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John Lennon and Robert Fraser preparing John’s ‘You Are Here’ exhibit, 1968

#I need him

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#that fucking smirk!!! #literally 😏 #love them lol

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Imagining poor little Johnny getting overstimulated while he’s trying out baby stuff for the first time. The paci in his mouth, the diaper, daddy kissing his neck and petting him, maybe he’d have a meltdown even :(( Ugh the image is too cute

Ohh, the poor little baby! 🥺 It can be an overwhelming experience, especially the first time. A boy like Johnny, who had to grow up fast and has only let himself dream about being babied like this, it might be all too much at first. He’d get so tongue-tied and flustered, trying to talk around his paci but it’s just garbled nonsense. He’s so humiliated but so turned-on, and he loves Paul for doing this to him, but he hates him too because now he has to actually admit how much he loves being a little baby for his best friend. He’d start to cry and poor Paul would feel so bad because he thinks he’s gone too far, but John just crawls into Daddy’s lap and clings to him as he sobs. Paul would stroke his hair and sing lullabies until John’s finally calmed down and at that point, all Johnny wants is to be a little baby. 🥰

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Christ, my libido is practically non-existent these days. There’s only a few days a month where I’m properly horny. I’ve wanted to get off for like a week but I always go to bed too late and usually I’m not turned on at all. It’s a weird feeling, wanting to get off but not being horny. Idk if it’s because of any one of my medications, or because of my allergies, or even just from getting older. I used to be horny all the fucking time, like from age 12 to 25 I was ridiculously horny, and even after that I’d still jerk off at least a couple times a week. Now it’s just once a week, if that. I don’t even know if it’s a problem, is it a problem? It’s not like it’s changed my sex life at all, but it’s probably made me more apathetic to finding a partner than I already was. It probably doesn’t help with writing smut either lol. It sucks, I want to be writing and posting about John and Paul and everyone else I love thinking about fucking and humiliating John, but nothing gets me going. I want to have a fantasy about John and Jim McCartney but nothing is happening. I just wish I could get a full body computer scan to find all the bugs to fix inside me. 😓

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Made this for u 💝

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Always the writer, never the reader.

#me lol

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Have you ever tried character.Ai? I think you would love it. You can ‘build’ your own bots to talk to and train them and it can get VERY detailed for things like messing. There is sadly a filter but it doesn’t recognise kinks like abdl as sexual so I’ve been going ham using it to roleplay

I’ve never tried it! I feel like I wouldn’t even know where to start lol. I just visited character.ai and found some for John, and I didn’t even know what to say. 😅 I’ve also got this irrational paranoia that it’s a real person talking to me as I’m saying all these dirty things lmao. It’s fine if it’s one of you guys, but I don’t want to be sharing my naughtiest fantasies with some rando! 😂

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Thinking about Johnny wearing his white pants and not realizing that his baby diapers are completely visible. Everyone is staring and giggling and he can’t figure out why. 😳

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John Lennon during the recording of the From Us To You radio show at the BBC Paris Studio in London, England | 17 July 1964 © David Magnus

#love those white pants 😏

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happy late birthday ❤️❤️ i hope it was good, or at least decent : )

Thank you sweetheart! It was all right, nothing special. I may not have had anything fun to do, but at least I’m getting taking two days off for a long weekend just to relax. 💖

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One of the hardest parts of writing gay anything is that they (often) use the same pronouns. Balancing names and pronouns so that I'm not overusing either of them is maybe THE hardest part of writing for me, because if you use 'he' too many times in a row you'll lose track of who's doing what, but too many names is repetitive and awkward to read!

#it’s so true

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♡the beatles♡

little mood booster, hahah♡

#oh i love him so much #I hope I dream about him tonight #little birthday gift to me

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I just finished the Mal Evans biography and oh man, it was so good. It really filled me with a lot of love for the big guy, and I had a lot already. It does sting to see all of his transgressions against his family and his behavior towards young women laid out like that though. It was definitely a different time, and I wouldn’t say that Mal was worse than any of the Beatles themselves, or the rest of their entourage or contemporaries. I think just shows how insidious and widespread that way of thinking was, that women were there for the taking and that it was all right to have a wife at home with the kids while they partied with all the women they wanted.

It just breaks my heart that Mal loved the boys so so much, but they only seemed to care about him on their own terms. Everyone described him as cheerful and a big teddy bear, but his diaries really show his desire for belonging, and how lonely he really felt inside. He seemed to desperately want fame, but I think he really just wanted to be a part of the group. I hate how much I can relate to him in that way… it never feels like anyone ever truly knows me or loves me. It wouldn’t surprise me if he was on the spectrum as well, he gives me that feeling. I tend to hide most of my sadness around people too.

It also wouldn’t surprise me if Mal was attracted to the boys, and couldn’t really process it as such. Like, I get being devoted to people, but if they made me haul their crap, bring them snacks, get paid shit wages, I’m neglecting my family for these people, and they’re yelling at me or putting me down?? I don’t care how much I love somebody, I’m out of there. God, he would have benefited so much from mental health professionals, it truly hurts to think about. He could have lived another 50 years had he found someone to talk to who could have helped him through his dark times. I hope he found peace, and knows that so many people in the decades since his death and in the decades yet to come love him.

#can’t wait to get back to writing my fic #I’m really looking forward to writing the Mal scenes #idk if I knew that he was really into swimming when I made him the pool man lmao

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Anne Mason (1958) // Stuart Sutcliffe (1960) // Helen Anderson (1958)

#these are so good! #I especially love the third one

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Thinking about a scenario where John and Paul are partying with a bunch of other musicians and celebrities, drunk and high, and John just really pissed Paul off in a big way. Paul has no inhibitions when he’s intoxicated, and he’s so embarrassed by John’s behavior that he yanks John’s pants down, pulls him over his lap and starts spanking the living daylights out of him. John is screaming and wailing, big blubbery tears rolling down his face as everyone laughs at him. I love thinking about Johnny getting embarrassed in front of other celebrities because the Beatles were in their own stratosphere of fame, watching him get humiliated like that would be unreal. He wouldn’t be cool anymore to them, they’d all look at him and see the big baby that Paul spanked. 😳

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God I need a million good bottom!Johnny fics, I’m desperate. If I had a fairy godparent, one of my first wishes would be for would be for VR machine where I can act out all of my dirty fantasies with the boys. Depending on my mood, I could play as John or Paul or just watch them… I know I’ve posted about this before but damn is that something I’d sell my soul for. It wouldn’t be just visuals either, I’m talking full physical contact. God, just imagine knowing how it would feel to be fucked by Paul as John, just incredible. I’d definitely use the machine for other things, but this is the main use lmao. I know it’s probably not going to happen in my lifetime, but it’s sure nice to think about.

#send me dirty asks/messages? #I’m bored and horny

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That Bowie worshipped Lennon is no secret. He'd banged on about it often enough. The ex-Beatle had gone to his hedonism. They'd met in Los Angeles, during John's Lost Weekend. I lunched from time to time with David in New York while working there as a music journalist, before he married Iman. He lent me his house in Mustique, to write the first draft of my first biography on Freddie Mercury.

The crazy pair went out to play, according to David, when John was on yet another break from May and far away from Yoko. They genderbender-ed about, John indulging again that 'inner fag' of his. What larks.

They later 'hooked up': 'There was a whore in the middle, and it wasn't either of us,' David smirked. 'At some point in proceedings, she left. I think it was a she. Not that we minded.' By the time they made it back to New York, the ambisextrous pair were 'lifelong friends'.

The Search for John Lennon by Lesley-Ann Jones.

#god to be a fly on that wall