, i love shawn spencer so much and relate to him on a hella deep level

#culpeo answers #psych #shawn spencer

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fuck it, i'll do this

ask me anything

You wanna find out some personal shit?

#ask games #ask me anything

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one-last-bitch

replace one word of your url with bitch

peterpakersbitchlist

#bitch #shitpost #i don't even know

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Hi! If you get this answer with three random facts about yourself. Then send this to the last seven blogs in your notifications - anonymously or not.

Let's get to know the person behind the blog!

hmmmmm...

1) i love aspire energy drinks

2) i play flight rising

3) i like breaking laws i guess

#culpeo answers #ask game #thanks for the ask!

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culpeo moment

Lycalopex culpaeus - Andean Fox

#me :) #love this blog #their art is so good #nonhuman alter #animal alter #system stuff

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you :shake: me

nonhuman

-vex

hell yeah nonhuman gang lets goooo

#nonhuman alter #did #culpeo answers #system stuff

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To newly discovered systems who are still questioning everything:

(Here's basically everything we wish we knew up front).

- However many alters your system has is fine. You don't have too many. You'll probably realize you have more than you originally thought as time goes on.

- It's really normal to have nonhuman alters.

- It's really normal to have fictives.

- Not every alter needs to fit into a specific obvious role. A lot of alters will probably fill more than one role in your system.

- Being the host doesn't mean you're the "real" person and they're YOUR alters.

- Being an alter doesn't mean you're not the "real" person. Everyone, even the host, is an alter too.

- Persecutors aren't evil and if you treat them like that, they'll just get more problematic.

- However often you switch is normal. If you switch multiple times an hour, great. If you don't switch for weeks on end, also great. That's how your system works and it's fine.

- Age is weird in systems. You can have adult alters who lack the maturity and ability to function like other adults. You can have littles who are able to make complex decisions. Don't assume what an alter is capable of based on their age without actually getting to know them.

- 99% of the time there's no benefit in having a formal diagnosis beyond validating YOU. A trauma and dissociation oriented therapist can help treat your symptoms without making a formal dx. In fact, you might be better off without having that dx on paper.

- You don't owe anyone proof that you're not faking it.

- Thinking that you're faking it is extremely common. If you have to worry about that, you're not faking it. You'd have to make the intentional, conscious decision to fake it.

- Not knowing who you are is common. Blurring together/ passive influence is really common.

- You can split again simply out of necessity; you don't always have to go through a new traumatic event to split.

- CSA isn't the only type of trauma that can result in DID. Any type of ongoing trauma in childhood can cause DID.

- "Is it normal if _____?" Probably. The experience of being/ having a system is incredible subjective and varied.

- There's a good chance your inner world is more or less a vivid daydream. It doesn't have to be like a literal place you "go" when you're not fronting. If it is, cool, but it doesn't have to be.

- Some systems have to intentionally create their inner world to aid in communication. Not everybody just has one automatically.

- At the end of the day, you are one person. In the long run it'll benefit you to remember that and not over-focus on all your differences because that can increase dissociative barriers among other things.

- You are collectively responsible for each other's actions and need to learn to work as a team, as much as you can.

- Yes switching during dreams is a thing.

- In-system relationships between alters is a thing and it's not weird. It's common.

- If you can't track down when and how everyone in your system split that's normal.

- You don't all have to be super distinct to be valid. It's normal for alters to have a lot in common/ to have overlapping traits. Again, you're all part of the same person.

- Alters having a different accent internally but not using it externally is a thing.

- Substances will affect switching and internal communication.

- If you all just use your physical birthday and don't celebrate individually that's fine. If some or all of you celebrate different birthdays/ significant dates that's fine.

- Sharing a romantic/ sexual relationship with a partner is fine and normal, but you also don't have to. However, you should work towards everyone in the system having some kind of positive relationship with your partner because it'll make things way easier.

- You don't owe it to anyone to tell who's fronting.

- If you don't even know who's fronting that's fine. It's normal to not always know.

- If your switches aren't obvious to anyone outside of you and you don't all act super different, that's normal. It's a covert disorder.

- Alters intentionally doing things to give themselves a sense of individuality is normal. Sometimes it's a coping mechanism. If you do things like develop your own handwriting on purpose, that doesn't mean you're faking.

- Dissociative amnesia can happen without switching. Sometimes it's all 100% you and your memory can still be crap.

#information #dissociation #dissociative system #actually traumagenic #traumagenic system #did osdd #did #osdd #did system #actually did #alters #system stuff #system info #triggers #mental health #system #traumagenic

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babygirl i've read carrds so complex it took several minutes to figure out which anime boy to click for the about page

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i'm never going to recover from my mental illnesses and everyone hates me because of that

they get tired of me

#mental health #stability #same tbh #same

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parents be like you don't have trauma so stop showing symptoms of trauma

#parents #family #trauma #ptsd #actually traumagenic

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i love this tysm

Culpeo aesthetic board for @one-last-culpeo

#nonhuman alter #moodboard #culpeo #animal alter #nonhuman #did system #system stuff #thank you!