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mind-disability · 3 years

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About me

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NB (AFAB)

Lesbian but newly out, previously in a long term relationship with a AMAB

BPD (diagnosed at 24)

Autistic (diagnosed at 27)

Physical therapist but thinking of going back and studying geology/environmental science

Massive nerd

Gaming

Hiking

Road trips

Music - heavy metal, rock, indie, punk

Ask anything you like

#quiet bpd #borderline life #borderlinelife #bpd life #bpd #bpd sucks #bpdlife #borderline recovery #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd tag #bpd vent #asks #positive mental attitude #ask me anything #asd tag #actually autistic #autsim #actuallyautistic

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mind-disability · 3 years

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NonCisBPD

Hi guys, if any of you are also redditors, there is a new "non-cis +BPD" sub. Its still in its infancy but if you fit the description or think you might fit it, come and join us

#bpdlife #bpd #bpd life #borderlinelife #borderline life #borderline pd #bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd tag #bpd blog #bpd recovery

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mind-disability · 3 years

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I saw your COCSA/CSA post and I remembered a part of my childhood and looked up what child sexual abuse was and thus realized that indecent exposure *does* count as sexual abuse, as does sexual coercion. So. Technicallly, I am a COCSA/CSA victim. BUT. Because it was *only* exposure (at first), I feel it doesn't count and I feel unsure of even saying I'm a CSA/COCSA victim. But it does explain my hypersexuality as a child.

Firstly, I'm sorry this happened to you.

Secondly, your experience is valid. You do not have to prove or meet a certain level of abuse in order for it to count as abuse. It has had an impact on you. It counts.

One more time for the people in the back: you don't need to meet a certain level of abuse in order for it to count as abuse.

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Hey honey Wanted to write you, I am a CSA victim too.

How are you ?:)

I'm okay thanks. How about yourself?

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mind-disability · 3 years

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Do you overshare often? If yes, what do you do to stop it?

I had this problem since I can remember and idk what to do anymore. Fortunetly I overshare almost only when I'm drunk which isn't that often but still sucks. I really don't know how to get a better willpower for ANYTHING (srsly two days ago was the first time when already drunk me was possible to make a decision "ok I will not drink more" and I been drinking for 5 years). Sorry, this turned into a vent I'm really ashamed to tell this to anyone, even a therapist

I definitely overshare and I think its common for most people to overshare when they're drunk. I'm not sure how to stop that to be honest.

Willpower is a huge struggle for me too. I think it fits with the black and white though processes in that we must either stop drinking forever or drink all of the alcohol. No in between. Personally I find that once I've slipped up on a goal (like drinking one night when I've said I'll stop completely) I take that as total failure and go right back to drinking again. Its a wild process.

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What kind of clothing style do u wear?

I generally wear black jeans + band shirt and flannel. For shoes I wear Docs or converse. I don't tend to stray too far from that haha

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mind-disability · 3 years

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Ask me anything!

Personal, impersonal, random or other - ask me anything at all. I'm an open book until bedtime!

#bpdlife #bpd life #borderlinelife #borderline life #bpd #bpd sucks #quiet bpd #bpd splitting #borderline blog #borderline thoughts #borderline personality traits #being borderline #borderline personality disorder #asks

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BPD Life...

Thinking you're committed to therapy because you think about your sessions A LOT outside of therapy and then realizing its because you've developed an unhealthy attachment to your therapist.

#bpdlife #bpd life #borderline life #borderlinelife #borderline thoughts #borderline personality disorder #emotional disregulation #borderline blog #borderline personality traits #being borderline #bpd #bpd sucks #bpd splitting #body dysmorphia #body dysmorphic disorder #quiet bpd

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BPD Life...

When you're having a great 1 hour and you think you're cured and you'll never be sad or chaotic again

BPD: CHALLENGE ACCEPTED

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What actually is the point in life? Why do we exist? What benefit does our existence have?

And yeah, you may say "we're all part of the greater good". But what greater good? There is only a very specific set of humans who actually benefit from human existence. All our professions and career paths exist due to problems humans have/have created.

We have created this shit fuck of a mess that is now holding itself together with dollar store duct tape, and for some reason we're still meant to have reason to get out of bed in the morning??? The only valid reason to do so is to pee before promptly returning to the rest slab.

The end.

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First of all love ur blog!

Just want some advice rly. So I’ve been dating this girl whom opened up to me stating she has emotional dysregulation (another name for bpd?) n I’ve been trying to understand wt it’s like to have bpd. Wt’s the best way to show smone w bod ur there to support n understand em?

Hi! Thanks for your message. Emotional dysregulation is more of a symptom than a condition on its own, but you are correct in that people with BPD struggle with regulating emotions.

In terms of understanding what it can be like living with emotional dysregulation - there are a few different examples I use but this seems to resonate with most people.

Think of the "emotional cup". Most people's are relatively empty, small things happen throughout the day like losing your keys or someone not saying hi to you. All these things fill your cup up a bit but because you've got a decent buffer, you handle it well and go on with your life. When you have emotional dysregulation (in the context of BPD) your cup is always full. Its always a drop away from spilling over. Someone not smiling back causes your cup to overflow and you have an extreme emotional reaction. Its like living at breaking point, all the time.

I hope that's helpful!

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BPD Life...

When you question your sexuality for years and end up in a heterosexual relationship so you just assume you're bi even though the whole time you're thinking about how much you like the same sex because you're gay but you eventually convince yourself you're making it up for attention even though no one knows and then you decide that its a BPD thing and you're only feeling the way you are because you're emotionally unstable or you convince yourself the feeling, like all other feelings, will go away quickly even though its been 5 years and you continue to blame it on BPD rather than just accepting that you're gay.

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Need to vent.I have this problem that I felt miserable thru my life and one day I discovered bpd.I thought I have it so I said that to my beloved aunt and she replied"you?impossible,you don't get angry a lot"so I thought I can't have it. And now I find in articles about bpd every answer to my questions. I can't go to a psychiatrist right know (Im underage). Am I self diagnosing? Am I even allowed to say I'm borderline?She told me I don't have it and it kinda turns out I do. I'm really lost

Sorry you're having a tough time of things.

If you are underage it may be too early to have a diagnosis of BPD. More often than not, psychiatrists avoid diagnosing anyone with BPD until their early 20s. Some do diagnose people in their late teens, but rarely. The reason for this is that the patterns of behavior need to be established well into adulthood and beyond the treachery that is adolescence.

Having said all of this, it isn't impossible to have BPD as a minor and a portion of people do get diagnosed when they are young.

Its possible to have BPD traits without having the disorder/whilst being in the throws of developing the disorder.

If you find BPD content relatable- that's great and by all means interact with it.

This would definitely class as self diagnosing (not that self diagnosing is always a bad thing) but I would be hesitant about labeling yourself "borderline". Particularly given that you're a minor.

If you believe you have BPD/are developing BPD, use that information to access "self-help" via resources from people like Dr Fox. And then, when you are able to, seek support from a mental health professional.

Also worth mentioning that many psychiatrists avoiding giving someone a diagnosis of BPD even when a person evidently has it. This is because of the profound stigma that comes with such a diagnosis.

Sorry I can't be of much help to you in this instance. Regardless of diagnosis (self or professional) keep educating yourself and practice good self care when you can.

All the best and I hope things get better for you.

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mind-disability · 4 years

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REBLOG IF YOU ALSO HAVE ADHD

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mind-disability · 4 years

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BPD Life...

Guys if you could rename BPD, what would you call it?

I personally vote for: Nope. No thank you. Take it back. I don't like this. Nope. No. No deal. K thx bye.

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mind-disability · 4 years

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BPD Life...

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE MY LIFE WITH THIS GOSH DARN AWFUL DISORDER BEING ALL "BUT YOU'RE AN ABSOLUTE PIECE OF SHIT AND SHOULD MOST DEFINITELY NOT EXIST" ALL THE FUCKING TIME!?!??!?!?

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mind-disability · 4 years

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BPD Life...

Am I making progress and managing not to partake in maladaptive coping strategies or am I deeply depressed?

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