livdonna

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Help me because I am obsessed with this Poison photoset~

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💚~POISON~ 💚

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cc: i'm getting a brain scan today!

bret: to see if you have one?

cc: thanks for your concern

#cackled way too hard at this #cc deville #bret michaels #poison band #incorrect classic rock quotes

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Is it just me or do they look like a bunch of mums and their child who is to small to reach the window

#CC pls #why u gotta be so extra tho #poison #cc deville #bret michaels #rikki rockett #bobby dall

[livdonna]

Beautiful Stevie Nicks

[Rumours Tour 1977]

#stevie nicks #fleetwood mac #rhiannon #gold dust woman #white winged dove #welsh witch #witchy #witchyvibes #music #musicians #beautiful woman #black and white #1970s aesthetic #vintage #mystical #magical #wildheart #goddess #dreams unwind #rumours

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*not me casually logging back onto his account after almost a year of disappearance*

I’m ✨a l i v e ✨

#i’m back from the dead #and hopefully I’ll stay this time #but that probably won’t happen since I’m impulsive AF #late night thoughts #i’m back

[livdonna]

James Michael from Sixx:A.M. has a voice that makes me weak in the knees

okay thanks for listening

#I approve of this message

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Laid out cold, now we're both alone (part 1)

A/N: Hello, this fic is very important to me because I tried my best to give justice to such a cool idea and I hope I did a good job. Plus I don’t do multichapter ofter, so this was a challenge. I wanna thank the lovely @livdonna​ for proofreading my work, you’re literally the best <3. P.S. If you want to get tagged in the next chapters, let me know.

Summary: Nikki is dead but he can’t still cross the other side. He needs to solve some unfinished bussiness with his three band mates. What does he have to say to each of them?

Warnings: Major Character Death,Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Drug Use, Angst, Overdose.

Pairing: Nikki Sixx x Tommy Lee

He was in heaven.

That’s what it felt like when the needle slowly pushed through his skin, injecting his beloved heroin into his veins. Maybe for other people it was fucked to spend Christmas like this, shooting up somewhere he couldn’t even recognize, or even worse letting a stranger do it because he couldn’t even do it himself.

Yeah it was fucked up, but for him it was normal. Christmas had never been a happy time, he didn’t have a family to celebrate with, no one loved him, nobody cared.

There was someone who loved you.

Stupid fucking brain, he didn’t want to remember him now! He didn’t want to see Tommy’s hurt face when he disappointed him again and again, he didn’t want to watch the tears slowly dripping from his eyes… He hurt him so fucking bad, after everything Tommy did for him.

He was too fucked up for him and too cowardly to leave her. He chose her and Tommy knew it.  He ignored him because he thought it was easy, but it just hurt more… He still fucking loved him so much.

Wasn’t it ironic that heroin literally destroyed the only good thing that happened to him, yet he was still injecting it? Fucking nut case.

When the last bit of hot liquid went into his veins, he pulled the needle out of his arm,  ignoring the pain but enjoying the high immediately hitting him. It was different from all the other times… it felt stronger…

Good I don’t want to feel anything, just numb all my feelings.

All of a sudden, everything began to spin. There were people talking… He could hear something but he didn’t know what they were saying… It didn’t make sense. His ears felt stuffed up with cotton.  His heart was racing, threatening to break his rib cage.

That didn’t feel right.

Before he could speak, he felt himself falling backwards as everything turned black.

Nikki? Fuck! He’s fucking blue, call an ambulance!

“Nikki…”

Was it… no, that was impossible. It couldn’t be him, they weren’t talking anymore…

“Nikki, it’s me Tommy…”

Oh fucking great! His mind decided to torment him even during his high. So much for not thinking about him and there’s Tommy showing up! Why is he so fucking hard to forget?

Because you fucking love him.

“ You’re going to leave me Nikki…”

Now it wasn’t just his voice, he could see him right in front of him. His beautiful brown eyes… his soft curly hair… his red lips, so beautiful when they were curved in a smile…his arms full of tattoos; the ones he loved to trace every night.

“You’re leaving me Nikki…”

His expression was hurt and sad, just like when he told him those words, that night…God, he was terrified of losing Nikki but he didn’t get it, he was still there.  T-bone was just worrying too much… They all did drugs… It was just a bit of smack…

He wanted to talk, tell him how much he missed him, but words weren’t coming out, so instead Tommy stroked his cheek… it was so fucking sweet and he didn’t deserve it at all. That triggered a series of memories flashing… their first kiss…their first time…all the nights spent cuddling … their laughs.

It felt so nice, so peaceful… Tommy’s smile was his favorite thing but he wasn’t smiling now.

“I can’t lose you…”

The tears start falling from his eyes, and now all the times he hurt him come to the bassist’s mind…the fights…when he would forget dates because he was high… He almost shot his love, the screams and the insults…when he pushed him away, ruining everything.

“Fuck Tommy I’m so sorry, please I want a second chance… you deserve better but I fucking love you…I will always will… I was a fucking idiot… I love you forever…”

Tommy stood up, slowly walking away as the darkness surrounded him more and more… it was suffocating and freezing, like someone put him in a cold bath.

Pressure on his chest. Cold. Pain. Pain. Nothing.

Something was sucking all the life out of him.

“There’s nothing we can do, man… Time of death…”

Nothing felt right when he finally opened his eyes… Where the hell was he? He knew he was laying down but everything around him looked white and dusty… Wait, was it an ambulance?  But why were people talking about time of death?

Okay he must be laying on a stretcher then.  He turned his head slightly to the side and two paramedics were standing next to him.

Were they blind? Why couldn’t they see he was still here and alive? He didn’t like this.  It was fucking spooking him out.

“Hey I’m here! I’m okay, you guys…” He tried to get up but it felt like a harsh tug, it spread through his whole body.

It’s a similar sensation to when you rip a band-aid off, but instead it’s something deeper that’s being yanked.

“What the fuck…”He was so confused, but soon he looked over the paramedics and the stretcher and slowly started to freak out.

Because laying there was a very much dead Nikki Sixx.

Fuck, fuck, fuck… no no it has to be a mistake! It’s probably all a dream, I’m still high and imagining shit… that would explain everything, right? Because it can’t be possible…. I’m literally seeing my corpse, so it must mean I’m alive!

Then why can’t the paramedics see me? Why am I still laying motionless?

He slowly got closer to himself, or what he supposed was his dead body, feeling his heart shrinking at each step… He’d never looked so fucking wasted away… For months on end people had told him and he looked into the mirror, but he guessed he never saw the truth until now; he was looking at it through an outsider’s eyes: He was basically transparent, with two syringes sticking out from his chest, the ribs sticking out of his skin.

No wonder people were worried about him, he looked dead even before all of this… and that’s when it hit him :he was fucking dead! The almighty Nikki Sixx was gone.  He couldn’t come back, he couldn’t play or go on tour… He was just nothing now… just a body that will be buried.

That doesn’t explain why he was able to see all of that, wasn’t death just void? Was he a ghost? Was this his personal hell or was he still alive?

“No, you’re dead. However there’s a reason why you’re still here…”

The voice came from his head, scaring him shitless… if he wasn’t dead it probably would have given him a heart attack.  He would lie if he didn’t admit that those words hurt him a bit, he knew so many times he wanted to die or didn’t care if he did, but he guessed they were right when they say that you’ll regret it when it’s too late… if a part of him was happy that he got the weight of his miserable life off, another couldn’t help but think about all the things he liked and now had lost.

“Who are you? Why the hell are you in my head? What’s going on?!” He probably sounded way more scared than he intended to.  However, could he be blamed?

“ Think of me as your guide. You are stuck in a limbo now. Usually dead people “go to the other side” however if there is unfinished business they have to solve it.”

Oh great, even when he died he still had things to deal with! Honestly it made him a bit calmer, it was like he still got some time to “live” even if he was not living… However, what the fuck was this unfinished business that he had to take care of? There were so many people he had pissed off, he didn’t know where to start!

Oh you totally know one of them, you know the one who was so stupid to love you, only to be pushed away and left alone forever now…

Fuck Tommy… Did he hear the news? Did he know Nikki was gone? Was he okay? He needed to know, it was starting to drive him crazy, and all the possible scenarios were running through his head… what if he didn’t care at all? Or too much and did something stupid? Would he have drowned his sorrows in alcohol? Was he alone?

I’m so sorry baby, I managed to fuck up until the end…

“What unfinished business? Who are they?”

“Your band mates. All the times you thought about ending it, you always thought about talking with them, you have things to discuss I believe. They are called Mick, Vince and Tommy, right?”

Oh great, that thing could read his mind or at least his memory… it was right, he always knew he had to tell them stuff in the unfortunate event of his death… He just expected it to come way later than this moment.  He always hoped that he wasn’t going to have to tell them or at least to leave a letter explaining.

“Yeah yeah, how is Tom- how are they?” He stopped himself from saying his name, even if it was pointless because he was dead and the mysterious voice wouldn’t care, but he still felt the guilt consuming him… He hurt him too much to act like a worried boyfriend.

You weren’t so worried when you kicked him out of the house, or when you chose the drugs over him… Great way to go, Sixx.

“You can see for yourself, I’m going to take you to them, one by one. Just tell me where we should start.”

Great question, where the fuck did he start? Well, he knew where he wanted to start but he couldn’t… If he went to Tommy, he would have broken down and he probably wouldn’t end up talking with Vince and Mick. Maybe a part of him wanted to punish himself by waiting, he hurt him so why should he have the right to be a selfish prick, but was he even that? He was fucking dead, he was allowed to choose who the fuck he wanted to see…

Two of the things he cared about and he knew he had to discuss : the future of the band and Tommy’s safety, and for these two he needed his guitarist and his singer. If he went to them first it would be easier to see Tommy, right?

Yeah you fucking wish.

He took a deep breath, his mind still bouncing between all the ideas but then he made his choice.

“Mick Mars. Let’s go to Mick Mars.”

[livdonna]

Thanks so much @awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands ☺️😊☺️

1. Strangelove - Depeche Mode

2. Get Out Alive - Three Days Grace

3. Runaway - Bon Jovi

TAGS: @rocknrollsoul76 @queenofneworleans22 @cruecifymesixx @day-trippin-dreamer @punkgecko and anyone else who wants to!

🎶new tag game put your 3 favorite songs at the moment and tag 5 people 🎶

1. Women- Def Leppard

2. I Want You (She's So Heavy)- The Beatles

3. Babe I'm Gonna Leave You- Led Zeppelin

TAGGING: @1vision, @thatiloveyouso, @six-shot-heart-attack, @lets-make-it-baby, @b0hemianbarbie

[livdonna]

Y’all ever experience the absolute euphoria of listening to songs that defined your early-to-mid teens and realising you still know all the words?

[livdonna]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES MICHAEL!!! ❤️

Thank you for helping me fight my inner demons & lending your voice to others who can’t find their own ❤️

#jamesmichael #sixxam #sixx am #sixx:a.m. #happy birthday #musicians #songwriter #producer #rockandroll #hard rock #music #lifeisbeautiful #black and white #men with tattoos #tattoos #nikki sixx #dj ashba #music is my escape #music is my therapy #my man right there

[livdonna]

Motley Crue 1983 Shout At The Devil

released 26.09.1983

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Thanks pal @awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands ❤️❤️

Three Ships: tbh I don’t really ship but if I have to choose one it would probably be terrorcest (Nikki Sixx/tommy lee)

Last Song: “Enjoy The Silence” - Depeche Mode

Last Movie: I hardly ever watch movies so I have no clue 😂😂 probably “the dirt” or something lmao

Currently Watching: haven’t watched tv in a while but the last series I was into was “Schitt’s Creek” And I STILL need to finish it!!!

Currently Reading: LOL I don’t have the attention span to read (also I promise I’m not a boring person!!! 😂🙃 Does fanfiction count as reading?!?!?)

TAGGING: @punkgecko @queenofneworleans22 @80sbandsobsessed @rocknrollsoul76 @nikkisqueenofsleaze and whoever else wants to do this!

thank you @mothernatures-sons for the tag! <33

Three ships: mclennon, bonovan (or dylovan), me and john lennon

Last song: Misty by Caamp

Last movie: O Brother, Where Art Thou? and it’s a fucking FAVE :)

Currently watching: Hell’s Kitchen and MasterChef bc angry gordon ramsay is my life source

Currently reading: The Dharma Bums by Jack Kerouac

tagging: @twospiritsdancing @stewy @dusted-0negin @princesspagey @fayefaith @arthur-pem

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Thanks for the tag pal, @awrestlinggirlwholoves80sbands !!!!

Rules: List ten songs you like, each by a different artist, and tag ten people to do the same.

1) Fight For Your Rights - Motley Crue

2) Poison - Alice Cooper

3) Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac

4) Van Nuys - Sixx:AM

5) People Are People - Depeche Mode

6) Neon Angels On The Road To Ruin - The Runaways

7) Strutter - KISS

8) Somebody Put Something In My Drink - The Ramones

9) Trapped In A Box - No Doubt

10) Burn In Hell - Twisted Sister

TAGGING: @nikkisqueenofsleaze @vinylfilth @punkgecko @80sbandsobsessed @queenofneworleans22

I was tagged by @rocknrollsoul76 ♡

Rules: List ten songs you like, each by a different artist, and tag ten people to do the same.

(Don't Fear) The Reaper - Blue Öyster Cult

The Chauffeur - Duran Duran

Ashes to Ashes - David Bowie

Lonesome Town - Ricky Nelson

Thinking of a Place - The War on drugs

Hey Hey what can I do - Led Zeppelin

Dead Horse - Guns N Roses

Got some news - Izzy Stradlin

Love is a Lonely song - Paul Anka

Layla (Acoustic) - Eric Clapton

I don't think I will tag ten people but here are my tags : @pinkpatiencecreepers @illtakeitgoddammit @starstruckcreatorpastafish @caughtmeinafoodcoma @rocknrolljade no pressure to do it ♡

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🖤 Love train!! Send this to all the people who deserve love! don’t forget to spread the love! 🖤

🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️

Right back atcha sweetie!!! I love you

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Sixx A.M.

DUH

lol FUCK you’re really doin this to me aren’t you?????!!!!!! (Lmao jk you know I’ll take advantage of any excuse I have to talk about Sixx:am 🙃😂😝)

Am I a fan?: what do you think???

First song I heard by them?: Life is Beautiful (Sorry for being cliche but it’s true)

Favorite song?: YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME SCREW YOU 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️😂😂😂 all of them?? Okay I’ll stop being dramatic.... I have “Tomorrow” tattooed on my fuckin’ forearm so that’s ONE of them. (Only ONE though... O N E)

Favorite album?: I’m struggling so much with these questions I’m pathetic 😂🙃 but I really am having so much difficulty rn... There’s a particular interview of the guys answering questions about their favorite songs off of each record and they couldn’t decide (and that’s basically me right now).... sorry you didn’t ask for a ramble but alas you’re getting one. OKAY dude don’t make me answer this, I physically CANNOT—-

Favorite music video?: they legit only have like 4 or 5 music videos with THEM in it... so there’s not much to choose from here, but I guess probably “we will not go quietly”... I love the live footage they used for that one... (and fun fact: that video WAS filmed live during one of their shows on the 2016 tour 😝 — HMU for more facts yo)

Have any merch?: y e s .......

Seen them live?: FUCK NO I WISH & I cry myself to sleep every day because I have yet to meet my dudes and collapse right in front of them from shock 😭😂 (LoL shut me up now, would ya??)

Favorite member?: I think you can answer this one for yourself 😂

(I love you thanks for reading this whole shit show)

#band ask #ask game #sixxam #sixx am