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So earlier today I came back from my psychiatrist session to help cope with my mixed features bipolar disorder & night terrors and I expected the usual “ Sleep on your side “, “ Listen to calming music before bed “ or “ Eat healthier food “ things like other psychiatrists tell me but instead she told me something different

I thought I’d share it in case it can help with anyone with these problems too!

It might be a little complicated due to me not being that fantastic at English and now this tactic works, I apologize in advance.

She told me to split stuff into two; Negative and Positive

then split those two into two of each; Active and Passive

Negative: Negative things { Sadness, Depression, Anger, etc. }

Positive: Positive things { Excitement, Mania, Happiness, etc }

Active: Action { What you do based on what you’re feeling }

Passive: Emotion { What you’re feeling }

She told me to draw the night terror that kept haunting my nightmares and appearing in hallucinations. She told me to put him in the Negative ; Active section and draw the other three things that immediately came into mind to personify Negative ; Passive, Positive ; Active and Positive ; Passive

So I did and ( For those who don’t know these characters, I’ll use them as examples )

Vendetta, is in the Positive ; Active section. Why? It is because for me, whenever I draw him I am happy. I can’t just think about him and instantly be happy, I have to draw him or roleplay as in. That counts as action.

Mahogany is in the Positive ; Passive section because I don’t need to draw her to instantly be happy. Thinking about how strong she still is after all she’s been through is enough. That counts as emotion.

Vincent is in the Negative ; Active section. He is the reason for all of this and I don’t want to think of him, at all. I want to forget about him but that doesn’t work. He keeps constantly coming back and manages to make me feel scared through nightmares and hallucinations. Counts as action.

Miss Mahogany is in the Negative ; Passive section. A lot of people expected her to be in the positive section up above but whenever I start getting sad, she comes along. It’s like she’s there to help me let it all out without drawing or doing anything. Counts as emotion.

My psychiatrist then told me to make a story with these four. I asked her how this would work and why simply trying to push them behind and forgetting them wouldn’t work. She replied; 

“ Your fear has invaded your nightmares, become a night terror and is now a hallucination when you tried to forget him. He’s becoming worst the more you push him away, so, to ward him off you do the opposite. Interact with him with new guardians you can make. “

The guardian here being Vendetta ( Positive ; Active ). -but why make the other two when you can just have Vendetta, right? I asked her that and she said;

“ Without emotion there would be no action. If you weren’t feeling anything, you wouldn’t do anything. Something must be there to trigger his presence and your night terror is not enough. “

So that is why the Passive side is necessary.

Everytime I’m sad, I will always try to make myself happy, and that counts as an action so I can move from Negative ; Passive to Positive ; Active. The actives are never the starters, the passives are. The passives are there to trigger the presence of either one of the actives. That’s why they are necessary.

In the story she asked me to make, I made it that Positive ; Passive was manipulated by Negative ; Active meanwhile Positive ; Active is in a relationship with Negative ; Passive. They’re all on the polar opposites so it works.

So if the hallucinations ever appear, he will know that there will be people there to call someone to come and stop him. 

TLDR ; Create characters and a story to try and cope with your nightmares. If it helps, when my psychiatrist told me this and I was thinking of the story on my way home, I heard that dark voice at the back of my head scream “ No “ many times and just knew he was scared.

Might sound silly, but it’s worth a try. I just have a feeling this is a fun and interesting way to cope with this.

#oh wow i know i've been talking about this exact image for YEARS with a vague memory of it #strange seeing it now #but yeah here it's a #mental illness claim

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sips tea

man this blog Was a Trip Huh

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Hey all, I know it's been a while. But I wanted to say,

Please don't forget your daily click.

And don't be afraid to donate if you can, anything helps.

Free Palestine.

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anon that asked if the blog is still around....... have you ever spoken about night terror lore..? because i've been so nostalgic recently but i can't remember any of the lore T_T

@pilot-critical has story stuff, please direct there.

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Hey all, I know it's been a while. But I wanted to say,

Please don't forget your daily click.

And don't be afraid to donate if you can, anything helps.

Free Palestine.

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This was in response to the Taizo killing Artman comic.

Such a shit human being.

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I've heard some good things about this video, and would like to promote it!

I haven't watched it myself (and don't plan to as i don't want to get deep into this stuff again) but I've heard good things about it.

#mod ven #shame this stuff gets on youtube but yknow! what can you do #Youtube

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answering the DID anon, the way rebornica would "interact" with vincent wasnt really like an alter honestly. saying this bc i used to watch their art livestreams around that time, and everytime it was more like "oh guys im seeing vincent" or saying that vincent was doing something. i remember things like them saying vincent was outside of their house, standing in the rain and that they could see him through the window and stuff like that.

conveniently vincent always showed up on stream

Yeah I remember that. When I was a fan of theirs, I watched their art streams regularly. I recall a stream where it was storming or something, or at least they were in their room. They claimed to have seen Vincent in the shadowy corner of the room they were in and broke out in tears horrified. They had friends on stream with them that they were on call with.

#mod ven

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Ok I had no idea where to put this but this was from an official board for the FNAF movie and I almost hollered out loud lmao

cred to @habitovin I screenshotted their original post from Twitter

yeah, i saw. it's actually fnafnations' art though. which makes it all the more tragic.

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This is a very random time to talk about this, but I got reminded of the rebornica purple guy hallucination fiasco, looked up stuff about it, and found this, and then saw they no longer talk about the schizophrenia but they do talk about having DID. I wanted to say that, as a person with DID, if they do have it it's genuinely very likely that their hallucination was an alter. Alters can sometimes manifest as "hallucinations" due to the way the inner world interacts with the real world and your perception, and alters can touch each other in inner world and the person fronting can get tactile hallucinations of that touch, even though it's not physically happening. Plus it makes a lot more sense with the way they interacted with Vincent, and it's very common for alters to be based off of characters, even original characters.

i can actually say without a doubt that the DID is fake. sorry.

#mod ven #the situation they claimed to have gotten the trauma that spawned their DID doesnt exist and their reasoning for it isn't legitimate either #they only claimed DID because of a few people who they considered ex-friends at the time also had DID #and they steal situations/illnesses from friends to claim as their own in order to 'fit in' #(verified from ex friends of theirs who i'm close with!)

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looks like the annual twitter roll around of this blog is happening

hi........ everyone.....

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by the way, we have a discord server. it's more of a hangout than reb/volt focused, but we have channels focused on nefskull and pilot-crit.

it's been picking up in activity and i plan to do little activity things, so if you're interested in joining, send an ask off anon and i'll give you the invite c:

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Talking abt Vens probable lies; I remember really vividly them telling the story of witnessing one of their classmates die Beacuse while they where playing football the goal fell on them and crushed their chest- idk if I’m the only one but yea lol

did you mean volt's

i've never said anything like that before

but yeah no that was a lie they've claimed that as a delusion

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Oh my god, if Mali is gonna talk about the discord servers, PLEASE mention how irresponsible the "medic" roles were. i know for sure some of them were minors too, which is extra Yikes. I unfortunately don't have many memories from their servers besides that because I was a lurker

medic is going to be discussed.

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Hey, been a long time since I've checked in on here, I swore it off when I wanted to just forget about my brief time where I interracted with Volt, but I saw the video so I thought I'd stop by. I think when I last posted here I used a pseudonym, can't remember what it was, but I am a friend of Crumpets, my name even got mentioned in the video which was kinda surreal in a way. I have my own personal grip about that, but it's petty so I really shouldn't get into it. Anyway, hope you're doing alright. - Katie

if you want something to be removed out of the video you can reach out and ask. i know many people came ahead and asked for things to be trimmed/removed.

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Hello. I've been asked to make a post clearing some things up. I'd labelled Rebornica/Volt/Mx-Bones/Skull_General/etc as a pedophile and a groomer in the past.

The way I'd worded things made it come off as if they were a child sexual abuser, which was not the case and I apologize for it coming off as such.

Rebornica/Volt had spoken with a couple minors in very risqué/sexual conversations and had sent these minors drawn NSFW, one of which Rebornica/Volt knew was a minor. The screencaps I have shown on this blog previously are the absolute worst of the matter, at least from what I can see, as well as first-hand accounts that those in question have given me/given to this blog. I believe I don't have anymore evidence than that, and if I do, I don't intend to do anymore digging.

Since the initial closing of this blog, I've changed a lot of my views and grown as a person (as one does, and my views change an awful lot as I'm constantly learning new information.) and I do believe I handled the initial situation poorly, more so due to personal bias (protecting my friends, as well as personal trauma that heightened the emotions I felt.)

I do apologize for making the initial claims seem worse than what they are and I never meant to harm anyone, only warn others of someone I thought would hurt people. I hope this clears things up.

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Ven when you can please get some rest after all this. You greatly need it, it seem like. A person can only take so much. What ever you plan on doing, whether it be locking the blog again or keeping it open please do the best thing for your mental health! We personally can't see every ask you get and some are probably really awful, but regardless you're strong for dealing with everything. I hope you're having a good day!

Hi!!! I'm doing a lot better now than I was a couple days ago. I was having a rough time around the start of the month, but it's okay now.

I appreciate the care, and I definitely will be glad to wash my hands of this again.

#mod ven