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Just a little photo dump. We went to Colorado and had a blast. I got to see snow for the first time.

#me #nature #colorado #rmnp #rocky mountains #snow #us #bf gf

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Everything I’ve gone through in life I’ve done alone. This will be no different.

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please remember that i cried a river before i burned everything to the ground

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It’s gotten so hard to continue to be positive when everything feels like shit. I don’t know what to do or who to be. I feel unfulfilled in many different aspects of my life. It’s become increasingly obvious I may never live up to any sort of potential. My heart says take the jump my brain asks me what’s the point. Trade one shitty situation for another? Why would I do that? So here I sit stuck. No direction to take, no fork in the road, no options. How am I supposed to continue like this? I don’t want to.

#me #thoughts #ramblings #if you read this #i’m fine #i’m so tired #exhausted #no choice

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Why does nobody ever choose me?

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I keep thinking about how nice it would be to just disappear..

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i feel like such a loser, i can’t do anything properly

anything i touch - i ruin it

i’m just a burden for everyone around me

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I’m fucking miserable and I have no fucking idea how to fix it cause everything feels impossible

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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

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I just want to cut all contact with everyone I know and delete everything and just disappear and i doubt they would even care anyways

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actually sleeping with someone is so nice like waking up in the middle of the night and snuggling closer or lazily giving them a kiss or just feeling their arms around you squeeze slightly even though they're in a deep sleep or handholding while you both are asleep

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I’ve been reliving our relationship through memories on Snapchat.

How sad it is that it has come to this.

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Truth is if you showed up tomorrow

As the man I wished for

As the man I wanted

As the man I needed

I wouldn’t need it anymore.