loveismypoisen

[loveismypoisen]

I ended it with him. For me, I ended it.

It’s crazy how I was instantly feeling better. I can walk away from the yelling now. Ignored being called a slut.

I have a hard time biting my tongue when he mentions you tho.

I didn’t leave him for you. You will never take me back and I know that. But he seems to think I’m going to go find you and make you take me to bed. (As if I could make you do anything.)

My feeling for you have no tie to my feeling for him. If he was a better man maybe I could have stayed. But not anymore.

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We spoke. It was brief but we had a conversation.

My heart still fluttered. I had anxiety seeing your name.

It wasn’t my choice to tell you I couldn’t talk.

I wanted to talk to you more then I should.

But I’m attempting happy. And I don’t think you’d take me again.

I think I burnt the bridge. Even if I still love you. Just keep hurting you….

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I’m dreaming of you. I don’t want to be but I am.

I don’t know why we keep ending just for me to still want you as much as I do.

I wish I could talk to you.

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I’m thinking of you again…

It’s been so long but you snuck back into my mind. I wonder how you are. Do you think of me?

I miss you…. And I’m sorry…

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I still miss you… and it fucking sucks!

Im supposed to be happy. Im supposed to be in love. But I think if you more and more. You are a poison in my mind!

I want you know that you are okay. I want you to k ow I still love you. But I don’t even know how to find you.

I miss you

#still yours #i love you #i miss you #fuck

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My love…,

I want you. I want you in the way that makes breathing hard. I want you in the way that makes my heart feel like it’s breaking. I want you in the way that consumes my every thought.

But I don’t just want your body. I want your heart and soul. I want all your love. I want all your pain. I want you in every way you come.

And you say things that make me think you want me. Mention being a stepdad, you were so good with my son. Mention coming to see me, my heart can’t function.

You own me, my love. You control all of me and I’d do anything for you. I just need some crumbs. Give me a real reason to hope as opposed to my delusions.

Do you want me? Or will you ever set my heart free?

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Being in love with you is going to kill me

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One day I’ll stop loving you and it will be the best and worst day of my life.

#i love you #one day #for you

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Every time. Every fucking time! I think I’m moving past you and then you message me. You message me and my heart flutters and I get butterflies. But it’s not enough!

I sit here and cry just wishing for more. You hold my heart and I don’t think you know just how easily you can crush it. I can’t keep playing this game.

Please let me go.

#letter to you #let me go #i love you

[loveismypoisen]

To the one I love…

I can’t do this anymore. I can’t look forward to seeing you to get nothing from it. I give you as much notice as I can and yet I’m still not a priority to you.

I’m left unsatisfied. Both my body and my heart are left wanting when you leave me.

I know life gets busy. I don’t need every second of your attention. But I want to know you care. If you cared for or missed me even a fraction of the amount I care for and miss you two hours wouldn’t be enough.

I don’t want to just be someone you see a few times a year and get a quick blowjob from. I’m getting nothing out of this relationship but a weeping heart and a confused mind.

My friend told you used to invite her over to your house in high school to play video games and it planted the seeds that you cheated on me way back when. And it hurt because even now when I’m not yours I still feel like you cheating in any way would rip my heart out.

My heart belongs to you no matter how much I try to take it back. But I’m not a doormat. I deserve more than what you are giving me. I haven’t asked for much. I just want to know you care. I just want more effort when I drive for hours to see you each and every time.

You say you love me and you’ll see me soon but when I’m up there you don’t reach out. You tell me all these things you want to do to me and it’s all talk.

I DESERVE MORE. So I’m done. I’m not making an effort any more. If you want me show me that. I’m not telling you when I’m coming up, you can see it from my social media. I’m not making you a priority.

I love you. Forever. Please don’t let this be goodbye.

#letter to you #i love you #i deserve more #prove me wrong #prove yourself #i’ll love you forever

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I just want to stop loving you. It’s been more than a week… all I asked was if this would ever go anywhere besides a hook up… I just needed to know where I stood. But it’s been over a week so I guess that’s my answer. Now if only you didn’t still own my heart.

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Why can’t I stop thinking about you? How do you infiltrate my every thought? You, my dear darling Hunter… I’m not even your unlucky prey…

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Why is my heart still breaking for you?

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I long for you to tell me you love me still. I’d even settle for a simple I miss you.

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How can you break my heart without even trying?

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It’s like you always know when I’m starting to get over you. We don’t talk for months, and I stop thinking of you come. Then you have to go and message me and now I long to talk more. Fuck you.

#i hate you #i love you #so over this

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I’m a street away from you, which never happens, and I know I shouldn’t reach out. But I want to so badly. I just want to see you and hear your voice. But I know it’ll just hurt me more after…

#thinking of you #i want to see you #why do i love you? #i miss you #random thoughts