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I hate myself for not being good enough.

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“I’ve got no self-pity and no self-respect,

I think about suicide more than I think about sex.

I guess that probably means that I’m truly sick,

I guess it probably means I’m just a bipolar prick.”

#goodbye blue Monday #the sickness the shame #depression #bipolar #bipolar prick

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Frank Turner can always pin point exactly how I feel

“Don't you ever wake up and suspect

That you were simply never cut out to be

The kind of person they expect

The person you intended to be?

And I keep it all in with my idiot grin

And I'm doing my best, but there's very little left

So cut me some slack if I crawl back into my shell

I haven't been doing so well”

#frank turner #haven’t been doing so well

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This is what’s happening with me. Felt positive yesterday for the first time in over a month and today I’m right back down again

Is being sad after having a good day normal?

Yes, in my life at least. Normal is a term that varies. What's normal to me may not be normal to someone else.

Is it normal to others to have "happiness hangovers"?

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I’m scared that people who were doing better than me are now giving up and I don’t know how much longer I can hang on.

#depression #bipolar #help #tw depressing stuff

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I’m not ok but I’m scared to tell anyone because I think people will think I’m attention seeking. I need help but I don’t know how to ask for it.

#depression #struggle #help #bipolar #sorry for being depressing

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Positive post for once because I found this amazing quote this week

“Darling, you can be whoever you want to be, so long as you are outrageous” - Phoebe Waller-Bridge’s mother

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I’ve felt like this for so long I’ve forgotten what it feels like to breath without feeling the anxiety and numbness crush my lungs. I just want to be able to take a deep breath.

#depression #anxiety #can’t breathe #depressing quotes

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Do you ever feel lonely but don’t want to talk to anybody?

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#depression

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One of the hardest things about living with depression is being okay for a while but then when you feel yourself on that downward spiral you don’t want to say you’re not fine because you were strong last week

#depression #depressing post #bipolar #struggle

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#depressing quotes #depression #down

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I like to think about the first law of thermodynamics, that no energy in the universe is created and none is destroyed. That means that every bit of energy inside us, every particle will go on to be a part of something else. Maybe live as a dragonfish, a microbe, maybe burn in a supernova ten billion years from now. And every part of us now was once a part of some other thing - a moon, a storm cloud, a mammoth.

#thermodynamics #first law

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Cadbury’s caramel cakes for my brother. Need to work on my decorating skills

#cupcakes #dairymilk #cadburys #caramel #baker #Spotify