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I have to say that I love my job, I truly do. Sure it's just as a cashier at a grocery store. But it's actually really relaxed and we all joke around all day as we get stuff done. Even the customers aren't too bad. Sure there's a bad one every now and then but nothing like the horror stories I've heard about retail jobs.

What I don't love is basically being punished for being good at my job. My boss regularly tells me to "go to the cloning machine" because he wants more of me. But apparently I'm not good enough to be promoted to lead. I stayed 3 extra hours yesterday, with a stitched up hand. Then they post on the store's Facebook page today that they're looking for a Head Cashier/Front End Lead. HELLO!

My boss is always telling customers that I'll give them the best service, even over him. So it just feels like since I'm good at being on register and with the customers that's where I'm supposed to stay. He just lost 4 employees in the span of a month. He's well on his way to losing a 5th if he keeps saying one thing but doing another.

#ranting #work

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Totally not sitting here refreshing my messages like crazy hoping the guy from work checks on me. 😳

#god i need help #i feel like a high schooler again

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So the universe is apparently out to get me today. I was at work helping my boss change lightbulbs, those long fluorescent ones. When one shattered in my hand and cut me pretty good. Not only did I have to go to urgent care to get stitches, but the guy I have a crush on is the one that took me. And since he drove me he stayed there with me.

I joked that I made it to 30 without breaking a bone or needing stitches and then I come work for "you people". Honestly, I just feel stupid that it happened.

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So at work today I noticed something new about the guy I have a crush on and now he seems even hotter! 😭 Like FML I didn't need this.

#it's not even a big thing #just a tiny bit of hair on his chin that I never noticed before #but damn if it didn't do something to me

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Now that I've been off a couple days I've had time to calm down from the thing that upset me at work the other day. So I'm comfortable enough sharing what happened.

I said in another post that my job is nothing fancy. I'm a cashier at a discount grocery store. I've been there a little over a month now and haven't had a problem. Besides my issue with the new girl from my other post. My boss actually ended up giving me a small (just an extra 50 cents an hour) raise. He actually did it that I got the raise since the last pay period. So basically, in a nutshell, I got a raise after only being there 2 weeks.

So even with not being a fan of the new girl I was feeling pretty good about working there. All of that went downhill on Sunday. I was fine until the new girl came in. Anytime I see her I just kinda think "Well, there goes my good day." It was made even worse when the one manager goes over the radio that if us cashiers need a manager we can now also call up the new girl.

I was pissed to say the least. It was bad enough having someone I trained promoted above me. Especially after they were only there two weeks and I've been there over a month. But I realized that when the owner and one manager had called me into the office the week before asking about my availability, they were figuring out whether to offer me the job or not. I said I like my morning shifts because it means I'm home in PLENTY of time to watch my nephew at night. I said if I would have to be here for closing I have to leave that I can be home by 9:30. They said they would try to limit scheduling me for closing but if I would be there it wouldn't be a problem for me to leave closer to 9 than 9:30.

Once I figured that out it pissed me off even more. Because if they had been honest about why they were asking me I would have been able to work out other arrangements that I would be available to close. But they pretended it was just to make sure they had people qhen they needed them. I fully believe that if I had been able to close they would have offered me the job.

So I'm texting my mom on my break and holding back tears. Then I get home and just lose it.

I was even more upset the next day when I go in and my boss keeps saying that I'm doing such a great job. That he needs more of me and less of him. I was the only cashier for awhile so he covered registers so I could take a break. Then when I get back he tells the people he just checked out that if they had been a couple minutes longer they would have "great service." The guy said they did have good service and my boss "Yeah. But her service is way better than mine." And all day I was just thinking "Yeah right!"

He thinks all this great stuff about me but the girl under me got promoted above me and still doesn't know what she's doing. I needed a manager for something and had to tell her what to do. So she's above me and I'm still training her? WHAT THE FUCK!? Plus it seems like she does even less than she did before. She pretty much walks around all day looking busy. Plus she's still supposed to count onto a register so the cashiers have backup especially when they need to go on lunch. I said something to my boss when I had like 2 hours left and still hadn't gotten my lunch. He called her over and put her on register. When I got back she tried to say she was gonna get on a register but the other manager told her not to because he was gonna teach her some manager stuff. Which I found absolutely hilarious since she hadn't talked to him when she got there.

Then I'm done for the day and take my till and radio in to my boss. And he just goes on and on about how great I am. My till always balances perfectly. I'm reliable and always there on time. He never gets a complaint from customers or employees. I do everything with a smile and don't screw around doing it. I'm just standing there with a smile and wishing he would shut the hell up. Because all I can think is "So you won't promote me because I'm TOO good at my job?"

All the other cashiers and a few other employees keep saying they don't think she'll make it as a manager. She doesn't know enough about the store and how to do things. I personally think she'll flake out on them when they need her most.

#work #venting

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Thanks for the tag @sirowsky!

No Pressure Tags: ANYONE! Especially the people who see these all the time and never get tagged.

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I've been fighting back tears all day. I get home and they haven't stopped. I've been at my new job a little over a month now and this is the first thing to upset me enough that I'm crying. It's the first thing to upset me at all there. I'm this 🤏 close to saying screw it and quit. But I don't wanna do that over one thing even if it made me this upset.

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I just sent a long ass message to my one manager from work. Who may or may not be the one I'm kinda crushing on. Basically saying "Thanks for getting me away from my shitty home life for a few hours."

Seriously, how weird is it that I would prefer being at work to being at home? Because I was fine, smiling, and even laughing at work. I get home and I just wanna shut myself in my room so I'm not with my family. Plus after one interaction with my dad I keep crying. I stop and then think about it and start crying all over again.

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Romanticizing your own loneliness and turning it into a cool girl thing only works for like a few months and then it just becomes a throbbing black hole i think. Not that ive ever experienced anything like that

#i relate to this

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Hey everyone! I just wanted to post on here that I now have an etsy shop! Currently selling prints and stickers featuring Joel Kinnaman characters

In the near future I will also be adding Peacemaker characters, DCEsu, Marvel, & Non/Disney! Here are some examples of my products!

I currently offer two sizes of prints on glossy paper, and thr sticker sheets have minimum 6 stickers per sheet! I also offer a bundle deal on the stickers. Please give me a favourite and I appreciate you all so much!

#i'm running out of places to put all the amazing stickers people make #but i so NEED these

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sorry for saying that you’re “such an idiot” im actually “in love with you”

#*nervous laughter* #this totally is not me with a guy i work with #but it totally is

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This Sunday I'll have been at my job a month. 🤗 While I love it and the people I work with, this week has been hell so far and it's all because someone just started the other day and I already am not a fan. So I just need to vent under the cut.

I wanna start with my job is nothing fancy or anything. I work at a discount grocery store, mostly as a cashier. I have been nothing but a model employee since I started. I don't complain, I don't whine, I do whatever is asked without so much as an eyeroll. All of which the owner has thanked me on multiple times. I have great relationships with my coworkers already and all the managers love me. Simply because they can ask me to do something and I'll do it with a smile.

So a new girl started the other day and they had me training her. The second person I've trained since I started by the way. Again, I haven't even been there a month yet. So the fact that they have me training the new people when I haven't been there long should be an indicator how much they like my work. She's fine. She does the job and figured everything out very quickly. My problem is her personality and attitude towards the job. As well as the other employees.

She worked at another location of our store 6 years ago. So because of that she has a mentality that she knows everything and can do whatever she wants. Basically, she acts like a manager without being one. Honestly my biggest issue is that everything she says feels like she's talking down to me.

There was an issue the other day where someone called the store looking for a specific employee who was off. She put them on hold and asked me when he was back in. I was honest and said I didn't know. I tend not to look too much at other people's schedules. Well the owner came by right then and she asked him when the guy was back in. The owner told her to NEVER tell someone when someone is working. His explanation was because it could be a stalker. He went to handle the phone call. After he leaves she just goes "I don't believe in stalkers." WHAT!? So to kinda drive the point home that you don't tell other people someone's schedule I actually opened up about my situation. Nothing major or anything. Just that I don't have a great relationship with my father. He doesn't know I work there. But if he found out he would come in and cause trouble. All of which my boss is aware of because during my interview I said I didn't have a good home situation. I get through telling her this and she kinda just scoffs and gives me a look.

Then my other thing is they have her working with me all week. But she has to leave about an hour earlier than me to get her kids from school. I can understand this, if it was actually consistent. She was able to work well past that time on Monday. Plus after the schedule was all made and everything she says at the end of her first day that she needs to leave at 1 on one of the days to get her kids. I know our school districts around here have screwy hours but something isn't adding up here.

They just switched my shift that most days I'm in when we open and work 8 hours. They made a big deal about me having those hours to begin with because they really needed someone in at those times. All I can say is if they try switching me to closing now that they brought her on I am not taking it quietly.

I understand not wanting to get buddy buddy with people right away at a new job. But I'm pretty sure I'm the only employee she has spoken to so far. Aside from the owner and the managers when she interviewed. She clocks in, logs on a register, and then just goes off on her own. I'm fairly certain a few people have gone up and asked her name because they ended up asking me to confirm it for them at some point.

I know I could just be overreacting. Or a bunch of things are just adding up in my head so now every little thing she does just pisses me off. But I really don't think so.

#personal #rant #i've found probably the only coworker i don't like

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Long time no update. Sorry. 🤷‍♀️

Work has been going great. My boss tells me almost daily that he appreciates me and I'm doing a good job. Everyone is very nice and we're always joking around. My hours are pretty well evened out. Meaning I know which days to expect to work and what hours that day. So far I've had every Tuesday and Wednesday off. Which is great because I need to make an appointment with the dentist to get a tooth pulled. So it's nice knowing exactly which days I have.

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Omg, I NEED these!

I’ve opened a shop with some stickers and keychains/charms! I’m extremely excited to reveal them after working on the whole thing for what feels like ages. I hope you’ll take a look!

Check it out here! 

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For all the less popular writers. For the writers who don't get much attention. For the writers who have a very small following, or no following. For the writers who don't get a lot of notes or comments.

You are valid. You are brilliant. You are creating something unique and magical and all yours. No one would create it better. You are creating! You're writing! That is a magic all its own, and all yours.

You are valued, and valuable, and good enough as you are.

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So my new job is going great. The only problem, now I'm daydreaming about one of the guys from work. I don't even know why! I know nothing about him and all we do is mess with each other.

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Ok, please don't hate me when I say this.

I know my writing and posting fics is already crazy sporadic. Well it's probably going to get worse. I FINALLY got a job! It looks like they're actually giving me full time too. So I'll have to get situated to a new schedule.

I promise if you sent in a request that I did get it and am SLOWLY working on it. Can I just say, I think it's hilarious that they're all for Max Lord except the random Rick Flag one I got. Not that there's anything wrong with that. They're both on my list of characters. I just get a chuckle when I get a request and it's another Max Lord.

But I use an app that edits and updates across devices. So I can work on it on breaks at work if I'm up to it. Basically, please be patient with me. ❤❤❤

#update #keeping you in the know