mmaicagandahan

[mmaicagandahan]

Please be needy, double text, check on me, send me a random thing that reminded you of me

I need to be needed

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It's taking you a little longer because you're not lying, stealing, manipulating or selling your soul & that is okay.

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“‘You’re going to be happy’ said life ‘but first I’ll make you strong.’”

— Unknown

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[mmaicagandahan]

another year is ending and I want you to know that it is okay if you:

have not healed from the things that happened/did not happen from six months ago. just because the year is ending it does not mean your grief is too.

don't have any "fun" NYE plans to ring in the new year. this life is yours to live across days and months and years, and you can celebrate days other than the ones heavily marketed and shoved down your throat to shroud you in severe FOMO.

have no resolutions or goals for 2024 laid out in elaborate lists or shared on social media or with your friends. you are braving through this life trying to do your best every day and hold the fort and so of course you know, deep down you know what is needed from you for you going forward and of course you are going to work in that direction. good luck love.

have not become a "better" version of yourself by any of the tangible or conventional measures. that kind of bettering is mostly to serve others, not yourself.

are not happy with yourself/your life as it is now. you're a work-in-progress, remember? and if you're progressing in a direction you do not like, then it's time to change the blueprints and the strategy.

take time off social media around this time to protect your mental health and whatever little joy you have managed to keep.

don't want to spend too much time reflecting on how this past year went and doing various forms of 2023-wrapped. again, it's your life. you can also revisit this year in memories and pictures and feelings whenever you'd like. it's not like you don't still visit 2012, 2017, and 2022, right?

feel disconnected from your friends, family, lover. I know this is "ideally" a time to be celebrated with your loved ones. but life is not ideal, is it? it's just life. and if right now you are not feeling the love, the joy, or just don't have the headspace or social energy to engage , that's alright.

are finding comfort in simpler things like a TV show from the 90s or that book you first read at sixteen or that slice of strawberry cake or a random post like this you come across.

don't feel hopeful, encouraged, or excited for 2024. given everything that's happened in the last couple of years, on the macro and micro level, it's only natural for you to feel weary as well as wary. when the good things happen, when the healing happens, when things begin working in your favour over time, you will automatically feel all those things. it's okay if until then you choose to be neutral.

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#prsnl #asian #pinay #bisaya #bisdak #ggss

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Your soul knows. It will literally tell you when it's time to start a new chapter of your life. Trust it.

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Maybe my soulmate died idk

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whatever i literally dont care 😎 <- cares so much that it feels like my organs are tearing themselves apart in my chest

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"you don't have to perform around me" sweetheart i have to perform in front of myself

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I'm so ready to move and not tell nobody where I live.

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#prsnl #patama #banat #thoughts #asian #pinay #bisaya #bisdak #ggss

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The thoughts you prioritize are the architects of your day.

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Dear Self,

Your journey isn't about avoiding the storm; it's about learning to dance in the rain.

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May the love you attract feel soft, nourishing, and easy. Not traumatizing, ill-timed, or emotionally immature.