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Sort of farewell, I guess...?

I keep thinking about quitting writing. And close this phandom side of my life. I'm not good at drawing - although it was nice to try doing it with some fanarts. And perhaps the writing was I had more connection.

I keep disappearing due to life (oh yeah, I'm alive, btw), and even when I was still persistent in returning after surviving exams, bringing then continuations and new stories and all, now I have no passion about it. My motivation is lost. And I feel no attachment anymore.

For the matter, I love my ideas, and on some rare days, I still work on them further, getting closer to finishing each wip, I just... I just don't feel like I would have the right anymore to post the stories later once they're finished or something. It seems it wouldn't matter.

For a long time, my interest, my blind love of sharing my aus, kept me going and going--more than it would have been worth it--but now that stubborn addiction is not around, nowhere. And I should let it go at last.

Things happened a bit back that pushed me off my balance, disturbing my ideation of staying, so perhaps that's what still affects me; I don't know. Maybe it's rather realising I would never have a place here. And that keeping up my (past-)passion cost me a lot, took a lot of time fruitless, and I always ended up in circles of struggles. Overall, it didn't pay me back; I kept myself in denial for years about seeing that this should not feel as it feels. I refused to listen to inner whispers.

Anyway, I don't want to tell promises anymore: telling that I'd finish stories near to finish; sharing ones that I have fondly cherished for a while in the past years and longed to bring to you on a silver plate; keeping up the hope that maybe someday all of my stories would be connected and I'd tell about the secrets, about twists and turns in the background that makes them into a series of events, and everything is connected and characters have their way through the plots. Or that the 'saga' would make sense on a lucky day in the future, and some final reveals would blow in the face... but I don't see anymore this happening.

And I'm sorry. I really am.

But this is over, and I have to end it.

If, by any chance, you'd be comfortable and would like to share your thoughts or express in any other way yourself about this or tell anything you enjoyed in the past about anything I ever shared (stories, fanarts), or bring any questions you have, you can feel free to ask. I'd be flattered to see it, and I'd happily answer. <3

Until a not-foreseeable future: farewell. 👋 - Alice

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Due to several stuffs I decided I'd only take part in one event this year (and taking a break from the phandom, so it is not a phandom event). This event is organized by my local NaNo group, anonymously writing for other's prompts. I have never shared with them any of my writings. This will be the first time. Also most of them write on our native language, I chose to write a story in English. Let's just say I was anxious the entire time. Now, today the posting will start and any time in the coming month (almost every day a story) my fic will be shared and feedbacked. I'm stressed & excited. So I just wanted to say that I'm fine, and soon my only fic I'd write this year will be shared among server pals. I'll think about sharing it publicly. We will see but for a while I'll keep my distance. Thanks for reading this! ^^

#prior tags #happy 30th <3

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For an unknown time, I'm leaving the phandom. I have a story to finish, so that for sure I'll finish, sooner or later (one written for Ecto-Implosion, but I remained without a pair, so I don't know why I even bother to care to finish and edit it with my beta), but over that, forget me. I have no idea if I'll return. My ask box is always open, though; I just seriously lost my motivation - and my faith, especially given certain recent stuffs.

love ❤️

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FYI

So... I might be wrong in the conclusion but as someone who suffered a trauma that is sadly effecting me still, ages later, by occassionally making me read and seek content that are 'unappropriate' in the matter but fiction(!)... following the set up train of thought, I am one of the called out "degenarates" just because trying to survive mentally still.

well, some might call it being a broken 'victim', but you are right, I AM a degenarate

thank you for clarifying my worth <3

- a cussed childhood sexual abuse survivor

????????

sorry bout your circumstances but. I don't even know what you're trying to say here, but maybe seek therapy ?? instead of telling me how I'm wrong for not wanting to see or support content of (ffs, just let this simmer for one moment-) a grown man and a kid being depicted in "inappropriate relationships" via artwork and written content which is heavily normalized across a fandom that kids are DEFINITELY present in?? (it shouldn't be present at all, but this is worse for obvious reasons)

I don't care if you're mad about what I don't want to consume?? because it's messed up??? so stop trying to make me out to be some sort of horrible person when you just basically openly admitted you enjoy that type of content, excuse or not soo 🤷‍♂️

#danny phantom #phandom issues #every other words left my brain #i might recover... never #fiction is not reality #-maybe that what I can add but otherwise I am speechless #interact or block - not to start any debate therefore just as some fyi dropped and shared #dp #phandom #personal stuff

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

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okay, I am pissed.

a post appeared on my dash and then I made my research about it and perhaps my ask won't be answered but I at least let out my anger

yet, recalling related events induced a nice panic attack, now I am shaking like a leaf, awesome

fuck

I always forget my 'past' and how fucked up it is

TLDR I'm a degenarate

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I'm just saying that seeing a recent post made me reevaluate some thoughts... and given that yesterday I accidentally managed to edit a long-touched wip and finish a chapter in one sitting... I might join IB and finally go with the story I have saved to tell for a long time^^

(*chants* lod lod lod!!!!)

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Phandom Holiday Truce gift to @phantom-howl

Prompt: Box Ghost in a christmas hat

I hope you like it!

Special thanks to @phandomholidaytruce for hosting!

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Here's a rough Portal-Cloak animation test from a while ago that I forgot to post.

[Image ID: A GIF of Danny Phantom stepping out of a swirling black portal, looking around, and then jumping out of frame to the right. Phantom has light green skin and white firey hair. As he turns to leave, Phantom flicks his hand over his shoulder and the portal behind him turns into a black, flame-like cloak. /. End ID]

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let's start 2024 by honoring the siblings that give me life

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Invisobang 2024 Event Updates

Happy New Year! The next Invisobang is fast approaching, and we mean fast. We only have a few updates for this year to help things run more smoothly, and the biggest change is an updated schedule.

Author updates: ✩ Sign-ups have been moved up to February 14–March 15. This gives authors one more check-in before submissions. ✩ Fic outlines are now required at check-in. ✩ 60% completion plus a detailed outline of any unwritten portions is now required at check-in 6 in order for your fic to be claimed.

See the Rules and FAQ for more information on the last two points.

Check-ins updates: ✩ June 30 is a new partner check-in. Rather than a standard check-in, this is now a deadline for contacting your partner. ✩ Check-ins 7–10 now include a partner update. To help promote communication between partners, we now ask that you let us know if you and your partner have been in contact since the previous check-in.

Other updates: ✩ The server officially closes September 30. We now have a set day that the server will close for the year by. ✩ All fics will now be classified as Mini, Big, or Nova based on word count. This is just a fun new addition and doesn't come with any other changes.

The official IB 2024 announcement will come out January 15

See the updated schedule below.

Author sign-ups: February 14–March 15 Beta sign-ups: February 14–June 15

Check-ins (author only): 1: March 30 2: April 15 3: April 30 4: May 15 5: May 30 6: June 15

Artist and pinch hitter sign-ups: May 16–June 15

Draft submissions: June 17–19 Claims: June 21–23 Pairings announced: June 25

Partner check-in: June 30

Check-ins (author and artist): 7: July 15 8: July 30 9: August 15 10: August 30

Posting Week: September 1–7

Server close: September 30

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character development.

let me be happy. im weak bye

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I just think it'd be funny if, for some reason, Clockwork is talked into pretending to be Danny's family member for some school thing and is terrible at it.

Teacher- So, you are Danny’s Uncle? Clockwork- Yes Teacher- Paternal or Maternal? Clockwork- Yes. Teacher- What I meant was, are you his mother’s brother or his father’s brother? Clockwork- (pausing) I am related to Danny, yes.

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Hello... just added color to this for funsies, it's an old doodle.