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[olwendylluan]

after my latest rewatch I am even more convinced that crowley really doesn't have the intense self-loathing issues he's commonly depicted with. like he has some regrets and bad memories and insecurities like everyone does, and he's under an insane amount of stress basically always, but he's very confident in who he is. he's not particularly happy about being a demon, but that isn't the same thing as hating himself for it. he hates hell, not himself.

like. he’s not upset about being called one of “the bad guys” because he agrees, he’s upset because he knows aziraphale is wrong, and because this is evidence that aziraphale still believes in a philosophy that has divided them since even before his fall. he has never once considered himself less than aziraphale or any other angel. I think it's clear that he's pretty offended by that implication, actually!

“crawly” as a name is too squirming-at-your-feet-ish for him because he knows who he is, and he sees value in that person. his depression and his worrying relationship with his own life and safety come from his feelings on god and predestination, not from self-loathing. crowley does not believe in the system. he doesn’t believe in the idea that people are purely good or evil, and he’s sure enough of himself to know that he's not either. that's why he's able to make the choices he does. he's able to act in the gray spaces between heaven and hell (see: job, the flood, the "virtues of poverty," armageddon, etc etc) because he is confident enough to make those decisions without worrying about what the powers that be say about what's "right" and "wrong."

that doesn’t mean that he’s not self-conscious. he’s very concerned with what humans think of him, what aziraphale thinks of him, and (out of self-preservation) what hell thinks of him. he hides his eyes and puts on a cool, flashy persona to hide the more vulnerable parts of himself. I think everyone does that, to a degree, but it's especially obvious in crowley because of how it manifests in his glasses. he's been burned (literally) before, and he knows better than to show weakness when he could be hurt like that again.

and re: the "I never meant to fall" thing--he's upset about being a demon, yeah, because the fall sounds like it sucked, and his job tortures him when he's Good or just Bad in the wrong way, and he's deeply lonely, and the love of his life has a complex about their relationship, and he's trapped in a system where he has to blindly follow one of two nearly-identical sets of bullshit morality rules or be executed. but again, he's mad at god, heaven, and hell for all of that. I'm sure he's angry at himself for all sorts of reasons often enough, because crowley is generally a pretty angry person, but he doesn't hate himself in any sort of existential "I am an unlovable monster" way.

maybe sometimes he regrets falling. maybe sometimes he thinks it would be easier if he never did. maybe sometimes he hates his fucking line manager and wishes he could do any other job for a while. but no part of crowley thinks that he is any worse of a person after the fall, or any less worthy of aziraphale's company. he just thinks aziraphale thinks that, because of the amount of times aziraphale has told him so.

#good omens #good omens meta

[olwendylluan]

😍

[The One who Hung the Stars] . . .

[+ Bonus Simple Render]

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[olwendylluan]

dying

Not the right person to ask, Mr Brown...

Incorrect Good Omens Quotes Masterpost Part 1 : here

Incorrect Good Omens Quotes Masterpost Part 2 : here

#good omens #incorrect good omens quotes

[olwendylluan]

they shouldn’t have made good omens more interesting than work if they wanted me to do my job

[olwendylluan]

Day 221 of posting Good Omens memes Everyday until Season 3

[olwendylluan]

This is so funny. It's been 7 months since The season 2 of Good Omens. Absolutely nothing Good Omens related happened in particular. And yet, for literally NO REASON it's n°2 of the trend Tumblr over stuffs like Dune 2.

I love this fandom

[olwendylluan]

The Starmaker

tumblr crashed three times while i was trying to upload this lol

hiii :) @bearthewhipsandscornsoftime @fearandhatred @ghostsparrow @seven-stars-in-his-palm @ficreader500 @foolishlovers @sabotage-on-mercury @crowleys-curl @crowleybrekkers @eybefioro @notagoodlad @lickthecowhappy @di-42 @goodoldfashionednightingale @spookyllamatree @wanderer-main @ineffabildaddy

#good omens #crowley #poetry

[olwendylluan]

go away aziraphale : (

#good omens #good omens s2 #good omens fanart

[olwendylluan]

Best Friends

The Ace Omens discord put together prompts for aro week. This is my fic for the first one, "Best Friends".

“Why did you do that?” Aziraphale asked as they walked away from the restaurant together.

“Why’d I do what?”

“Get the bill. It was my turn to pay.”

“Oh,” Crowley said. “Was it? I must’ve forgotten.”

“You never forget anything,” Aziraphale said, but his tone was no longer confused. It was understanding.

~

“Why did you do that?” Crowley blurted out, then wished he hadn’t. It wasn’t too late for Aziraphale to throw him right back into the line of fire, after all.

“Why-” Aziraphale seemed perplexed for a moment. “Well. I am an angel. I can’t exactly let any fool get himself shot unnecessarily.”

“It’s a war, angel,” Crowley said, with less sarcasm than he had tried for.

“Oh is it?” Aziraphale replied, and his tone was positively dripping with the sarcasm Crowley’s had lacked. “I hadn’t noticed. Come here, you’re bleeding.”

“Only a little,” Crowley said, but he obliged.

~

“Why did you do that?” Aziraphale demanded, his eyes sparkling with suppressed mirth.

“Chaos,” Crowley answered. “Obviously.”

“Oh yes, chaos,” Aziraphale agreed. “That’s why you did it in front of the children who desperately needed some amusement.”

“Yep,” Crowley said. “Corrupting the youth.”

“Giving them a laugh, more like.”

“Mhm,” Crowley agreed, but it wasn’t the children’s laughing faces he was looking at. It was the sparkle in Aziraphale’s eyes.

~

“Why did you do that?” Crowley asked, baffled.

“Do what?”

“Make the text on that menu so much bigger.”

“Oh, that.” Aziraphale laughed, a bit awkwardly. “The design was all wrong. The text was too small for the card.”

From his brief stint in graphic design, Crowley was fairly sure the text had been a perfectly approved size for the card. But still, the change had made it so much easier for him to read that it really wasn’t worth arguing.

~

“Why- why did you do that?” Aziraphale asked blearily.

“Put away your books?”

“Yes.” Aziraphale yawned. “You think my organization is fussy.”

“And so it is,” Crowley agreed.

“Well then?”

Crowley shrugged. “Those kids earlier messed it all up. Couldn’t let that slide.”

“You like chaos.”

“Yes, well.” Crowley peered at the books. “You like order. That’s enough.”

“Enough to fix the books?”

“Mhm. And-”

“And?”

“And you’re my best friend.” Crowley turned his gaze down to Aziraphale’s softly smiling face. “Best friends deserve their books organized, angel.”

#soft omens #good omens

[olwendylluan]

sugar, i’ve developed a taste for you

reference

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[olwendylluan]

they got too popular unfortunately

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[olwendylluan]

The only two times we saw Crowley kissing something/someone was when he was losing them

#good omens #EXCUSE ME

[olwendylluan]

Mr. Fell and Mr. Anthony J Crowley being silly 😌

#good omens #good omens fanart

[olwendylluan]

Crowley after the church bombing: Angel, you absolute idiot. You could have been shot.

#good omens

[olwendylluan]

"Crowley wants to be a house husband." "Crowley wants to be a house wife." Nope.

Crowley wants to be a house cat. He just wants to lie in the sun and knock your water glass off the desk.

#good omens

[olwendylluan]

The War Ahead

There's no our side... not anymore.

I really worked a month on this just for the gimmick and then forgot to post it uh.

#good omens fanart

[olwendylluan]

gets in charge of the bookshop for 1 (one) day: shows up in a cardigan vest and metal sleeve garters, keeps the shop CLOSED, avoids selling a single book... iconic, truly did THE MOST, 10/10 😩👌🏻

(also, the way he was this 🤏🏻 close to finally achieving the status of house husband he's been dreaming about for MILLENIA just to have the rug pulled out from under him last minute... truly DEVASTATING 😩 my girl really can't catch a break 🤧)

#good omens #good omens series 2