“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”
“Love isn’t only love, sweetheart. It’s hard work, and trust, and tears, with even a few glimpses of devastation. But at the end of each day, if you can still look at the person at your side and can’t imagine anyone else you’d rather have there, the pain, the heartache and the ups and downs of love are worth it.”
“You need people in your life that are further along than you, people that are more experienced, people that are out of your league. You need to be exposed to new levels so that you can go to new levels.”
I want to stop pretending that red flags don't exist.
I want to know what it means to love oneself.
Does anyone every feel like they truly belong in this world ? Or are well all just fighting the same battle in our own ways ?
Does their pain feel like this, too?
Is their blood rich like mine ?
I'm old enough to know that drugs and alcohol won't take this away; the pain is still there waiting when you've finally sobered up. Hurting myself doesn't make a damn difference. It won't make them love me more. It won't make them care.
Someone one said: we deserve nothing in this life.
I suppose the secret to surviving is understanding exactly that. I don't deserve to feel sad or happy or proud or anxious or anything. So I need to stop acting like I deserve anything, and I'll be OK. Losses are hard. Rejection is hard. Silence is hard. Failure is hard. But it's never going to go away. So i guess, what? Just keep swimming till I drown. =/
It's time to kill the idea that we can only grow and heal when we're uncomfortable. You heal every time you have a good conversation with someone. You heal every time you laugh. You heal every time something makes you smile genuinely. You heal every time you have fun creating something - anything. You heal every time you get so absorbed in something fun that you forget your struggles for a while. There is, in fact, lots of healing and growth to be found INSIDE your comfort zone.