I know some people don‘t like me and that‘s okay. Duh, like they matter. But what pains me is the fact that I have to be mannerly around them despite their stench of fakeness. I abhor overly religious people; the kind that constantly post bible verses, having a god quote as their cover photo on facebook (just how pathetic is that?) above all, the seemingly „goody two shoes“ who think they are better than others. Most of these people aren‘t actually who they „post“ to be.
I, for one, have a heightened sense of bullshit and weird vibes. I know when I am being talked about or disparaged. And this is why I don‘t trust anyone. This is why I am careful because some people, even if you have been good to them, are just straight up shitty.
By that I meant, they, too should be careful of me.
Depression is different for everyone. There are commonalities associated with depression and anxiety but we all still have our unique experiences within that. And communicating how we think and feel can be difficult for other people to grasp.
Most of the people who are really afflicted conceal it. You see, wounds are not something we are open about.
Some people need „Xanny“ to feel better because depression and anxiety aren‘t just a fleeting mood or a state of mind. It is a clinical disease and it‘s real.
„They just keep doing nothing. Don‘t give me a Xanny now or never.“
Some of you must not have heard of PDD (Persistent Depressive Disorder) or high functioning depression. This allows the person to be able to function mostly normally, going to work or school, performing well, keeping up with responsibilities at home, and engaging in most social activities. But internally, that person is struggling, imploding.
Sometimes I write to get the wuss out of my system, in an attempt to create something beautiful out the darkness that consumes me.
So, yeah Billie. You are missing something. You don‘t suffer from mental illness. You‘re just cashing out on it because it‘s a trend. Talk about being a sellout.
Just where do you draw the line between raising awareness and romanticizing mental illness?
I‘m a big dreamer and this ongoing poetry anthology project is my bold attempt at realizing one of my dreams. I am all of 39. I have been this and that and all other sorta things but one thing remained absolute to me, I am being my most authentic self when I’m writing poetry. My poetry is my voice. Whatever you‘re into, give it your all. Find your true north. 💜
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“If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.”
Depression is different for everyone. There are commonalities associated with depression and anxiety but we all still have our unique experiences within that. And communicating how we think and feel can be difficult for other people to grasp.
Most of the people who are really afflicted conceal it. You see, wounds are not something we are open about.
Some people need „Xanny“ to feel better because depression and anxiety aren‘t just a fleeting mood or a state of mind. It is a clinical disease and it‘s real.
„They just keep doing nothing. Don‘t give me a Xanny now or never.“
Some of you must not have heard of PDD (Persistent Depressive Disorder) or high functioning depression. This allows the person to be able to function mostly normally, going to work or school, performing well, keeping up with responsibilities at home, and engaging in most social activities. But internally, that person is struggling, imploding.
Sometimes I write to get the wuss out of my system, in an attempt to create something beautiful out the darkness that consumes me.
So, yeah Billie. You are missing something. You don‘t suffer from mental illness. You‘re just cashing out on it because it‘s a trend. Talk about being a sellout.
Just where do you draw the line between raising awareness and romanticizing mental illness?
“Romanticisation of an illness. Please get qualified help if you are not already getting it.”
This was one of the comments I got when I posted this on Allpoetry. Sometimes I hate my thoughts and when that happens, I’m glad I’m able to write them down. And writing them down meant I am fighting not to be self-destructive.