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I started reading Golden Terrace recently, and I'm already a big fan. 🧡

#golden terrace

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I started reading Golden Terrace recently, and I'm already a big fan. 🧡

#golden terrace

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Tw: mention of cut and blood

I accidentally cut my hand pretty badly prepping dinner and now it has to be bandaged up (a lot since it's in an awkward spot and bled a lot). I couldn't do a lot tonight because of it (couldn't keep cooking, couldn't game). It's gonna make work these next couple of days difficult. I also just do not do well with seeing blood/cuts so I've felt a bit weak stomached tonight. ):

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I hate admitting when things are getting bad, physically or mentally. But I've been having terrible pain flare ups lately, and my PTSD has been difficult to manage. It's been especially hard to sleep, and it feels like I never have energy anymore. I've been taking time off here and there to rest but it's never enough. I feel so exhausted in my mind and body.

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I think I used up all of my spoons for the day just by showering. I still need to finish getting ready and prep lunch before work and I'm already exhausted. My knees, arms, and hands hurt a lot today. And I have a pretty full schedule. I'm exhausted.

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Just in case anyone else needed to hear this today-

Your health is not your fault. You didn’t do anything to “deserve” this. And you are right, it isn’t fair. You are allowed to feel upset, hurt, angry and jealous that your health, body or mind disables you.

It’s not fair, and that sucks. You are allowed to scream about that as much as you need to.

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Having a terrible flare up day in addition to a bunch of other bullshit going on and I am tired. 😭

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I am feeling very anxious today. I had a lot of nightmares last night that triggered recent traumas and now being at work feels unsafe again (which is also heightened by a recent event). It was starting to feel kinda okay, but now I'm just back in panic mode. I'm also just overall very overwhelmed at work as I have a very busy week. I'm tired and I want to go home.

#vent

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Recently I've been working on learning sign language, which has been great. But I have noticed that my fibromyalgia flare ups in my hands and arms makes signing difficult (just as it makes writing and typing difficult). I feel like my signs look a bit sloppy because it's hard to do some movements. I'm hoping this doesn't impact my learning too badly.

#asl #fibromyalgia #fibro problems

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It’s not too late to go back to something you used to enjoy. It’s not too late to try something new. It’s not too late to make changes. It’s not too late to start over.

There’s still time.

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rocky horror picture show asks what would happen if frankenstein’s creature knew its purpose from birth. it also asks “what if victor frankenstein did drag and a lot of cocaine” which is a frankly more important question

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I’ve posted it at other platforms before! But just for the purposes of of it being here, have a Grim Reaper.

#a date with death #grim reaper

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enemies to lovers but with myself

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tgcf

#tian guan ci fu #tgcf #heaven official's blessing #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian

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"I won't forget. I'll never forget you! This time, I want to accompany you until the end." 🦋 | Heaven Official’s Blessing S2 Ep12

#tian guan ci fu #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian

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I ended up leaving work after only a few hours today because I really need a mental health day. I felt like I was about to break down in my office, and having to keep smiling and chatting with other people was making me feel so much worse and I couldn't concentrate on what I had to do. Luckily I didn't have any important items on my agenda today so it seemed like a good day to take a step back. Now I'm home and going to engage in some much needed self care.