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I want everybody die the way I’m feeling

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Gotta be top 5 worst ways to wake up. It feel like last summer but shit changed I can feel it. I always choose her but she’s not gonna always choose you, y’all ain’t twin flames dickhead & u def aint soulmates. You’re the dickhead with the attachment issue to ur ex cause da more people u talk to the more numb u realize are & that’s the last time u felt something. & now u being ignored the one thing that gets to you everytime but ur not chasing her this time cause you know it’s different. Last time we had a conversation Agree’d were never on the same page, i was hesitant, became distant cause I’m scared but idk why i wouldn’t be scared. Didn’t want a relationship with me before got invested got my feelings hurt, last time other way around cause yes i fear commitment, can’t handle affection now whatever & i knew i wasn’t ready so why would i waste anybody’s time. Okay i text now i don’t expect nothing to big of it cause i know her you got options, i got options too. Bitches tryna fly me out & I’m choosing you cause under all the money, the looks & superficial shit it was always you. I always choose u because i had da best bond with you & i know we will never speak again in our life cause if i don’t take first steps it’ll never happen. No matter how much i think about u everyday, no matter how much i speak good on you, no matter how much i love you, no matter how much i beat myself up bout shit I’ve done, no matter how much i grow we’ll never speak again cause it’s the end of our chapter & that’s fine but i never expected us to end like this. I always thought it would be you & yes everyone has there version of our story. People thought of us as amazing but we know it wasn’t dips & dabbles. It was infuriating sometimes, verbally abusive, felt like you literally hated me while being with me no matter what i tried to do. Do i speak on that ? No. When i look at you do i remember the bad things ? No. Getting out the relationship made me realize that as much as im the numb one i wasn’t in the relationship. I was literally the emotional one & the chaser with an emotionally unavailable girl 100% pretty sure was depressed. I can’t cure anybody’s depression & i don’t see anybody trying to help me with mine but i tried my best to help. If I dealt with you depressed why the fuck don’t i deserve happy you 😭. I mean i don’t deserve anything, I’m not obligated to anything but why the fuck you gonna go give yourself to niggas who never fucked with you at your lowest. Niggas aint deal with the overthinking, the mood swings, the numbness, the ghosting, none of that shit but that’s what niggas gonna get Now cause what ? We free now like that doesn’t make sense. I grew & you were the first person I thought to pursue & text & that’s what i did. When you grow & do allat u aint thinking bout me, not the one who would make themselves available to u 25/8 but you gonna go fuck with randoms. I believed in you no matter what, oh ya ugliest days i still thought u were the most beautiful person ever but knowing you you’ll only remember the bad parts when they think about you cause that’s all that sticks. I did wrong, i never deny but i also grew significantly. I put in effort i said imma be better & i did get better i just ran into somebody who no longer gave a fuck & that’s life. I loved you with everything in me when i ain’t never even been loved correctly, cheated on my whole first relationship, greased right after, you tell people i cheated on you which is weird as hell cause i never did. Why i speak good on you & that’s what u tell people. & i pray to god them niggas treat you good cause i was never your type. We should’ve never been together & i deserve somebody who will choose me cause u never will. & i pray them niggas you choosing don’t grease you cause you gonna cry alone. I’m not checking for you, not nothing I’m done with you. Cause you hurt my feelings time after time & you the only person who can do this & i tell you straight up how I’m feeling, how I’m this, how I’m that & it’s funny cause the first time i texted you i wanted to know

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itches don’t like eye contact enough for me

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Peyton is literally the overrated blonde everybody chooses, but Brooke ? She’s special. She goes through so much & hides it from people & saves everybody else & by far has had some of the best character development ever & I love her misunderstood ass. All she ever deserved was genuine love where she’s the focus from at least one person. People don’t realize that one person can just make everything so much better

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Absolutely love you Brooke Davis. You are indeed that bitch!

Brooke Davis in every ‘One Tree Hill’ season (2003–2012)

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5/10/21 ; bitches not really vibey just convenient 🤷🏾. Differentiate between want & easy availability & it clears the mind

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Month 1 -> Month 6 🥰 , they did say trust da process

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I get the most fun outta customizing this page, feel like my own personal place where nobody can judge me

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Uh oh back again, Annie taking a social media cleanse so she’s back again !

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Love you always - yung Annie

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My love 💙💙

8K CELEBRATION ⚢ FAVORITE WLW CHARACTERS (as voted by my followers)

6. HARLEY QUINN  — Call me a softie, I dare ya!

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Sleep all throughout the day to come on tumblr in the night

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Young fashionista king

h..heart glasses…….

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I keep rereading this & I’ve finally understood that in order to attract the best person or partner for me I have to be my best self. I don’t know what I showed in my last relationship but that was not my best self. I showed my ass big time & im disgusted with myself. I lost myself by never giving myself time to heal from the previous one but now that I’ve realized my mistakes I can’t make dem again. Whoever the next person I end up with may be I’ll do everything right this time because this time I know better & I’m learning from my mistakes. My last was a beautiful soul & I would pay her back in every possible way I could cause I’ve never felt love like that b4 & even if she was to text me years from now I’d ask her to marry me off rip cause wow. Never felt this way about anybody & i was too fucked up too notice but that’s okay. Because god got me & will god me through thick & thin. I’m okay with being alone right now & being my best me & I’m so proud of me cause i used to hate & fear being alone so bad but now I’m actually thriving.

“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”

— Andrea Gibson

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After finishing its official. I 100% need something like Meliodas & Elizabeth. A Demon & Goddess. I Stan

七つの大罪 ｓｅｖｅｎ ｄｅａｄｌｙ ｓｉｎｓ

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Elizabeth: if I died how much would you miss me?

Meliodas: it’s funny how you think death can get you out of this relationship

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