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sometimes i cannot help but wonder

if my role in your life is just a helping hand

and not the missing piece of your psyche

i feel my insecurities have corrupted our intimacy

and i have convinced myself entirely

that you do not know me like i thought you did

but you are unwell

it is a warping of the mind that makes you different

he cannot help it, i tell myself, he’s just upset

but the things you say can tear me apart

as soon as they pass your lips

and i am left to pick up my own pieces

i am too fragile for you

it’s like sandpaper against my skin when your mind betrays you

i wonder if i am eroding little by little every day

when the dust has settled

you always remind me that you love me

and that will always be enough

perhaps we’ll just erode together

-erosion

#poetry #free verse #poem #poems and poetry #original poem #my poem #poems on tumblr

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i will never be whole

there are parts of me that died in the streets

with each and every dose of poison i sold

with each and every time my fingers touched a trigger

i am not the man that my mother destined me to be

but she did not destine much for me

considering i was left to my own devices

and picked up my first cigarette

at the age of just ten

there are people i have hurt

people whose trust i have betrayed

people who have died because of my actions

but i did what i did to survive

my trauma sometimes makes it hard for me

to sit comfortably in a room

with my back towards the door

and to live without an innate distrust

for everyone around me

i will never be perfect

our lives could not be more different

we will never be a perfect match

but who says that we have to be

there are parts of me that died in my hometown

i’m just beginning to learn how to live

hopefully you’ll wait for me

-late night talks with him

#he’s a piece of my soul #poem #poetry #original poem #free verse

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true mad man

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Arthur Morgan, and his wife

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I need a minute...

#matthew gray gubler #shut up jessica #he looks so fucking good #also his necklace omg

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Currently experiencing withdrawals from Cymbalta… If anyone has any advice to deal with this that would be greatly appreciated. For sure one of the most unpleasant, horrific experiences I’ve ever had.

#cymbalta withdrawals #tw drugs #but seriously #i feel so awful #cymbalta discontinuation syndrome

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If you are in Ukraine, please stay safe.

#ukraine #russia #you are so brave

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Topamax is absolutely shit! I took it when I was growing up and even though it helped with my seizures it fucked up my physical development and hormones. I had depression at the age of 8 because of it, but I stayed on it until I was around 14 because at 8 years old, most kids don’t know what’s happening to them. To this day, my hormones are still unbalanced but luckily getting better with time. Fuck Topamax.

topamax is shit imo. it makes you depressed and gives you brain fog if you get seizures or any other neurologic dysfunction i rate it a 5/10 at best and even then on topamax when i had to wean it off because it was affecting my grades i immediately had ANOTHER seizure where i pissed myself that time. fuck topamax worst anti seizure drug ever i’ll never take it again

(though thankfully zonisamide’s much better. thank god for zonisamide, at least for me, controlling my seizures well with literally NO side effects)

#epilepsy #that’s what it was like for me anyway #helped with the seizures but fuck everything else

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crying rn since the bengals lost

#but we’ll be back #still a bengal

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#LEAVE HIM BE #HES STILL PERFECT #the witcher #jaskier #tiktok

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#let’s play: correct or incorrect quote (1/?)

#these two #the witcher #yennefer of vengerberg #jaskier

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COSTUME DESIGN IN TV & FILM

ANYA CHALOTRA as YENNEFER THE WITCHER: SEASON 1 (2019) costume design by Tim Aslam

#boobies #lol #the witcher netflix #yennefer of vengerberg

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the witcher, season two

“Love and blood. They both possess a mighty power.”

#the witcher netflix #s2 #the witcher #cirilla of cintra #geralt of rivia

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geralt is experiencing an lgbt moment

#so gay #the witcher netflix #geralt of rivia #jaskier

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HENRY CAVILL THE WITCHER | Behind of Scenes Season 2 “Monster Mash Battle”

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Pepa  (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) Inspired by this quote made by @incorrectmadrigalfamilyquotes    (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

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Kudos to fanfiction writers for writing about all the trauma and emotional and mental turmoil that the original content creators dont acknowledge when putting characters through hell