my-hysterics

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I feel the worst I’ve ever felt in a long time

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I think I have too much emotional damage to deserve anything

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im always the problem lmao

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js sometimes I don’t believe some of your ages

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lmao been feeling like I’m gonna puke all day

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ngl all of u sound like alcoholics im so tired of it lmao idc

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nah ima self isolate idc

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sometimes I wonder if this was all a mistake

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I haven’t used this blog in a while but I feel like garbage and honestly I have no sense of security in my friendships lately. I feel useless. I can’t be there for people like I used to plus I’m not good at talking at all. When I try to communicate I fail. I don’t know my needs anymore. I just wish my brain worked.

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me thinks I’ll continue to ignore

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My motivation to work hard is the fact that the sound of my coworkers making idle conversation between cubicles make me wants to rip my eyeballs out of their sockets. So yeah the five year plan is get promoted to have my own OFFICE. 😌

I don’t wanna be the best engineer I wanna be the most accommodated autistic engineer without telling anyone I’m autistic and to do that I need POWER

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I really don’t know how many more times to tell people that if they aren’t going to do something I will just do it. I do not want it done at YOUR pace. I want it done at MY pace and am more than capable of doing it my damn self but I can’t do that if you don’t fucking tell me instead u just leave me high and dry to have a meltdown when I find out :)

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How to tell someone they’re falling victim to terf and radfem takes while they’re trying to be anti terf and radfem

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sometimes people have bad opinions and that is okay. sometimes people have bad opinions and that is okay. u can’t make everyone happy people are trying their best and some people will never be happy with their attempts and u cannot control that

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I’m confused and stressed now a ha ha

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Things we’ve learned today: find my doesn’t actually work at all

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I don’t think I’ll ever feel like people truly care about me.. or like enough people that it constitutes enough healthy relationships to meet minimum basic human requirements

#:’)