maydeathwillcomefast

[maydeathwillcomefast]

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[maydeathwillcomefast]

[maydeathwillcomefast]

That feeling when you're not suicidal but would just rather not do life anymore and wouldn't mind if you suddenly stopped existing because you know life will never get easier, only harder as time passes. And I'm having trouble sitting with the thought of a long hard life especially when everyone is gone and I'm left with so many responsibilities I just don't have the strength for.

[maydeathwillcomefast]

university's bathroom... you're my favourite appointment.

blood running through my pants.

#blood #university #university's bathroom #tw self destructive behavior #tw cvts #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #tw cvtting #cvts #cry #help #dead #depressing shit #overthinker #dark #bpd stuff #angry #voices in my head #sorry for being depressing #depression #depressed #bpd

[maydeathwillcomefast]

i'm clean

bitch, your fingers bleeds almost every day because you destroy them.

bitch, your nails are at the limit because you eat them.

bitch, your knuckles are red because you bite them.

but "you're clean"

#selfharm #tw self destructive behavior #selfharn #tw cvts #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #not clean #i'm clean #clean #help #dead #depressing shit #overthinker #dark #angry #bpd stuff #voices in my head #sorry for being depressing #depression #bpd #fingers #blood #red knuckles #nails

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I'm not a cvt tipe...

I prefer the fire.

#tw cvts #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #tw burns #tw cvtting #help #dead #depressing shit #overthinker #dark #angry #bpd stuff #voices in my head #sorry for being depressing #depression #shut the fuck up #selfharm #selfharn #depressed #depressing quotes #depressiv #borderline personality problems #living with borderline #being borderline #pain

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I showered myself so i could be lovely for you.

I brushed my teeth so you could kiss me.

#shower #lovely #for you #you #cassie #help #dead #depressing shit #overthinker #dark #angry #bpd stuff #voices in my head #sorry for being depressing #depression #depressed #depressing quotes #depressiv #being borderline #borderline personality problems #borderline personality disorder #boyfriend #pain

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I chose my medicine (it's candle's wax)

#help #depressing shit #dead #overthinker #angry #dark #bpd stuff #voices in my head #sorry for being depressing #tw s3lf harm #candle #candles #candle wax #tw self destruction

[maydeathwillcomefast]

You crawle the peace

But the war in Ucraine it's not your business anymore

#crawle #peace #ucraine #help #depressing shit #dead #overthinker #bpd stuff #voices in my head #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #dark #angry #depression #depressed #sorry for being depressing #anxiety #alone #problems #being borderline #burn #actually bpd #bpd feels #living with bpd #bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #venting #vent

[maydeathwillcomefast]

my worst villain is music.

I don't know happy music.

I don't want to listen happy music.

#music #happy music #sad music #sad song #sad #sadness #everyone #help #depressing shit #dead #overthinker #bpd stuff #voices in my head #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #dark #angry #i am useless #shut the fuck up #useless #ugly #mental illness #are you okay #borderline problems #bpd problems #anxiety #alone #actually borderline #depression #sorry for being depressing

[maydeathwillcomefast]

how deep is your mask?

#mask #help #depressing shit #overthinker #bpd stuff #dead #voices in my head #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #dark #angry #tw cvts #tw cvtting #tw self destruction #tw burns #sad #depression #sorry for being depressing #depressed #anxiety #alone #actually borderline #actually bpd #borderline things #borderline problems #living with borderline #being borderline #death

[maydeathwillcomefast]

Open the wound feels like heaven

Tw fresh and old cvts

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#fresh cvts #freshcvt #cvts #tw cvts #tw cvtting #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #selfharm #selfharn #s3lfharm #help #depressing shit #overthinker #dead #bpd stuff #voices in my head #angry #dark #depression #depressed #being borderline #sorry for being depressing #borderline things #living with borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd #vent #bpd vent #vent post

[maydeathwillcomefast]

#baby cvts #fresh cvts #self h@rm #self mutalition #selfharn #tw cvts #tw cvtting #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction

[maydeathwillcomefast]

FAKE CVTS

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FAKE CVTS (maybe)

#freshcvt #help #bpd stuff #selfharm #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #styrotwt #styro #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd #borderline personality disorder #cvts #tw self destructive behavior #tw cvtting #cvtting #selfharn #sad #voices in my head #stains of blood #blood #dead #depressing shit #depression #depressed #sorry for being depressing #tw cvts

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I call it borderline

#borderline personality problems #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #bpd stuff #borderline things #being borderline #sorry for being depressing #help #depressing shit #dead #overthinker #voices in my head #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior #dark #angry #sad

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I keep looking at that clock that goes by constantly thinking that this will never end. I fell for it many times and I'll fall back many other times. Never-ending story. And I can't study for this thought.

[maydeathwillcomefast]

I would like to do it, I know I can't, I know that I wouldn't do it only for others and not for myself. I thought I had reached 15 days, I was happy, then I remembered that 2 days ago I had done it again. Now I have to start all over again. Every time I look at the scars, though, and see them disappearing, I feel lonely and melancholy. As if I had the right to do others scars so I wouldn't be alone.

#mental health #help #dead #depressing shit #dark #overthinker #quotes #angry #voices in my head #borderline problems #mental illness #pain #suicidal #sucks #suffering #survive #depressed #sorry for being depressing #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #tw s3lf harm #selfharm #selfharn #bpd problems #actually bpd #bpd feels #bpd life #bpd stuff #bpd thoughts #living with bpd